Bow down willingly as a child

Shang Xuyan was silent for a moment, then sat on the sofa.

He took out the cigarette case and took out a cigarette, put it on his lips, and threw the case on the table.

It seemed that he didn't intend to answer Xu Ming's question.

Xu Ming took the lighter in his hand, squatted halfway in front of him, pressed it with a "snap", and held it in front of Shang Xuyan.

Shang Xuyan was stunned for a moment, then snatched back the lighter and lit the cigarette.

Xu Ming's hand was hung in the air, and at that moment he felt that all five fingers became cold.

"Sorry, I haven't gotten rid of this habit yet."

He also sat down.

When the two were together, Shang Xuyan was always very busy, his desk was messy, he couldn't find the lighter when he found the cigarette case.

Usually at this time, Xu Ming can find the lighter immediately and light his cigarette for him.

Over the years, it has become a habit that cannot be quit.

The loss in his heart made him want to suffocate, he reached out to pick up the cigarette case, wanting to smoke, but Shang Xuyan grabbed his wrist.

Shang Xuyan stared at the cigarette case in his hand, and frowned Yuanshan displeasedly.

"what are you doing?"

Xu Ming in his memory was a good boy who didn't smoke or drink, just like Bai Kangzhe.

Xu Ming pulled out his hand, took out the cigarette with familiar movements like an old smoker, and put it in his mouth, then picked up the lighter and lit it.

He took a deep breath of the cigarette, but couldn't bear to frown.

Why is Shang Xuyan's cigarette so light?

In the past six months, he has smoked one kind of cigarette stronger than the other. Only when the thick smell of tobacco wraps his body, can he see Shang Xuyan's face amidst the smoke.

He likes the popping beads of Ximabolu the most. After pinching the popping beads, the strong smell of tobacco and the cool scent of mint make it seem like Shang Xuyan is embracing him.

Exhaling a puff of smoke, Shang Xuyan's face became blurred.

He spoke again impatiently: "When did you learn to smoke?"

However, there was no move to snatch the cigarettes that Xu Ming had expected.

Because, there is no relationship anymore, right?

He took off the cigarette and pinched it with his fingertips, and the smoke he just exhaled dissipated.

Looking at Shang Xuyan's somewhat unfamiliar face, Xu Ming felt his heart stiffen a little bit.

"It seems that you and Bai Kangzhe are having a good time."

For half a year, in the past six months, Shang Xuyan never asked him how he was doing, and took a look at him to see if he lost weight.

Instead, he stayed with Bai Kangzhe as quickly as possible.

He doesn't hate, but he doesn't understand, Shang Xuyan is not a heartless person, he won't forget his old love when he has a new love, and he won't hate him because of his marriage.

But why after being with Bai Kangzhe, can he ignore him?

The answer, he knew.

But he didn't want to admit it so much, and wanted to comfort himself by deceiving himself, that Shang Xuyan loved him, and the reason why he didn't see him was because he abandoned Shang Xuyan, and he deserved it.

But the facts are starkly revealed.

Shang Xuyan doesn't love him.

Never been in love.

Bai Kangzhe is Shang Xuyan's true love.

Shang Xuyan still didn't answer any of his questions about Bai Kangzhe, Xu Ming didn't answer, he simply kept his mouth shut, and only stared at him fiercely.

He seemed to be waiting for Xu Ming's answer.

"Delay..."

Xu Ming let go of his hand, and the cigarette fell to the ground.

He lowered his head and stomped it out with his dirty slippers.

Holding tightly to the edge of the sofa with both hands, with all the strength in his body, he pulled out a sunny smile and turned to look at Shang Xuyan.

But tears still fell down uncontrollably.

"I look back now, is there still time?"

Will you still open your arms and hug me?