wait for me to grow up

Later, when Huang Zitao thought about that birthday again, he always felt warm in his heart, as if something was flowing slowly, soaking his whole being in happiness.

He thought more than once, and said more than once, what he likes most is when twelve people are together.Standing beside those people stupidly, he will not be afraid even if the road ahead is rough, because there will always be someone by his side.

That birthday party with fans, no matter how long it takes, the most impressive thing when I think about it should be when the K team came out pushing the cake. At that moment, to put it mildly, I could feel my heart The drumbeat, feeling the tears trembling in the eye sockets but unwilling to fall easily.

Later Huang Zitao said on the show that at that moment, his heart seemed to be broken.

Although the expression is a bit weird, it is really the feeling of wrapping the heart tightly and then kneading it that cannot be described in words.It may be that the emotion is about to overflow, but he can feel the pain slightly, an indescribable feeling.Probably after experiencing a low ebb, and then looking up, there are still so many people who are willing to guard themselves.Mixed with moving gratification, Huang Zitao forgot a lot of pain in his heart that day.

Whether it’s Junmyeon’s smile, Sehun’s coquettishness, or Kim Jong-in’s slightly dissatisfied questioning why he didn’t mention himself in China...

Huang Zitao was a little surprised, he didn't expect that when Team K was also very busy, Zhong Ren would deliberately read all their interviews.He opened his mouth and couldn't speak, but Jin Zhongren was relieved to see him like this, and said to him with his eyes bent, "We should do better."

If we say that Huang Zitao, who just came to Korea, has a nascent ignorance, and because of just a help, he will stick to others wholeheartedly, like a drowning man who found driftwood.Then, he who has experienced a blunt psychological injury is now like a reborn phoenix, after experiencing wind and rain, he knows who can really bring light to himself.If the family is the lighthouse, then there is also an irreplaceable shining star on the road ahead.

Who is his morning star?

Thinking of this, Huang Zitao looked at Wu Shixun who was sleeping next to him, and smiled slightly.

Team K must have a very busy schedule, but because they were afraid they would be bored, they took some time to go shopping with them. In the end, it was the manager's brother who drove them back.Sitting in the car, shaking slightly, Wu Shixun was like a chicken pecking at the rice at first, but then he probably couldn't hold it anymore, and he slammed his head firmly on Tao's shoulder.

Huang Zitao slightly turned his body to make Shixun feel more comfortable, then turned his head to look at Shixun with his eyes closed, his drooping eyelashes cast a shadow, his skin was fine and fair, like fine jade.

In fact... at this moment, there is a very harmonious atmosphere.

This is probably companionship.

Sometimes two people can not say anything or even look at each other when they are together. They just do their own things in the same space, as if there is no one else around.But I know, you're here, and that's fine.

Just like now, Sehun, he doesn’t offer all kinds of gentle consolation and enlightenment like Brother Yixing, nor does he use jokes and fights to make himself forget his troubles like Lu Han. On the contrary, the simple company of Sehun Wu is more suitable for... Own.

Huang Zitao looked at the sleeping Wu Shixun and smiled slightly.

Previously, he went to Indonesia to gather with Team K with a smile that he couldn’t even pretend to be. In order to be a performer at the senior SJ concert, Sehun greeted him without saying anything, as if he was still the same Huang Zitao who just parted with them yesterday. Shoulder to shoulder, laughing and feasting.

In contrast, the eyes of Jun Mian and Baek Hyun are too fierce to be ignored.

It is not wise to avoid any moment of getting close to Wu Yifan, Huang Zitao secretly warned himself that it would be fine if he didn't rely on anyone.I can't tell if I'm angry or not, and it's none of Wu Yifan's business, but I still can't be so calm.Maybe he's still young, Huang Zitao thought, he also knows how to be smart, tactful and sophisticated, but he can't do it!It's like knowing that picky eaters are not good, but subconsciously accepting chopsticks when you meet someone you don't like.

Huang Zitao didn't know if he was considered awkward, but for things that made him feel uncomfortable, even if he forced himself, there was nothing he could do.

