wait for me to grow up

Back then, when Xiang Liang died in battle, King Huai sent Xiang Yu and others to rescue Zhao Guo, which was besieged by the Qin army, and at the same time sent Liu Bang to lead the army to attack Hangu Pass.Before leaving, King Huai made an agreement with the generals that whoever entered the pass first would be named the king of Guanzhong.Originally, the Hongmen Banquet was for the winner to be the king. If Xiang Yu hadn't been soft-hearted for a moment, he would not have fallen to the final defeat...

Through the two cups of milk tea on the table, Lu Han stared at Wu Shixun, who was in a daze on the opposite side.The so-called "winner and loser" that the teacher talked about in the history class back then kept flashing in my mind~

Lu Han felt that his mind was dancing...um...out of his control, dancing crazily...

"Lu Guo, didn't you say you have something to say to me?" Sehun poked the straw with his hand, and Sehun couldn't help interrupting Lu Han's silence.

"Well, yes, I have something to tell you..."

Xiang Yu... is arrogant and soft-hearted, and then he is doomed.Liu Bang... left behind a lifetime of age, but he was also charged with being rich.He doesn't want to do these two people. Since he likes it, he should be frank and frank, and he should be clear about it, and spread out all his thoughts...

Huang Zitao made an appointment to meet Brother Donghai, waited at the door in a daze, and saw a small kitten on the side of the road, so he slowly moved over as if being guided...

"Are you hungry?"

The kitten raised its head and stared at the person in front of it, opened its mouth and yelled "Meow~" twice, which made Huang Zitao's heart soften.

"Wait~" Huang Zitao began to rummage through his bag, um... cats don't seem to eat lollipops, do they?Tao searched again, ah, he found the sausage that Ma Ma gave today.

"Meow meow~" Seeing the sausage kitten, his eyes lit up immediately, and he stretched his neck up.

"Wait, I'll give it to you right away~" A certain panda suddenly wanted to feed other animals, and was in a very bright mood, humming a little song to peel the sausage...

Li Donghai didn't see Tao when he came out, and just about to make a phone call, he thought the one squatting on the side of the road looked familiar~

"Sehun, there is something I think I must tell you clearly."

"Um……"

"We...our relationship is still good, I really regard you as a younger brother."

Be a younger brother?Wu Shixun silently remembered the inexplicable unhappiness about the seat in the car this morning, isn't he a younger brother?Do you treat your brother like this?Obviously not giving my brother the chance to pursue happiness!

Seeing that Sehun didn't respond, Luhan felt that...he should adopt a roundabout strategy.

"I would like to ask you a question."

"What?" Sehun took the milk tea in his hand and began to enjoy it~

"Look, it's like we have such an iron relationship, so don't we share a lot of secrets~ If you say... I mean, if there is one thing that you know I like very much, but you also like it very much, this thing It can't be shared, what do you do?"

"Since I know that Shikao likes it, of course I got it for you." Shixun replied seriously.

That is because of Sehun's seriousness, Luhan couldn't help feeling a little guilty.

"But you also like it very much!"

"How much do you like it?"

"Like it so much...it will be painful if you don't get it."

"...Is that so~" Shixun put down the milk tea and became serious, his brows furrowed in thought, then he suddenly laughed out as if thinking of something, "In that case, I'll tell Luguo directly, Luguo You know I like it so much, you will definitely let me~"

"But, Shixun, this... there is no way to let it go."

"So we have to compete?"

"Sehun, if we compete, our friendship won't change, will it?"

Wu Shixun thinks Lu Guo is interesting, is it because of this that he is so strange today?

"Of course not! Just like Zhongren and Taemin, we used to be like this to a certain extent. We are all in a competitive relationship, but even if someone can't compete, we will still bless each other sincerely. Although I am young, This kind of truth is still understandable, so brother, you can talk about it if you have anything."

"Really?"

"Of course." Wu Shixun smiled freely, look, he is such a handsome man!

