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"Is there any fresh Fang brother to show me today?"

Lu Shiqing was lying on the bed in her bedroom and sent Chen Fang a message.

Now that there is no limit to communication, the chat history of the two of them has dozens of pages more in a few days. Although the news that comes back and forth is not nutritious, it has never been interrupted.

Sometimes when Chen Fang got busy and was slow to reply to messages, Lu Shiqing would send him some funny animations or internet jokes, and Chen Fang would always reply to him after seeing them.

This feeling that everything, no matter it is meaningful or not, can get a response, which made Lu Shiqing never tired of it.

It's nice to be cared about by someone who cares.

After more than ten minutes, Chen Fang came back with a photo. There was only the upper body in a beige sweater and the neck was tightly wrapped by a high collar. Fortunately, he showed his chin and half his mouth.

In fact, after sending the phone over last time, he went to find Chen Fang again, and by the way denounced the issue of taking pictures.Every photo of Chen Fang only has clothes. Those who don’t know it think that he is chatting with him every day about WeChat business, and the pictures are samples of clothes for sale.

He wants to see boyfriends, not fashion shows.

What's more, there are only a few pieces of Chen Fang's clothes. Looking at the pictures Lu Shiqing saved in the album, the repetition rate is too high. He can't wait to erase all those pictures .

No, he was still a little bit reluctant.

But this time the photo is still an improvement.

Feeling that she was too easily satisfied, Lu Shiqing stared at the screen over and over again, wishing to take out the microscope to observe every spot of light. After a long time, she smiled and pressed save, and then sent a message to Chen Fang.

"Drink some water, your mouth will feel dry."

"I'm so busy today, I just got off work and I'm going back."

Chen Fang responded quickly this time, and he also sent a photo of the old Erba's bicycle parked in front of the store. It was Lu Shiqing who asked Chen Fang to ride to and from get off work when he was away.

"be safe."

"Okay, boyfriend."

Chen Fang should be on the road in the next ten minutes, and probably won't reply to messages.

Putting the phone aside, Lu Shiqing wanted to get out of bed and find some water to drink.Just as he was about to touch the bedroom doorknob, he heard the sound of keys coming from outside, and then the door lock clicked, and the door was closed gently.

Lu Shiqing hesitated for a moment with his hand hanging in the air, and then let it go.

Mom is back.

Although his mother sent a message to notify him before, but when he really heard the sound of people walking outside the house, Lu Shiqing suddenly felt very cramped and didn't know how to stay in this house.

The way he got along with his mother has always been like this, even if he just returned home after half a year of orchestra tour, his mother would not come to see him, and he also didn't want to face his mother.I felt an invisible sense of oppression filling the surrounding air with the appearance of my mother, and even my breathing was restricted.

Being able to make the relationship with his own mother so stiff, Lu Shiqing felt that both he and his mother were awesome.

Since he could remember, Lu Shiqing didn't even see his mother very often, and even when he was under the same roof occasionally, he tried every means to avoid communicating with his mother.

Lu Shiqing suddenly felt a little thankful for her mother's indifference.

Hearing the sound of her mother closing her bedroom door, Lu Shiqing heaved a sigh of relief, and lost the desire to drink water. She sat blankly by the bed for a while, feeling uneasy, and simply lay down again, facing the ceiling.

The phone rang.

Lu Shiqing hurriedly adjusted the silent mode, otherwise her mother would say that the noise disturbed her after hearing it, and she would be scolded for making excuses.

"I'm home, do you want to make a call?"

It was Chen Fang's news.

"No, my mother just came back."

"Then you can spend time with her."

Lu Shiqing watched the news and snorted. He couldn't tell if the laugh was self-deprecating or if he really thought it was ridiculous.

He didn't say much to Chen Fang about his family's affairs. After all, Chen Fang's family was already in that situation. If he complained about his own family's mess, it wouldn't be a tragic match, and he was still the one who lost.

He and Chen Fang are in a relationship, and he doesn't want their relationship to contain too many depressive factors, like an inspirational story of brothers and sisters who encourage and comfort each other.

Although at this moment the only person who can comfort him is Chen Fang.

"I miss you, I want to start school."

"One more week, it's almost here."

"I want to go back early."

If possible, he really wanted to pack up and leave this house overnight, not wanting to stay for a second longer.

"Fix a time and let me know, and I'll pick you up at the station."

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In the next few days, Lu Shiqing and his mother basically locked their bedroom doors at home, did not disturb each other, and stayed out of the house without making a sound.

Lu Shiqing felt that after several days in prison and being a mute, her body and vocal cords would degenerate.He didn't want to be speechless when he saw Chen Fang again, so he bought a train ticket back to Zeshi North District three days in advance.

Fortunately, my mother didn't ask anything, and she didn't care about when Lu Shiqing went back to school. She just said out of habit before he went out with his bag on his back: "Take care of yourself, I don't want to come back by plane again." Listen to the teacher's rebuke."

"Understood." Lu Shiqing felt that his throat was blocked by something, thinking that the vocal cords had really degenerated, and his voice was a little hoarse.

It was the only conversation he had with his mother during the days they were at home.

Lu Shiqing got into the car, probably in time for the start of the university season, the car was full of people, the luggage rack, under the seat, and all the space for storing luggage was filled.

