When someone with depression enters the horror game

"Our days are still very peaceful, as if nothing happened that day."

"There's nothing wrong with that."

"But I think, I might actually realize that... I might kind of like... no, kind of love him."

"Of course, I can't open my mouth to admit it. Our state is harmonious and stable, like...family relationship."

"Then, I moved."

"We have fewer opportunities to meet, usually once every two weeks, in the hospital. Although he calls regularly every day to check on the post."

"Sometimes I also think, this is not bad. You will be struck by lightning if you break up a straight man."

"Pub events until...Christmas."

"That's the place we used to live, turn right when you go out, we are regular customers there."

"I saw him there at Christmas. He was wearing a black trench coat, with two antlers stuck on his head. Matched with his face, it was very cute in contrast."

"Who knows, the one who kills a thousand knives is the hellish mistletoe."

"After the twelve o'clock bell, we were forced to have a kiss amidst the screams of the crowd."

"That's right, I'm not exaggerating, it was indeed forced. Everyone around was drinking too much, and we were held on the head... 噫."

"He didn't wear glasses that day, just under the Christmas tree, I looked into his eyes, and I had the illusion that he was deeply in love with me."

"We squeezed out the door of the bar. It was snowing heavily outside the door, but we were still drunk and dreaming inside the door."

"He pointed at his lips, which were broken by my teeth, and didn't speak. He looked like a bullied young girl."

"I pinched his chin, touched the horns of his head, and laughed at whether he was a deep cabinet."

"I didn't get an answer because a little flower girl came straight up."

"...It seems that there will be such a little girl on every festival that can be related to dog abuse. I don't know why. Maybe it's because the price of roses has increased at that time, and selling flowers is very profitable?"

"I was a little unconscious. I bought a large bouquet of roses at a sky-high price, and gave a flower to someone I met."

"At that time, there were very few pedestrians on the street. It took me a long time to send out the flowers one by one, leaving only the last branch."

"I took the flower and shook it in front of him, then threw it into the trash can next to it."

"I remember, it was a very beautiful rose. Naive... Do you think that I sent so many flowers to so many people just to give him one..."

"We were all drunk, and then we met to go to the playground."

"God knows, after twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, almost one o'clock in the morning, where will the playground be open?"

"We sat on a bench outside the playground and looked at each other."

"It was still snowing, and he tied my long scarf around his neck."

"The street lamp cast a beam of light on him, and he still looks like a hero in a novel... It's just that the antlers on his head are a little crooked."

"I leaned over and helped him straighten his hairpin. It might be that the breath of alcohol hit him in the face, and he closed his eyes."

"At that moment, I wondered if he wanted me to kiss him."

"Of course I didn't kiss him. I praised his antlers."

"He smiled like a child—he hasn't smiled like this for a long time. I know the pressure on him... In fact, he used to be a person who would shine when given a little sunshine."

"But he probably didn't know that when he closed his eyes, I kissed the crooked antler."

"The snow is getting smaller."

"We walked back side by side and realized we were going the other way."

"We parted at an intersection, and the scarf caught us."

"He stopped and handed me a candy."

"I stopped and took half of the scarf off my neck and tied it all up for him."

"We exchange presents and say Merry Christmas at the same time."

Shen Lian wiped her face dry, thinking that Christmas was not very happy.

"I still get sick. He is still the only person by my side when I get sick."

"I sat across my desk and told him my insomnia was getting worse."

"He was business-like, pushed his gold-rimmed glasses, and asked me seriously if I accepted the bed."

"I rolled my eyes."

"He asked me to move back."

"I knocked on the desk to remind him it was office hours."

"He pulled out a large bag of coffee from the drawer and told me that since I moved out, he has also been suffering from insomnia every day."

"He said he was getting tired of hearing about the wedding in his dreams."

"I said he needed time and a new love."

"He changed the subject and talked about the medicine I should be taking."

"We grew up and he knew me better than he knew himself. He knew why I moved."

"I also know him better than I know myself. I know why he asked me to move back ... After that near-joke kiss at Christmas, something was different, we both know."

"To judge whether a person likes you, you can see how good he treats you. I can't judge this, because when he doesn't like me, he treats me so well that he can't be better."