Luhan thought, maybe he was thinking too much, he couldn't control his emotions, maybe Shixun could really understand him, he really didn't want to get involved, but he couldn't let go of the apex of his heart. Huang Zitao, since this is the case, he doesn't expect Shixun to smile and say it's okay, he just hopes that Shixun can continue to be a brother after he quarrels or fights with him.

Anyway...he couldn't just watch and remain indifferent.

"I like Huang Zitao."

"...What did you say?" Wu Shixun thought he had heard it wrong, he was still waiting for Lu Guo to reveal some little secrets to himself, who would have known that once he relaxed Lu Han would directly say something that made him unable to move.

"I, like Huang Zitao!" Word by word was very clear, Luhan looked at Shixun calmly, he said, "Because I know you like him too, so I think I should tell you."

"Deer pot... are you kidding me?"

Luhan pulled out a wry smile, "Of course I hope to be joking, but Shixun, although I'm sorry, I'm really..."

"Luhan, you are clearly joking with me!" Wu Shixun felt a fire crackling in his heart, he said that something is wrong with Luhan today, how can he be so blind in normal times, right?Now that Lu Han confessed to himself, some confused things became clear in an instant~

I still remember the scene that made me angry to the core, that scene of Lu Han and Tao being intimate from the balcony... It's not without entanglement, because that scene with Tao had a big temper tantrum, and in the end he just reluctantly accepted it. It was just an accident... When he said it was a joke, Tao's tone was a little uncertain, but he couldn't make things too difficult for him, Shixun could only accept it.

But now that I think about it, at least since then, Lu Han... has had that kind of thought, right?

"Why do you say that?"

You didn't say anything before you kept it a secret, so what's the matter if you tell it now?Obviously about his likes... Lu Han knows everything about him.It was because she trusted him the most that she could not accept this kind of betrayal the most.Luhan... Luhan, what do you take the secret I told you alone?

Luhan knows that Sehun must hate him to death now, because the relationship between them is good, so he has been hesitating...

"I choose to speak out, not only to respect my likes, but also the friendship between us."

"and then?"

"...Shixun." Seriously, Lu Han has never seen Shixun face himself with the expression at this moment, it is cold, there is no trace of a smile, and his eyes are full of resistance.It’s not that I’ve never been awkward before, but I’ve never had such an expression... Lu Han hesitated to call his name, and then he even felt a little bit more resentful when he saw Sehun...

"Then what do you want me to do? Say it now, what do you want to be worthy of...you like this, what do you want me to do? Luhan, you clearly know that I can't give up on Huang Zitao!"

Shixun's voice got a little louder, the guest next to him looked over, Lu Han hurriedly grabbed him, "Shixun, can you calm down?"

"How do you make me calm down? Ever since I knew that I like Huang Zitao, I have never calmed down, Lu Guo... Do you know that we joked before about what would happen if we liked the same person, but I only now know that this is such a cruel thing.”

This is what Luhan is most afraid of. He is not afraid of how angry Sehun is, or he can fight like a man for love, but what he is most afraid of is the person he really loves as a younger brother, showing his fragile self. The expression is gone... what should I do?

"Sehun, I'm sorry, but there are some things that I can't control."

"Brother, when did you know?" Shixun's heart was twisted in such a short period of time, and finally he regained his composure, "When did you know, my own feelings?"

This kind of calm makes people hate, obviously because of the full sense of betrayal, I want to stare at each other, but also because of this calmness, I know clearly that that brother still misses me at this time... But so what?Do you want to say something touching? Really!

When did you know, your own feelings?

Lu Han couldn't tell, probably because he refused to see clearly from the bottom of his heart, until he really couldn't admit it, only to realize that his obsession with that panda was actually quite deep.Maybe today, maybe yesterday, when is it so important to fall in love?Anyway, I can't let it go, anyway, if I plunge into it, I will never recover, so let's bear it... bear all the burdens that should be received because of this love.

Like a real man, the maknae cleared up his messy mood as soon as possible, and stared seriously at the opposite Luhan, conveying to him not only persistence, but also desperateness.He asked Luhan, "So, how should we tidy up?"

