restart breathing

It has been a long time since the off-duty time, and the office of the hematology department is still brightly lit, and Lu Shiqing is the only one left in the room.

As a fifth-year intern student, I have to rotate between different departments every week.Today is the first day of Lu Shiqing's internship in the hematology department. The professor asked him to sort out the results of today's blood pheromone concentration test sheet.The workload was a bit heavy, but Lu Shiqing acted quickly, and the finishing results were completely collected in the computer form. Lu Shiqing pressed Save, and once again went through the inspection list on the table from beginning to end, frowning.

There is a name that should appear in the patient name column, but it does not appear.

Lu Shiqing put the receipt aside, put his hand on his forehead in a daze, and took out a certificate from the pocket of his white coat, with the missing name written on the name column.

Last night when he was about to drive back to the school dormitory after get off work, Xu Jin hurriedly stopped him at the entrance of the parking lot and stuffed a hard card into his hand.Lu Shiqing didn't want to accept it subconsciously at first, so he glanced at the card, and the portrait and information printed on it made him forget to reject it for a moment.

Xu Jin said that he was in a hurry, and wanted to trouble Dr. Lu to help him with the admission procedures, and stuffed Chen Fang's certificate into his hand without any explanation, thanked him repeatedly, and left.Lu Shiqing held the certificate as if holding a hot potato. In the end, she had no choice but to turn it back and help Chen Fang go through the hospitalization procedures.

But the documents can't be kept with him forever, they have to be returned.

Lu Shiqing took out the business card that Xu Jin gave him yesterday, paused for some reason, became irritable for no reason, threw the business card aside, and looked up at the inpatient building outside the window.

In one of the wards lived a disobedient patient.

A few minutes later, wearing a white coat, he crossed the corridor between the two main buildings and stood at the door of Chen Fang's ward.

What is there to hesitate about?

It's just a doctor's job, even for the sake of meeting someone, if someone is in trouble, just give him a hand.If it wasn't him who found out today that Chen Fang didn't follow the doctor's order for the examination, but other doctors, he probably would have done the same, so it wouldn't be surprising.Besides, he didn't come here just to persuade a patient who didn't follow the doctor's advice. If Chen Fang was determined not to do the examination, he would never say another word and return the certificate to him.

When two non-parallel lines intersect, they will only drift away. The theories in high school mathematics textbooks can probably be applied to people.

That's how it should be.

knock knock.

Lu Shiqing's knuckles tapped lightly on the door twice, his breathing and heartbeat seemed to have stagnated at that moment with the silence of no one responding, he simply grabbed the handle and pushed the door directly to enter.

The ward was very quiet, but there was no sound of various machines running. The quilt was neatly folded on the head of the bed, and even the wrinkles on the bed sheet were smoothed out, except for the figure who should be lying on the bed.Half a moment later, the nurse opened the door and came in, took new sheets and quilts, and replaced the ones on the bed.

"Where's the patient in this bed?" Lu Shiqing asked eagerly.

"I've been discharged from the hospital." The nurse thought for a while and added, "After changing the medicine in the afternoon, I left."

"Thank you."

Generally speaking, Lu Shiqing had been taught four years ago.After being dazed for a moment, he turned his head and let out a sneer, his smile was mixed with loneliness, it didn't look like he was laughing at others, but on the contrary, he seemed to be laughing at himself.

Back then, he said that doctors are good, and promised to go to medical university. In the end, not only did he not fulfill his promise, but now he even violates the most basic common sense, and even refuses to do the examination.Such a person, who doesn't take himself seriously, naturally doesn't deserve others to take him seriously. No matter how bad his health is, he can't be saved by a doctor.

Perhaps the doctor is compassionate, always easy to be sentimental.Chen Fang probably didn't need him to save him.

Such a pale and weak person is very skillful in escaping from him, every time he can escape quietly.

The old technique was repeated, and it was the first time in four years that it was not unfamiliar at all.

