love is not allowed in hell

This past event is undoubtedly a forbidden place in Gu Liye's heart.

He was seven years old and was forced by the emperor to kill his father.He didn't dare to make a move, but for him and his younger brother, his father Gu Chensheng resolutely slammed into the sword in his hand, and killed himself with his hand.

His father was wronged because of his good intentions, but he couldn't cry for his father's injustice, or even weep for his father.He could only watch Gu Fu's bones were completely burned by the fire ordered by the emperor, and watched his father and mother burn to dry bones, but he couldn't even shed a single tear.

Because the emperor was watching him.

The emperor is the son of heaven, the sky.If he doesn't let him cry, he will never cry.If he wants him to hate his father, he must hate his father.

So for the next 12 years, he couldn't open his mouth to complain, and he had to behave calmly about the events of the year.

Gu Liye looked down at his hands, silent for a long time.His eyes were red, and he felt that he seemed to have said something incoherently, but he couldn't remember what he said. He only heard the sound of people dying in Gu's mansion burned by the fire, and the people who were driven out to death under the crime of wanting to commit crimes. screams.

There are also the words that the late emperor praised him with a smile when he was young but loyal.It has been more than 12 years since these words, but the power of punishing the heart has only increased.

After he floated and struggled in the tormenting memory for a long time like falling into the deep sea, he was suddenly pulled by someone, and then fell into an embrace.

He smelled a cold fragrance.

The person holding him pressed his back and hair, pressed him into his arms, patted his back lightly as if to comfort him, and stroked his hair.

"Stop talking," he said, "Emperors are such bastards. I know you didn't kill me. I knew you didn't kill me the first time I saw you. I believe you."

Gu Liye's red eyes suddenly widened.

After so many years, even if the emperor gave an order not to mention this matter again, he never said not to talk about Gu Liye.Therefore, many people will talk about Gu Liye, the son of the criminal minister, after tea and dinner or in the dead of night, poking his spine and laughing to ridicule him for his natural rebellion.

"It's really a crime", "What kind of father can have what kind of son", "The Gu family really has no good things", "You can do such evil things at a young age", "You really are not human".

And so on.

Gu Liye got used to being poked in the spine, so he became numb.Since a long time ago, he has not shed a tear for this.

But suddenly a ray of light pierced the darkness where he was.Instead of the words wrapped in sharp knives and piercing his spine, it said, "I believe in you".

"I know you didn't kill it."

As a result, the fortified city that Gu Liye spent 12 years building collapsed in an instant, and his tears burst out.

He hugged Xie Renjian tightly and broke down crying.Even so, the forbearance and vigilance he has accumulated over the years will not disappear, he only dares to cry in Xie Renjian's arms.Even in this kind of border area where the emperor's hands couldn't reach him, he didn't dare to cry too loudly.

For him, there are dangers everywhere in this world, except Xie Ren.

Xie Renjian patted him on the back lightly, while hugging him, he lowered his eyes.

He thought of the kind-hearted face of the late emperor, and thought that when his father died, the late emperor was waiting for him at the door, and when he came out, he hugged him with regret.

Thank you for remembering what he said.He said, "Although Wen Yue is dead, the Xie family is still there, and so are the mountains and rivers."

Wen Yue is Old Master Xie and his father.

What the late emperor said back then was deeply affectionate, and his eyes were filled with regret.Thinking about it now, what was written in his eyes and face might not be love or regret, but drama.

Xie Renjian suddenly felt a little nauseous.

It has to be said that like a father like a son is very credible, the new emperor's dog temper must have been inherited from his dog father, both of them are sons of bitches.

Xie Renjian scolded quietly in his heart.

He hugged Gu Liye like this for a long time.

Gu Liye cried for a long time.This grievance has been buried in his heart for 12 years, and it has accumulated and accumulated over the past 12 years. If this grievance can germinate, it must have grown into a towering tree in his heart.Xie Renjian hugged him until his hands were numb, but he didn't let go, not even a little bit of force.

After a long, long time, the crying in his arms gradually subsided.Then, Gu Liye was sobbing and choking in his arms for a long time, and then choked up and said, "Why didn't they let me go..."

Xie Renjian didn't speak, he patted Gu Liye on the back and told him silently that he was there.

He felt that Gu Liye hugged him a little harder.Then, he heard the person in his arms take a breath, and said again: "I really... just want to be free."

"...Is this request too much?"

"Not too much." Xie Renjian said, "It's normal."

Gu Liye opened his mouth and was about to speak again, but Xie Renjian continued his words.

"When I drive back all the foreigners, I will give up the military power. Then marry you, disarm and return to the fields, and find a place to live a clean life. It's better than watching those bastards look alive in the capital."

