old love [rebirth]

The matter of Chen Lou's departure seemed to be a foregone conclusion. He had already started to pack his things in just a few days after he came back. The university books should be sold, and only a few pieces of clothes were left, and the rest were rolled up. Put it in a woven bag and throw it away.The rent of this place was about to expire, and after he tidied up, there was only one computer left in the room, and everything else was packed into a suitcase.Guan Yu sat dryly next door and listened to what was going on, feeling like a joke, not only that, his clothes, the shoes he bought during the Chinese New Year that he didn't want to wear twice, and the furniture and appliances he bought all seemed like a joke.

He went out several times to see what was going on there, but he felt awkward when he got to the door, and he finally understood how to write the word awkward, and it was still between him and Chen Lou.He also thought, probably between him and Chen Lou, there is always a river, the surface of the river is calm, it seems that if you have love, you can sail across it.But when he stepped on it, he realized that the river was icy and full of hidden reefs, and every step was very dangerous.

From complex concepts to religious beliefs, to business hobbies, work and rest habits, and food tastes... the long years, daily necessities, and now Chen Lou refuses to accompany him for another walk. On the day when the tomb was suddenly completed, it was written "deliberately parting, forgetting all the past".

Guan Yu began to suffer from insomnia, but after thinking about it, there was nothing bothering him, but he was too sober. Before thinking about it, after thinking about it, and even after thinking about it, his mind gradually became more open-minded. Thinking to such a point, everyone should get together and relax.Since Chen Lou has a bright future, he must not fight for his breath.What kind of man is so greedy for old things.It happened that the students around me started the last break-up meal. The class occupied the whole floor of the school’s private dining room, and solemnly invited all the teachers and leaders of the department. It was the last formal break-up meal and teacher appreciation banquet.

Guan Yu's previous gatherings were postponed, but this time he had to go. He had a good relationship with his college classmates, but in the last six months he suddenly lived in seclusion, so he asked people to find a lot of excuses to come over and drink.Guan Yu accepted all the orders, and in the end, he didn't need anyone to persuade him, and he started to salute table by table with wine bottles.Later, he finally started to stagger, but his consciousness was extraordinarily clear, and he didn't even forget to joke with his female classmates when he moved to KTV.

The girl has always had a crush on him, and she didn't have the courage to confess her love before, but seeing that he was in a good mood this time, she took advantage of the strength of alcohol to hold him back when everyone was snatching songs.Guan Yu raised his eyebrows slightly, but there was always some impatience in his beautiful eyes.

The lights of the KTV were ambiguous and dim. The girl had put all her eggs in one basket this time and had thought of a lot of words, but she felt a little regretful after seeing him like this. In the end, her mind went blank, and she stumbled and said something in French: "Hello, I love you .”

Guan Yu almost thought that he heard it wrong, and was slightly startled at first.

The girl had exhausted all her courage when she uttered these words, but then she suddenly relaxed, as if she had something on her mind.She didn't expect any response from Guan Yu, after all Guan Yu was not familiar with her at all.Who knew that when she was about to lower her head and run away with an embarrassing face, the man raised her hand slightly.

Guan Yu didn't say anything anymore.The girl looked at him again in surprise, and after a while she saw that his eyes were looking into the distance, his mouth was pursed, his Adam's apple rolled slightly, and then he whispered: "Can I trouble you, say it again?"

Chen Lou said: "At that time, I knew that you were from the French department, so I couldn't help but think, if God favors me in the future, and I have the opportunity to meet you, I can't say nothing."

Chen Lou asked him: "Guan Yu...you must have been very disappointed when you repeatedly looked for him in me. If that's the case, why do you have to deceive yourself and others that you will live with me for seven years? You don't even think about it after I toss you so hard. Are you bothered?"

Chen Lou said: "Love breeds worry, worry breeds fear. In the past, my mind was always very heavy, thinking about things, fearing that you would not like me, fearing that you would know that I have deep roots in love and don't care about me, and fearing telling you too much , you think I'm using these to tie you up and bore me from then on.

Chen Lou said: "I'm waiting for a text message"

Chen Lou said: "Hi, I'm Chen Lou, I love you."

……

Guan Yu walked out of the KTV door by himself, and more and more memories began to emerge layer by layer. His footsteps were sloppy, and the scene in front of him changed rapidly. Sometimes it was the big boy shyly introducing himself, and sometimes it was Chen Lou went hysterical at home and went crazy. For a while, there was a scene where the two of them went shopping with money, and for a while, it was a white coat, pulling the corner of his clothes and saying, "I like you so much."

He staggered out a few steps, but began to lose his sense of direction again. After taking a step, he couldn't help but turn back and walk to the other side. Suddenly, the horn of a car sounded behind him, followed by cursing.Seeing someone running towards him, Guan Yu's mind went blank, and he felt stabbing pains in his chest, unspeakable grievances and sadness, and finally his throat tightened, and he suddenly paused forward, a mouthful of blood went straight It sprayed straight out.

