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"Good evening, boyfriend." Chen Fang pressed the receiver to his ear, his tone was very relaxed, "I'll call you from the small shop downstairs."

"En." Lu Shiqing responded, seeming a little listless.

"Why does your voice sound so tired? What are you doing today?" Chen Fang asked.

"Is there?" Lu Shiqing cleared his throat, and his voice immediately recovered, "Maybe it's because I went to play today. I haven't played for a long time, and I can't keep up with my physical strength."

"Oh——" Chen Fang elongated his voice, "Don't do anything bad behind my back, I have very keen intuition."

"How could I do something bad." Lu Shiqing smiled, "It's you, I can't contact you at any time. If you do something bad... or encounter something bad, I'm really kept in the dark."

"No." Chen Fang said quickly, wanting to reassure Lu Shiqing, and then remained silent.

won't it?

There are many bad facts around him.

I used to be used to being alone, as if I didn't care where I drifted, and it didn't matter what happened.But now it was different, Lu Shiqing's words reminded him that besides himself, there was a temporarily invisible and intangible person who cared about his situation, even more than himself.

Turning his head when he was in school, he could see that Lu Shiqing's state brought him an extreme sense of steadfastness and security, and he was separated suddenly. Although more than a month was not a long time, Chen Fang didn't even think of it. Two days later, he already vaguely felt that he was not used to it.

There is no figure pushing a cart, no strong back when riding a bike, no ruffian face.

And the phone call once a day, compared to the familiarity that surrounds me all the time, seems too insufficient.

They seem to be rooted in each other, so that they can draw a sense of security from each other, and the giving and taking from each other tend to be balanced, so that no one will wither.

"Hey?"

"Here." Lu Shiqing's voice recalled Chen Fang's thoughts.

"I thought something happened, and I didn't make a sound for a long time." Lu Shiqing breathed a sigh of relief, "I was scared to death."

"It's okay." Chen Fang paused, "I saved some money before, and if I save a little more, I can buy a mobile phone so that I won't lose contact, how about it?"

"Don't, don't, don't." Lu Shiqing said anxiously, "That...the mobile phone is not a necessity, you are so tired from working, don't waste your money."

Just as Chen Fang was about to speak, the owner of the small shop patted him on the forearm, and said with some dissatisfaction: "Hey, I'm about to close the shop, don't call for too long and you'll be fine. If you don't buy anything, who will earn money?" Your phone bill..."

"What's wrong with you? It's so noisy." Lu Shiqing said.

"Sorry, I'll be right away." Chen Fang covered the phone and let go, and then said to Lu Shiqing: "The small shop is going to close, I have to hang up."

"That's right, it's too late." Lu Shiqing couldn't hide the regret in his tone, and still told him: "After you hang up, don't delay outside, go home immediately."

"Well, I know." Chen Fang responded softly, and said with a smile, "Good night."

"Good night, boyfriend."

As soon as Lu Shiqing's last syllable fell, the phone was hung up by the owner of the small shop forcibly. Chen Fang apologized to the boss again, and left after paying the phone bill.

The light outside was very dim, and the wind was cold. Chen Fang tucked his hands into his pockets, lowered his head and buried half of his face in his collar, and stepped up the trembling old open-air stairs step by step.Walking to the door of the house, the iron door is still locked, and the gray window panes are abnormally half opened, pouring cold air into the room.

The hand holding the key turned pale, Chen Fang hesitated for a moment, but still poked it into the keyhole.

Chen Rao was leaning on the sofa and smoking a cigarette. She glanced at Chen Fang, as if she didn't see it, and flicked the burnt cigarette ash at hand, and burned a few small holes in the dilapidated sofa.

Chen Fang walked through the living room without raising his head, and found that the door that should have been closed was half open, and turned his head to stare at Chen Rao with scarlet eyes.

"Didn't I say, don't stay in my room." Chen Fang's voice trembled violently, as if there was only one string left from the edge of the explosion, and he had to try his best to bear it.

"Oh." Chen Rao put out the cigarette butt, and exhaled the last puff of blue smoke, "I can't help it, the alpha has to be done in your room today, how can I not follow the customer."

The door was slammed shut, and with a bang, Chen Fang locked himself into the bedroom. The room was filled with the stench of rusty alpha pheromone, and the sheets and floor were messy, all of which were the dirty traces left behind by some beautiful events.