Before, in the relationship with Tao, there were only two people involved, and that person was still in a state of ignorance. In that case, it would be too troublesome to bother to sort out everything, so just guard it like that.But now that a third person has been added, it is relatively impossible to have a harmonious atmosphere... because love, isn't love all selfish, and three people cannot be tolerated, so no matter how good the relationship is, we compete for the same person Sometimes, they are full of ambitions and want to win for a lifetime.

Didn't Luhan not want a too cold duel?

Then let's play fair!

Before that, let's sort out the relationship between us, calm and rigorous...

For Shixun's concession, Luhan is actually very grateful, he has been silently thinking that he was too much, never thought that Shixun would not hate himself.But Sehun, who is sitting in front of him now, may still be shocked by the facts, but he has already begun to try to understand himself.This... is really heartwarming.

"Tao... he doesn't know, he doesn't know about the two of us."

"So tidying up is a matter between us." Of course Shixun knew that the panda was so stupid that he couldn't sense the malicious intentions around him, and he also knew how unguarded Tao was, especially to Lu Han, so tidying up really seemed It is necessary.

"So, do we have three chapters of the agreement?"

"It's a simple agreement. First of all... you know Luguo, Tao, he has no way to accept this right away. We can't scare him too bluntly. This is the basic."

"I understand that this kind of thing is indeed a headache. Huang Zitao is a fool who can't take care of himself. If he encounters this kind of thing, he will probably be completely stupid." As if Huang Zitao's bewildered face was in front of him in an instant, Lu Han smiled lightly, and then realized Seeing Shixun's unfriendly eyes, he silently withdraws his imagination...

"Also... between us, there is probably no way to be like before~"

"Sehun."

"I'm just telling the truth. No matter how generous I am, can you still face me like you did before when you tell the truth?"

Luhan bowed his head, it was true, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't treat him with a normal heart, after all... he was a rival in love.

"But Sehun, I really don't want to affect us."

"There are no such good things in the world. Since we all like Tao so much, and want to maintain a good friendship at the same time, isn't it too greedy? Yes, I can understand your liking, because I am the same, I know that is Things that can’t be controlled. And it’s your life and your love, I can’t get involved, but it doesn’t mean I can still smile and bless. Love itself is selfish, this is a war, either you die or I die, Maybe after the end, we can shake hands chicly and make peace in order to give Tao a unique love, but now... now that there is no ending, I will always stick to it, and I certainly hope that the person who will stand by his side in the end will be me."

At this moment, Luhan felt that the Sehun in front of him was no longer that coquettish youngster, in fact, his world was gradually maturing.The words he said were outrageous for a man.

It's still a bit gratifying, after all, the person who stood in front of him and feared that he would be hurt by this world was himself.

But it's also a little sad. Shixun grew up, but he stood on the opposite side of himself.This is something he never wanted to see~

Luhan felt his voice tremble a little, he said, "No matter what, Sehun, I never wanted to hurt you."

There was something flickering in Shixun's eyes, "I know." After he finished speaking, he stubbornly looked away, Luhan was afraid that the ones that flashed his eyes were the moisture in the corners of Shixun's eyes, and wanted to say something, but found that he seemed to be Lost his qualifications to comfort him.It was me who brought him harm...

What ended this "negotiation" was a phone call that disrupted all of Lu Han's love for his children.

Luhan didn't expect that senior Donghai would call at this time, he looked at his phone blankly, then at Sehun, he didn't pick up the phone until Sehun reminded him, "Hello, brother Donghai."

"Luhan, where are you? I have something to do right now, otherwise I'll send Tao back, can you come over? This kid seems to be drunk."

"Tao?"

Hearing Tao's name, Shixun also immediately paid attention to him, seeing Luhan hung up the phone, he quickly asked, "What's wrong with Tao?"

"Say you're drunk, otherwise... let's go there together."

"Drunk? That guy is really..." Shixun jumped up immediately and was about to walk out.

"Shixun." Luhan called him from behind, looking into Shixun's eyes, Luhan said, "Shixun, no matter how uncomfortable we are, don't let Tao see it, don't let him feel uncomfortable too ?"

