wait for me to grow up

After realizing Huang Zitao's charm, Jin Junmian was captured immediately, and then willingly became a numb.If the initial liking was purely because of the child's innocence and obedience, then he got to know him more and more, and became more and more aware of his excellence.Almost regarded as a transfer student, when Huang Zitao came to Korea, he got an opportunity that the trainees here for many years could not get.Rumors spread everywhere, and the self at the time warned them not to talk nonsense, but couldn't help but mutter in his heart: What's so good about this kid?

After reading his information, Jin Junmian had no way to question it.

There are indeed quite a few excellent trainees in the company, but Huang Zitao's experience is not inferior, the materials are very beautiful, martial arts, music, rap... and there are eye-catching awards.A lot can be gained at a young age.

Gradually they kissed each other, and then it became clear that Tao was not only talented, but also hardworking.Huang Zitao really has a very deceptive face, a face that is completely arrogant and fierce, at first he thought it would be difficult to get close to, but his character is soft and easy to bully.He thought he was just a young master, but he didn't seem to care about suffering.Little by little, Jin Junmian realized that Tao was really mature in some aspects.He has something that he insists on, and that persistence is solid and beautiful.Behind that persistence is the same thing that I have always insisted on, the wish to accompany this group of brothers to be brilliant together.

Tao may never have told them, but he has never been less persistent in his dream than anyone else.They may have prepared more fully for their debut before, but Huang Zitao's persistent efforts with no way out made him tremble with fear when watching.In order to make an effort to debut, that child used courses and training that were much more intense than they didn't know how much more intense it was to fill it up little by little.Sometimes, I feel that Huang Zitao is still a child, but seeing how he persists, I feel puzzled, it is not something a child can afford, but if Huang Zitao is mature, he will lose them who have grown up complicated.

Probably, that's why Junmian couldn't help but like Tao.

That child has the same dreams as myself, has admirable strength, but is also full of incomparable simplicity and kindness. He is the kind of child who will smile knowingly just looking at him.

It's easy to feel sorry for such a child, whether it's his stubborn "nothing" tone, or the occasional inadvertent expression of that child standing in the center of the noisy world, with pure but isolated eyes...

It's also very easy to worry about that child. Jin Junmian smiled silly as if he was playing the role too seriously, and looked at the child sincerely and kindly (?) as a "mama", but then touched The gaze will still be the same without going through the brain, but it will become extremely soft from the heart.

Especially watching Tao grow up day by day, becoming better and stronger, such feelings can't be concealed even more.In fact... I am still a boy in his 20s~ (Yes, yes, a boy! This point must be emphasized! ≥﹏≤) But because of my younger brother who is not much younger than me, I really feel like raising a son pride...

Occasionally, I wonder, do I like this child a little too much?

He even began to pay attention to the approach of others, like a parent who is afraid that his son will make bad friends.Other children should be proud of playing well with their own children, but they will be upset if they play too well.Especially Bian Baek Hyun and Wu Yi Fan who are already obvious!Baek Hyun admits it's okay under his majesty, but Wu Yifan simply tells a lie to the end.What do you mean "brother"...don't bully me, I don't understand, who stares at his brother like an idiot all day long?It was so messed up, Junmian even started to fear that seeing Tao follow Captain M, whom he thought was an upright man, and leave like this, it would be like a sheep entering the tiger's mouth~~

Originally, I was so upset because of these messy things, Baek Hyun and Wu Yifan were messed up here, Sehun Jong In was also baffled, his debut was imminent, and the things that should be dealt with and sorted out were already piled up like a hill.Then, Luhan and Shixun came back with Tao, who was so drunk and unconscious, there was a certain aura that no one could ignore between the three of them...an instinctive aura.

Junmian caught it immediately, and then realized that it should be tidied up, and it was time to tidy up.

"Call them all back, let's have a meeting!"

"Now?" Shixun and Luhan asked in unison, both looked shocked.

"Now!"

So, half an hour later, eight of them sat neatly in the room. Jin Junmian's serious face collapsed for a long time. When he looked at the other seven blank faces, there was a momentary leak, and then he immediately returned to his original state. .

"Have they all arrived?"