"He is so good at hiding. At one moment, I feel that he loves me more than life, and at the same time, I feel that our friendship will last forever."

"It felt like breaking out of the comfort zone I'd built up with him for 20 years."

"We're still good."

"We left work and went to the playground that didn't make it that night, and grabbed the last marshmallow with a large group of kids."

"I still don't know how to define our relationship."

"I'm very unrequited and I'm not sure where we're going to go...you know unrequited love..."

"I don't know when, I said to him every day that I like you."

"He kissed my eyes, but never said he liked it, never talked about love, and never talked about responsibility, like an emotional liar."

"He knows my mental state too well, he dare not say it, I know."

"It wasn't until a long time later that I changed doctors."

"He handed over the work without any doubt, without giving me any reaction time. My new doctor is an old man he admires, an old urchin that everyone in the hospital knows."

"I know, I won."

"He knew that he was not qualified to be my doctor, and the doctor-patient relationship we had maintained for several years was finally broken."

"Professional ethics told him he couldn't fall in love with his patients."

"I got a glimpse of his sincerity, even though he was still silent."

"So I always want to... let him who is silent cry out, no matter where it is."

"My condition is still serious, and I even need electrotherapy. At that time, I looked at the photo of Tang and Zhang holding hands like a poster, and thought that their century-long love would not be worth the leap in 2003."

"Death is tempting. When I think of closing my eyes and losing consciousness, I don't have to think anymore, I have no consciousness at all... I yearn for it."

"I read Browning, I dream."

"The mysterious shadow pulls my hair back behind me step by step.

I struggled, and a dignified voice asked:

'Guess who caught you? '

'die. ' I answered.

But a voice like a silver bell sounded: 'It's not death, it's love! '"

"Maybe it's love, I'm not sure. It must be love, or I'd be dead."

"I just laughed."

"We cuddled and watched movies all night, and then both woke up late the next morning, scrambling to wear the wrong clothes."

"We went to the bakery on the weekend and I watched him fumble in front of the counter and put cream on his lips."

"I added two new members to my family, a little tomato and a little bergamot, one named Xiaohong and the other named Xiaolu."

"We flipped through the old photo albums, pointing at the two furry kids in the mud puddle and laughing."

"I filled my diary with his name, and that diary was swapped out when we swapped books."

"I scolded Bai Juyi, he scolded Yuan Zhen."

"We go shopping for clothes, he does my tie and I do his cufflinks."

"I forced him to wear a pink sweater, and he forced me to wear pencil pants and beanie shoes, so we taunted each other, and then started fighting, which attracted a lot of onlookers."

"I was helping him tie his tie one day and it occurred to me that most of the things that couples do, we've been doing a long, long time ago."

"So, it seems like it's just normal day-to-day life as usual."

"He still hangs on me neither far nor near - because of my unrequited love. Intimacy but no commitment."

"I said, like is a feather that flies with the wind, but love is heavy."

"He still didn't speak, we hugged each other and slept."

"He was even more afraid that as long as he said that sentence, I would be satisfied and no longer be entangled, and then I would jump."

"He's scared."

"I'm also afraid - because sometimes I don't have the ability to control my emotions. I'm not sure I can not abandon the whole world, including him."

"Pentotamine imbalance is really scary."

"A twisted vine grows between us."

"I hang my life on him. It doesn't bode well."

"Because he can be the straw, the one that the drowning man clings to, or the one that crushes the camel in the end. And he is a man, not an omnipotent god."

"We travel all over the world. We go to Russia, we go to America, we go to Czech Republic, we go to Iceland..."

"The last stop was Paris, France. We helped a Chinese lady chase down a thief, and then kissed in front of Notre Dame, thinking that would be forever."

"Unfortunately, after we returned to China, we saw the news of the Notre Dame fire."

"Colorful clouds are easy to disperse and glass is brittle. I said, what kind of magical reality is this?"

"I always feel that a sense of ominousness hangs over me."

"One day I finally broke down completely and was ready to die—I couldn't live anymore."

"Not only did I write the suicide note, I also put a note in his work files."

"I put hot water in the bathtub and greeted my death."

"Although my suicide plan failed again."

"I was in a bandage and met him at the hospital."

"He is still stubborn, let's hug."

"And then...then we got into a horror game."

Shen Lian rolled her eyes.