Forced to start CP business with ex-boyfriend

Chu Huaixun was startled again: "Innate?"

"Well, I didn't tell you about my biological father, did I? That's what he looks like." Mo Ruifan let out a breath, and raised his head to look into Chu Huaixun's eyes through the darkness.

"When my father and my mother were in love, they showed great enthusiasm and love to my mother, they were gentle, courteous, and talented, so they quickly fell in love, got married soon and had me.

"However, a few years later, he suddenly lost his love for my mother overnight. He loved so passionately before, but he was so indifferent when he parted. He confessed to my mother that he was born like this, and his emotions had obvious differences. In stages, when a certain point is reached, the previous emotions will disappear instantly.

"My mother didn't believe it at first, and thought he was having an affair—but after she investigated, she found out that he wasn't lying, and finally divorced. During the divorce, he voluntarily left the house and left the house without a trace of nostalgia. No matter to me Mom still treats me like a stranger."

Speaking of this, Mo Ruifan's tone was a little self-deprecating, "When my mother told me before, I thought it was his excuse - how could there be such abnormal people in the world? No Amnesia, emotion should be continuous, even if it disappears, it will take a long time. The reason why it disappears for a moment is an excuse, right?

"——Until I was in elementary school, I suddenly lost interest in the games I liked very much before.

"No reason, no reason, no amnesia, I still remember the fun experience when I played the game, but completely lost interest in touching it again. After that, the same situation happened many times, whether it is games or anime Whether it’s good or hobbies, at a certain moment on a certain day, I can no longer be interested in contact. My mother also discovered this, and advised me that if I’m not sure I can love someone for a long time, don’t fall in love with the scourge other people."

Chu Huaixun's figure was frozen in the darkness, and it took a long time before he asked slowly: "Three years ago..."

"Three years ago... I was still in the rebellious period." Mo Ruifan scratched his head, his voice filled with guilt, "When I saw you in the bar, I felt that you were different from other people, maybe you can be cured My inexplicable defect...and that person is indifferent to all emotions—including family affection, but my feelings for my family are normal, so I thought I might be saved..."

Finally, Mo Ruifan sincerely apologized - "I'm sorry."

Chu Huaixun was silent for a while, then suddenly asked: "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Mo Ruifan understood and was a little surprised, but immediately laughed easily: "Fortunately, although this is indeed different from ordinary people, I don't find it difficult to accept. If you are not interested in this matter, just change it. If I don’t think I have the ability to love someone for a long time, then I won’t fall in love. Although sometimes it’s troublesome, but no matter what, it’s a part of who I am, and I still like myself very much.”

Chu Huaixun looked at Mo Ruifan through the darkness, and suddenly felt a little sore in his heart.

It was not until today that he got to know Mo Ruifan again.

In his eyes, Mo Ruifan is always confident and optimistic, he will raise his fist at the gangsters without thinking, and he is still full of air even if he is framed, as if he has never had any troubles.

But what did Mo Ruifan feel behind this when he knew that he could not maintain his feelings for a person or an event for a long time?

Humans are social creatures, and most of us resist being alone and want to connect with other people.

Whether it is love, friendship, or family affection, they are all satisfying people's own emotional needs.

But Mo Ruifan is different.

He has emotional needs, but he can't guarantee that he can give the other party enough emotional response; his family has been hurt in this regard, so he chooses not to take the path of selfishness.

So he refuses to respond to his emotions.

It's not because I don't like him, but because I'm afraid of not liking him and hurting him.So he left his smile to the public, his loneliness to himself, and suppressed his emotional needs.

—— What's even more rare is that he didn't feel inferior or distorted because of this, but completely accepted his differences from ordinary people, and continued to live according to his own principles.

Whether it is loneliness or happiness, they are all regarded as a part of his life, and he readily accepts and agrees with him sincerely.

His Ruirui heart is so strong and shining, which is why he is so attracted to him who is thirsty for light.Before he knew Ruirui's heart three years ago, he was already attracted by the brilliance overflowing from his surface.

Chu Huaixun suddenly wanted to hold Mo Ruifan in his arms.

"...Such as calligraphy, diving, nursing, etc., I learn when I am interested, and give up when I am not interested. Learning is a very difficult thing, but giving up is still very simple." Mo Rui Fan continued, "So, Brother Chu, you should find a more suitable person. A naturally playful person like me...is not suitable for dating."

This time Chu Huaixun was silent for a longer time than before.

It was so long that Mo Ruifan thought that Chu Huaixun was going to fall asleep.

"Ruirui, human emotion is a very complicated thing, and it is not completely controlled by physiology." Chu Huaixun took a step forward, almost touching Mo Ruifan's face, his tone softened, "—or Say, emotion has always been fighting against biological genes."

