wait for me to grow up

When he went back that night, Huang Zitao sat quietly on the sofa and looked at the dormitory where he had lived for so long.Do you already regard this place as your home, a place you want to protect?

And the people in this family...

The handsome Fan, the serious Yixing, Xiaolu who always makes me laugh together...they are the most beautiful people in this world.They are all proud of meeting each other, such people.Those who don't want to be separated are the most important people!

But why do I always make mistakes?

Hesitating whether to reply to Jin Wenkui, Huang Zitao let himself curl up on the sofa.

"Little Panda, you came back very early!" As soon as Lu Han opened the door, he saw Huang Zitao squatting on the sofa with his little butt up.

"Little deer."

Lu Han came in with big bags and small bags, threw the keys on the coffee table, and said excitedly, "Taozi, come and take a look, today you and I bought a lot of good things, Brother Lu, see if there is anything you like? Grandpa appreciates it." for you!"

"Xiao Lu, have you gone shopping? Where's Brother Fan?"

"Hey, you little heartless, why do you always ask Wu Yifan? Brother Fan cheated on you, and you went to play with Park Chanyeol!"

"No, I just wonder why you came back alone?"

"Who says I'm alone? Yixing still... oh, Emma!" Luhan suddenly remembered something, and ran out in a [-]-meter sprint.

Huang Zitao hurriedly yelled and asked, "What's wrong with you, Xiaolu?"

"Master left Zhang Yixing at the entrance of the supermarket, let him wait for me!" Lu Han's answer came from afar...

Huang Zitao immediately laughed, how can Xiao Lu lose everything?He actually lost Yixing...

Looking at the things that Luhan bought back, there are really all kinds of things, everything is there.Things to eat, use, play... There is also a big box, which is beautifully packaged.It can be vaguely seen through the transparent plastic paper, there are four mugs, and the one in the lower right corner is obviously a pattern of a panda...

Deer, do you want to give it to me?But if I go, who can use the cup you gave me?My heart hurts very much, as if there is something pressing on it, and even a simple jump becomes difficult, will I die if this continues?

When Wu Yifan came back, he saw the heartbroken Xiao Taozi, looking thoughtful as he touched the packaged cup.

"Tao?"

"Brother Fan..." Hurrying to put away his expression, Huang Zitao tried his best to laugh, "You're back? Did you say Xiaolu is funny? He lost Yixing."

"Huang Zitao, stop laughing, it's ugly!"

Wu Yifan's face darkened, "What's the matter with you?"

"Really? I thought it was a good smile." Huang Zitao said in a low voice, "Brother Fan, I... seem to be sick."

"Sick?" Today Tao felt that something was wrong, Wu Yifan was worried that the recent too heavy training made Huang Zitao, who was in good health, also fall ill. "Then you should take a good rest recently, what's the matter to say now?"

"I know, maybe I'm just nervous." Huang Zitao thought for a while before deciding to ask, "Brother Fan, if I can't pass the assessment next week because of my low grades..."

"What stupid things are you talking about?" Wu Yifan patted Tao's head, "With us, and how could you not believe in yourself?"

"Yes, I should believe in myself." Tao blinked, "Because I have a reason to succeed!"

"What reason?"

"It's you!"

Probably because Huang Zitao's smile is so beautiful, Wu Yifan was stunned when he looked at it, as if... recently this kid has become more and more attractive.Probably because of self-confidence, I used to always be submissive, shrinking so that others can't pay attention to me.But now, because of his more self-confidence, he can show every shining point of himself in front of everyone, so he is getting more and more handsome!

With Huang Zitao like this, countless people will fall in love with him in the future.

Huang Zitao, who decided to fight, was worrying all day about what he would use for the next week's assessment. He made countless plans for himself and canceled them one by one.I also thought about listening to Brother Fan's suggestion to rap together, but I was afraid that because of myself it would affect Brother Fan's grades.I also know that Kim Moon Kyu also has an advantage among the trainees, it is difficult to be shaken by ordinary performances.But for a special performance, for me... there should only be...

Li Enshuo and a group of trainees came out of the company and were about to eat, but saw Jin Wenkui walking out in a hurry, so he looked suspiciously.

"Brother, what's wrong?"

"Do you see if that is Jin Wenkui?"

"That? It seems to be alas."

"Why is he still in the company? I remember seeing him and Kim Jong-in leave." Li Enshuo was sure that his memory was superb, but he couldn't figure out what was going on now.If we say that Lee Eun Suk's biggest shortcoming is that he likes to meddle in other people's business, and he likes to figure out things that are strange to him.