The red hair was almost scared to death, and he and his classmates helped Guan Yu to leave. When they saw bloodstains on the ground in front of them, they howled and called 120.The car that was blocked in the back was very impatient. Seeing that the student seemed to have had an accident, he could only curse inwardly, but still called three people to get in the car, cursing all the way to the hospital.

Hongmao and this classmate originally made an appointment to go to the Internet cafe, but when they bumped into this unexpected incident, they were anxious and panicked, and they didn't know where to go to the hospital, so they could only carry it by one person, while the other talked nonsense. People asked, "I vomit blood! I vomit blood! Where should I send it?"

There was another turmoil, and Hongmao felt chills when he saw someone go to the emergency room, and immediately notified Guan Feng and Cen Zheng.

Cen Zheng rushed over immediately, and Guan Feng was in a meeting in another place, so he ran back without saying a word after receiving the call.

Guan Yu's consciousness gradually became clear, but he didn't expect to see such a big battle. Hongmao, Cen Zheng, Wu Jiajia and Guan Feng were all sitting or standing beside his bed, looking at him gloomyly.He froze for a moment, and before he could ask what's wrong, Cen Zheng sighed, "Guan Yu, what's wrong with you?"

Guan Yu vaguely remembered some fragments from last night, but he didn't know which one Cen Zheng was referring to.

Cen Zheng asked: "Did you know that you vomited blood yesterday?" Seeing Guan Yu startled, he said: "The cardia is torn, and there is also a small amount of bleeding in the lungs. Fortunately, it is not serious."

Although Guan Yu himself was a little surprised, he still smiled and comforted him: "It should be fine, it's just a small problem."

"Yes, it's all minor problems," Guan Feng suddenly said coldly: "I don't know how the family treats you so harshly. You have to drink and socialize to solicit business for others? Is it for drinking?! You are capable, you can drink until the cardia is torn, why don’t you drink a lot of blood! Last year, a salesman in the company died because of this tear, do you know?!”

He was originally sitting, but now he was getting more and more angry, so he stood up and cursed a few words.Guan Yu's face was pale, and he looked over with guilt and anger.Guan Feng cursed a few words to relieve his hatred, but seeing him like that, he couldn't continue, and finally left angrily.

So Hongmao went to grab a car with her, and Wu Jiajia had to go back to school, so she left after a while.

Only Cen Zheng and Guan Yu were left in the ward.The two of them were silent for a long time without speaking. After a long time, Cen Zheng sighed softly, "Why bother?"

Guan Yu was in a daze for a long time, and suddenly understood what he meant, and shook his head and smiled.

Cen Zheng said, "You don't have to hide it from me." He paused, then sighed: "Back then, when my grandma left, I just watched my grandpa vomit a mouthful of blood. It's not an exaggeration. At that time, my father, my uncle and the others He was so frightened, he was sent to the hospital for examination, and it was said to be bleeding from the lungs. Hemoptysis is bright red..." He rubbed his face at this point, and finally asked helplessly, "Is it Chen Lou?"

Guan Yu didn't answer, just closed his eyes.

Cen Zheng said: "You haven't known him for a long time, and he never promised you from the beginning, so why are you so obsessed? It's hard to find anything else in the world, isn't there many men? You just graduated now, I haven't set foot in the society yet. When you meet more people in the future, there are all kinds of people, so why don't you just find someone you like?"

Guan Yu was silent, then nodded again suddenly.

However, Cen Zheng knew that he still hadn't twisted his muscles, so he could only take another dose of strong medicine and said: "What's more, Chen Lou is not good everywhere. This time, he was very sure of the postgraduate entrance examination summer camp. Who knows if it will be over?" I know who has been topped. This person has always worked hard, but hard work may not necessarily result in results. He is like this for the postgraduate entrance examination, and you are like this for him. Some things are not guaranteed to be obtained by your hard work."

Guan Yu nodded bluntly at first, but suddenly turned around and asked abruptly, "What did you say?"

"..." Cen Zheng was taken aback by his appearance. After a pause, he still told the truth: "He is not on the admission list for T University's summer camp. Admission letter, but..." Cen Zheng paused, "He applied for a master's degree, and S University changed it to a master's degree..."

Guan Yu felt that his body was hot and cold, and thought for a while that it was broken, Chen Lou must die in a hurry.After a while, I couldn't help but think, that's fine, he can't leave.

As he thought about it, the sense of stability and steadfastness in his heart became clearer and clearer.Guan Yu hated this kind of self, as if he couldn't wish for others to be good, but he couldn't ignore the longing in his heart. Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore, turned over and got out of bed, and ran back in a hurry before Cen Zheng could react.

Chen Lou was packing his things, and the courier was waiting at the door, and he didn't inspect the goods. He just waited for him to pack the things and weigh them with a small scale.Lu Hening was helping him pack and pack, and when the courier took the last package down, he couldn't help but sighed softly.