Mo Ruifan was taken aback.

"In ancient times, before humans evolved into humans, the pursuit of spouses only followed two principles-whether they could survive longer, and be able to give birth to enough offspring. Select better individuals and leave more Genes. These two principles are engraved in our genes and have spread to today's civilized society. Numerous emotional disputes and family disputes will ultimately be classified into situations where these two principles are not met."

Chu Huaixun stretched out his hand, raised it in front of him, and smiled softly, "Bring more and better offspring... So you see, our genes actually want us to be bothered and half-hearted."

Mo Ruifan frowned, a bit unacceptable to this statement: "This theory is a bit too much. Although I can't do it, there are many loyal and only loves in the world."

"It's nothing too much, because it's just the 'wish' of genes." Chu Huaixun smiled slightly, "But we have wisdom that other creatures don't have. We can stand out from a group of monkeys and build thousands of years of civilization. It's not because We followed our instincts — just the opposite, we've been going against them."

Humans have struggled with instincts since the first time they violated the instinct to walk on four legs.

"Emotions are the same. It is because we have emotions that we restrain our broad instincts, choose only one lover in our life, and give all the physical and psychological needs and feedback to this person." Chu Huaixun put his hands on On Mo Ruifan's shoulder, he said softly, "So Ruirui, your flaw - if you insist on calling it that - is not the reason for you to insist on being alone."

Mo Ruifan looked up at Chu Huaixun's eyes, and murmured: "But... how do I know if I can resist it? No, I'm sure I can't—"

"Don't jump to conclusions yet." Chu Huaixun interrupted him, "If you are really afraid, you might as well try it from other aspects first."

"Other aspects?" Mo Ruifan was startled again, "What?"

Chu Huaixun let go of his hand, and took a step back: "For example... to perform."

"Performance?"

"Ruirui, are you interested in acting?"

Mo Ruifan was startled, not sure what Chu Huaixun meant, but he still replied: "I didn't have any interest in not touching the threshold before, but recently it's fine."

"You said that your interest in calligraphy and the like will disappear in a short time, right? Then let me try it." Chu Huaixun's voice was solemn and serious, "Since you said that your previous interests were only superficial , then I will teach you how to perform, and take you to deeply understand the art and essence of acting, and you are not allowed to give up casually - this will last for a while, and try whether your "sudden disappearance of interest" really completely disappeared from your head It's just superficial and ignored by you for the time being.

"In performing arts, the performer's emotions, heart, and even life are replaced by the characters to be performed, following the steps of the characters' life, and almost forgetting everything about the performers themselves to interpret the characters. This genre is called the experiential school." Chu Huai Xun lightly tapped Mo Ruifan's shoulder, "When you played Xie Chenglang before, most of the skills I taught you came from the experience school."

Mo Ruifan nodded, but still didn't understand what Chu Huaixun meant.

"Have you ever thought about what you can get as 'Mo Ruifan' when you take on the role?" Chu Huaixun's voice became a little more serious.

Mo Ruifan's attention was gradually attracted by the acting genre, and he thought for a while: "Can you experience other people's lives and feel emotions that you may never have the chance to feel in your life?"

"No." Chu Huaixun shook his head and denied, "The emotions you can perform must be the emotions you have experienced. It's just that those emotions may be very small, staying in the depths of your brain that you can't think of, only long and continuous practice and imitation , Comprehension can be stimulated again.”

Mo Ruifan seemed to have touched something: "What do you mean?"

"Ruirui, if you really have the emotional disorder you mentioned, then there must be something wrong with your performance." Chu Huaixun's voice is firm, "But so far, the emotional expressions in all your performances are normal. ——Although there are some traces of deliberate performances, the basic emotions are not deviated."

Mo Ruifan subconsciously wanted to refute: "But..."

"Ruirui, it's useless to just say it here, why don't you try it." Chu Huaixun stretched out his hand, "How long have you been interested in a certain thing before?"

Mo Ruifan recalled: "The longest one seems to be calligraphy...about four months."

"Then it's limited to half a year. Let's see if you suddenly lose interest after you have deepened your art of acting." Chu Huaixun looked at him and said slowly, "Similarly, our love at the beginning It's only been less than a month, so let's see how long your feelings for me will last this time."

Mo Ruifan was startled, and looked down at Chu Huaixun's hand.

The hand in the darkness had only a simple outline, but it gave him a very strong sense of reliability.There was a tremor in his heart that hadn't been seen for a long time, as if he was challenging what he once thought was an unattainable and indestructible barrier.

Mo Ruifan pondered for a long time, the impulse in his heart gradually subsided, and finally stretched out his hand to hold it: "Okay."

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