"Zhong Da, Yi Xing, and Kyung Soo still have things to do, so they can't come back." Lu Han stared at Xiao Lu pitifully, and then continued, "The rest are here."

"Why did you ask us to come back?" Bai Xian raised his eyebrows. He was gathering with his friends just now. When he heard that Jun Mian asked him to come back, his heart stopped for a while. Fortunately, when he came back, he saw a large group of people. .As long as it's not a one-on-one chat, he's OK.To be honest, Byun Baekhyun has fallen into "Kim Junmian's heart-to-heart phobia" now.

"Yeah, yeah, brother, why can't you come back at night?" Park Chanyeol sat on the floor and looked up at Junmian, like a big dog.

Kim Jong-in was blown out of the practice room by Oh Se-hoon's series of fatal calls. At this moment, he didn't intend to have a serious meeting at all. He looked around lazily, and then asked Chanyeol beside him, "Where's Tao?"

"...That's right, where is Tao?" Chanlie jumped up in a frenzy, "Has Tao not come back yet?"

Lu Han grinned and pushed Chanlie down, "Okay, Tao is sleeping in the room."

"What's the matter? Going to bed so early." Minshuo blinked, his roommate is a famous night owl, it's not like him to obediently go to bed before dark today.

Jin Junmian waved his hand to make everyone quiet, "The three of them don't have to come back because they have something to do, anyway, I want everyone to participate in this conversation. What I want to talk about today is about Tao, so Tao doesn't need to participate. Also, That child should be uncomfortable if he drank too much, brother Minshuo, go and take care of him."

"Are you drinking?" Minshuo immediately stood up, muttering "Why are you drinking again..." He entered the room, then came out again, took towels and basins, several times, and then closed the door tightly.

Wu Yifan sat on the sofa in the back, looking at everything in front of him with dim eyes, wanted to ask Tao why he drank, thought for a while and still didn't say anything, then lowered his head, to be honest he didn't want to participate in this so-called "meeting".Is it about Tao?That... is not something they can decide.

Jin Junmian took a good look at the people in front of him, and then said, "Kris, Baek Hyun, Luhan, Sehun, Zhong Ren, come with me." In order not to disturb Tao, Junmian planned to set the place for the deep talk on the balcony .

Chanyeol didn't hear his name, so he quickly grabbed Brother Junmian, "Brother, what about me? What about me?"

"You..." Thinking about it carefully, there seems to be nothing wrong with this child and Tao. This time, what he wants to solve is his son's affairs~ "Forget it, do whatever you like!"

"...Brother, are you discriminating against me?"

"……Yes."

Being answered so solemnly, Park Chanyeol's eyes widened, as if he had been hurt. T_T

But now Junmian is not in the mood to comfort him, leading several people into the balcony one after another, Chanyeol looks at their backs pitifully, and then makes a decision within five seconds.Dian'er Dian'er followed behind them, was locked behind the glass door, and then gently scratched the glass.

Junmian looked back at him and sighed deeply, "What else do you want to do?"

"I don't eavesdrop, I'll watch the door for you. Really~"

There was something shining in Chanyeol’s eyes that made Jin Junmian unable to say no. It’s not a big deal after thinking about it. Everyone should understand this matter in the future. If Chanyeol is willing to listen, let him do it .

So I turned my head away from him, looked at the five people standing in a row in front of me, and cleared my throat, "I hope you all listen to what I'm going to say today. I know that the relationship between our members has always been very good. , I already knew each other very well during the practice, and there are also people who are very close. What I told you this time did not mean to stop anything. It’s just that the twelve of us will have a long time to go together in the future, so these things are still Make it clear. I know that this is a private matter, and you can choose to keep it a secret. But... I always feel that I am not just talking casually. We know each other about serious matters, so that we can discuss them in the future. Help each other out instead of tearing each other down."

Lu Han lowered his head and quickly glanced at the people present, and then recalled what Jin Junmian said just now was related to Tao.

But Shixun was a little confused about the situation, "What's the matter, brother, look at your serious look, do we mean to shake your heart?" Speaking of this, Shixun was even a little excited.

Luhan secretly poked and poked Shixun, this idiot, you have to be like a chicken at a time like this, do you understand?

Shixun obviously didn't understand the message conveyed by his deer pot, as the one who was shot in the early days.

