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Chen Fang was carried back to the bedroom by Lu Shiqing.

Just now when he got out of bed to look for Lu Shiqing, Chen Fang didn't even bother to put on his shoes. His feet, which were so cold and white on the floor, were hanging by Lu Shiqing's arms, and he followed Lu Shiqing's footsteps weakly. The frequency falters.

The skin touched the bed that had lost its body temperature, and Chen Fang's body flinched, recalling the panic when he touched the cold and empty bed around him just now.He didn't dare to sleep too deeply, so he opened his eyes almost immediately, and saw that the night light by the bedside was still on, but there was no one in the room, and a fear of drowning and suffocation immediately swept through his heart.

It's too late to think, it's completely out of subconscious, deepest fear in my heart.Perhaps it was because he had treated Lu Shiqing like this before, so he was afraid, afraid of feng shui, and everything would eventually return to him in the same form, like irony.

Chen Fang's body was huddled under the quilt, but he couldn't warm up anyway. Lu Shiqing reached into the quilt and touched his cold toes, sighed softly, went to bed, and contained Chen Fang in his arms. Use the heat of the body to revive the small animals curled up in their arms to keep out the cold.

Alpha's body temperature was naturally higher, and Lu Shiqing's arms were very warm. Chen Fang's body felt the heat from Lu Shiqing's skin without hindrance, but he was still stiff and shivering.

Not only the body temperature, Lu Shiqing's eyes are also too hot, even if Chen Fang lowers his head to avoid his eyes, he can still clearly feel that there seems to be a desire to burn him up and then cut him open in his eyes, wanting to explore it The past of every ashes.

This made Chen Fang waver.

He decided to give everything he had to Lu Shiqing, but he didn't think about whether it also included the pain and scars that he had tried so hard to hide.

The scars on his wrists, the dilapidated glands, his value as an omega has been destroyed, and his identity is as different as Lu Shiqing's.Even if no one forced him to admit this in a bloody way at that time, he was not unaware that he would only become a drag on an alpha with a bright future, so how dare he expect to stay by Lu Shiqing's side .

So on a rainy night four years ago, he dragged his broken body and resolutely left.Now he mustered up the courage to look back, abandoned other thoughts, and just wanted to give Lu Shiqing a better version of himself.

Since he decided to bear it alone at the beginning, it seems that now, Lu Shiqing should not be allowed to share his pain again, nor should Lu Shiqing, who has no knowledge of it, bear the responsibility of putting together him again.

The current situation made Chen Fang a little nervous, as if his skin had been torn by Lu Shiqing, and a little light came in to illuminate his shady past, leaving him nowhere to hide and no way to justify.

He originally thought that everything he backed down would pave the way for Lu Shiqing's life. He wanted Lu Shiqing to live well, and that was Chen Fang's only confidence.

But Lu Shiqing never seemed to be happy.

Also because of him.

Before he was about to be tortured, when Chen Fang was trying to find a slightly credible excuse in a panic, he heard Lu Shiqing's voice, but it was so soft that he couldn't understand it for a while.

"Be obedient, go to the hospital for a good treatment." Lu Shiqing said softly, "Don't be afraid, I will accompany you, I will accompany you all the time."

"...What?" Chen Fang raised his head and saw Lu Shiqing's foggy eyes.

"Your physical condition is not very good." Lu Shiqing touched Chen Fang's face, hesitated, and withdrew the hand that was about to touch the back of the neck, "In the past few years, even if you don't care about it, but now I can't stand it I can't see you continue to suffer."

Lu Shiqing frowned slightly, but the wrinkles between his brows deepened, perhaps because he had always been worried over the years.Years of emotions piled up, Chen Fang saw it, and he felt that Lu Shiqing was really sad.

To that extent, it seems that no matter how painful he has been through these years, Lu Shiqing will be more sad than him.

"I'm going to see a doctor."

