[Danmei] You and I never meet

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Time passed day by day.Soon, in November and autumn, the rain will start falling.I sat at the desk and quietly flipped through the photo albums of me and Zhang Zhang. Only then did I realize that Zhang Zhang and I had done so many crazy things and traveled to so many distant places.Those days, so bright and sparkling, turned into a river and disappeared forever.

We are not too young, but the love between us is calmer and calmer than in the novel.

Every day, he goes to work, I read at home, and go to the hospital to help Taozi.Come back in the evening and make dinner for him.At night, he used the computer to send emails, and I leaned in his arms to watch him type one character after another.This kind of life is as simple as an asphalt road with an end in sight.We are all people who have experienced pain, so we know how to cherish the hard-won peace and happiness now.I am a person who is about to pass away in a year, so I know how to cherish every minute and every second of the time with him at this moment.

I like to put my thumb on the center of his brow to smooth out his slightly wrinkled brow, and he always says, "I'm sorry to make you worry."

I shook my head and said, "You must frown less in the future, I like your face without worry."

He nodded and smiled, "I will."

Every night, he would carefully touch my body, like stroking a flower.I know his tension and violent desire under forbearance, I slowly cooperate with him, pain, but feel the fiery emotion in his body.A person who loves you thinks not only about sex, but also about your tears and your tomorrow when he has sex.

I tell him every time, I'm okay.

He always shook his head and said, baby, I am very satisfied.

To love someone is not to complain about not being able to get it, but to be able to be satisfied with everything about the other person.

On the evening of November [-]th, I smelled the same perfume on his coat again.This time I was calm enough.I believe in the love of the charter for me, I don't believe in my own sight and smell, because I believe in my heart.I know that there are always so many helplessness in life, and I can't hold everything tightly in my hands.I just have to believe that he was there and never left.

On November [-]th, when I came to the hospital, Lu Junwen was lying on the side, and Tao Zi and I were sitting on the side talking.I said, "Peach, do you remember when I told you I put two cards under your mattress?"

Taozi couldn't figure out why I would ask such a question for a while, and asked in surprise: "You really let it go? I thought you were joking!"

"Remember, both passwords are my birthday, one is for you, and the other is for my parents." I told her seriously.

"What are you doing?" She rolled her eyes, "Account for the inheritance!"

"Oh, don't interrupt me. I'm serious. I saved the money from the money given to me by the charter. You can go and transfer it to your card today or tomorrow. The one you give to my parents every month They just need to make a payment, don't give it to them all at once."

"What are you doing?" She seemed to finally realize that something was wrong in my words.

I said, "I'm afraid that one day the charter will take it back."

"How is it possible? Come on!" She stared at me.

I glanced at Lu Junwen, he closed his eyes pretendingly, turned sideways, and then I whispered to Taozi, "I'm going to run away, you know what happened with him, I can't bear him and The matter between Shen Jieyu."

"Have you decided?" She asked worriedly.

"Yes, so, you turn it out quickly." I said.

Taozi believed it with a worried face.I looked at her face and felt guilty for a while.

After sitting for a while, Taozi went to fetch water from the water room. Lu Junwen looked at me and asked, "You really decided to do this?"

"Did you hear that?" I raised my eyebrows.

"No, but it must be a lie." He said with a firm tone and unquestionable eyes.

I couldn't help rolling my eyes. In front of people close to me, I can't always hide my various emotions, "Don't be smart, I will do what I don't want to do with you. Take good care of yourself and take care of yourself in the future." Peach will do. Talk like you know something!"

He smiled slightly and said: "One day, a doctor said that there was a young man with advanced cancer, but he saw him alive and well every day. He asked me to learn more and learn from his optimistic attitude. I said I didn't believe it. How can there be such a heartless person, he just told me that there really is such a person, his name is Xu Qiyang."

After the words fell, he looked straight at me and said, "Do you think I know?"

I can't speak.

