The Fall of a Scholar

"The other day you went online and told me that you were back. I was both happy and scared, as if I had just quit smoking and was handed a cigarette." Yan Congzhi looked up at Su Xiaoqian, his eyes trembling with starlight, and held Su Xiaoqian put a hand on the table and said with difficulty, "Now if you take the initiative, I can't refuse. I just hope that I will be luckier this time, and pray that you can be responsible to me." The corner of his mouth curled up, and he smiled bitterly silently.

The initiative fell into Su Xiaoqian's hands, he no longer had to cautiously guess what Chuan Congzhi was thinking, and frightenedly figure out the meaning of every word he said.Yan Congzhi told him all the stories, completely took off the disguise, and exposed all his thoughts, all healed and unhealed scars.

But Su Xiaoqian was worried.

In his eyes, A Gu at this time is like a white and bright porcelain, which has been lost and recovered, and there is still no crack, but he has to treat it with extreme care.

"You're not perfect, but you are as good as I thought you were, and you are."

Yan Congzhi smiled and said, "Children."

Su Xiaoqian stood up and said, "I'm going back to school first, tomorrow I'm going to wear a bachelor's uniform to take pictures in class."

Yan Congzhi was stunned for a moment, and asked, "Do you still feel pain?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore, I'm actually fine, I just want to come to your house for an excuse"

"Heh, did you pass your inspection?"

"Hmm." After finishing speaking, he bowed his head and felt embarrassed.

"That's good." Afterwards, Yan Congzhi asked cautiously: "I'll go back to school in two days to review for the exam. When the time comes, will I find you?"

"it is good."

Yan Congzhi sent him to a taxi.When Su Xiaoqian arrived at the dormitory, the first thing he did was turn on the computer, open Word, and type the word "resume".

At this point, he must give Ah Gu a future.Back then he said the phrase "I'll wait for you for six years", but now Su Xiaoqian has no face to confirm this sentence with him.He knew that Yan Congzhi didn't say a word: "At the beginning you said we had no future, so now we have one?" He was so uneasy, but he still loved himself, so he still threw himself into this gamble without hesitation.

Su Xiaoqian wrote his personal information, and the column of awards was difficult for him for a long time, so he had to take out all the awards from the cabinet and type them in one by one.After writing everything, I found that the resume had already used up to three pages.

Will this resume get you a job?

"Back?" Pu Liang also came back from the laboratory.

"Is there still a job fair in our school?"

"You said you graduated next year? It hasn't started yet."

"No, I said it was for our class."

"It's long gone. The offer to fresh graduates has already been sent out. It's been a while."

"Oh."

"What are you doing? Looking for a job?" Pu Liang saw his computer screen while speaking.

"Um."

"You're crazy! Where's the job right now?"

"Then I'll go to the job fair outside."

"There are only so many good jobs for fresh graduates, and they are gone now. Don't even think about it, go abroad!"

Su Xiaoqian ignored him and started browsing the recruitment website.

"Xiaoqian, this is not a joke. If you don't go abroad, it will be too late to find a job or take the postgraduate entrance examination. Don't joke about your future."

Seeing that he didn't respond, Pu Liang shouted: "Did Yan Congzhi drug you? You idiot!"

How could Su Xiaoqian not know this?But there is no such perfect thing in the world, there is always something to give up, and if you want something, you must give up.So making a decision is always a matter of weighing the importance of two things.

The next day, Su Xiaoqian put on his bachelor's uniform.A pitch-black robe, with a circle of yellow drapes around the chest and shoulders, two purple decorations from the chest down, and a hat with tassels hanging down.A slightly immature figure appeared in the mirror, and Su Xiaoqian stared blankly at himself in the mirror.Ten years of life are all for today.He suddenly thought again that the day Yan Congzhi put on this dress was supposed to be a happy day, but because of himself he must have lived in pain.

"Do I look handsome?" Park Liang came over and stood side by side with him in front of the mirror, and put his hand on his shoulder, "Very beautiful." In the mirror were two young men in academic uniforms.They are the proud sons of heaven, with youth, knowledge, enthusiasm, and the best diploma in the whole country, as if the whole future and even the whole world belong to them.

"Pu Liang, do you have a dream?"

Pu Liangyi frowned: "Don't discuss such profound issues with me, okay?"

Su Xiaoqian said blankly: "You said we did so many questions and took so many exams, what is it for?"

Pu Liang silently looked at Su Xiaoqian in the mirror.

"Do you think I will become popular when I sing?"

"Hey, it's a bit late to change the script, isn't it? Generally, such things as dropping out of school and singing are done in the sophomore year."