The protracted wound has become numb, even if it is painful to cut open and heal again, but Lu Shiqing lent him inexhaustible courage, Chen Fang is willing to try not to be afraid.

When Lu Shiqing drove to the hospital the next morning, he took Chen Fang with him.

He originally planned to ask for leave to accompany Chen Fang the whole time, but Chen Fang tactfully refused, and promised that he would do a good inspection and would not run away secretly again, so that Lu Shiqing could go to the internship with peace of mind and not delay too much progress.

Even so, Chen Fang's cell phone still rang two or three times an hour, just talking was not enough, and Lu Shiqing showed up every now and then outside the department where Chen Fang was being examined.Every time Chen Fang saw Lu Shiqing appearing, he was always surprised and sorry, and told him to go back to work quickly, but he would see him again soon.

After doing countless inspection items, Chen Fang finally returned to the gland department, entered with a tired face, and came out with an unabated smile.

The doctor in the gland department said that from the preliminary examination results, his glands were not substantially damaged, but the ring of tooth marks around the glands was too deep, which injured the nerves around the glands and caused the glands to respond to alpha pheromones. Extremely susceptible, coupled with the untimely repair at the beginning, the deterioration of the condition has persisted until now; excessive use of inhibitors has caused desensitization of the gland inhibitor receptors, greatly reducing the effect of coping with fever symptoms, forming a vicious circle, and the situation is not optimistic.

In addition, the doctor also specifically told Chen Fang that his dependence on inhibitors was not a physiological dependence, and suggested that he go to the psychiatrist in the next building for consultation.

Chen Fang was standing in front of the psychiatric department at this time, and a man with a cut head who was being supported just came out of the room. He was helped to leave.

Chen Fang was taken aback by this weird and crazy man, and froze in place, holding a thick stack of inspection results, wondering if he should go in.

He already knew that there was a problem with his body, but he was just forced by the pressure of life, and he always endured it.Now looking at the results of the examination, he suddenly had the strange idea that the doctor exaggerated and deliberately made the pain serious in order to make the patient cherish his health.

But no matter how exaggerated, countless problems, large and small, were still written in black and white in front of him. He didn't know how he should show these results to Lu Shiqing, and whether he should cry or laugh when he showed them.

And now, it's not even just a physical ailment.

There may be something wrong with his heart, his spirit.

He is not as crazy as the man who just walked out of the house, or maybe he has been crazy for a long time, but he doesn't know it, and now he has the idea of ​​not letting Lu Shiqing know.

Who would hug and kiss a madman?

Standing in front of the psychiatric department, he lifted his feet a little bit, and was forced to retreat steadily by the sudden inferiority and timidity in his heart, unable to move forward for a long time.

Either, or forget it.

Chen Fang had just made up his mind to escape, but at this time, even God came to help him at an inopportune time.

The door of the psychiatric department opened again, and Chen Fang turned his back. He didn't want to see the strange mental illness again, but unexpectedly heard a very familiar voice, with doubts and surprises, calling his name.

"Chen Fang? Why are you here?" Lu Shiqingfang walked out from the psychiatric department, saw Chen Fang unexpectedly, walked up to him and smiled, "I was just going to find you."

"Why are you here..." Chen lowered his consciousness and hid the test results behind his back, asking guiltily.

"Department rotation." Lu Shiqing explained, and asked again: "Is the inspection done?"

"Ah... finished." Chen Fang tried to secretly divide a thick stack of checklists into two parts behind his back, and only gave one of them to Lu Shiqing, but he accidentally lost his hand behind the invisible, and the checklist crashed The ground is scattered all over the ground.

He subconsciously knelt down and picked it up quickly. Lu Shiqing followed. At this time, another male doctor in a white coat who came out of the psychiatric room also knelt down to help.Chen Fang thanked him, and when he was thinking about how to explain to Lu Shiqing in a panic, he heard the strange male doctor speak.

"Chen Fang? Are you the patient who transferred from the gland department to the psychiatry department?"