"Hey, you guys, wait here, I'll go and have a look."

Cautiously walked towards the direction where Jin Wenkui was, and saw that Jin Wenkui seemed to be waiting for someone to come by the corner of the wall.Not long after, a man of about thirty came.

"How is it?" Jin Wenkui asked immediately after seeing the man clearly.

"It's probably an agreement to use martial arts. I've been practicing recently."

"How are you practicing?"

"I can't understand that kind of thing, but it looks very powerful. It seems that you have to work harder."

"Stop talking nonsense, you can't find out what the company means?"

The man laughed twice, "You can't inquire about so many things with that money!"

Jin Wenkui held back his anger, "Don't you want to blackmail me more? Well, you go first!"

"Jin Wenkui, don't you focus on dancing? This time, if you can show your singing voice on the basis of dancing, it is more likely. If you are only talking about dancing, you are definitely not as good as Jin Zhongren. You can't lead the dance. Anyway, you are all-round... "

…………

Li Enshuo stepped back carefully, and walked back to the trainees in silence.

"Brother, what's wrong?"

"Who knows, I didn't hear clearly! Let's go, let's go to eat."

The next day, I watched Jin Junmian walk up to them with a big bag of food, and put it beside Huang Zitao very lovingly, "Tao, have you eaten breakfast? Don't practice too hard, save these for food, and then talk to brother explain."

"Well, thank you bro~"

Then Jin Junmian left contentedly...

The three people headed by Wu Yifan collectively petrified, could it be... what happened when we didn't know?

"Peach, brother Junmian..."

"He's a good man!" Huang Zitao blinked after answering the words readily.

Lu Han was puzzled, Jin Junmian never approached Chinese trainees easily, although he always treated each other with courtesy, it was precisely because of the courtesy that they could not get closer.The relationship between myself and Shixun should be regarded as a special case. Although this special case was not deliberately created, they also need this special case.If they didn't even have such a relationship with Sehun, their relationship with Kim Junmyeon and others should be even more embarrassing.All of them knew it in their hearts, especially Wu Yifan, so he admired Jin Junmian, but he couldn't make friends easily, was it because of his position?

But now...could it be Jin Junmian whom Huang Zitao took the initiative to befriend?Lu Han lowered his head to look at Huang Zitao who was happily looking at something delicious, and immediately overturned his point of view just now.Then... Jin Junmian must have taken the wrong medicine~

"Brother..." Wu Shixun pouted, looking sadly at Jin Junmian who came back.Why did you give the food to others today?Even if it's Tao...

"What's the matter? Don't you have a good relationship with Tao? Ask him to eat with you."

"But why didn't he look for me?" Shixun was still very upset, "Aren't you my brother!"

"Tao also calls me brother now..."

"Ah! Brother Junmian!!!"

Huang Zitao seemed relaxed and happy, but Wu Yifan knew that he had something on his mind, so he kept blocking it without saying it.No matter how well disguised Huang Zitao is, if there is no smile in his eyes, he can still tell at a glance.But he didn't want to say it, so he couldn't ask, because he didn't have that identity to interfere with everything about him.Wu Yifan is very rational, but... he hates his rationality.

What he said last night obviously had no effect, Huang Zitao didn't bring up the matter of the assessment with him, but often frowned, probably thinking about what to do.Wu Yifan was restless drinking water, Zhang Yixing took a look, "What's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing."

"...Don't worry, Jin Junmian is pretty good, and it's not a bad thing for him to be nice to Tao."

Wu Yifan looked up at Zhang Yixing, "What do you think...what's going on?"

"What's going on? If I didn't know Huang Zitao, I really thought he was such a smart person." Zhang Yixing sighed, "However, he can be considered smart, at least our unbreakable relationship has been changed by him. I think you should be the one who should be troubled."

"Why me?" Wu Yifan looked at Jin Junmian, who was still flirting with Byun Baek-hyun and the others, "If our fate is to be tied together in the future, this kind of result is also very good, isn't it?"

Zhang Yixing nodded slightly at an angle where no one could see, "That's right."

Huang Zitao did not follow him, Brother Fan, and went out of the company by himself, planning the combination of martial arts and singing, from real fists to gorgeous and beautiful performances, in fact, it is not easy.No one can teach him now, so he can only think for himself.After leaving the company, he was stopped by someone before he took a few steps.

