Slag Gong Love History

Xiao Kong actually experienced the painful days over there to the point where he needed to self-mutilate, he didn't know until today.

When Xiao Kong was facing the dark days like hell, he did nothing for Xiao Kong at all, not even a word of comfort.Even so, the child still foolishly flew back to comfort the lovelorn self, and was willing to say that he liked him, but he hadn't even given him a decent answer until now.

Why... would you like someone like me?

It's not worth it at all!

You are so good, there must be better people - to put it bluntly, there are better people everywhere, whoever you like may be happier than me, right? !

If it was someone else, they would definitely cherish you immensely.

It will definitely not make you feel uncomfortable and wronged again and again like me.

……

"Brother, don't cry. Don't cry! I'm really fine!"

"I don't know... I don't know anything! I haven't even been to England to see you once in more than a year!"

"I know, it's Teacher Shu who told you not to come to see me. It's not my brother's fault!"

"But I should obviously go to see you! You're having such a bad time over there, but I don't even know!"

"Brother, it's all over...I'm fine now, aren't I?"

Xiao Kong sighed, and smiled helplessly: "It's really not as serious as you think."

"Although when I first arrived in the UK, it was not very good for a while... I couldn't adapt to the life there, and I felt like I couldn't breathe every moment. I thought of you, and I regretted the decision to go to the UK. At that time, my mind was full All I think about is just giving up like this, so that I can return to you as soon as possible."

"So, while I was still sane, I gave my phone to Tutor Shu. I told him, no matter how much I begged him, don't give it back to me. Otherwise, I'm afraid I'll cry and beg you to pick me up and call me back. It is said that it will be hit a hundred times."

"There was a very low period of time in the middle... At that time, I couldn't control myself, and I asked my tutor to return the phone to me several times. I couldn't talk to you and Xiao Hao, which made me feel very desperate. Because it is too painful, only by killing myself can I feel a little sober pleasure. But after I get better, I won’t do it again.”

"The one on the head is also... One day, I didn't know what happened, and fell down the stairs with the handrail. I didn't realize what I had done until I woke up a few days later."

"But it was that time, maybe because I almost fell to my death, but my mind started to clear up..."

"I was lying on the hospital bed, thinking about a lot of things. I remembered things from when I was a child, and all kinds of things later... Then I kept thinking about you, from the first time we met until the last parting, over and over again Think everywhere."

"Then I gradually figured out a very simple question, that is... I still want to see you."

"Because I still want to see you, I have to make it through."

"So I forced myself to work hard. When the situation improved a little, I rewarded myself and asked my counselor to send you a short message. Every time I receive your reply, it can help me through a lot of difficult times."

"Later, it gradually got better. The institution also helped me apply for the school together. In the fall, I officially enrolled there."

"..."

"What about me...Actually, even now, I still can't be considered completely normal." Xiao Kong said the scary content before, completely like telling other stories, and said with a smile: "But I always They are all working hard and trying to control themselves. Since entering school, they basically don’t have bad emotions anymore.”

"only……"

"Originally... I wanted to wait for a few more years, when I'm completely cured, then brother, you might have the seven-year itch or something, and then take advantage of that time to snatch you back."

When he said this, he finally showed an uneasy expression, and lowered his head slightly.

"Because, because I planned it that way, I, I'm completely unprepared to turn around like this now. What to say to you, what to do...how to make you like me, I don't know at all. "

"I've been thinking hard on the plane and I can't figure out how to make you look at me... Do you know that feeling? I'm actually really scared. It's like going to the biggest event of your life The important thing can determine the fate of the exam, but not only did I fail to review well, I even didn't know what the exam content was!"

"But even so, I still have to come back."

"Because I'm afraid...after the time is over, you will fall in love with someone else again. So I must rush back as soon as possible and try to make you mine. Although I also know that like me...I still want you to like me , but it’s just wishful thinking.”

"I regret it now. I regret that I didn't tell you my heart earlier in high school. At that time, I always wanted to become an adult, and after I became a person who could be recognized by you, I would talk to you with my chest raised."

