restart breathing

The moment the door of the ward was closed, all of Chen Fang's strength seemed to be pulled away at once.He no longer restrained the trembling of his body, frowned, and wanted to hold his drowsy forehead with his hands, but almost pulled off the infusion needle stuck on the back of his hand.

Xu Jin blocked his hand, saw the slight blood regurgitation in the infusion tube, and said, "Are you okay, I'll call that doctor back."

"Don't go." Chen Fang called Xu Jin very eagerly, shook his head feebly, and said that he was fine.

He knew that if he had something to do at this time, it would all become Lu Shiqing's business.At this moment, Lu Shiqing will demand himself as a doctor, and rescue him, a patient, from the mess. It feels too familiar, just like seeing Lu Shiqing for the first time four years ago, and being rescued by him from Wang Li Same.

What is the ending in exchange for that beginning.

Chen Fang didn't dare to have a second time.

"What examination are you doing? What's the matter with you? The doctor didn't say anything." Xu Jin stretched out his hand and hooked Chen Fang's chin, "The cover is not finished yet. When will our little beauty resume work and make money?"

"Don't be like this, what's wrong with me if you are misunderstood." Chen Fang turned his head away, avoiding Xu Jin's hand.

"Anyway, you don't want to promise me. I wish someone would misunderstand that we have an affair." Xu Jin withdrew his hand and looked at Chen Fang, feeling amused, "Who else do you know besides me and a few people who took pictures?" Huh? Afraid someone might misunderstand?"

Chen Fang was stunned for a moment.It seems to be true as what Xu Jin said, now, in order to make a living, he relies on Xu Jin to help him take some photo shoots for low-end magazines, and the only people he knows are those who work together.

If he had to think about it carefully, in such a big capital, he probably only knows more people than Lu Shiqing who just walked out in a white coat.

Is it because he is afraid that he will misunderstand?Chen Fang thought about it and found it funny, laughing that he seemed to think too much.For Lu Shiqing, even the slightest concern for himself was incidental to his status as a doctor, so how could he have extra thoughts on him and misunderstand who he was with.

Good luck tricks people, it's just karma.

"Okay, okay." Seeing that Chen Fang didn't respond, Xu Jin perfunctory, got up and patted the folds on his clothes, "Didn't eat dinner. I'll go buy something."

"No, thank you." Chen Fang said listlessly.

"You are skinny and skinny. You look good on camera if you look thinner. If you want to be skinny and out of shape, you won't be able to work." Xu Jin clicked his tongue angrily, and asked again: "What do you eat?"

"...It's all right." Chen Fang thought. In the past, work was for eating, but now it has become eating for work, which has become a cycle.Anyway, no matter what he said or did, it was always the same as the situation a few years ago, without making any progress, and it was not his turn to do it for himself.

"Every day is casual, the problem is thrown to me, what an ancestor." Xu Jin glanced at the phone, scratching his head irritably, "You are injured, I don't know when you can start work. The work in these few days is estimated to be exhausted." It’s blown, I still have to make an apology to someone and find another person... Okay, you rest, I’ll buy some light ones back.”

Chen Fang nodded and saw that Xu Jin had gone out, but he didn't wait for anyone to come back.

Not long after, he received a call from Xu Jin, saying that Party A had something to do and wanted to catch up with a dinner, and asked Chen Fang to order a takeaway by himself, and said that he had found someone to help him with the hospitalization, and it would be fine if he just stayed. .

Xu Jin is like this, he seems very thoughtful, but he is not reliable all the time.

Chen Fang said hello on the phone, but hung up the phone in a blatant manner. He didn't plan to have dinner, but just lay on the hospital bed, watching the LED lights on the outer layer of the high-rise building in the distance flashing in different patterns.

In fact, he can understand Xu Jin very well. They are a group of ants living at the bottom of the capital. Their livelihood is the most important thing. They can be in front of everything anytime and anywhere. This is the rule that everyone agrees to and abides by.

Chen Fang thought about when he first came to the capital four years ago, he obviously didn't fully accept this kind of rules, his mind was only full of past personnel promises, but he didn't take life seriously, so he was confused.Until two years ago, Xu Jin, who was too drunk to talk about business, was dragged out of the cleaning room of the restaurant by accident, saying that it was a pity that he had a good skin, and began to help him take those awkward but decent shots Work, this is what makes him look like a man today.