"Fool." He cursed softly, "I finally understand why it's the charter and the peach, one by one pampering you like a baby. You always don't want to trouble others, and you always bear the responsibility alone. You shouldn't have to bear the pain alone, you said that people like you are dying, and you still think about how not to make Zhang Zhang sad, am I saying you are stupid or are you stupid?!"

I was amused by his phrase "death is imminent", smiled lightly for a while, and said, "Although I know you won't tell Tao Zi and Zhang Zhang, I still want to tell you, don't tell them."

"I've already told Tao Zi."

He's so fucking dumb.

"Why did you tell Taozi?" I looked at him anxiously.

Lu Junwen said helplessly, "Can I keep this from her?"

I rolled my eyes at him countless times and said, "I thought you didn't know!"

"After Taozi heard the news, she cried all night by herself. She knew you didn't want her to be sad, so she pretended to be okay in front of you. You just didn't realize it." I heard him sigh softly, yes Yes, I heard it, because at this moment, I saw Tao Zi standing at the door with a hot water bottle, looking at me motionless, her beautiful big eyes filled with tears.Obviously, she overheard my conversation with Lu Junwen.

I don't know when it started, Taozi changed from a crazy girl who would show her teeth and claws when encountering something, to this girl in front of me who can tell you her emotions with her eyes.I know that one day we will all grow up and become people we could never have imagined.But when the transition is straight up in front of you, we're still a bit overwhelmed, to be honest.

I raised my hand, hoping to express something at this moment, but it was stuck in my throat, so I had to put my hand down again. At that moment, I understood the feeling of being unable to say a single word in my heart.

Her tears fell one by one.

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That year, I was 14 years old.Taozi and Taozi are called "double evils", and everyone shouts and beats them.

We make trouble all day long and do all kinds of evil.

Finally one day, the charter appeared. I will always remember that night, I invited him to eat chicken wings, his mouth was full of oil, and he had no image. He suddenly wiped the oil from the corners of my mouth with a paper. And unable to move.

The charter is the famous "Diamond King and Five" in our school. He is tall and handsome and has a rich family. He is called Gao Fu Shuai for short.Most of the gossip that the girls in the class often talk about is which girl confessed her love to Zhang Zhang, and how Zhang Zhang handsomely declined to leave everyone with a cold and handsome back.Tao Zi and I have also discussed how beautiful, generous, elegant and noble women are to be worthy of Zhang Zing. The conclusion is that among the people we know, all girls will be overshadowed by standing next to Zhang Zhang.

I also had a crush on Zhang Cheng, but when I thought of the group of wolves and tigers behind him, I was afraid for a while, and finally chose to give up decisively.

But that day, he suddenly and affectionately wiped the grease from the corners of my mouth... I looked at him and hesitated to speak.He said, "Qiyang, I have something to tell you."

So, he settled the bill that I was supposed to pay, and took me to a KTV box.

To be honest, the atmosphere was eerie.In a huge KTV box, the lights were dim and dim, but no one sang, and the surrounding was very quiet, only the singing of ghosts and wolves coming through the door.

He looked at me seriously.I stared at his handsome face, thinking how it would be so unfair to go to heaven, and at the same time thinking that it would be great if I could rape him by force.But when I thought about his physique, I had no choice but to stop thinking about it.

He said, "You like boys, don't you?"

I couldn't help but rolled my eyes and said, "The whole school knows I'm gay."

So no boy in the whole school dared to approach me.The straight ones are afraid that others will misunderstand that he is gay, and the crooked ones are afraid that others will know that he is gay.

His eyes suddenly lit up, "Fortunately, I thought what they said was all lies."

I feel like I'm being watched by a wolf, "What do you mean?"

He suddenly stretched out his hand to hold my shoulder and said, "Qiyang, I like you."

When I told Tao Zi about this scene afterwards, her eyes glowed golden and she asked me excitedly, "Did you faint from joy? Or did your dream come true and you just jumped on it?"

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