Wu Shixun's heart skipped a beat. In fact, he really didn't care if Lu Guo liked Tao as much as he did, because he knew that feelings couldn't be controlled.He was angry because he foolishly believed that Lu Guo would help and he was deceived, and in a blink of an eye his most trusted brother became a rival in love, but he was still very afraid of how deep Lu Han's love for Huang Zitao was?So deep...wouldn't you want to give him even a little bit of harm?

This is the first time Shixun wants to like someone, desperately, he doesn't know how to deal with this liking correctly.He thought that his love was the hottest and most beautiful thing in the whole world, but he never thought about whether other people's devotion was also touching enough to make people want to cry.I have to compare, Luhan is more mature than me, Luhan knows how to take good care of someone, Luhan is calmer than myself, Luhan will not make the person he likes feel uncomfortable, Luhan is Chinese, just like that person belong to the same country.Shixun would not naively think that Tao will stay in this country that does not belong to him for the rest of his life. If it is him, there will always be someone who will regress, and someone will always choose to leave home.

Those...are places where he can't compare.

No matter how to make up for it, the existing disadvantages are naked.

Sensing Sehun's trance, Luhan called him again, "Sehun~"

Returning to his senses in a hurry, Shixun nodded, "Of course we can't make Tao feel uncomfortable. There is one more thing."

"what?"

"It's our agreement, no matter who is standing next to him in the end, or even if it's not us, we must guard his smiling face."

Lu Han nodded firmly, because... that, is also a precious thing to him.The memory of the first stage is still in front of me, the person holding his hand and saying "fool" with a smile is lingering, and he can't wave it away.

Li Donghai is now suffering from a headache of 12 points. Just now Eunhyuk called and said that he was going back to prepare to fly soon. He clearly remembered that it was not today, so he felt relieved and boldly gave the collapsed little panda in front of him a drink. .

He met with Tao today to check the homework. Tao carefully took out his small notebook and explained to him the answers of the members one by one. After he finished speaking, his little expression waiting for a response was the same as that of the little cat on the cover of the notebook.

Dong Hai couldn't help laughing, "So are you satisfied?"

Tao hesitated for a moment, "Generally speaking, it's okay."

"Ok?"

"Brother, I know that sometimes it's strange for people to get along with each other, and the perception of each other may be different. Just like I think... I think the relationship between me and Brother Fan is just like ordinary brothers, and I'm the only one in my family , but I also grew up with a group of people, I don't think my attitude towards Brother Fan is different from those people, but it seems to be different in the eyes of others."

Recently, I've really struggled with this matter.Obviously, I just had a good time with Brother Fan, but because of other people's words, I began to hesitate whether I should distance myself... But, being affected by rumors like this, I no longer look like my real self~

Gossip... This circle is naturally indispensable, because it is not easy to make real friends in this circle.Because betrayal is the most common occurrence, which person is not for his own benefit?It's never a joke to fight your heart and lungs in the first second, and face each other with swords in the next second.Sometimes compared to a real war, the words spoken from other people's mouths also carry huge lethality. I have also experienced such a stage...

"Tao, we originally... walked a very difficult road."

"I know it too, so I'm trying my best to get used to it. I also know that many things are because they can't see the truth and follow others' advice. In fact, they don't know the real me. But sometimes the feeling of being misunderstood is really... no good."

Huang Zitao tried his best to smile and showed Brother Donghai, but he quietly stretched out his hand towards the beer~

"Hey, what are you doing?"

"Brother, I know how to drink, really~" Looking at it sincerely, Tao remembered the time when he was drunk. Although he felt a little uncomfortable when he came back and his head hurt a little, he really didn't remember all the sad things at that time. Yes, a very magical feeling.

Probably thought of something, Donghai didn't stop him, and poured a glass for Manman, "That's right, why should I be nervous when I grow up, and I'm not a girl, just drink some wine." Donghai put the wine glass Push it over and poke the panda's cute and stupid lying silkworm, "If there is anything you want, you can tell me, and I will analyze it for you."

"Brother, do you want to be a bosom brother?"

