Slag Gong Love History

"Brother, I...can't sleep."

"I spent many, many days at school... I couldn't fall asleep all the time, and I would wake up at the slightest movement. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fall asleep."

"I can't listen to the teacher's lecture, I obviously want to listen..."

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I often feel very uncomfortable. I want to cry but I can't figure out why I cry. I'm afraid of dark places, afraid of being alone, but I don't want to go to crowded places, and I don't want to be with those people. People talk."

"Brother, I'm not pretending." He looked at Zhou Zhuchen sadly, with cautious fragility in his eyes: "I didn't want to keep you by my side...that's why I became like this on purpose and said such things on purpose."

"I know, I know." Zhou Zhuchen rubbed his messy hair, feeling a sharp pain in his chest.

He suddenly discovered that there were many things that he never seemed to think about carefully.

Xiao Kong has always been very good.

Has always been very obedient, has always been very sensible and cute.Never willful.

Zhou Zhuchen had always thought that this was a good way to save trouble and worry, and even regarded this kind of cuteness as Xiao Kong's nature.

However, how many ordinary children are never self-willed?

Over the years, Xiao Kong never seemed to ask him to "accompany me", never took the initiative to say what he wanted to eat, never begged for any gifts.

He helped with housework, studied hard, and showed no signs of rebellion throughout adolescence.

But is this really normal? !

Zhou Zhuchen did take care of this child for a period of time, and also persuaded Xiao Hao to give him food and clothing and send him to school, but to put it bluntly, all he did was nothing more than that. At other times, did he really care for Xiao Kong even a little bit with his heart? ?

Do you really want to try to understand what is going on in that child's mind?

Just because he never spoke, doesn't mean he doesn't have what he wants.

He has never done anything wrong, maybe it's just because he is walking on thin ice every day with great efforts, for fear that if he does something wrong, he will be abandoned again.

He once said that he didn't know how to please people.

He had already said that, but Zhou Zhuchen still didn't notice that the child was always careful to please others.

Still like everyone else, he took such hard work and reluctance as Xiao Kong's nature and took it for granted.

Xiao Kong will become what he is now, not due to pressure and worries overnight.

And the matter between himself and Ren Xin was just the last straw that broke the camel's back.

I lived under the fence at a young age, and my biological parents didn't have a decent one. I had to listen to my half-brother calling "little oil bottle" and "little oil bottle" every day, worrying that one day I would become homeless again .

In such a situation, Zhou Zhuchen also knew that the person Xiao Kong trusted the most should be himself. According to Ren Xin, he was "like a life-saving straw" to him, but what was this "life-saving straw" like? What happened?

When Xiao Kong alienated himself inexplicably, he let him alienate him, and never asked why from the beginning to the end.

He was angry and said that he never wanted to see him again, so he wisely never looked for him again.

Is this approach really over the top?

That child was already very insecure, and was treated with such indifference, how would he feel?

But Xiao Kong silently endured all the cruelty.

Not only have I endured it, but I have to study hard, keep smiling, be obedient, be sensible, and endure.But he himself is not that strong at all, it's no wonder he doesn't collapse in the end!

The more Zhou Zhuchen thought about it, the more he felt that he was very responsible for Xiao Kong becoming like this.

He needs to take good care of him, no matter how long or hard, until he recovers.

……

Obviously at school, it is said that there is a little movement and he cannot fall asleep, but at home, Xiao Kong can only sleep peacefully when Zhou Zhuchen is with him.

"The sound of my brother's breathing reassures me."

So when he was going to sleep, Zhou Zhuchen would always lie beside him and hold his hand until he fell asleep.

During that time, Zhou Zhuchen read a lot of materials given by the doctor, and also searched a lot of related information on the Internet. Although he couldn't personally understand what kind of torture Xiao Kong was going through, he knew that this was definitely not what Xiao Hao thought. Hypocrisy is not because Xiao Kong wants to become like this subjectively, nor is it something that can be controlled.

Depression is not a mental illness that can be easily cured.

Zhou Zhuchen originally wanted to help, he thought that there must be something he could do for Xiao Kong.Maybe encouraging him, taking care of him and caring for him can make him recover soon, but after reading all the materials, I found that I have nothing to do except to accompany him well.

It's useless to comfort him, and it's basically useless to motivate him.It's not even that if you try hard to make yourself fall in love with him and let him get what he wants, he will get better.

This disease comes slowly.

In the days that followed, Xiao Kong was still taking medicine, and his emotional state was up and down.Sometimes it seems that there are some signs of improvement, and the subsequent depression and pessimism are beyond the understanding of ordinary people.He often couldn't eat and couldn't sleep, and sometimes he seemed to want to say something to Zhou Zhuchen, but gave up halfway, as if he was afraid of saying something wrong or doing something wrong and being hated.