Lu Shiqing returned to the office of the Department of Hematology, picked up the business card thrown on the table, and dialed Xu Jin's phone number according to the number on it.It wasn't until the second before Lu Shiqing ran out of patience that he was about to hang up that the phone was picked up, with slurred words and loud environmental noises, it was unknown whether it was a wine party or an extravagant occasion.Lu Shiqing moved the receiver a little away from her ears, frowned, thinking that Chen Fang's vision had plummeted compared to four years ago, why did he find such a person.

But it had nothing to do with him, he didn't point fingers, and impatiently said directly: "Chen Fang's certificate is still with me, please take it if you have time."

"Ah..." Xu Jin didn't sound sober, and said vaguely, "Isn't Chen Fang in the ward? Why don't you just give it to the doctor?"

"He was discharged from the hospital by himself, and he has already left." Lu Shiqing became more and more dissatisfied with the man on the other end of the phone who didn't know anything, "As a family member, you didn't ask the patient when he was discharged from the hospital?"

"Damn it, it's really..." Xu Jin sounded really ignorant, and didn't seem to have an attitude of introspection because of Lu Shiqing's accusation, and said very agitatedly: "Doctor, I have something to go back now. The day after tomorrow, Tell me a place, and I'll pick it up."

"Campus of Capital Medical University." The day after tomorrow is a weekend off, and Lu Shiqing will be at school.

"Okay, I see, thank you." Xu Jin quickly hung up the phone.

Listening to the electronic tone that hung up on the phone, Lu Shiqing began to wonder whether the drunk could remember their conversation after he sobered up.If he didn't remember, he didn't want to have another exchange with this kind of person, so he just put the ID in the lost and found office of the hospital.

Or just pretend it's nothing, and people who are really anxious will come to him, Lu Shiqing thought.

He took off his white coat and hung it on the hanger, put Chen Fang's ID in the pocket of his trousers, and went to the hospital parking lot to drive his own car back to school.It was already very late when I arrived at the dormitory, but there were no roommates in the dormitory. I guess I was studying hard in the library at this time, preparing for the postgraduate exam at the end of the year.

Lu Shiqing got the professional promotion quota, and the study pressure is relatively light. He planned to read the materials in the dormitory for a while, but he couldn't calm down anyway, as if the air had sharp corners, which made him feel uncomfortable.

Touching the pocket of his trousers, the corner of the hard card stuck to his leg, Lu Shiqing found the root cause of his difficulty in meditation.

He held Chen Fang's ID in his hand, and it seemed that only when he was avoiding other people, he couldn't help but want to take a closer look at the face that had disappeared from his world for too long.The photo on the ID card was re-taken, not as good-looking as it was four years ago, a little haggard, with sunken eye sockets and cheeks, and gray eyes, it is almost a different person from before.

He is not doing well.

Even if life is not good, what is the reason for running away from yourself?

The reason why Chen Fang left back then, Lu Shiqing now thinks about it, is really high-sounding.But no matter how false the excuses are, Chen Fang is determined to leave, no matter the promise he made when he was young, or the ring he didn't give away, they can't bind a ray of oxygen that escaped.

And now Chen Fang has found a new lover, just like he wants to return the documents to the original owner, he can't keep people, he only leaves himself with the faint shadow when he dreams back in the middle of the night.

Then don't dream of you again tonight.

Lu Shiqing put away his documents and went to the cabinet to find his sleeping pills.For many years, his sleep disorder has not improved, and he can only rely on sleeping pills to barely fall asleep.

He took out the white medicine bottle, unscrewed the cap and poured it into the palm of his hand, only sporadic fine powder fell on the palm of his hand.Frustrated, he threw the medicine bottle into the trash can, and suddenly began to regret that he had just been angry for a while, and had the idea of ​​not dreaming about Chen Fang again.

The medicine bottle was empty, and his sleep tonight was about to be deprived of it by the long darkness.

Then it is really impossible to dream.