"Ah, Huang Zitao, it seems that we are very destined!" Li Enshuo smiled,

"Senior? Why are you here?"

"Hey, it's said that I'm also from this company." Li Enshuo thought it was funny, "It's you, you didn't go with Wu Yifan and the others?"

"Well... I want to go for a walk by myself."

"Do you want to be so literary?" Li Enshuo felt that the panda in front of him was a little melancholy, "But I have always wanted to ask you something. I heard rumors that you had conflicts with Jin Wenkui. I didn't believe it at first, but recently I feel like real."

"Jin Wenkui?" Hearing this name, Huang Zitao couldn't help biting his lips. It was because of Jin Wenkui that his current life was so chaotic. Although he didn't want to think about it that way, but... he didn't want to mention that person anymore.

"It seems to be true." Li Enshuo nodded, "Then you have to be careful, he is not a simple person, pay more attention recently."

"I know."

War has been declared, how could it be treated carelessly?Huang Zitao thought it was funny, Brother Dong Hai's words really came true, his debut was indeed a war.Once careful and careless, every minute may be irreversible.This battle is too terrifying, the sudden cruelty, can I survive it?If you make it through, the sea and the sky will be bright, but once you lose, you can only leave without looking back, leaving this bloody but colorful world.

Huang Zitao is not stupid, nor is he as ignorant of the world as Wu Yifan thinks.He just doesn't want to think about it, he hopes to have a simple environment, so he regards the people around him as simple people.It seems that he thought it was a comedy, everyone in this world will be full of cuteness.

But the world cannot only exist in Huang Zitao's heart, this world is not a comedy, but a drama.There are joys and sorrows, and there are intrigues, which are completely unavoidable.Choosing to turn a blind eye is sometimes a reward for oneself, but what you see is still seen, Huang Zitao actually knows it all.

Brother Fan's side and Brother Junmian's side, it can't be that simple.

In the past, no one was willing to take the initiative to help him. When he had to rely on himself for everything, he didn't worry about it. Maybe it was because he was so busy that he didn't have the time and energy to think.But now that there are so many people who are kind to me, I will be distressed instead.Brother Fan's indifference to others highlights his kindness to himself.Sometimes he speaks harshly, but Huang Zitao knows that those educations are good for him, and he never refuses his request, which always makes Xiaolu jealous.It is not an exaggeration to say that I am dependent on Brother Fan.

Compared to Brother Fan, in fact, Brother Yixing is more like an older brother in his heart, he can make trouble in front of Brother Fan unscrupulously, but in front of the gentler Brother Yixing, he loves and respects him instead.Brother Yixing will listen to what he says, and the occasional "fear" of him is no different from the "fear" that other people's younger brothers have towards elder brothers.

The same goes for Xiaolu, who takes care of himself like a big brother, but doesn't look like a big brother, more like a playmate.Fight with him and laugh with him, compared to Brother Fan and Brother Yixing, Xiaolu seems to be of the same age.I don't know if it's because of his face that doesn't look like his brother at all?In fact, the Chinese really don't pay as much attention to the age gap as the Koreans. Can true respect only be expressed in terms of age?In China, honorifics and so on are never always used on people with such a relationship as they would feel that they are far away.Shouldn't true respect be in the heart?

There are also Shixun and Junmian brother, who had no in-depth contact before, and looked at them with envious eyes, but when they really walked into their world, they found that they were the same, very simple and kind people.He is very warm and interesting, and he is someone who can get along well and even become friends.Huang Zitao has never thought that nationality is so important, but that was his thought before coming to Korea. He used to think that no matter where the people are, the first is not still the same human beings?People and animals can be friends, why not between people?

But later he found out that he was wrong.

They're not animals, so they have something that animals don't have - a sense of honor and belonging.They are human beings, but since they were divided into countries, they are people from different countries and are different.

What I said in the past is the same, and what I said can't be narrow is too much.Not as severe, but their differences are still there.Just like Huang Zitao can’t help seeing the red flag at the airport and his eyes are hot; it’s like Huang Zitao’s eyes widen when he hears a Chinese word in a piece of Korean and looks around, even if he doesn’t find it, he feels relieved; Huang Zitao would be more angry because Brother Fan and others were gossiping than he was insulted.

That's because he still remembers his identity and never forgets his hometown.

People who treat themselves well even if they are not from the same country should be taken seriously.Huang Zitao knows that he is not the kind of person who can bring something to others, if someone treats him well, it is really good, and he should return his sincerity.