When I went to the hotel that day, Jin Zhongren was by my side, not far away, didn't speak, just walked quietly.

It wasn't until Zhong Ren had to leave separately because they were not in the same room that Zhong Ren said in a low voice, "Have a good sleep."

Huang Zitao suddenly looked up at him, but he turned and left naturally, as if the words just now were not meant for him.Tao froze in place for a moment, then slowly put on a smile, and said a firm "hmm" to Zhong Ren's back.

"What are you doing, Huang Taozi? If you don't come here again, I won't want you!"

"Xiao Lu, you have been too unvirtuous recently~"

"Mo? Virtuous??? Are you sure that word can be used to describe me?" A certain deer rolled his eyes arrogantly and walked into the room, closing the door behind him. Just shut it out.

"I said Xiaolu, let me take a good look at you, you are really sick."

Following the exaggerated posture of a certain panda pounced forward, the children watching the play behind them all had black lines...

"Brother Junmian, don't those two have a different painting style from ours?" Park Chanyeol bared his big white teeth, staring at the slowly closing door suspiciously.Although he tried his best to stop himself, but why are all kinds of brain-filling idol dramas swollen?The key is that the two protagonists who have just entered the same room, brought into love and kill each other, have no sense of disharmony at all!Park Chanyeol closes his eyes and makes a tragic gesture, so he won't say who is the charming and arrogant heroine in his mind, Brother Lu will kill him ≥﹏≤～

At night, Huang Zitao originally wanted to go to bed early, but as soon as he made this plan, the phone rang cheerfully.

On the other end of the phone, Wu Shixun counted the beeps, and at the fifth beep, a certain panda's unobtrusive voice came, "Hello?"

"have you slept?"

"not yet."

"I want to go out for a while."

"...wait for me for 5 minutes."

Huang Zitao got up suddenly and changed his clothes, which made Lu Han on the side stunned.

"What are you going to do?"

"...Well, take a stroll."

"..."

Huang Zitao went straight out of the hotel after wooing Lu Han who obviously had disbelief written all over his face.

There is an outdoor swimming pool behind the hotel, and Shixun made an appointment with himself here.Huang Zitao hesitated for a moment, then took all the depression into his heart, tried his best to squeeze out a smile and wanted to face Wu Shixun.

In the end, what he saw was Wu Shixun with his back turned to him, facing the sparkling water surface, who was even thinner under the halo cast by the silver moonlight.Huang Zitao couldn't help but stop and stare at the person in the painting, as if he will be blown away or sink into the water in the next second... There is something indescribably tragic and beautiful.

I don’t know if it’s because of induction, but Wu Shixun was concentrating on looking at the reflection of the moon in the water, but suddenly he turned his head, and the person facing him under the moon had a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes, and his eyes moved like flowing crystals.

"Why don't you talk?"

"...No, I just arrived."

Wu Shixun suddenly felt that Huang Zitao just looked at him with a smile that was not a smile. There was no one but them, and the whole world was quiet. This moment...is so beautiful.

Suddenly feel happy, and then suddenly feel that I am funny, it is too easy to be satisfied.Shixun sniffed, and stretched out his hand toward Tao, "Come here, I have something to tell you."

"Ah."

After being silent for a long time, suppressing his grievances for so many days and not letting anyone see his scars, Huang Zitao really felt extremely tired from the bottom of his heart.But at the moment when Shixun stretched out his hand towards him, he suddenly felt less tired, as if he could breathe a sigh of relief.This feeling is wonderful and beautiful.Maybe... it's Sehun's expression that is still coquettish and domineering as always.Maybe... I really persisted for too long and couldn't help but want to find someone to bear it together.No matter what kind it was, he let go of all the hard parts like throwing away his armor, and meekly spread out the soft parts for the other party to see.

Huang Zitao squinted his eyes and looked at Wu Shixun. Wu Shixun was extremely serious at first, as if he had something important to announce.However, Tao, who is like a cat, suddenly softened from the bottom of his bones, and turned into a smiling expression, "Yellow Zhitao, you don't know, we are tired from activities~" complaining coquettishly, Wu Shixun is obviously not shorter than Tao How much, but it gave Tao an absolute sense of looking down, as if that guy was so weak.