Su Xiaoqian didn't speak, and suddenly sang loudly:

What formula will allow me to find the incomplete and the solution

What sentence patterns can make me say sad grammar

After 19 years, in exchange for five certificates and half a world

I finally found out that I was the first, second and third fool

Is this story familiar? Is it helpless? Is it heartache

The price of being stupid or not is priceless

In the last blink of an eye, presbyopia, gray hair in a blink of an eye

Turning the years, the tears also explode

After singing a few lines, Su Xiaoqian helplessly smiled at himself in the mirror.

"What do you like to do?" Pu Liang asked.

"I don't know, this is a sad place."

"Since you don't know, it's the safest way to go the way everyone goes, understand? Don't bet so much."

"But I have lived for 19 years, and I only fell in love with this one person."

Pu Liang stretched out his hand and rubbed the top of his head. Together with the rest of the class, the two walked around every landmark scenic spot and building in the school one by one. More than 30 people happily posed in various poses.In the four years of college, Su Xiaoqian didn't pay attention to many places in the school. Today, when he walked carefully, he felt a lot of reluctance.

In the past few days, Su Xiaoqian frantically submitted resumes online, went to two off-campus job fairs, and received several interview invitations, but none of them were ideal places.He didn't tell Yan Congzhi about it, knowing that he would definitely disagree, he thought he would talk to him after he found a better company.Sometimes Yan Congzhi wanted to go to him, but Su Xiaoqian said that he was busy with his thesis.

On this day, he put on his shirt and trousers again, took a stack of resumes, and ran to an exhibition center in the city.There's a big job fair there.

Su Xiaoqian was dumbfounded when he entered the lobby, there was a sea of ​​people, and after a few minutes of walking around, he became hot and sweaty all over.He was still wearing a long-sleeved shirt, and the front and back were wet with sweat.Most of these off-campus job fairs are aimed at candidates from the society, and many of them require work experience.It is difficult to find a position that matches Su Xiaoqian for a position that does not require work experience.

When people read Su Xiaoqian's resume, most of the first sentence is "Young man, you are too talented to come to us", or "We just need an ordinary undergraduate".

Su Xiaoqian later saw that there was an automobile company with some hardware control positions. He thought it was pretty good, so he handed over his resume and wanted to chat with the recruiter.

The man looked at his resume for a long time and said, "You're only 19 years old?"

"Yes." Su Xiaoqian knew that his age was a big disadvantage.

"We can't open an account here."

"I don't need an account."

"Then what are you planning? You really shouldn't vote for us with your resume. You won't be able to stay here, really."

"How do you know that I won't be able to stay?" Su Xiaoqian was so pissed off by this rotation.

"I mean, we really can't keep you here. Let's not talk about the school, just talk about your pile of awards. You should go to study for a doctorate, do research, and maybe get a Nobel Prize."

"I..." Su Xiaoqian just wanted to refute, but the resume in his hand was pulled away.He turned his head and saw Yan Congzhi standing behind him with an angry face, grabbed his wrist and said, "Follow me."

Su Xiaoqian was pulled outside under the shade of a tree, the sun was scorching like fire, Yan Congzhi was also sweating profusely, and the broken hair at the temples was sticking to his face wetly.

"give me."

"what?"

Yan Congzhi grabbed his stack of resumes and tore them into pieces.

"Su Xiaoqian, in your heart, am I important or not?"

"important."

"How important is it?"

"Very...very important."

"Then before you make a major decision, can you discuss it with me? Don't always make up your own mind, just call me at the end??"

"I want to find someone who can tell the past, so I can tell you."

Yan Congzhi sat on a chair by the side of the road, looked up at Su Xiaoqian, and his voice changed a bit: "You've put too much burden on me, understand? You can't let me spend the rest of my life carrying a 'delay'." Your future' hat. I can't bear it."

After Su Xiaoqian heard this, he raised his head, wanting to shed those tears of grievance and despair: "I just don't want to be separated from you, never again." Then, his hands were held by Yan Congzhi, and he put them on his lips. Kissed gently.In a daze, I only heard Yan Congzhi say: "Yong Ye, give me one year, and I will go to you after one year, okay?"

Su Xiaoqian woke up suddenly, lowered his head and stared at his face: "What do you mean?"

"I'm not going to study this master's degree here anymore. I'll go to the United States to study it. It's a big deal to study at my own expense."

Su Xiaoqian felt his heartbeat was so real and powerful at this moment, as if it was going to pop out of his chest: "Master's degree from X University, halfway through, you don't want it?"

Yan Congzhi smiled and said, "If you had confessed to me earlier, I wouldn't have been guaranteed graduate school, so I wouldn't have spent this year in vain, and maybe I wouldn't have to suffer those crimes."

"But, but it's almost June. You have to take the English test, and you can only apply to the school after you get the result. There is not much time for review."

"Try it, how will you know if you don't try it? But there is one thing, you will go to the United States to report honestly in August."

"You, you won't lie to me, will you?"

Yan Congzhi put his arms around his legs, and put his chin on his belly: "When have I ever lied to you? You lied to me, and you have always lied to me."