"I think I've been playing this kind of role ever since I met you." Donghai recalled when the two met for the first time, how could it be that time when the sense of justice suddenly exploded, and he went up to protect the bullied Huang Zitao? ?Probably... it can only be explained by "fate".

"What?" Tao also seemed to have forgotten the depression just now, and ate potato chips from the platter, "I really want to ask my brother something."

"Well, you said."

"I don't know if it's my illusion. I always feel that there are strange things between them. I can't tell who is with whom. Sometimes they just say things that I can't understand. Sometimes the atmosphere is really weird. I’m going to die~ I’m not allowed to ask, I’ve tried to ask them, I’ve asked Brother Minshuo, and I’ve also asked Brother Junmian, they all said with a serious face that I don’t need to know. That... Brother Donghai, I Is it really like what you said, I can’t understand others. But... Actually, I can’t say that completely. I can understand other things quite clearly. I have been praised by my teacher for being smart since kindergarten. You say Say, what's the matter?"

"..."

Speaking of solving problems, this kid really said everything like pouring beans into a bamboo tube?But in fact, even if he didn't always follow Tao, he could still guess the things around him more or less. Since Huang Zitao could hear the words about Wu Yifan, Dong Hai, who has a wider network, naturally heard others mention it.And the last time we went to dinner, Sehun left early, and even Lee Hyuk-jae couldn't help asking himself when he returned, "What's going on with those two kids?"

"What's the matter?"

"Li Donghai, don't you have a good relationship with them? Don't say you can't see that there is something wrong with those two people."

"What is it?" Donghai Children's Shoes continued to play dumb...

"...Do you think I'm stupid?"

"How do you know? ≥﹏≤"

"...-_-||"

Now Donghai deeply understands how hard it is for those brothers who Tao said didn't tell him the truth.Originally, a lot of things seemed like something, and if I chose not to say it, I was secretly about to suffocate.But it doesn't matter what to say, he chose to zip up his mouth because he really wanted to protect his younger brother.

In any case, it's just a group that hasn't fully formed yet, and it's no good to complicate the relationship now.

Dong Hai felt a bit of a headache, this group of children was really different from his back then, they were selected out of a hundred miles after the same journey, how could they still think about other things?He thought, in fact, sometimes what this group of children lack is the determination to ignore everything, just to break the boat, how can they give up everything when they have a way forward?

Choosing to encourage rather than analyze, Donghai knew that no matter how much he helped Tao, this could only be his life.Many things have to wait for him to discover slowly.But I really saw the past self from Tao, the one who was ignorant, fearless, and full of kindness towards the world... Once upon a time, I was also faced with the hope and longing to grow into the best version of myself. With shining self-confidence, she is moving towards her dream like a broken bamboo.

Somewhat emotionally, then out of nowhere, he drank more wine with the little panda.He shouldn't have believed him from the very beginning, why did he learn to drink?After a few cups, it started to shake again. It wasn't until he started laughing silly that Donghai realized: This kid is drunk!

Immediately afterwards, the story became bloody. I wanted to send the person back, but I was called urgently. I tried to delay for a few minutes, and after thinking about it, I called Lu Han.

Of course, there were two people who came later, which surprised Donghai a little.Especially the inexplicable and somewhat unusual aura between those two people, saying that there is nothing wrong is simply a joke!So Donghai was thinking all the way back: Emma, ​​who said Wuli Tao is slow?What people say is right, it's really weird~

Once you start to think, you can't stop thinking about it sincerely, and then connect all of Tao's narration... Well, it really is~

"Hey, Lee Donghae, what are you doing?" Eunhyuk was about to cover someone with a blanket, and then he found that the guy who usually slept on the plane had his eyes wide open, he didn't know what he was thinking, he seemed to be thinking Looks like he's thinking hard.

"think about life……"

"OK, you continue~"

Eunhyuk smiled at him, damn it, he's having another convulsion, isn't he?

Lu Han and Wu Shixun put the drunk Huang Zitao into a taxi. The driver looked helplessly at the three big men squeezing into the back seat. No one wanted to sit in the co-pilot in a relaxed and happy way. His heart ached a little.That's right, you guys look good. Could it be that the driver, uncle, is getting old and decrepit, and I've been disliked by you so far?woo woo woo woo~

The good kid in the back seat didn't have the heart to understand the driver's likes and dislikes. The two of them put Huang Zitao away safely, and then fell silent. They didn't know what to say to each other.