"But the result... the me now is not as good as it was then, I can't even be considered normal, but I still say that I like you with the cheek here."

"If I had known it would become like this, I would have told you in the first year of high school. If it were me at that time, maybe I would be more hopeful, right? Brother, if I can completely change back to the way I was before... "

Zhou Zhuchen didn't speak all the time, because after hearing this, his breathing was already as difficult as a dried up fish.Can't speak at all.

He hugged Xiao Kong back tightly, and hugged the distressed child tightly into his arms.

It's just ridiculous...so ridiculous.

He couldn't understand what Xiao Kong was thinking at all.

What is "not even normal"?What is "cheek-skinned" saying that you like yourself?

You, Xiao Kong, let alone depression, even if you are crazy and paralyzed, ordinary people will only feel that it is my honor to serve you, right?

Why do you feel inferior to someone like me?

What the hell do you think?

Why on earth do you think that way?

An ordinary person like me is just, obviously just...

Why on earth do you think it is a "luxury wish" for me to fall in love with you?

But there were too many things to say, Zhou Zhuchen felt that he couldn't explain to Xiao Kong at all for a while.In addition, his own thinking is indeed very chaotic, and it has been a mess since Xiao Kong came back, but at this moment, a sliver of sober consciousness finally appeared in the chaos that has always been——

He pushed Xiao Kong away, the child was a little stunned and sad for a moment, and then his eyes widened because Zhou Zhuchen kissed him.

In the room, only the sound of the air conditioner was ringing, and the cicadas outside the window were also chirping loudly.

……

Originally, Zhou Zhuchen still had many, many, many concerns.

He knew soberly from beginning to end that he and Xiao Kong were not compatible.

Although Xiao Kong has said many times that his feelings for him are love, Zhou Zhuchen still always has doubts. He always feels that maybe one day Xiao Kong will look back and find that it is just pure obsession and dependence.

Even if it is really love, Xiao Kong is still young after all.

A few years younger than Ren Xin.

Given the platform that the child is currently on, and the limitless future, the people he will meet and the world he will see in the future are likely to be much broader and more exciting than what Ren Xin sees.

There is always a voice in my heart who can't stop laughing softly at Zhou Zhuchen—do you really think you are qualified to accept this person's love?

With him, you really climbed too high.You are not compatible at all, and it is absolutely impossible for you to have a good death like this.

He likes you now, just because he is innocent.

But people will grow up after all.

Nine times out of ten, they will end up in a very miserable situation. Even if they kneel down to beg him, they will still be ruthlessly abandoned.

……

People are different, and what they pursue and value are often not the same.

If it was Chen Du, he might know that there would be no result, but he would immediately and bravely go to the flame without hesitation.

But Zhou Zhuchen was not such a person since he was a child.

He longs for stability, and has an inexplicably high self-esteem that comes from nowhere.In order to maintain such self-esteem, he often uses rationality and occasional indifference to protect himself layer by layer. People who have close contact with him, once they penetrate to a certain level, can clearly feel such an invisible glass partition.

All along, he has used this method to protect himself from harm, and also used this method to force himself to successfully stand at the height of God that "I don't even look down on Xiao Hao".

When facing Ren Xin, he finally tried his best to remove the partition, and the feeling of getting hurt in the end was really uncomfortable.

If the object was changed to Xiao Kong's, he would be really scared.

Because Zhou Zhuchen will never have any precautions against that child—the relative consequence is that if Xiao Kong unleashes destructive power on him one day, the destructive power will definitely be so great that no one has ever seen it before or since. Whether the glass heart that has never suffered any decent injuries can bear it.

I don't want to fall into such a miserable situation, and I don't want my heart to be broken into dregs.

He had been secretly thinking this before.

But at this moment, all those selfish thoughts finally became passing clouds.

As he kissed Xiao Kong, he only had one simple thought——

I want you to be happy.

So, at least when you still like me and still need me, it is enough to make you feel happy and satisfied.

Even if I really need to pay the price of sadness and heartbreak later, then I will admit it.

As long as you can show a smile in front of me now, then everything is worth it.