……

"Oh, you really believe it. I think he is just playing tricks. Now it is considered a success, isn't it?"

"Xiao Kong is not that kind of person, Xiao Hao, if you don't understand, don't talk nonsense! Please read carefully the information that the doctor gave you once in a while, okay?"

"Is it someone like that... It's really hard to say, after all, there is such a magical mother, isn't it? Maybe he also inherited the brain-dead way of thinking of that professional mistress."

Xiao Hao rolled his eyes while artistically peeling his long apple, but suddenly saw the bedroom door open a crack from the corner of his eye.And Xiao Kong was standing at the crack of the door, looking at this side with a pair of empty eyes like a creature in a ghost movie.

"What the hell are you doing! It will scare people to death in broad daylight, okay?"

Xiao Kong pushed open the door without saying a word, and walked towards him step by step unsteadily.

Xiao Hao instinctively sensed the danger.

"Hey, what do you want? Don't come here!"

Although both he and Zhou Zhuchen are still treating Xiao Kong as a child, they are no longer a child after all.Xiao Kong, who is fast, has almost caught up with Xiao Hao in height. Although he is sick and thin, the savagery in his eyes at this moment is like a little wolf who is about to pounce on him and tear people apart in the next second.

"Don't you just say bad things about that irresponsible mother of yours? Are you sure about it?" Xiao Hao's brain just twitched at that time, and he put the fruit knife for peeling apples in front of him for some reason: "Let's not give up!" Here we come, do you hear me? I’m being rude to you!”

After the words fell, Xiao Kong rammed directly at the fruit knife.

"Damn——" Xiao Hao retracted his arm at the last moment, and the blade stabbed back and scratched his tiger's mouth. He was still thinking about Amitabha's catastrophe, and then the collar was lifted, and Xiao Kong Pressing him against the wall behind him, his pale arm was surprisingly powerful at this moment.

"Don't...don't be impulsive! Cough...what are you trying to do? You're crazy! You're looking for death if it's so dangerous! Woo..."

"Xiao Kong, calm down! Calm down!"

Zhou Zhuchen almost used all his strength to separate the two. Xiao Hao leaned against him and coughed. He patted Xiao Hao's back, while Xiao Kong was stunned. That paring knife.

"Fucking Xiaokong! Put down the knife!"

The blade was stained with glaring blood, Xiao Kong held up the fruit knife blankly, and heard Zhou Zhuchen yelling "Put it down!"

Xiao Kong didn't know what he had done either.Suddenly a shock made him wake up like a dream, and he saw a large tear on Zhou Zhuchen's sleeve, and a five- to six-inch-long incision was bleeding.

The strength of Xiao Kong's entire body was suddenly drained, and the knife fell to the ground.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I, I..."

As if he couldn't breathe, tears streamed down his face.

Immediately afterwards, the body was wrapped in a warm embrace.Zhou Zhuchen stroked his hair, and kept comforting him softly regardless of his wound.

"Okay, it's okay, it's okay."

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I didn't...I didn't mean to..."

"I know, it's fine."

"I, I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm sorry, brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

But no matter how Zhou Zhuchen tried to comfort him, he couldn't calm down, so he finally fell asleep until he was exhausted from crying.

……

"I finally fell asleep. God, this is really not a normal situation... So is that kid crazy now? Is he suffering from depression or neuropathy?"

Xiao Hao's hands had already been wrapped layer by layer, and he was using alcohol to apply iodine to a not-so-deep cut on Zhou Zhuchen's arm.

"You should at least read the information given by the doctor, and then go online to check the relevant news," Zhou Zhuchen sighed, "It's fine if you don't understand Xiaokong's illness, and I don't expect you to understand, but I beg you. In order to save face, don't provoke him any more, okay?"

After this bloody incident, Xiao Hao's incomprehensible attitude finally subsided a lot.

And the specific way he "restrained" was that he simply didn't bother to go home, and he didn't know which concubine he was living with.

Zhou Zhuchen felt that this would not work, that Xiao Hao could not have a home and nowhere to go back, so he simply took Xiao Kong to live in his dormitory.The house is small and easy to clean, the two of us stay quietly every day, he works hard every day to make delicious food, read interesting books and movies with him, and try to make the child never feel lonely and boring.

During that time, it was the Chinese New Year holiday, Zhou Zhuchen didn't even go home to take care of Xiao Kong, and all his thoughts were devoted to him.

Until one day when school was about to start, he went downstairs to buy groceries when he was suddenly grabbed by a man from behind.

"Call the beast."

Zhou Zhuchen was silently startled when he heard the familiar voice.

"I am back."