Junmian looked at him meaningfully, "Okay, Shixun, let's start shaking with you. From the bottom of my heart~"

"I...?" Shixun was dumbfounded, "What did you say?"

"Don't talk nonsense if you don't know anything!" Zhong Ren gave him a disdainful look and then looked at Jin Junmian, "Brother, you can talk about what you want, isn't it that we need to know everything, that's good, we will Put it on the table and say it."

Jin Junmian looked at Wu Yifan who had been silent all this time, from the beginning Jin Junmian felt that this person was difficult to see through, different, different from the people he met, as if he was born with a barrier.Back when the two gangs of Chinese and Korean trainees were still divided into gangs, the two had no choice but to stand on opposite sides, but after becoming a group, they still couldn't get along with that person easily.It's not that he's a difficult person to get along with, but I always feel that no matter how hard I try, I can't reach the bottom of that person's heart.

This feeling is actually quite scary.A powerless horror.

When I was talking with Wu Yifan that day, I was thinking of spreading everything out, but Wu Yifan still insisted not to reveal a little bit of his thoughts. If it wasn't for the debut approaching, the matter must have a result, otherwise Jin Junmian could not completely Let go of having to ask the end.

He thought about how to say it in order to be more reserved, but then he thought that what Zhong Ren said was right, so he simply put it on the table and agreed. He put away even the slightest bit of relaxation, and looked completely serious. They, said to them, "About Tao... Tao, I really like Tao, I have seen too many trainees, those with good families, those with bad families, those with strength and those without strength , those who know how to be human, those who don’t know how to be human, those who are lucky, those who are not lucky... People like Tao are truly unique and unique. Because of that, there are many things in Tao that I want to protect. .I know that you have also made fun of my stage name, but seriously... Isn't it a beautiful thing to protect... Tao's simple kindness is what I want to protect, so there are some complicated relationships and feelings between you , I also want to help him stop it. You don't need to say whether I am not qualified, I think Tao chose this path, and some things are the same choice as me. Since he calls me Mama, he is my son, then I can help him make some decisions. If he doesn't know and doesn't affect him, you can tell me some things..."

After Junmian said so much, Baixian finally understood what he meant.This is a collective confession meeting.I don't know how long Jin Junmian has been talking about my liking for Huang Zitao, and I am no stranger to this kind of paternalistic obstruction.What surprised him the most was that there were so many people standing side by side with him today.

Could it be... these guys are not innocent?

An inexplicable atmosphere rushed into his mind, Bai Xian raised his head and carefully looked at the few people around him.Wu Yifan and Wu Shixun were so obvious that of course he was aware of it, but what happened to Lu Han and Kim Jong In?

Jin Zhongren didn't speak, and didn't react at all, just squinting out the window, not knowing what he was thinking.Lu Han stared at his toes nervously, as if he would jump up with a "swoosh" if his name was called the next second.

Compared with the calmness of other people, I more or less thought of it.Wu Shixun continued to be half-ignorant and Baekhyun's brain was running fast and became a little anxious. Of course, there was also Chanyeol who was "eavesdropping" outside the door, and he was completely dumbfounded...

What did that mean? ? ?

Have complicated feelings for Tao? ? ?

Could it be... Do you like it? ? ?

This... all these people? ? ?

God, are you kidding me? ⊙_⊙?

"So, do you all like Huang Zitao? Which one do you like? Seriously?" Jin Zhongren didn't answer directly, but was the first to ask such a sentence.

"What do you mean?" Wu Shixun subconsciously took a step forward, isn't his rival in love Lu Han? "What do you mean...you like them all?"

Jin Zhongren gave him a disgusted look, "literally~"

"You mean...you all like Tao?" His voice immediately rose to an octave, and two words popped up in Wu Shixun's mind—haha!

What is the situation?A Lu Han caught him off guard, why did this group of people come up to join in the fun?When did that stupid Huang Zitao become so popular?Did you have so many suitors silently without fully realizing it?

"I like, I like him!" When Jin Zhongren said this, he still didn't have any emotional fluctuations. He didn't care whether he admitted his thoughts. Since he found out that he likes Huang Zitao, his heart has been in turmoil. Back, it has been fully accepted until now, so is there anything else to hide?