But no matter how decently he lived, he still couldn't lift his head up.

He managed to convince himself to become a believer in the city's rules, and with only one look from Lu Shiqing, he had the idea of ​​defecting.

Chen Fang began to reflect on his motivation for coming to the capital, but he didn't want to let his promise fail, or he wanted to be closer to Lu Shiqing.

Come closer.how close?Close enough to see Lu Shiqing's name printed on the badge in the white coat but dare not look up into his eyes?

Pointless.

Chen Fang reached out and touched the back of his neck. The skin that should have been smooth on the surface of the glands became a little rough, with new and old pinholes and scars superimposed.If you look closely, it may look ugly, with a weak smell, no sweet taste, and even the normal functions are no longer complete, and it often has a fever, and even a little alpha pheromone can produce a terrible heat.

Without a single intact gland, the omega status he once hated lost its value.

An alpha will do a lot in the future, and worthless maggots should not try to crawl on him.Chen Fang suddenly remembered this sentence.

He is alone and has nothing, and that little bit of emotion is floating among the tall buildings in the city, pulling his rope.

While dragging him to linger, someone at the other end of the rope will inevitably increase the burden and be dragged down by him.

Chen Fang didn't sleep well all night, maybe it was because he didn't adapt to the new environment, or maybe it was because the lights in the office building of the hospital opposite were always on, which reminded him that there might be a familiar figure among the people working all night.

When the door of the ward was pushed open in the morning, Chen Fang's body subconsciously shook, and he didn't dare to raise his head. When the footsteps approached, he realized that it was only the nurse who came in.He breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had escaped from death, and felt that he had become very strange, inexplicably tense, and he didn't know what he was afraid of or looking forward to.

The nurse put a stack of bills on Chen Fang's bedside, saying that it was prescribed by the doctor, and asked him to pay for the examination as soon as possible.Chen Fang didn't look at the pile of inspection items that he couldn't understand first, just after calculating the cost, he felt that there was no need to look at the item names at all.

It's not that one should avoid medical treatment, even if one is taboo, one must have the capital to seek medical treatment. Obviously, he has not even crossed this threshold.

Chen Fang did the calculations in his mind, and it seemed that inhibitors were more cost-effective, even if the glands were riddled with holes, it didn't matter if new injuries piled up with old ones.He hadn't counted how many inhibitors had been inserted into his glands in the past four years. It seemed that the dosage was indeed higher than normal, but at least when the effect took effect, he could get a moment of peace, as if he was being protected.

The protected person will be greedy for this sense of security, but what he relies on is medicine, which is called addiction to put it harshly.

He was the only patient in the ward where Chen Fang lived, so people didn't come in and out very often, but he still couldn't restrain himself from panic all day long, and even turned his head slightly when lying on the bed to ensure that he could see the door of the ward without a trace.

When the door was pushed open again in the evening, Chen Fang looked at the shoes that stepped into the ward, the white nurse's shoes, Chen Fang breathed a sigh of relief and sat up with his body propped up.

"The burn on the hand, it's time to change the dressing, roll up the sleeves." The nurse prepared the medicine without raising her head.

Chen Fang pulled up his sleeves and watched the nurse remove the gauze. The covered skin was red, swollen and blistered, but the fresh wounds were not as dazzling as the years of scars.

Chen Fang's arm trembled along with his body. The nurse thought he was in pain and moved slightly, but it wasn't because of this.The pain of the burn was not obvious, but the scar, as if it had been cut open again and again, made Chen Fang tremble in pain and panic.

It suddenly occurred to him that when he woke up yesterday, Lu Shiqing was already in the ward... Did he see it?

Concealing or deceiving too much is like building a city wall, filling in the gaps with new lies so that the covered things will not be easily discovered.This seemed to be a habit, and Chen Fang had subconsciously started to weave plausible explanations in his mind, but was interrupted by the sound of the nurse closing the door and leaving.

It's like waking up from a dream, feeling lost.

Lying...is it necessary?

Lu Shiqing never showed up in this ward today, let alone came to him to question him for an explanation after seeing the scar on his hand.

Their current relationship ends with a cold doctor-patient relationship.Lu Shiqing wouldn't ask how his wound was, maybe he couldn't avoid an unexpected burden at all, and he didn't even want to give him a look.

After pretending to be passionate, Chen Fang was a little too sensible about current affairs.

He only learned this four years ago, and he can correct his mistakes.