Therefore, he didn't want to participate in the open and secret battles between the two camps, so he could only pretend not to see it, otherwise, what could he do?This is probably why it is easy to be friends with Baekhyun without any burden. He is not exactly on Kim Junmyeon's team, so when we are with him, we can temporarily forget those complicated things.

When Huang Zitao came here, he promised his mother that he must persevere, and he has always had the character of reporting good news but not worrying. In the past, if he had any worries, he would go to the beach for a walk.Huang Zitao is a child who grew up by the sea, his personality is also like the sea, wide and delicate.

But there is no sea in Seoul.

Seoul has only the Han River.

Huang Zitao took out his phone, looking for someone to take him to the Han River for a while.But... who do you want to find?I don't want to bother them, and I don't want them to know what's on my mind. If it was Brother Fan and the others, they would easily see through me. Brother Junmian and the others... when they are so busy now...

Park Chanyeol just separated from Wu Shixun. Along the way, Wu Shixun kept complaining that Huang Zitao had become quiet recently, complaining that Brother Junmian began to spoil Huang Zitao more than him, complaining that even Lu Han said he was not as cute as Huang Zitao...

Huang Zitao, Huang Zitao... Since when did his life become full of Huang Zitao?

Just when I was thinking this way, when I looked up and saw the tall figure in front of me, why did I look so much like Huang Zitao?No, it’s not like, it’s just like that!Strange, didn't Bai Xian say that the panda was a road idiot?How dare you run so far away from the company by yourself?

"Hey, Huang Zitao!"

Hearing his name, Huang Zitao turned his head and saw that familiar face.I...it seems to be easy to see him.Huang Zitao thought silently, is it because that person is really conspicuous?Otherwise... is it because of fate?

Hurrying to get this thought out of his mind, Huang Zitao closed his eyes and shook his head vigorously.

"Hey, Huang Zitao!" Park Chanyeol ran a few steps to him, "What are you doing here?"

"Chanyeol, I want to go to the Han River."

"The Han River? Do you know where the Han River is?"

"..."

"I don't know? Then how are you going to go?"

"..." Huang Zitao didn't speak, just looked at him pitifully, Chanyeol felt as if he was bullying him, so his voice also quieted down.

"Can you find it?"

Huang Zitao shook his head slightly.

"Then I'll call Wu Yifan to pick you up for you." As he spoke, he was about to take out his phone.But soon, Huang Zitao stopped him with both hands, "No, don't call him."

"Did you quarrel?"

Huang Zitao still shook his head, hesitated for a moment, and asked cautiously, "Maybe...can you take me there?"

"I?"

"I'll just stay for 5 minutes, just 5 minutes... sorry to trouble you. Okay?"

"..."

Park Chanyeol never asked Wu Shixun why such a willful person would accommodate Huang Zitao intentionally or unintentionally.I also never asked Jun Mian why he decided to keep a certain distance from Wu Yifan and the others, but he still looked at Huang Zitao with a gentle smile.But now, he thought... he knew.

I can't refuse at all~

When Park Chanyeol brought Huang Zitao down from the bus, he gritted his teeth and thought, his brain must be broken!I wanted to ask Huang Zitao what he was doing here, but he saw that Huang Zitao seemed to be smelling the water and left. He had no choice but to follow. While following, he couldn't figure out what is so good about the Han River...

Huang Zitao walked along the Han River step by step, with his head down, he didn't know what he was thinking, he just walked forward step by step slowly but without stopping.It wasn't until we reached almost the middle that we stopped to look at the river.

Park Chanyeol also stopped there, he could feel the sadness surrounding Huang Zitao, scratching his head, is this a TV series? "Huang Zitao..."

Huang Zitao didn't raise his head, but his voice was damp, "It's not been 5 minutes yet."

"It's not here... But, are you crying?"

"……No."

Five seconds later, Gao Gao raised his head. Although his eyes were red, he really didn't shed tears.Park Chanyeol never knew how uncomfortable it is to look at others' fragility disguised by strength.But Huang Zitao used his little stubbornness to prepare to make the whole world recognize his strength. How could he expose him if he persisted like this?

"You stay a little longer, I'll go buy something to drink, anyway, I'm fine. But... stay away from the water, the wind is strong, you can see that your eyes are red..."

Chanyeol walked two steps, and heard Huang Zitao's wet voice behind him saying to him, "Thank you, Chanyeol."

