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Dimness, hot flashes, and the faint scent of pine branches.

Chen Fang walked through it, not daring to stop, and he didn't seem to be moving forward, and the beam of light in front of him didn't approach or move away. He tried his best to catch it, but he couldn't tear away the thick darkness.

He heard someone calling him.

Brother Fang.

Familiar voice, deep in the light source.

Close at hand, out of reach.

Brother Fang.

Chen Fang opened his eyes quickly, and saw Lu Shiqing's slightly frowning brows and worried expression.

"Brother Fang." Lu Shiqing touched Chen Fang's face with his hands, "Are you having a nightmare? I saw that you were not sleeping soundly, so I woke you up."

"It's okay." Chen took a slow breath.

Although the scene wasn't very scary, being unable to escape the darkness was more desperate than any nightmare. Even though such scenes had always occupied most of his dreams, he still couldn't get used to this familiar and thick darkness.

Chen Fang rubbed his eyes, his consciousness broke away from the dream just now.He felt as if he had slept for a long time, but his physical fatigue had not been relieved, and even his mind was dizzy.

Although Lu Shiqing was extremely excited and eager for the birthday gift he received, he didn't indulge like a freshman.They only did it once, maybe because they were too nervous or inexperienced, Chen Fang felt a soreness all over his body, and the hot flashes in his body didn't go away for a long time, but instead became more intense.

"Hmm..." Chen Fang sat up helplessly, groaned uncomfortably, and reached out to touch the scorching nape of his neck, the glands seemed to be beating with his pulse.

"What's the matter?" Lu Shiqing stood up and touched Chen Fang's flushed face with the back of her hand, "It's hot. It seems to have a fever." Lu Shiqing said with some self-blame, "Just now I took you to take a shower, It might be because of a cold... go to the clinic and get some water."

"No need." Chen Fang shook his head feebly.

As an omega, he is all too familiar with this feeling.The abnormal hotness is the early warning before the real arrival of the omega fever period, and it will gradually intensify as time goes by, until the body and consciousness are completely out of control.

He was terrified of this feeling.

"Shall I get you some hot water? Or cover the quilt well, and the fever will go away after sweating." Lu Shiqing was really worried, thinking of various ways to help Chen Fang reduce his fever.

But Chen Fang didn't listen, and seemed to have plans.

"I want to go home."

Knowing that Lu Shiqing's idea is concern and kindness, but what he really needs at the moment is just a suppressant in the bedside drawer at home.

Lu Shiqing obviously didn't understand Chen Fang's thoughts, and even felt that Chen Fang's stubborn idea of ​​going home was unreasonable, and eagerly persuaded him: "But you have a fever, once you go home, if you catch the wind, it will be more serious..."

"Take me home." Chen Fang turned his head to look at Lu Shiqing. Although he didn't even have the strength to speak, he had already made up his mind. He slowly moved his legs and feet out of bed, and picked up the clothes thrown on the ground one by one. Put it on.

"...Okay." Lu Shiqing had no choice but to compromise.

Lu Shiqing also wrapped her coat around Chen Fang's body, went to the pharmacy to buy antipyretics and put them in her pocket. Guessing that Chen Fang couldn't catch the wind and didn't ride a bicycle, she stood on the side of the road and hailed a taxi.

There was a lot of traffic on the commercial street, but most of them were full of passengers. They still waited for a long time when they saw the people waving and they kept stopping.

After getting in the car, Chen Fang was drowsy and listless, resting his head on Lu Shiqing's shoulder, he didn't speak all the way, closed his eyes quietly, as if he fell asleep again.It wasn't until the car drove into the old street of the North District that the wheels came out of one pit and fell into the next, and stumbled, Chen Fang was knocked so hard that he opened his eyes and frowned, looking unhappy.

"Do you want me to take you up?" Lu Shiqing saw that Chen Fang didn't even have the strength to move his legs, so he simply hugged him out and never let go.

"No, let me down." Chen Fang's arm supporting Lu Shiqing's neck was only vainly draped, and after being put down, he supported the rusty railing. Standing in front of the steps, he still turned his head and told Lu weakly. Shiqing said: "Go back early."

"Understood." Lu Shiqing did not move, "I see you go up and I will go."

"Okay." Chen Fang agreed.

He was really uncomfortable, and he didn't have the strength to spend any more time with Lu Shiqing. He walked up the steps slowly, every step was as heavy as a weight of lead, which made the old stairs tremble.When he reached the corridor at the top of the stairs, Chen Fang turned his head again, and waved to Lu Shiqing who was staring at him at the bottom of the steps. Seeing him leaving in the taxi just now, he squatted down as if exhausted, saving some money. It took a while to stand up again.

There was not much wind on the porch, but it was still cold. Chen Fang's overheated skin was wrapped in the cold air, and he couldn't help shivering, shrinking his body and walking towards the familiar dilapidated iron gate.