He Jin Zhongren has always been open and aboveboard, if he likes it, he likes it, and it is not a crime, there is nothing he cannot admit.He glanced at everyone present with firm eyes, "I don't know what you think, but what I know is that I like him, so what?"

"Jin Zhongren..." Wu Shixun was completely frightened, Zhong Ren's liking was so frank, he remembered the fight with Zhong Ren before, it was obvious that the two of them had the same person in their hearts... since then , that guy Kim Jong-in has already made up his mind~

Jin Junmian was also taken aback, and then immediately recovered, "Yes, just like what Zhong Ren said, in my opinion, I can guess a thing or two about your thoughts, since you said you will put it on the table, I will say it." Let's stop talking nonsense, now... those who like Tao stay here and we can have a good talk, and those who don't like it can go out."

…………

There was a long silence, no one spoke or moved.

Luhan stared at Xiaolu's eyes and carefully raised his head, staring at Junmian's serious face.

"No? Then let's talk about it, how much do you like...?"

"How to... measure this?"

It was Baek Hyun who asked this question, and Lu Han turned to look at him, only to find that Baek Hyun, who hadn't said much all this time, was smiling sadly, "How do you measure my liking? I just like him, I like him I want to be with him, and I know it's wrong to like him, but I still can't change my liking for him. Anyway, if you want us to give up, but my liking is a liking that can't be given up, what should I do?"

"Then what do you want to do?" Jin Junmian looked at him calmly, "First of all, I want you to know how the twelve of us stand together, what are our dreams, and Tao's , his dream is also mixed in exo's dream, he has been working hard for this, do you want... because of your liking, let everything turn into a bubble?"

"So I can't say anything, I can't do anything, haven't I...always been like this?"

"You can only do this!"

"……I know."

Bai Xian lowered his head, he just knew it, he knew it very clearly, that's why he felt sorry for himself, and felt sorry for his liking.It's not that I'm not brave, it's that I can't be brave. How painful is it to cover up my liking so hard when I see that person?

"Even if there is no way to measure it, I still want you to think about the extent of your liking. Is it just a liking? Is it a liking that can be forgotten after a long time? If so, can't you just give up now? Anyway, yes Painful, a blissful and utter pain, is better than torturing myself forever."

Jin Junmian also knows how cruel what he said is, but what he said is also the most suitable for them. They are children flying with dreams and have too many responsibilities and too many futures. This feeling blocks everything.If you can, it is good to cut the mess quickly, but if you can't, it will only be more painful.

Moreover, by that time, there will be one more Huang Zitao who is swaying left and right at a loss.

Tao is the most innocent child, obviously a child who doesn't know love, obviously only thinking about friendship and dreams, if the child who is as innocent as amber is easily broken by the outside world, that is the last thing he wants to see .

In this case, he chooses what he can protect, and it is too tiring and too dangerous to try his best to cover up a love. It is better to stop the love before it sprouts.

Because he is unwilling to hurt every child, and Junmian also knows that every relationship is worthy of being blessed. Although the timing is wrong, he can only become cruel, but now facing every face he stands on, he makes him Feel distressed.Even if it hurts, for them, for Tao and for exo, there are still things that should be said.

Junmian slowly analyzed to them what his feelings would lead to and ruin their mutual dreams and futures. They both knew it, so they stopped talking silently and listened quietly.

Park Chanyeol outside the glass door looked at the clock and was still walking in a formative way, and listening to what Brother Junmian said on the balcony, his mood was extraordinarily complicated.What Brother Junmian said is not wrong. There is no right or wrong in love, but the timing is wrong and the person is wrong. If a relationship brings only burdens to the other party, then this relationship can still be called a beautiful one. ?He has been hiding his heart all the time, because he is uncertain and timid. What he is afraid of is the way Huang Zitao will look at him when he finds out... What if...it is disgust?But he didn't think so far like Brother Junmian, taking ten thousand steps back and saying, even if Tao accepted his liking, wouldn't he be facing a happy and beautiful tomorrow?

Will fans accept it?No matter how generous this circle is, there is no way to accept that two men really love each other.This is different from CP. If this kind of love is mixed with sincerity, then everything will change.Originally, they bought beans, which is a commodity to put it bluntly. They fought for the interests of the company and their own popularity. Fans frantically sought after hard work and money, and naturally wanted to get what they wanted.The identity of an idol is shaped by the input of fans, so I have to be worthy of my fans, right?