"I'm taking care of you instead of Shixun!"

"……Ok, I know."

Huang Zitao's voice still lingered in his ears, the strings in his heart were gently plucked, and the sound that came out was also warm and clear, as if bewitching, making people's heart skip a few beats accidentally.

Huang Zitao is really a fairy!

Wu Yifan waited in the living room for nearly an hour, and finally waited for Huang Zitao who had regained his vitality.Hearing the sound of the door opening, Wu Yifan's already dark face turned gloomy again.

"Little Deer, I'm back~"

"You're back." Wu Yifan walked over, startling Huang Zitao at the door.

"Fan, Brother Fan?" Probably feeling Wu Yifan's bad mood, Huang Zitao carefully put away the shoes he took off, and then obediently looked up at him, "Why did you come back so early today?"

"And you, where have you been?"

"I……"

"Is it a secret again? Huang Zitao, should we talk about it?"

"Talk about... what?"

Wu Yifan took another two steps forward, the two of them almost bumped into each other.Huang Zitao had no way to retreat, and he didn't dare to look up at him again, so he lowered his head slightly.

"Huang Zitao, I thought we were one, and we should find each other immediately for anything. But unfortunately, it seems like I'm the only one who thinks this way, isn't it?"

"No, Brother Fan, I..."

"I don't want to force you, you don't want to say I try not to ask, but Huang Zitao, do you know that your acting skills are terrible!" Wu Yifan's emotions have been suppressed for too long, if he doesn't say it out, he is afraid that the panda will never I didn't know that I was waiting, waiting for him to be willing to confide in myself.

Huang Zitao was frightened, he thought he was pretending well... or did he see through?With a bitter smile, "What, I still want to be an actor in the future, Brother Fan, you start hitting me now."

"Are you practicing with me?"

"..."

Putting his hands on Huang Zitao's shoulders, Wu Yifan took a deep breath, tried to calm himself down, and forced a smile on his face, "Tao, I have experienced everything you are going through now, I must be more experienced than you, so you You should tell me, at least let me know whether the problem you are encountering is serious or not, and how serious it is. I believe that many things can be solved by yourself, but you still listen to my advice, and it’s okay to just complain if you don’t want to talk about it. Because... looking at the smile you tried to put on, I feel uncomfortable."

"Brother Fan..."

Why...you want to be so nice to me?It makes it impossible for me to choose to give up easily, I don't want to leave, I want to stay by your side, that's why I feel so uncomfortable now.Because I'm too afraid of losing, but neither of us can change anything, and it's better for me to suffer alone than everyone else.I have already decided to bear it alone. At this time, you still have to be so kind to me... Brother Fan, I will feel even more uncomfortable, I will collapse, and I will hold you and cry!

Huang Zitao's tearful eyes trembled slightly, and his eyelashes were wet, like a drowning kitten.

Wu Yifan held him tightly in his arms with distress, one hand seemed to break his waist, and the other hand stroked his head, afraid that the person in his arms would be frightened, so he gently hugged him He said in his ear, "It's okay, you don't have to answer anything when you pretend that I haven't said those words."

The panda's muffled voice came from the neck, "I'm sorry, but Brother Fan, I will definitely solve that matter, and I will really smile by your side."

I can't say it, but I can feel your unique tenderness.Burying his face on Wu Yifan's shoulder, he shed tears while smiling, his eyes were blurred, but his heart was no longer empty, as if he had found support, he was completely at ease.

The two hugged each other at the door, closed their eyes and felt each other's heartbeat, beating together with the one in their chest.

When Zhang Yixing walked to the door, he saw such a scene. He was shocked at first, then the light in his eyes flickered, and he forcefully opened the half-closed door.

When the two heard the noise, they separated quickly, with embarrassment on their faces.Of course Zhang Yixing saw the wet tears on Huang Zitao's face, and pretended to look at them indifferently, "You guys... at least close the door."

After speaking, he didn't look at them any more, and went directly into the house.

"Brother Yixing, no, we..." Afraid that Yixing might misunderstand something, Huang Zitao wanted to explain clearly, but was stopped by Wu Yifan.

"Don't worry, Yixing won't think too much about it, you...go and wash your face."

"...Yeah." He replied coyly, without even daring to lift his head, Huang Zitao rushed into the bathroom directly, and then the living room returned to silence...

However, cracks appeared on Wu Yifan's habitually paralyzed face, it was a slightly unfamiliar smile.