Huang Zitao, who was completely drunk, felt a little uncomfortable in his stomach because of the bumping of the car, so he fell sideways on Lu Han's body, moaning all kinds of things.Shixun stretched out his hand when Tao moved, but he still didn't catch up, seeing Tao fall into Lu Han's embrace.Lu Han was taken aback, and reflexively looked at Shixun's murderous eyes, hesitated for a while, but was finally defeated by Huang Zitao, who was drunk and acting like a baby, and patted him on the back lightly, "Tao, are you uncomfortable?"

"Um……"

"It's okay, it's okay, we'll go back right away, you said you, what are you doing drinking so much wine? You know you can't drink."

Huang Zitao muttered "Brother Fan" in a daze, and subconsciously wanted to explain that he had something bothering to drink to relieve his worries, but the two of them heard the name clearly, and fell silent for a while.

It's someone else who causes us both to be so drunk with you? ? ?

It was Lu Han who came to his senses first, he hid the froze smile on his lips, and continued to pat his back, "It's okay, if you feel uncomfortable, just lie down for a while."

"Brother, have you ever thought about it, maybe... the problem we are struggling with is simply unsolvable?"

"Didn't you experience this kind of mood before?" It was... the time I confessed before.

"...Oh, that's it." Shixun turned his head, vehicles passing by one by one outside the car window, familiar buildings, busy passers-by... This is the Seoul where he grew up for so many years, it is their dream The beginning is also the beginning of the fate between each other.It is in this place, meet, get to know each other, and then find a special place in my heart for every special person.

How many people can accompany you to the end in life?Are you not paying because you are not sure?Of course we all want to have a good ending, but our growth itself contains regrets, as if we can’t see the road ahead, and we are struggling to move forward.Those people, those... who I am willing to give my heart to, don't have to get a response to be positive, because he deserves it.Even if it's just a short period of time in our lives, it's worth it to bring each other the best memories.

Wu Shixun didn't know that he could see the problem in such a transparent way, as if he had an epiphany.Or...he couldn't help but look at the drunk cat Huang Zitao who was snuggling next to Lu Han, maybe this kind of power was given by that guy.Originally, I don't care about anything. Isn't it because of you that I... think about myself like this, shouldn't I?

That is also a necessary process for growth. Growing up is not about doing whatever you want, but about making others comfortable.

Therefore, many edges and corners should gradually disappear in order not to cut you.

Jin Junmian was called to drink tea again. As his debut was approaching, more and more teasers were released. The management of members has always been the company's most important issue. Everyone knows what SM is famous for, even passers-by, let alone those who have been trainees in the company for so long?

It is not cruel to say that it is not, because this society is not a kind place in the first place, not only here, but here clearly tells you that if you work hard, you may not succeed, but if you don't work hard, there is no possibility of success.Relatively speaking, this is a fair place.

The company spends a lot of money and energy to train you and train you. Of course, it is not for watching you glow and smile with satisfaction, but for the benefits brought by your success.There is no emotion to say, those who support their dreams are just businessmen after all, this is a very natural thing.

Therefore, Jin Junmian never felt that there was anything wrong with it. The company had strict requirements, so he managed it well.The company doesn't talk to you about your dreams sincerely, so let him escort their dreams.In short, he will protect each of them, because they all have the same dream - to stand on the highest stage together, let the whole world know their names, and make the whole world crazy for them.

Because I have too big a dream in my arms, I often have to be sensitive.Especially when he watched Huang Zitao, who was completely drunk, being taken back, and frowning, he looked at Luhan and Sehun...

"Well, bro, I'm going back to my room to rest." Sehun avoided his gaze and wanted to run away immediately.

"Then, I too..." Lu Han immediately echoed.

"Wait." Junmian stopped seriously, thought for a while, and then said, "Call them back, we have to have a meeting."

"Now?"

"Now!"

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