Will fans really want to see that the person they chase all day is actually in love with someone else?

Especially they are still newcomers who are about to debut, without the support of diehard fans, they will fall soon~

However, the future that is always in crisis is a future that they have dreamed of for a long time, and they have paid too much for it, and they absolutely cannot bear to destroy it.

"So, what I want to tell you today is that your liking is completely wrong in the wrong place. Even if you like it, you can't say it. Choosing to give up is the best way, and I will respect it if you choose to persist." Interfering, but... please completely submerge your liking in your heart, and keep it locked so that Tao won't find out. If your liking bothers him, I won't just watch like this!"

Concealing... It seems that since he was sure that he likes that person, he has silently made such a determination. Luhan looked at the people around him lonely, thinking... Now what they have to worry about is not just how to hide their hearts What should I do if there are so many "enemies" around me?

As if seeing his sadness, Jin Junmian opened his mouth again, "I called you together today to talk about this matter, because I think that since you all like him and you are in a group, it would be better to be honest with each other." Okay, and... please supervise each other in the future. I can't see it alone, if anyone acts without authorization, you probably won't allow it, right?"

If it weren't for the current situation, Shixun would have liked to give Brother Junmian a thumbs up~ Really... so thoughtful, completely amazing!

Under such circumstances, Wu Shixun was still inexplicably admiring his brother Junmian's wisdom, while Wu Yifan simply snorted coldly, "You're really thoughtful!"

"Can I take that as a compliment?"

"Whatever you want!" After saying this, he opened the door and went out. The moment he opened the door, Chanyeol, who was leaning against the door, almost fell down. He leaned over and looked at Wu Yifan's receding back, blinked his eyes, and then silently opened the door again. straighten yourself...

"I know what you mean, brother, then I'll go back first too." Jin Zhongren bowed his head and went out after saluting. Chanyeol watched Zhongren put on his coat and went out again, probably going back to the company Alright.But...how was it so formal just now?Do you really respect Brother Junmian as Tao's guardian?What's the matter with the instant sense of ingratiating to the girlfriend's parents? !

"Captain, don't worry, anyway, I've made up my mind a long time ago. My only goal now is to let exo reach the peak together with Tao. Before that, I won't do anything." Baek Hyun also bent over , ready to leave.But when he came to Junmian's side, he stopped, hesitated, and finally put on a smile and said to him, "In short, thank you."

"no need thank me?"

"Thank you for doing so much for us, especially...thank you for your sincere consideration for Tao. Sometimes I also know that our so-called liking is very selfish, dreaming of wanting to have it, but accidentally neglecting to give. But you really... for Tao, for us, for exo. Captain, really... thank you!"

"...I won't cry when you are so provocative now."

"Well, I know." Baekhyun finally smiled relaxedly, looked at Junmian with complete understanding eyes, nodded, and passed Chanyeol...

After being ignored again, Park Chanyeol can only embarrassingly express that he is okay, but he feels a little cold~

Sehun, too, said, "Me too..." and wanted to leave, but Junmian stopped him before he finished speaking.

Jin Junmian nodded at him, "Sehun, wait a minute, I have something to tell you later!"

"me?"

"Oh, you!"

"...Okay." Kid Wu Shixun lowered his head, alas~ The plan to slip away failed T_T

After talking with Shixun, Junmian turned around and looked at Luhan, and thought about his words, "Luhan, there is something I want to tell you."

"Ah."

"Because you are different from them. You are Chinese, and you will return to the same place after coming from the same place as Tao. So I don't want to treat you like I did to them, because it's not just me who treats you. They all hold hope, and most importantly, Tao is also very relaxed towards you. If your love can persist, I am willing to help you. Of course, the premise is that you don’t hurt each other, especially Tao, I may really It’s Mama’s heart at work, how can I explain this feeling of raising a son and seeing him get married?” Junmian laughed as he spoke, “Probably it’s because of you, that’s why I’m so relieved to see him get married.” here you are."