A nauseating feeling of stress surged up, Chen Fang opened the window wide, not stingy with the pitiful heat in the room, and let the cold and bitter wind blow in, blowing out the disgusting smell.

Nausea, pheromones are disgusting, Chen Rao is disgusting, those alphas are disgusting.

The self who lives in all this is also disgusting.

Chen Fang grabbed the corner of the messy bed sheet and pulled it hard, and the pillow was also brought to the floor, tangled up with the bed sheet and quilt.

a mess.

It seemed that with the destruction of these traces, his strength was also drawn away, and he slid along the wall and sat in a small corner under the window, turning out the crystal ball wrapped in tissue paper in the box at hand.

The switch was flipped, and the small Christmas tree in the crystal ball was illuminated by the light source. Layers of silver glitter floated like snow, floated in the air, and then fell on the tree.

Chen Fang held it in his hands and looked at it without blinking.

This is the world that Lu Shiqing gave him.

No matter how dirty and bad his real world is, it seems that this world will never change. The Christmas tree will not decay into dead branches, and the snow will not melt into muddy water. It will be protected by a glass cover, and it will always be pure and clean.

Chen Fang's tears fell on the crystal ball, as if he was worried about getting it dirty, and he wiped away the transparent water marks in a panic.

Lu Shiqing.

Our world is so different.

But no matter how far away, I want to visit your world.

Even if I don't expect to be able to stay there.

With the cold wind blowing all night, Chen Fang caught a bad cold, and he hasn't recovered quickly for a week.But he didn't dare to let himself be as delicate as a real omega, put on a mask, and went to work as usual.

He sat behind the counter of the hamburger restaurant. There were not many customers in the morning, so he had time to walk around for a while.

The welcome bell hanging at the door rang once, and Chen Fang quickly entered the working state, raised his head: "Hello, welcome..."

Chen Fang suddenly couldn't speak the working language that he usually uttered subconsciously, and was in a daze for a moment, thinking that he had misread the person or remembered the wrong time.

Lu Shiqing was standing in front of the store at the moment, wearing an expensive woolen coat.Tie around the neck is a dark blue scarf that doesn't match the texture of the coat, and even looks a little cheap. It is carefully tied and wrapped inside the coat.

"You were distracted just now, and I caught you." Lu Shiqing walked behind the counter with a smile.

"Why are you here?" Chen Fang was still half dazed, looking at Lu Shiqing's expression with surprise and surprise.

"I miss you, I can't help but come to you." Lu Shiqing looked at Chen Fang with a smile, "Why are you wearing a mask?"

Lu Shiqing pulled down the mask that covered half of Chen Fang's face, saw his reddened nose, and asked, "Did you catch a cold?"

"No." Chen Fang denied it outright, speaking with a slight nasal sound, which could be heard by listening carefully.

"I said that I heard your nasal voice on the phone a few days ago, and I asked you if you had a cold and didn't admit it." Lu Shiqing frowned slightly, "I knew you had something to worry me about, so you definitely wouldn't tell me .”

"It's just a small cold, it's not that serious." Chen Fang sniffed, proving to Lu Shiqing that he was breathing well, "It's all right."

"Okay, let's not take this as an example." Lu Shiqing raised her eyebrows, looking reluctant, as if she had made a big compromise.

"Have you had breakfast?" Chen Fang asked.

"No..." Lu Shiqing was not willing to admit it, but his stomach was indeed empty.

He woke up earlier this morning than when he was at school, thinking about closing his eyes and recovering his energy, no matter what posture he used, he couldn't stay still.I wanted to get up and get something to eat, and my stomach started to feel wrong again, just like the gastrointestinal stress reaction caused by emotional stress every time before encountering any major event.

nervous?He came to see his boyfriend, so he was still nervous?

Too useless.

The moment before I stood in front of the fast food restaurant and opened the door, this discomfort reached its peak, and it returned to normal the moment I saw Chen Fang, as if I had taken some panacea.

The senses and mind returned to his body, and after Chen Fang reminded him, he really felt a little hungry.

"What do you want to eat?" Chen Fang skipped the link of asking why, and turned to look at him with a smile as if he knew everything, "I'm treating you."

"Laughing fart." Lu Shiqing said so, but he was actually laughing too.

Chen Fang quickly took off his work clothes, went into the back room and called out the round-faced girl who helped him last time, put on his coat and grabbed Lu Shiqing's wrist and walked out.

