The Fall of a Scholar

Su Xiaoqian observed for a few more days and saw that his mother's body had stabilized, so he returned to school and continued to attend classes.It is the season when the grass grows and the warbler flies, and the campus is full of spring. The two rows of pagoda trees on the main road have just sprouted new buds, and the air is filled with the fragrance of tender green.Su Xiaoqian was depressed, so he had no choice but to plunge into the self-study room and use those remote and weird English vocabulary to numb his nerves.

When he came back from dinner in the evening, Pu Liang saw his face drooping, and said with a smile: "You are about to spring when spring is here, and someone is not here, so you are going to die or live? Put on a bitter face."

Su Xiaoqian was really not in the mood to joke with him, and had nothing to do, so he logged into the game.

After Yan Congzhi went to practice, he often couldn't go online regularly at night, so the task of commanding the dungeon was handed over to Qin Beast.Su Xiaoqian rarely went to dungeons during this time, and basically went to the battlefield to play when he went online.

He saw that everyone in the guild went to the MC with the beast, so he lined up for a Battle Song battlefield, and as soon as he entered the battlefield, he saw the beast closely related to him.

[Private] Dressed beast: Don't hurt him, please!

[Private] Dressed as a beast: He is a normal person, and he has been in love with our class flower for two months.I don't believe that he can like you just by turning around.

[Private] Dressed beast: Do you know what you did that day?You don't care, what do you think of him?

Su Xiaoqian stared at the screen, with ten fingers on the keyboard, not knowing what word to type.On the battlefield, all my companions went to the enemy's hometown to steal the flag, and I stood there stupidly.

[Private] Dressed beast: You give him freedom, let him live a normal life, without facing strange eyes and pressure from the people around him, understand?

How nice it is to live a normal life and be with a girl openly.If he hadn't been chasing him, if his father hadn't passed away, I'm afraid Yan Congzhi would have fallen in love with a girl by now.That must be the most beautiful and gentle girl, and they must be a couple that makes others jealous.All of this is because of myself, and it is all my own fault, making my sweetheart doomed to walk in the dark and letting my mother live under gossip.If you like him, just look at him from afar, drag him down, you are too selfish.

And the feeling of losing his mind when he called 120 for his mother that day, and his mother's heart-wrenching expression are still vivid in his memory, Su Xiaoqian suddenly felt that it was time to accept his fate.

One is fate, two is luck, three is geomantic omen, four is accumulation of yin virtue, and five is reading.At best, I am just a good student, nothing, and I have no capital.Now that my father is gone, what capital do I have to risk the world and do such a maverick thing?Even if I can bear the road for the next few decades, what about my mother?What about Yan Congzhi?

Resigned to her fate, let her mother spend her old age in peace and stability, and gave Yan Congzhi a normal life. As for whether his heart is dead or alive in the future, what does it matter?

Thinking of this, Su Xiaoqian tapped down with ten trembling fingers.

[Private] Yongye Luandancer: I understand, I will break up with him.

Su Xiaoqian made this decision, the more he thought about it, the more determined he became, and he quit the game to take a shower.When I came back to see Yan Congzhi, I sent him several WeChat messages.

"I went for an interview today. I was exhausted. I just came back."

"Aren't you playing games? I think they are playing the third child."

Su Xiaoqian climbed onto the bed, lay down and replied: "No, I got off after playing for a while."

"Oh, what are you doing? Miss me?"

"Lie down. Missing you."

I really thought about it, I really thought about it, and for a long period of time after that, I would think about it every night.Su Xiaoqian said to himself in his heart, but this time, it is the last time I will tell you.

X University has an undergraduate exchange program with the United States, sending senior students to Hong Kong University to do graduation projects. All majors can apply, but generally speaking, the chances of applying for science and engineering are high.Su Xiaoqian submitted the application form the next day.There are many applicants. The school weighs the majors of the applicants and the positions that the University of Hong Kong can provide. If there are positions, they will queue up for admission based on their credit scores.

One month later, Su Xiaoqian successfully passed the GRE test.On the weekend after finishing the GRE test, Yan Congzhi flew back suddenly. Su Xiaoqian received a call from him and was shocked and frightened when he heard that he was at school.For more than a month, it was like a rusty sickle, cutting his nerves back and forth all the time, but it was always cutting, and he could only sleep for four or five hours almost every night.He planned to wait until he went to Hong Kong to break up with him, and he felt that he could still survive.Now face to face, what should he do?

Su Xiaoqian rode his bicycle to pick him up at the door, and saw a sunny boy sitting under the high steps of the main building from a distance.He has the most charming smile in the world, and the sunset makes his hair glow orange.He was sitting on the steps, with his arms crossed on his knees, his head resting on his arms, and looking in Su Xiaoqian's direction.After seeing him, he immediately laughed, Su Xiaoqian seemed to smell the boy's scent in the breeze.