"Then what about me?" Sehun couldn't help interjecting next to him, because he had already seen many, many shortcomings in himself compared to Lu Han.Now even Brother Junmian looks at Luhan differently, this...isn't it a fair "war" in itself!

Junmian didn't answer him, but told him to wait with his eyes, and then watched Luhan who was confused about the situation with a smile on his face.

"elder brother……"

"It's just us left," Junmian raised his head and glared at Chanyeol at the door, Park Chanyeol immediately left quickly with an expression of "today's weather is really nice"...Seeing that Park Chanyeol slipped away knowingly, Junmian returned Looking over at Shixun seriously, "Sehun, do you understand what I said to Luhan?"

"Brother, are you telling me to retreat in spite of difficulties?"

Ever since Brother Junmian brought himself to face the life of his upcoming debut, he understood that Brother Junmian was actually warning himself not to think about other things.Because... am I the youngest?He understands that many things are not what he wants, and he also understands that in this group, he should be the sacrifice at the beginning and the harvest in the future. In the company, all the youngest members have such a fate.

but……

"But brother, my liking is not inferior to other people's. For my liking and for our future, I can say nothing for the time being, but my liking will not change."

Junmian sighed helplessly, "Sehun, have you ever thought that not only are you at a disadvantage compared to Luhan and the others, but he... can't live in Korea forever, what about you? Is he leaving? If it’s just a petty liking, get rid of it as soon as possible. Tao is a very emotional child. A relationship that has no results is not just hurt to him. The original friendship between you may also be possible. What's more, are you sure about Tao's relationship? What if he doesn't like you? I don't want both of you to be hurt."

"I know, I know how much difference there is between me and him," this was clear before, but Sehun still couldn't let it go, "I've tasted the feeling of being rejected before bro didn't know, But even so, I still like him. Brother, I like him very seriously. There are only two serious decisions I have made, one is to enter the company, and the other is to fall in love with him, so whether he I just like what my feelings are for me.”

"Sehun, why are you so stupid?"

"If liking can be changed, do you still like it?"

…………

In fact, what he said is right, if liking can be changed, there is absolutely no need to stop such liking.Because that kind of relationship is like a house built of loose sand, without a storm, maybe just a little wind, it will fall apart and be smashed to pieces.On the contrary, true feelings, even if they are firmly blocked, will not help. Maybe it is just that they are too worried, so they don't care about anything, and want to make these guys sober.

Yes, love can make people lose their minds, but life does not allow them to do this. They still have a lot to do, they have to fly side by side, and they have to stand in the center of the stage facing the dazzling light.Such a life does not allow them to be crazy...

After Wu Shixun came out from the balcony, he quietly entered Tao and Minshuo's room. Minshuo sat on the side, while Tao fell asleep obediently.

"Sehun." Brother Minshuo found Sehun who was poking in, and quickly reached out to take care of him, "Come in and sit."

"Oh, brother..." Shixun was careful not to wake Tao up, "Tao...how is he?"

"When you get drunk, you go to sleep."

Wu Shixun squatted beside Tao's bed and observed him. His red face was beeping from sleeping on his side, and the curved eyelashes on his peach blossom eyes trembled regularly as he breathed. Whose house is full of food and drink, a kitten who falls asleep comfortably.

In a low voice, the sleeping kitten was muttering something in his dream, Shixun listened to it, and after listening for a long time, he realized that the damn kitten was calling someone's name intermittently, but very clearly. Yes! He called: Xiaolu...

Minshuo originally looked at the two children who got together and thought they were cute, and just about to show a gratified smile, he was taken aback by Sehun who suddenly stood up, "Well... Sehun, what's wrong with you?"

"Brother, I'll go back to sleep first."

"Ugh?"

Shixun turned around and left immediately, with an unbelievably fast speed.

A certain panda that was disturbed by the sound turned over slowly, turned its back up, babbled, and then said something in its drowsiness...

"Sehun~"

Brother Minshuo approached, "What are you talking about, Tao?"

"Um...brother..."

"What dream is this kid doing again?" Minshuo smiled lightly, and then went to wash up and go to sleep.

This night is still very long, the dream of this night... colorful but chaotic, but when I wake up from the dream, the heart shaken by the dream will probably forget the scene in the dream.In this life, how much time do we spend dreaming, and how much time do we really wake up?