The Fall of a Scholar

The two of them checked out and went out, called a taxi, got in, and Yan Congzhi told him again: "I ordered some takeaway at noon, and just lay still on the bed, do you hear me?"

"kindness."

"This is my current mobile phone number, please write it down, and call me if you need anything."

"Oh."

Yan Congzhi explained in detail which building he lived in and the specific house number, and got off the car when he passed the company building.Su Xiaoqian saw a famous website logo hanging on the roof of the building.

The house that Yan Congzhi rented was in the nearby community, and Su Xiaoqian got off the car when he got there.This is a relatively new neighborhood, but very quiet.After entering the building and finding the door, he took out the key to open the door.Yan Congzhi gave him a bunch of keys, but didn't say which ones.He found the keys that looked like this door and tried them one by one. He couldn't open the third one, and was about to try the fourth one when the door swung open.

A boy inside opened the door for him.

Su Xiaoqian's mind was suddenly clouded, and he stared at him blankly.This boy has fair skin and red lips, and a pair of slender eyebrows are raised from the corners of his eyes.The hair is soft and slightly curly, combed into a bun at the back of the head.

The boy was also taken aback: "Who are you?"

Su Xiaoqian stammered, "I'm looking for Yan Congzhi."

"He didn't come back last night, I'm still looking for him."

"I..." Su Xiaoqian remembered to take out the key, "He gave me the key and asked me to come."

The boy raised his eyebrows: "Oh, you were together last night?"

Su Xiaoqian didn't know what to say, is Yan Congzhi living with this boy?If this is the case, it seems to be more unacceptable to him than living with a girl.Standing at the door, I don't know how to take this step.

"Come in."

The boy said something, turned around and went back to the house.

Su Xiaoqian walked in with stiff steps, and saw some clothes that Yan Congzhi would not wear hanging on the hanger at the door, and continued to move forward, the room was a bit messy.The boy was having breakfast in the living room, saw him coming in and was standing still, and said, "Come in and sit down."

He squinted at him while drinking the porridge, couldn't help but smirked, and said, "Although Yan Congzhi claimed to have many friends, he never brought any of them home, nor did he spend the night outside, you are the first one! Did he like this? Haha."

Su Xiaoqian didn't know what expression to put on, and he had no place to put his hands and feet. He wanted to sit down on the sofa next to him, but he only put half of his butt on it.

Su Xiaoqian had never seen a boy with this style before. He held back for a long time and asked, "What's your relationship with him?"

The boy chuckled: "Little brother, you are too cute."

Su Xiaoqian said angrily, "Answer my question."

"Hey, you're questioning me! I woke up early this morning and came here. I wasn't mentally prepared at all. It scared me to death!"

Su Xiaoqian was very angry with him, but he was afraid that if he had that kind of relationship with Yan Congzhi, then he would lose all confidence.At this moment, Yan Congzhi's phone call came.

Yan Congzhi asked, "Have you entered the house?"

Su Xiaoqian was puzzled and afraid, and even wronged, he said hesitantly: "There is a boy in your family."

"Huh? He's at home? You let him answer the phone."

Su Xiaoqian handed the phone to the boy, who was taken aback for a moment, then took the phone.

"Hey?"

"Don't tease him, I warn you."

"Hey, I've teased him for a long time."

"...Fuck, aren't you on a business trip?"

"Come back early."

"Oh. Don't talk to him if you're fine."

"Why? I think he is very cute, so I can't help talking to him."

"Get out! Give him the phone."

Su Xiaoqian answered the phone and heard Yan Congzhi say: "Yong Ye, he is my roommate who rents a house together."

After the ups and downs of this heart, he was finally relieved, Su Xiaoqian said "Oh", and heard him say: "He was supposed to go on a business trip, but he came back early. You go to my room and stay, ignore him."

"Ah."

"The bedroom on the east side is my room, go and rest."

Su Xiaoqian walked into Yan Congzhi's room with the phone, said a few words and hung up.He looked around, there were not many things in the room, a single bed, a writing desk, and a wardrobe.He took off his pants and got into Yan Congzhi's quilt directly, and the familiar faint fragrance lingered over him.He drank too much last night, had a toss in the morning, and received various stimuli all the time, Su Xiaoqian was exhausted physically and mentally, and soon fell asleep.

When I woke up, I looked at my phone. It was past three o'clock in the afternoon. Su Xiaoqian was just about to go get something to eat when he saw Pu Liang message him, "Where are you? Today I helped you get your bachelor's uniform, come back tomorrow to take pictures!" "

He replied "Okay, go back tonight", then walked to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, saw that there were almost no food in it except drinks and beer, opened the freezer again, and found that they were all quick-frozen dumplings.So I took out a bag of dumplings and boiled water to cook the dumplings.As soon as I got off the pot, I heard someone knocking on the door.