"Hey, this is it?" A smile appeared on Lu Shiqing's face.Of course he was happy that Chen Fang was so proactive, but he was a little confused by Chen Fang's sudden and coherent behavior.

"Skipping work." Chen Fang turned to look at Lu Shiqing, and said naturally, "Please eat, let's go."

There are many things to eat on both sides of the pedestrian street, but most of them are hot pot and barbecue shops.Lu Shiqing's stomach had just recovered from the stress response, and he didn't have the heart to eat such a big one, so he and Chen Fang walked all the way to the street corner, staring at the fried dough stick stand set up on a simple shelf by the side of the road.

The two found a table in the lee and sat down, and ordered five deep-fried dough sticks and two bowls of soy milk. The boss moved swiftly, and soon there was the sound of fried food in the pot, and blue-gray oily smoke came out in puffs.

"You really know how to save money for me." Chen Fang wiped the plastic tabletop that had accumulated old oil and gas, "The money you saved to buy a mobile phone is not spent on breakfast."

"It's not for buying a mobile phone..." Lu Shiqing touched her pocket to make sure that the brand new cube was still there, and wanted to hide it from Chen Chen for a while, "This is because of my rebellious heart."

"It's just eating fried dough sticks, why is it involved in rebellion?" Chen Fang asked with a smile.

Lu Shiqing felt that Chen Fang was sitting too far away from her, so she stretched out her hand and dragged him with the stool closer to her.Thanks to the boss who brought the fried dough sticks and soy milk to the table in time, otherwise Chen Fang would have been dragged into his woolen coat and wrapped up by him.

"I said it was the first time I ate deep-fried dough sticks at a roadside stall, do you believe me?" Lu Shiqing picked up the deep-fried dough sticks and put them in his mouth. It was a little hot, and he chewed a few times before he said, "I My mother only let me eat fried dough sticks from that brand chain, saying that the lead content sold at the roadside stalls is too high, and if I eat too much, I will become stupid."

"It doesn't seem unreasonable." Chen Fang smiled, "You are so smart, probably half of it is your innate advantage, and the other half is your maintenance."

"But the ones on the side of the road are indeed more delicious, and it's worth being stupid." Lu Shiqing chewed the fried dough sticks in his mouth, seeing that Chen couldn't move his chopsticks, he said vaguely: "Don't just look at me, why don't you eat it? "

"I'm afraid I'll be stupid, so I won't understand what you're telling me about math problems." Chen Fang picked up his chopsticks and stirred them in the bowl of soybean milk.

"You have to spread it out for me." Lu Shiqing held a fried dough stick to Chen Fang, "If I become too stupid, how can I give you a lecture."

Chen Fang smiled, put the deep-fried dough stick that Lu Shiqing had brought into his mouth and took a bite, then wiped off the oil on his mouth with a paper, and asked, "While you are still smart, why should we go after a while?"

"Go on a date." Lu Shiqing blurted out, and after finishing speaking, he felt that the word was very subtle and made people blush.

Although Chen Fang always accompanied him when they were not sure about their relationship, but now that they are a couple, dating must be somewhat different from the usual companionship.

It seemed that they finally had an upright reason to allow them to mix in the ambiguity and intimacy of lovers, say something that they didn't usually say, and do something that they didn't usually do.

"A date...you haven't had a date, what are you doing?" Chen Fang lowered his head and said while sipping the soy milk in his bowl.

"No, you said it as if I had a date." Lu Shiqing thought for a while, exhausting the few romantic cells in her mind, but still only came up with the tacky old three: "Eat, go shopping ,See a movie?"

"I'm already eating." Chen Fang turned his head to look at Lu Shiqing, "Do you want to go shopping?"

"I don't want to. Then watch movies." Lu Shiqing replied decisively, "Do you know where I can watch movies nearby?"

"I know." Chen Fang nodded thoughtfully, "You can watch whatever you want."

"Is there still such a good place here?" Lu Shiqing stuffed the last piece of deep-fried dough stick into his mouth, and smoothed it down with bottomless soy milk, "Let's go."

"Are you so anxious to watch the movie?" Chen Fang couldn't help laughing seeing Lu Shiqing's impatient look.

"Hurry up." Lu Shiqing just urged.

He actually wanted to say that he was in a hurry to watch a shitty movie, and that I was in a hurry to date you.