Gu Liye was stunned for a moment, then laughed.

Xie Renjian thought he was happy, but only Gu Liye understood that he was smiling wryly.

He knew in his heart that this was impossible.As long as the new emperor is still alive and those officials are still in the capital, Gu Liye will never be able to get out of the Gu mansion.

He understands it better than anyone else.

Gu Liye hugged Xie Renjian a little greedily for a long time, then reluctantly let go of him, sat up, took a breath, changed the subject and said, "By the way, you know. Because of this incident, I later I went on a hunger strike for ten days in disgust."

"I don't know if it was too much shock or I got sick from hunger, so I was anorexic." Gu Liye smiled bitterly again, and said, "It was my brother who cried at the door of my room for three whole days before crying me out." gone."

He laughed again.

The smile was as calm as before, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, as if he didn't care, as if the collapse and grievance just now were just an illusion.

Xie Renjian frowned.

He didn't like Gu Liye suppressing himself like this, but he also understood that Gu Liye had to suppress himself like this.

Thousands of pairs of eyes in the capital were staring at him.

Chen Liye's eyes suddenly went dark.

Immediately afterwards, Chen Liye felt a snowstorm blowing in front of him.But this wind and snow is a little softer than the cold wind in deep winter, not as sharp as a knife in deep winter.

He felt light in front of him.

Afterwards, the darkness in front of him gradually faded, and a scene slowly appeared in front of his eyes.He found himself standing on the city gate, in front of him was the snow field outside the pass, and there were continuous mountain peaks in the distance, and the setting sun set between the mountains, casting a layer of orange light at dusk on the originally white snow field.On the snow field, a bunch of frontier troops came in and out, and some of them were holding three or two people dressed as foreigners, who should be prisoners.

On this snow field, there are not only people.There were some tents and bonfires, and some bones that had been mostly buried in the snow.These dead bones are old and new, and there are even some people whose bones are not yet cold.

Gu Liye leaned his upper body, lying on the city gate, looked at the scene expressionlessly with his head down, the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled all over his body.Yu Hui was able to warm up the snowfield, but he couldn't warm the frozen expression on his face.

"It's terrible."

Someone came and crunched the snow.

Gu Liye turned his head away.The person who came was Xie Renjian, he was wearing a black robe fluttering in the wind, making noise.

As he walked towards Gu Liye, he said, "You have this expression when there is no one around, but you have a different expression when there are people around. Are you really fierce?"

"If I usually saw people with this expression, wouldn't I have been told that I would definitely rebel against you?" Gu Liye smiled at him, and then turned his head to look at the snowfield scenery outside the pass. This time his expression was much softer, and he said with a smile, "Nowadays, people start to make conspiracy theories when they catch something big or small. I am so gentle every day, and I even say that I want to rebel. If I put on a vicious look every day, I will be guillotined in the morning. "

"Really." Xie Renjian raised his eyebrows and said, "I think your younger brother is really happy every day. They both have the same surname Gu, so why are their temperaments different?"

"Then isn't he having fun with you?" Gu Liye said helplessly, "He admires you so much, of course he smiles in front of you every day."

"What about you." Xie Renjian said again, "You also smile in front of me every day."

"Of course I like you."

"..."

Xie Renjian's face was visibly reddened by the sunset glow in the sky.

Seeing this, Gu Liye laughed twice and said, "Are you shy?"

Xie Renjian was so stubborn as to die: "No!!"

"Well, then not." Gu Liye said with a smile, "Come here, watch the sunset with me, this is the last time."

Hearing this, Xie Renjian froze in place as he was going forward, and his brows furrowed even deeper: "What unlucky words are you talking about?"

"Tell the truth." Gu Liye said with a smile, "I'm leaving tomorrow."

"..."

"The foreigners are all gone. As long as Saibei maintains the status quo, of course I won't be needed anymore." Gu Liye said, "If I stay here shamelessly, the new emperor will only hurt the relationship between you and me." Suspicion, when the time comes, I will even suspect that I want to rebel. I have to go back, I don’t want you to be poked in the back with me. I can bear this kind of shit alone. "

"I don't care." Xie Renjian walked up to him and said, "I'd rather be poked together with you, lest you have to carry everything by yourself."

Gu Liye laughed twice: "Don't be kidding."

Xie Renjian frowned: "I'm not joking."

"I'm not kidding either."

"..."

"I don't want you to be with me." Gu Liye said, "Marquis Jing An wants to be famous forever, don't be like me."

Xie Renjian was not convinced, and his brows furrowed even deeper: "Then you should be reprimanded through the ages?"

"No." Gu Liye said, "Didn't we all agree?"

"..."

Xie Renjian stopped talking.