The door was opened slightly, and the pungent smell of smoke and mixed pheromones wafted out from inside. Chen Fang's glands swelled even more, and he pushed the door in with a frown. Only Chen Rao was leaning on the sofa, He casually pressed the cigarette butt into the glass ashtray with a gap on the coffee table.

I thought that as usual, the mother and son just ignored each other as if they didn't exist, Chen Fang walked towards his bedroom without raising his head, but Chen Rao made an abnormal sound.

"Stop." Chen Rao propped up her crooked body with her arms, dragged her shoes and walked to Chen Fang's side, "What's the smell on you?"

Hearing the words, Chen Fang turned his head, didn't look at Chen Rao's face, only saw the old and new bruises on her neck in different shades, sighed irritably, went back to the bedroom without saying a word, and locked the door behind him.

"What are you? How dare you ignore your mother?" Chen Rao slammed on the door relentlessly.

Chen Fang was upset when he heard it, and his glands seemed to be affected by the mixed smell in the room, and the pain intensified.

The drawer at the head of the bed was opened, and a tube of colorless and transparent injection lay quietly.Chen Fang took out the needle tube and confirmed with his confused consciousness that the package was still intact and that no strangers coming and going to his house had tampered with him. Then he sat on the side of the bed, raised his weak hand, and stabbed the needle point into the back of his neck with ease. glands.

This time, the febrile period has been advanced a few days, and the symptoms seem to be more rampant, probably because the pheromone level has fluctuated too much because I just had sex with Lu Shiqing, Chen Fang thought.

Inhibitors, you'll be fine if you take an inhibitor.

The cold liquid diffuses from the glands to the whole body, and the two forces, one cold and one hot, compete in the body, which is not a good feeling.He felt like a piece of molten metal in a furnace, suddenly thrown into the cold water, sizzling and steaming.

But he didn't want this torment to end as soon as possible, and he was even a little obsessed with it, indulging in the comfort brought by this torment, because the inhibitor was all the source of his sense of security in the face of the uncontrollable fever period. The only way an omega can protect itself.

In fact, Chen Fang vaguely felt that he seemed to have a paranoid dependence on the inhibitor, but he couldn't help it.

The pain caused by the suppressant is only for a short while, he can bear it and get used to it, but he doesn't want to be like Chen Rao and sink in the mud, that kind of suffering is endless.

Chen Rao was still outside the door, the commotion became louder and louder, and his words became more and more outrageous.

"What's that smell on you! It's pheromone smell!"

"Aren't you a bitch! Which alpha did you hook up with!"

"Little brat, did you hear me!"

"Get out of here!"

Chen Fang gritted his teeth and pushed the last bit of inhibitor into the gland, threw the needle into the trash can, casually wiped the blood oozed from the back of his neck, and opened the window, trying to get rid of the dirty smell in the room together with Chen Rao's hysterical The sound is cleared out together.

He didn't understand that Chen Rao was dealing with countless alphas every day, and why he thought he was with an alpha and reacted so strongly, just like he didn't know why Chen Rao, as his mother, hated him so much , cursed so viciously.

The people and things here seem to hide dirty and inexplicable secrets, but he can't figure it out, and he has no intention to figure it out, he just wants to escape.

After an unknown amount of time, the upstairs neighbor seemed to be disturbed by Chen Rao's noise, so he came down and knocked on the door.Chen Rao probably had a quarrel with his neighbors and vented the useless emotions that should have been vented on Chen Fang, and the room finally became quiet.

The sandy wind in spring blows in, it is gray, but it is much better than the smell of tobacco and unfamiliar alpha pheromones.A trace of coolness passed over the skin, and the effect of the inhibitor worked together to take away the abnormal agitation in the body.

Chen Fang closed the window, took off his coat, and rolled himself into the cold blanket that was blown by the wind.

The temperature in this home, no matter how many quilts are covered, is still bitingly cold.

Chen Fang closed his eyes. He was very tired, but he couldn't fall asleep. He groped in the dark and took out the crystal ball hidden in the box under the bed that Lu Shiqing gave him on Christmas Eve, and put it in his arms to light it up quietly.

I don't know if it was a hallucination, Chen Fang looked at the snow-falling pine trees in the crystal ball, and seemed to smell the faint fragrance of pine branches, which was the same as the smell that occasionally appeared on Lu Shiqing.

It smells good and he doesn't hate it.

But if, as Chen Rao said, it is alpha pheromone...whether it will be another matter.

Chen Fang didn't think about it, and didn't intend to think about it.

The alphas he had seen were all vicious and filthy. Lu Shiqing was completely different from them, so... it couldn't be an alpha.

The aroma of pine branches, the identity of beta, as long as Lu Shiqing told him, he was willing to believe it unconditionally.

With hope within reach, he is not qualified to pick and choose.

I'm afraid that I don't deserve it.