"Xiaoqian."

Su Xiaoqian went to open the door for Yan Congzhi, smiled, and was a little embarrassed, turned around and walked back.

"Did you have meal?"

"I'm cooking dumplings." Su Xiaoqian said and hurried back to look at the pot.

Yan Congzhi put down his bag and sat on the dining table: "Are you asleep?"

"Well, I just woke up."

"Where's Mei Qi?"

"kindness?"

"My roommate."

"I don't know, let's go out."

"That guy often talks nonsense and runs the train with his mouth full. Don't believe anything he says."

Su Xiaoqian lowered his head and stirred the pot, saying "oh".Both of them fell silent, only the sound of water boiling in the pot could be heard "chug chug".

"Unhappy?" Seeing that he had been silent, Yan Congzhi asked first.

"No."

"It's fine this morning, so Mei Qi must have told you something nonsense."

"Not really."

Su Xiaoqian took the strainer, fished out the dumplings, and put them on a plate.

"do you want to eat?"

"I've eaten it, you can eat it."

Su Xiaoqian brought the dumplings to the dining table, and a cloud of white air came up and hit him in the face.In this cloud of white mist, he heard Yan Congzhi say: "Yong Ye, do you want to hear about my...emotional experience this year?"

Su Xiaoqian raised his head, a trace of timidity flashed in his dark eyes, and he whispered, "Listen."

"It's not too late to say what you said in the morning after you've finished listening."

"In the letters I wrote to you, I also gave a general idea. In the first half a year, I didn't need to mention my sadness, and I was still suffocated. I really hated you. At that time, I felt that if you don't want me, there are still a lot of people. Want me. In fact, before I was with you, I tried to date a girl in my class for a month, and then we broke up because I always quarreled while playing games. I didn’t feel anything. Now that I think about it, I don’t seem to feel anything about girls. ...No, I have no feelings for other boys."

"In half a year, I changed girlfriends one after another in name. At that time, I actually didn't believe in love. I felt that after I fell in love once, I knew it was false and fake, and I couldn't believe it anymore. But maybe some of them are sincere. I have committed countless sins. I have given all the pain you gave me to others, but my own share is not missing at all. I am so naive Extremely, but it’s too late to regret it now.”

Su Xiaoqian picked up a dumpling with chopsticks, put it in a bowl, cut it into two pieces, put half in his mouth, and chewed silently.

"Later, I found out that you were repenting. I felt that my wound hadn't healed, and I was opened and cut deeper. After the fight with you in Blackrock Tower, my heart was ashamed. The possibility, the expectation is true, but I feel that the possibility is gone.”

Yes, if it wasn't by accident, Su Xiaoqian really didn't know when he would see those letters, maybe he would never see them, and he would never have the chance to know these things about him.

"Those two days were spent sleeping during the day and drinking at night, and even smoked, but then quit."

"Then one night when I went to KTV, a girl came over. She seemed to be a classmate of someone in the class. I forgot her appearance, and only remembered her voice. She sang the song LOVEME, and she asked me if I sang well. , I said yes. She asked me if I was alone, and I said yes."

"Then she asked if she could spend the night with her...I said yes."

Although Su Xiaoqian knew about this matter, when he heard this, his heart still hurt like a needle.

"I feel like I'm crazy and bad. I found my current job, moved out of the dormitory, and let myself get out of that environment and mood. Later that girl came to me, I didn't know what she meant, and I didn't talk to her again .I changed my phone number and only gave it to a few familiar people.”

"That's it." Speaking of this, Yan Congzhi raised his head to look at Su Xiaoqian, his eyes were red, and said, "Mei Qi is just a roommate I met by chance."

"Oh."

Yan Congzhi saw that there were two dumplings left on the plate, pulled the plate and said, "Don't eat when you're full, it's time to vomit again."

"Fortunately," Su Xiaoqian hooked the corners of his mouth, "There is no new plot that breaks me down."

"Yong Ye, I'm not a perfect person, I'm not as good as you think. If you can accept these, please... think carefully before making a decision. So many wrong things, I lived a normal life. I... I can't bear you to hurt again. "

Yong Ye smiled, and said in a trembling voice: "I'm not such a casual person... Are you not responsible after just sleeping? Do you want to change your phone number to deal with me now?"

"I love you... I am afraid of you at the same time... I am afraid that you will not accept me, and I am afraid that you will be shaken after a few days after accepting... How can I not be responsible to you? I am afraid that if you want to be responsible, you will not, or If I am willing now, I will not be willing later. I am frightened by you, really."

"I understand. You still kind of...don't believe me. Besides, we're going to be apart for so long."

Having said that, both of them fell silent again.