Chen Lou smiled and said, "It's not that we won't contact you in the future, why are you so sensational?"

Lu Hening turned his face sideways to look at him carefully, and then smiled: "What am I afraid of, after all, we still look a little alike." After he finished speaking, seeing that Chen Lou didn't understand, he smiled and said: "In the future, I will If I miss you and you rely on me to see me again, I will look in the mirror, but I need to draw longer eyebrows, and I have to buy a light brown color contact lens... Hey, your eyes are not golden anymore?"

Chen Lou originally had a headache and was worried about parting, but Lu Hening was able to make jokes better than him, which made him feel a lot easier.So he said with a smile, "I've said it's the lighting problem. If the sun shines directly in the morning, it might look a little dimmer."

Lu Hening nodded, then reached out to help him straighten his collar, and suddenly said seriously: "I really hope that I can see your golden eyes every day when I wake up."

Chen Lou: "..." He didn't know how to answer those words.

"There's something I haven't said all this time," Lu Hening didn't look at him at all, and said directly, "I think you understand, but I'm also worried that you... said it to embarrass you. But judging by your current state, what do you think?" It's like being single, so I don't plan to wait any longer."

Chen Lou's heart skipped a beat, and he hurriedly called to him: "Don't, don't, just wait!"

"When will it be?" Lu Hening looked at him inquiringly, and said with a smile, "Isn't it just to say that I like you very much, why are you so frightened?"

Chen Lou blurted out, feeling a little embarrassed.

However, Lu Hening didn't mind his avoidance, and said directly: "Of course you have to start everything now, and there is a lack of understanding between us. I say it now because I am afraid that there will be too many handsome men and beautiful women around you after school starts, and I will be disappointed." It’s an opportunity. Now it’s considered the first move.”

Only then did Chen Lou realize that he had come prepared, opened his mouth, and smiled helplessly after a long time.

Lu Hening saw him smile, paused slightly, and said seriously: "You have to start anew now, so I won't make any trouble for you, just one thing, don't delete my number, keep in touch in the future, change the number Also remember to inform me, as well as QQ friends and mailboxes, if you dare to block, I will kill you and take care of you."

"What the fuck," Chen Lou couldn't help it, interrupted and asked, "What do you like about me?"

"I like everything," Lu Hening said without blushing and heartbeat: "Love is blind, and I've been dazzled now."

Chen Lou was dumbfounded, and finally sent the person away dumbfounded, and then came back to continue cleaning up.

It is impossible not to be disappointed about the big T this time. Chen Lou always thought that it was a certainty. After all, he performed well, and the hint given by the mentor was also very clear, but in the end he came out like this.

Fortunately, it was old man Gao who saved him in the end. He didn't want to be transferred, but the situation of this industry changes every year, and now there are only these two schools left. He dare not take advantage of such an opportunity. grasp.He also thought that the reputation of S University is better than that of T University. He actually didn't pay much attention when he went this time, and the other people were exceptionally good. The only possible luck is that the recommendation letter from Old Man Gao was handwritten.

Chen Lou did have a speculative mentality when he first went to find Old Man Gao. He is not a clinical major. If he took the cross-examination, his usual credits and grades would be particularly better, which made the teacher think that this student is hardworking and studious, and it is worth cultivating. Now the teacher is working hard for him. , He felt a little guilty, and thought that this teacher was over half a century old, but he was constantly being restrained by others when he devoted himself to scientific research.

His mind turned a thousand times, and finally he felt a little bit reluctant to leave the city he was about to leave.Finally, I thought about it again, people in society are high or low, and those in school are also divided into grades, grades, grades, grades, grades, grades, grades, and grades. This is the status quo of society. There are strict levels and you fight against each other. Like him, the ducks he gets are also taken away by others. .

Chen Lou has always been unable to let go of the matter of T University in his heart. Now thinking about it, he felt that his behavior of going to the campus was too naive, and his complacent expression at that time was too hateful. Just as he was muttering in his heart, Guan Yu came back.

The two seldom met these days, and Chen Lou didn't take it seriously. He just continued to sort out the courier numbers in his hand, and made a list to order some of his own things.

Guan Yu kept standing in front of him and did not leave.

Chen Lou was surprised at the end and had no choice but to look up at him.

"What's wrong with you?" Chen Lou asked.

Guan Yu reacted quickly this time, squatting down immediately, and said to him: "Chen Lou, I have a lot to say to you." Cautiously said: "You asked me before, and I didn't explain those things. There are also some things between us, can you listen to me?"

Chen Lou looked at him sideways for a long time, but still asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm fine..." Guan Yu paused, seeing that Chen Lou didn't believe it, and then saw two drops of blood on his clothes.He said: "Yesterday... I vomited a little blood." He originally wanted to say that he vomited after drinking too much, but when the words were about to come out, his heart skipped a beat... Now he has no confidence in himself at all, Whether it's sympathy points or other points, he doesn't want to let go of any of the available methods.

Chen Lou hummed lightly and said, "Go ahead."