He turned his head without saying a word, leaned forward, and half of his body lay on the wall of the city gate.

The wind at dusk in Saibei blows the hair on his forehead fluttering, and the afterglow of the setting sun can't warm the ice on his face either.He seemed to be Saibei's wind and Saibei's snow, able to invade everything and not be shaken by anything.

He just stared straight ahead without saying a word.

He looked ahead, and Gu Liye looked at him.After the two of them were silent with each other for a while, Gu Liye asked, "What are you thinking?"

"I wonder if there will be a day when you rebel."

"..."

"Will you rebel?"

Xie Renjian turned to look at him while talking.

The smile on Gu Liye's face has disappeared.

He just looked at Xie Renjian like that, expressionless, but there was a trace of pain in his eyes.

This question seemed to implicate every blood vessel in his heart, and he felt that his heart was tangled and painful as if the blood was being sucked out slowly.Chen Liye felt it, he felt it, 2000 years ago, he must have been unable to sleep over this problem every night.

Gu Liye remained silent for a long time, not knowing what he was thinking.

The wind was howling around, and after a long time, Gu Liye smiled miserably at Xie Renjian and said, "I don't know."

"..."

"I really don't know." Gu Liye said, "Someone told me not to rebel."

Xie Renjian didn't ask him who that person was, he just raised his eyebrows and heard what he said: "But you want to go against it."

"..." Gu Liye was silent for a moment, then said, "Maybe."

He still hasn't come to a conclusion, perhaps because he's still struggling.

Xie Renjian withdrew his gaze, and didn't ask any more questions, let alone force him to make a choice, he just said: "If you have the intention of instigating rebellion someday, just put a vertical line on the letter. No need for him to say, as long as I receive it Letter, immediately lead the border army thousands of horses to kill back to the capital, I will go directly to take off the dog head of the dog emperor and give it to you. At that time, you will directly take him to the old Gu's mansion and burn his dog head Giving it to your father is also an explanation to that old man's evil spirit."

Gu Liye was in the middle of the ice and snow, but he felt his heart burn instantly.

But he could only smile helplessly and said, "Don't scold the Holy Majesty."

Xie Renjian snorted coldly and stopped talking, as if he was a little unhappy.

"Don't be unhappy." Gu Liye comforted him helplessly, and said, "Okay, I was wrong. If I really want to rebel one day, I will definitely draw a line for you."

Xie Renjian frowned again, becoming more unhappy: "It's not because of this."

"What's that for?"

Xie Renjian tilted his head to glance at him, then quickly looked away: "Spring is leaving."

"...?"

Gu Liye didn't understand what he meant for a while, and said in a daze: "No, isn't this just the vernal equinox? There is still half of spring."

"...Not that one!!"

Xie Renjian seemed to be in a hurry, turned his head and yelled angrily, then slumped down again, like a deflated ball, muttering softly: "Why are you so stupid..."

Gu Liye didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so he could only coax him in a good voice: "Okay, I'm stupid. Then tell me, why did you say that spring is leaving?"

"..."

Xie Renjian blushed again.His voice was as low as a mosquito buzzing, and he muttered: "...you..."

Gu Liye blinked, a little dazed: "Huh?"

"...I said you!!" Xie Renjian was in a hurry, turned his head and shouted, "What spring do I have if you are gone!!"

Gu Liye was dumbfounded by his shouting.

His brain froze for several seconds before he finally understood what Xie Renjian meant.

For him, Gu Liye is the warm spring in these nine cold days.

When Gu Liye left, Spring also left with him, and it was always a merciless winter in Saibei.

Xie ren seldom talks about love, he is the least sweet talker, after finally gathering enough courage to shout this sentence, his face turned red as if he was going to explode, he didn't have the courage to look at Li Ye, turned around After turning his head, he lay down on the wall of the city gate again, with his head hanging down and smoke rising from his face.

It may be more difficult for him to say this than to lead the border army to conquer a big country.

Gu Liye laughed and was so happy that he walked up to him and called out: "—"

It is estimated that the name was called, and the sound was directly silenced.

Chen Liye had no way of knowing Xie Renjian's real name.

When Xie Renjian was called by him, he trembled all over, blushed and turned his head and shouted: "What are you doing!?"

Gu Liye smiled at him in the cold wind.

He said, "You are my world."

The author has something to say: I only write one chapter if I have a problem today, and I will make up the double update that I promised today~

And although no one asked, but explain orz, the eunuch did not mention the matter of patricide before because the emperor had ordered that something was added to the previous chapters. In the first memory, Mr. Shali said something about 12 years ago. But the eunuch dare not say it~ I am afraid that the duck will turn around and tell the new emperor orz

Memories kill here and it's over! Brothers, let's count down to the next attack! !