When he bought the ticket, he deliberately chose a seat by the window, but when he got on the bus, he found that there was already a girl sitting in the seat. beside.

The car was full of people and noisy, crowded everywhere, people dragging luggage in the aisle rubbed Lu Shiqing's arm back and forth, which made him a little uncomfortable.

"Do you want to change your seat?" Lu Shiqing frowned and asked the person sitting in his seat angrily.

"Ah." The girl came back to her senses, probably frightened by Lu Shiqing's unfriendly expression, she stammered and said, "Yes, yes."

"What's the number?" The person next to him accidentally squeezed Lu Shiqing staggered with his backpack, and his patience was running out immediately.

"7 car 3b." The girl timidly replied according to the ticket.

This is 3 cars, the distance is not too close.

Lu Shiqing didn't care about politeness and impoliteness. He was afraid that with his irritability, which was close to full, one more sentence would make the girl cry. "Thank you".

The people who got on the train with big bags of luggage were still shuttling back and forth. Lu Shiqing first found an empty space between the cars and stood there. When the car started and the people stabilized, he walked through a few sections of the car to find his seat.

Seat b is the middle seat of the triple seat. Lu Shiqing saw a beer belly wearing a gold chain and an old lady holding a calico bag in the two seats next to him, squeezing his seat into a narrow space.

Lu Shiqing took the seat bravely, the suitcase protruding from under the seat was pinching his legs, he pushed the suitcase back with his heels, and only then was he able to place his long legs properly.

Nothing the hell goes right.

The phone vibrated several times in his trouser pocket just now, and Lu Shiqing took the time to look at it. Unsurprisingly, it was sent by Chen Fang.

"Are you in the car?"

"There may be a lot of people in the car."

"If someone wants to change seats with you, don't curse them."

"I'm leaving too."

"Boyfriend, wait for you."

After reading it, Lu Shiqing let go of her frowning brows and smiled.

I don't know if it's because Chen Fang has too much life experience, or if he's playing tricks on him, he can perfectly predict the direction of things, it's amazing.

"I met everything you said, and I almost cursed, so I held back."

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After sending the message, Chen Fang came back soon.

"Then I'll tell you more good things for you."

Lu Shiqing smiled, and sent a real-time location sharing to Chen Fang. The two dots were still far apart, moving slowly with the train.

"I'm at the station."

When Chen Fang sent this message, the small dot representing Lu Shiqing's coordinates on the screen of the mobile phone was still half way away. The time for the coordinates to move a few centimeters on the screen was like a second to Lu Shiqing. .

This is the second time he wants to grow wings after he didn't bring his ID card in the Internet cafe last time.

Want to fly to Chen Fang immediately.

"It's still half an hour away, find a warm place and wait."

"understood."

The more this happened, the more Lu Shiqing couldn't wait, the familiar stress reaction of the gastrointestinal tract reappeared, the bodies of the two people next to the seat squeezed his, and it was uncomfortable anywhere.

He couldn't sit still anymore, so he simply walked to the space between the carriages and looked at the scenery outside through the glass on the door.

Winter has not yet passed, there are bald people everywhere, and there is nothing to see, one after another speeding past, leaving only blurred light and shadow in front of the eyes, but Lu Shiqing still dislikes that the speed is too slow.

There was slow-paced music playing in the earphones, but the speed at which Lu Shiqing shook his legs was out of the control of the rhythm of the music, almost beating fast with his heart.

When the single looped to the ninth time, Lu Shiqing finally heard the station announcement on the car, and took a seat closest to the door to ensure that he could be the first to rush down after parking.

"Get out of the car soon?"

Chen Fang remembered the time very accurately, and always sent messages to Lu Shiqing very punctually.

Lu Shiqing replied with a photo of her shoes stepping on the door of the car.

"Get out of the car soon."

The train finally stopped slowly. Lu Shiqing waited with the last bit of patience for the conductor to put the footrests at the door, and stepped over the footrests with long legs. He carried it in his hand and ran regardless.

The few seconds he ran out of the station seemed to be the longest few seconds in his life, as if time was deliberately finding fault with him and slowed down a little on purpose.

But nothing can stop him from meeting Chen Fang.

At the position closest to the exit, someone smiled and waved at the running figure.

Lu Shiqing was so fast that he didn't see it clearly, but he knew that the person must be Chen Fang.

With only a few meters left, he didn't want to slow down at all, and he didn't care whether anyone was watching him, so he almost bumped into Chen Fang and hugged him.

"I fucking miss you so much."

At the same time as Lu Shiqing's voice sounded, there was also a not very loud roar, which was close at hand, as if something had exploded in the arms of the two of them.

"What do I rely on..." Lu Shiqing looked down suddenly in fright, her body and arms were still reluctant to leave Chen Fang's body.

Chen Fang looked at Lu Shiqing in a daze for a while, then laughed, and took out a fast food restaurant paper bag with a big hole from his coat wrapping arms, it should be intact before Lu Shiqing rushed over.

Chen Fang took out a vaguely recognizable paper bag that probably contained a hamburger from the hole in the paper bag, and handed it to Lu Shiqing.

"I bought you breakfast."

Already crushed by their hugs.