Yan Congzhi stood up, waited for him to ride over, supported his handlebars with both hands, and said with a smile: "Didn't expect me to come back? I want to surprise you!"

"Just doing these tricks to coax children."

"You are my little friend!" Yan Congzhi got on the bike and said, "Come on."

When Su Xiaoqian got into the car, Yan Congzhi said incessantly, "Oh, I can't get used to it when I come back. There are so many beauties in the south, and the streets are full of them!"

After waiting for a while, Yan Congzhi didn't hear the expected answer, and said again, "Huh? No response?"

"Then you can find a beautiful woman to be your girlfriend."

"Okay! Don't regret it when you say that!" Yan Congzhi rode up quickly after speaking, and everything around him swept back quickly.Su Xiaoqian wished to be carried by him like this for a long time, and when he got off the bike, he found that his hair had been dyed silver and his face was wrinkled.But it can still be clearly distinguished that this person is his sunny boy.Then I heard him say to himself: "You see, life is nothing but this short."

This weekend when Yan Congzhi came back, there was a fire in Su Xiaoqian's heart, but it was covered with a layer of ice.Burning inside and out is icy cold, neither is getting close, nor is estrangement.Barely made it through for two days, trying my best to pretend nothing happened.On the day Yan Congzhi left, he was exhausted and fell ill again.

After receiving the news from Yan Congzhi in July, he will stay there until August, when the notice from the University of Hong Kong has come down.Su Xiaoqian decided to go to Hong Kong immediately and leave before Yan Congzhi came back.

Pu Liang went to the airport to see him off, told him a few words, and said, "Don't play childish all the time in the future, and you should temper your temper when you are forced."

"Well, I know. In the past, there was you, and Agu tolerated me. From now on, I should grow up too."

Pu Liang heard him say that he was going to break up with Yan Congzhi, so he didn't want to say much, he just said: "If you are unhappy, come and play games with me, and I will talk with you."

"Ah."

When I arrived in Hong Kong that day, I went to the arranged dormitory. The roommate was also an exchange student named Liu Xing. It is also a very good school in China.Liu Xing usually doesn't talk much and always has a sullen face, but he is actually very enthusiastic. When he goes out to buy food, he will always ask Su Xiaoqian if he wants to bring a copy.Su Xiaoqian also tried to communicate more with him for the first time, and the two gradually became familiar with each other within a few days.

On the second week of August, Yan Congzhi told Su Xiaoqian to go back to school on weekends.Su Xiaoqian saw his news in the laboratory and knew that it was time to confess.

"A Gu, I'm in Hong Kong now, and I will be doing my graduation project here in the last year. I have passed both GRE and TOEFL, and my grades are good. I have recently started to apply for schools. If it goes well next year, I will be in the United States. During this period of time, I After thinking about it for a long time, I feel that I am very selfish, and I have put a lot of pressure on you and my mother. I have been away for six years, and I can’t do everything an ordinary couple should do to you. What’s more, the road after six years, I am even more I can’t see clearly. A Gu, you are like an untouchable angel in my eyes, I am an ugly duckling, I have no ability, and I don’t have the luck to be with you. I’m sorry.”

Every sleepless night, Su Xiaoqian tosses and beats his manuscript. At first, he was afraid that the words would be too serious, but later he was afraid that the words would be too light.The words I made up have been memorized in my mind for a long time, and I finally pressed them out today, and posted them with my eyes closed.

Yan Congzhi called immediately after sending it.

Su Xiaoqian walked out of the laboratory, came to a shade outside, and pressed the call button.

"Hey."

Yan Congzhi's tone was terrifyingly calm: "I don't understand what you're talking about, Yong Ye, tell me yourself."

Su Xiaoqian's hand holding the mobile phone kept trembling. He leaned his hand and one side of his head against the tree trunk, and said, "I said, let's break up."

"why?"

"We have no future." Su Xiaoqian leaned against the thick tree trunk to maintain his standing posture.

"Do you not trust me, or do you not trust yourself?"

"I don't even believe it. I just believe in fate."

"Okay, you have already planned it? It's hard to hide it from me, right? Why didn't you have the guts to say it when we met last time?"

Hearing his silence, Yan Congzhi shouted: "Listen to me, Su Xiaoqian, I said I'll wait for you, six years, did you hear me?"

Hearing this, Su Xiaoqian couldn't stand anymore, slumped on the ground, and said with the last bit of strength: "I may not return to China again." Tears overflowed silently after speaking.

"What happened? Tell me please?"

"I don't have the courage to go on with you anymore, it's too difficult, it's really too difficult."

After waiting for a long time, Yan Congzhi said, "Okay, I wish you happiness, Yongye."

After hanging up the phone, Su Xiaoqian sat on the ground with his head in his arms, and then began to sob.Hong Kong in August was so hot that it made people crazy. Su Xiaoqian fell into the ice cave, his whole body seemed to be skinned and cramped, his bones were exhausted, life would be worse than death.