"I'm tired too!"

"Tired?"

"...Well, tired."

"Then let's take a break tonight, and we will persevere tomorrow...tomorrow."

"..."

So, that guy Wu Shixun acted like a baby, did he just let himself say "tired"?

Huang Zitao looked at him straight, then smiled knowingly.

"Understood, tonight... let's take a rest. It's not the Huang Zitao and Wu Shixun who have been insisting on it, but our own Huang Zhitao and Wu Shixin."

Under the moonlight, Huang Zitao's eyelashes covered the brilliance in Peach Blossom's eyes, and what flowed inside seemed to be clearer than the water next to him.That is the purest strength of that panda, shining brightly.Shixun thought for a long time whether he should comfort him when he met again, and whether he should tell his love, but when they met face to face, because of the haggardness of that person, he would still put all his thoughts back.

Can't bear to ask, can't bear to make him think again.So it's good to be able to stay together quietly for a while, at least at this time, Tao is not so heavy.

Now, like this, it's good~

Huang Zitao didn't understand what the inexplicable smile that climbed up to the corner of Shixun's mouth represented, but he also smiled, carefree, as if they were still trainees, thinking about nothing, every day was full of sweat and laughter.

"Wu Shixin..."

"...Actually, I didn't have the nerve to say it at first, don't you think that name is childish?"

"Oh, so childish." A certain panda agreed.

"Then what should we do?" What our young master Wu meant... Otherwise, how about we change to a taller name?

"That's childish~"

"If you want to be naive, go naive yourself, I won't go with you."

A certain panda gave him a sideways glance, thinking it was funny, "Really? From then on, I will call you Shi Xin, but you can't call me Huang Zhitao."

"..."

"Well, that's it."

Wu Shixun rolled his eyes to the sky, why is it a deal?

"That's not fair."

"Aren't you too naive?"

"That too..."

"Oh, Wu Shixin, it's really hard to take care of." A certain panda said casually, blinking its sly little eyes like a ghost.His expression made Shixun unable to say anything, so what's the matter if he feels in a good mood after being wronged?

The atmosphere of the two by the swimming pool was just right, and suddenly they started to make noise from far to near, as if someone had come over.Huang Zitao looked back, and from a distance, a group of girls who were not too old came over, and subconsciously wanted to find a place to hide.

"Sehun, let's go."

"What's the matter?" Wu Shixun pouted, "It's not like we're shameless."

"No, it looks like they are fans of seniors. It would be troublesome for them to see them. We'd better hide." After all, it's not like they are trainees now, they can wander around the streets.

Shixun was right when he thought about it, he directly pulled the paw of the panicked little panda, "Follow me." The smiling eyes were like crescent moons, and after the gentle smile, he ran wildly...

The way back was blocked by a girl, and there was a big swimming pool in front of him. Huang Zitao didn't want to challenge the hotel entrance in the middle of the night.Before finding a suitable escape route, Sehun dragged him to the side door.

"What did you do in the past, the door didn't open at all, okay?" What Huang Zitao wanted to remind was completely covered up by Night Breeze, and Wu Shixun, who was pulling him to run ahead, seemed to have completely forgotten how serious the moment of escape was, the fireworks in his heart and the corners of his mouth Like her smile, it bloomed uncontrollably.

"Go in." Wu Shixun was about to push Huang Zitao in, he opened the glass door of the side door and let people in.

"But……"

"Go in, why are you standing there?" Seeing that Huang Zitao didn't move, he simply dragged him in.The glass door through the side door is the stairs for the emergency exit. Wu Shixun, who wanted to go up directly, turned around and froze, "Hmm..."

"Didn't I say it?" Tao looked at him with a smile on his lips, "There is really no way."

There is an iron gate standing on the staircase that should be unobstructed, and the locks and iron chains wrapped around it remind visitors: this road is blocked.

"Then we..."

A group of girls had already gathered by the pool and were discussing something cheerfully. Everyone had a youthful smile on their faces, which looked like a beautiful painting.

But at this moment, the two who were sitting on the stairs were not in the mood to appreciate the youthful vitality, Wu Shixun was extremely irritable, "What are they doing, are they planning to throw a party?"

"It's not bad, is it?"

"What's the matter? We'll just wait here for them to leave before we go back. Is that okay?"

"I mean the two of us, this way...is pretty good." Before Shixun let go of his hand, Tao sat directly on the stairs, facing Wu Shixun who was stunned, smiling like a child.Wu Shixun laughed so much that he immediately threw away his helmet and armor, and a big part of him softened.

Just the two of them, of course.

Tao Weiwei pulls Shixun's hand vigorously, motioning him to sit down too.So Shixun also sat next to Tao, leaning against the armrest.

"Sehun, have you ever regretted choosing this path?"

"... Regret, I am regretting now."

"what happened?"

Shixun shook his head, he couldn't say it, saying that because he likes you, he hates having to be this profession?Said that because I like you, I hate those responsibilities?Said that because I like you more than once, I can't protect you?Say... because of you, I regret this choice?

But...if it wasn't for this choice, I probably wouldn't have met you.If I honestly be a good baby and good student in Seoul, be a Seoulite with no accidents and live my life.If you stay with your parents in Qingdao peacefully, you will either inherit the family business or venture into the world by yourself.We...do we have no chance of meeting each other?

Me in Seoul, you in Qingdao, for you and me, these two places may just be places for a certain trip or business trip.And the two of us, can we see each other in the crowd?

So, again, I am grateful for the choice.

Very contradictory, isn't it?Wu Shixun looked at Huang Zitao with a smile, he knew the conflict, but he was willing to continue the conflict.

"Speak, what's wrong?" Huang Zitao poked Shixun, did this kid take the wrong medicine?Why do you always laugh so inexplicably and hair-raisingly lately?

"What's the matter, it's just that I've been exhausted recently, I regret it, I regret it very much!"

"Come on, you used to cry every day when you were practicing dancing, and then you got up early the next day and rubbed your eyes to practice, didn't you? You should get used to it now." A certain panda complained when seeing Shixun The small expression couldn't help but want to expose it, "I see, you are that type, always complaining that you are tired, and then once you are asked to rest, you will panic when you are idle!"

"I'm not..."

"It's not what? You, it's called wrong words!"

Cut, to say you are arrogant is to praise you~

Wu Shixun didn't expect that he would be easily teased by this panda. He was about to refute something when he heard the noise outside starting to shift towards them.

Immediately, Tao and Tao both fell silent, staring wide-eyed, extremely nervous.

The girls outside were probably curious about the side door and came this way after studying it.

"Hey, can I go in here too?"

"No, I heard that it is usually locked."

Listening to their conversation is really Korean.Huang Zitao asked for help with his eyes, what should I do? ? ?Wu Shixun was also taken aback, maybe he really knew them, it would be ugly if he was stuck here.He can imagine how shocking the news will be breaking out tomorrow~

"No, what sound did I hear just now~" A girl obviously had an adventurous spirit, and she kept looking inside.

Huang Zitao was so frightened that he hurriedly stood up, with an expression of "Oh, I'm about to be scared to death~".When Wu Shixun said it was too late, he jumped up and directly held the panda down, blocked him with his hands to prevent him from talking, and pressed the people straight to the wall, sticking them together as much as possible.It's not well lit here, and I hope I can't see them from the outside.But...if they come in, it will be...

A certain panda that was so frightened that it didn't dare to move, was pressed against the wall and looked pitifully at the person who didn't know how close it was with its only exposed eyes.

What to do, what to do, what to do~

how could I know?Wu Shixun rolled his eyes silently, he was also extremely nervous.But... To put it bluntly and shamelessly, this pose between him and Huang Zitao~ he likes it very much *^_^* Oh, really, what am I thinking! ?so shy~

So while Tao was afraid, he saw Shixun blushing like a fan.Blushed?Huang Zitao blinked, did this kid go to the wrong set?What the hell is blushing?Is this the time to blush really!

Blinking vigorously to try to get Shixun back to normal, Huang Zitao was about to bite him.Hello, what's the matter with you?Brace yourself, is this cranky time?On the contrary, Shixun stared at the blinking peach blossom eyes and couldn't move them in a daze. Something in the eyes gradually melted, and then some watery tenderness filled the sky.

Wait, what's with this idol drama-like atmosphere?

A certain panda who is about to be divided is about to collapse. Has that child Wu Shixin time-traveled?

"Don't go there, you can be cautious enough to panic at night."

"Yes, yes, let's go back and get up early tomorrow."

The voice of the words gradually faded away, but Wu Shixun didn't move. He could feel the heartbeat in his chest that was getting stronger and stronger every time, which shocked his mind to a blank.Looking at him, I want to hug him, I want to kiss him... It seems that I am attracted to him naturally, I can't help myself.Then, I suddenly felt another heartbeat that was different from my own, so clear in the silent night.

Wu Shixun suddenly opened his pupils wide, and he saw a suspicious red on the face of Huang Zitao who was staring at him, before his smile was in place, Tao pushed him away and glared at him unevenly, "They are all gone, You want to suffocate me!"

"You just..."

"Did you have a convulsion just now?" Panda's hair exploded as expected, and he gave Shixun a look, his small appearance was indescribably cute.

"Hey, Huang Zitao."

"What?"

"Aren't you shy?"

"...You are the one who is shy, your whole family is shy, your whole community is shy!!!"

"..."

I'm obviously shy ←_←

Pushing away Wu Shixun who was blocking him, Huang Zitao walked out angrily.Shixun quickly grabbed him, "Yeah, let's go out after they're all gone."

Under the moonlight shining through the glass door, the flushed face of a certain panda that was pulled back shone like pearls, and its pair of peach blossom eyes blinked indiscriminately. I was a little at a loss, obviously facing my younger brother, why did I act like a child who made a mistake?

Wu Shixun was standing one step higher than Huang Zitao, looking at it like this, it was as if he was holding someone into his arms.

Time seemed to pause at a certain moment, and the whole world followed in silence. Wu Shixun didn't know what was wrong with him, and when we met again, it seemed that he really couldn't control himself to stand outside the safe line, just looking at him, and would involuntarily approach him, and want to Confidential, will not be able to stop...

Probably because Shixun unconsciously increased the strength in his hand, Tao frowned, "Wu Shixun, what's wrong with you?"

"I seem to be sick." Sehun's watery eyes had an innocent expression, and he looked completely innocent when he stared at Tao.

"That... what words?"

"You made me sick." Unconsciously pulling Tao towards him, Wu Shixun's eyes gradually blurred, because there was something so profound in his eyes that people couldn't understand, Tao even forgot to struggle for a while.

Suddenly the voice of "biu~biu~" came from Tao's pocket.

"Ah, it should be Luhan's text message, we should go back."

"..."

"But what's wrong with you? Are you unwell?"

"..."

Shixun didn't answer, and Tao tried to touch the child's forehead with a helpless smile, but was stopped halfway.Once again Luhan interrupted his attack... Wu Shixun was naturally a little upset, now he grabbed Huang Zitao's hands, and then put his head on Tao's shoulder wantonly, closed his eyes, all he smelled was Huang Zitao's scent ...

"Se... Sehun?"

"It's because of you, I've become so strange because of you, yet you still innocently asked me what's wrong~" He spoke pitifully in Tao's ear, trying to express all the grievances of liking someone, but he couldn't put it into words ?

"What do you mean because of me?"

"You really don't know? You...you idiot!"

Huang Zitao heard Shixun sighing, Shixun let him go and walked out.Tao, who was stunned in place, thought for a while before following out, without asking any more questions.

Because Wu Shixun's tone just now was too serious.

Whatever it was, he didn't want the atmosphere to get too serious.So just end the conversation between them, although it might be more awkward to stop here.

Shixun walked in front, and he followed, cautiously, until the steps of the two gradually became the same~

Wu Shixun stopped suddenly, then turned his head and looked at him with burning eyes, "Wouldn't you be angry if you were a fool?"

"……what?"

"Why don't you get angry?" Shixun stood there, looking from Tao, there is a large swimming pool behind him, the bright moon is just above Shixun's head tonight, reflecting silver waves in the pool, as if the whole world is shining .And Shixun, who was in the midst of this, also seemed to be draped in light, standing there firmly.

"Why do I..." It was just a joke.

"Is that why you don't know how to protect yourself? Huang Zitao, aren't you Kung Fu Panda? Promise me, no one can hurt you!"

"..."

"No matter what, even if I'm not by your side, learn to protect yourself! That's all, just promise me this."

Wu Shixun stood there, firm and dazzling...

"Even if there are messy people who want to hurt you, learn to protect yourself, learn not to see, not to hear, not to think! I didn't want to say these things, but...you are a fool, how can I rest assured?"

Wu Shixun stood there, the persistence in his eyes was like starlight...

Huang Zitao suddenly laughed.

Facing Sehun who was full of worries, he smiled sweetly.For so many days, the most authentic, unburdened smile.The corners of a cat's mouth are raised up greatly, and the glittering spots in the eyes are not known to be tears, but it is heart-wrenching.

I have been thinking about it before, for the lighthouse that shines on me forever, those who can't stop for a moment must also strive to move forward.The strength that the family can give is always the light that is out of reach, and I am still cheering on myself here.But the star who always follows him is not like that, he is always there, always with him.

And now, that shining Oh Sehun, is he my morning star?The morning star that illuminates all the filth in the dark night and makes the dawn come quickly, as long as he looks up, he will be there, not far from him, and he will never leave.

So you, are my morning star?

You are shining bravely, just to tell me not to be afraid, but to be brave?

When Huang Zitao returned to the room, Lu Han was playing with his mobile phone on the bed, "It's so late? It's time to go to bed."

"Little deer..."

"What?" Lu Han took a benevolent look, and raised his eyebrows, "What are you doing with that kid Wu Shixun, it's in the middle of the night."

"I suddenly felt that...all the things are actually nothing."

"……what?"

Feeling that Huang Zitao's tone of voice was a little too formal, Luhan put down his phone and looked up at him, Huang Zitao's bright eyes were shining, with a smile hanging on the corner of his mouth, his whole person was different.

"Even if I thought about it clearly before, I always felt that there was something in my heart that I couldn't get through, but today I really let it go. Xiaolu, you say...we debuted and became an idol and lived like this. I will recall it after many years At this time, what kind of heart will it be?"

"...you'll feel...very childish."

Now they recall the same thing before, and feel that they were stupid to death at that time.Looking back at the present in the future, it will probably feel the same.

"Yeah, I must have felt naive at that time, because I couldn't get out of any setbacks, and I must have died of naivety! Now these seemingly extraordinary things, in the future, when I mature and grow up, I will definitely I think it’s just a funny thing that makes me laugh. But what really makes me value is not the more courageous and persistent confidence? And you, the people who can accompany me all the way to the end, are my life worth commemorating and respecting. Others Yes, what does it mean to me?"

"Tao..."

"Don't look at me like that, isn't it right for me to think?"

Lu Han shook his head, it's not wrong Tao, it just makes you think so much, you must still care, right?How hard must it be for you to be relieved after so long?Because of this, I feel distressed.

"No matter what kind of abyss I am in, the person who is willing to accompany me is my morning star, illuminating my persistence and bravery. I exist for the light after the darkness. Those darkness are just the background of my dormancy , I am determined that I can become a better version of myself, right?" Huang Zitao smiled brightly after saying these words.

The confident Huang Zitao, the bright Huang Zitao, the shining Huang Zitao all over his body.Luhan looked at him with a happy smile, why does he like Huang Zitao?Because he makes himself feel bad, he makes his heart move, and...he keeps creating miracles one after another, making himself proud~