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future?

Today, he suspected that he had heard it wrong, but when he looked up again and saw Fu Chishen's fair face, he realized that they had ignored a very important issue all this time - a person who had been doing business on the interstellar airline all year round, personally It is impossible for a person who confronts the star robbers to have such a clean skin.

Fu Chishen's astonishing speed of making a fortune after suddenly appearing in the empire, Fu Chishen's superb marksmanship, Fu Chishen's almost perfect gentleness and consideration after meeting him...the same people who do business on the interstellar line, the others More or less, they were all brutally injured by the star thief, but Fu Chishen didn't.

Fu Chishen was only in his 20s, how could he be so foolproof?How could she be so lucky, how... could she be so perfect?

"who are you?"

Today, I think of their first meeting that was carefully designed, and the tenderness of those step-by-step...

He clasped his fingers and held Fu Chishen's hand tightly.

"who are you?"

"It's your husband." Fu Chishen also held his hand, his brown eyes were exactly the same as those of Fu Chiyan behind him, "... Fu Chiyan."

Things have to start a hundred years ago.

At that time, Fu Chishen was not Fu Chishen, but Fu Chiyan.

He was the one who walked into the marriage hall together with Shijin, and he was the one who swore in front of the church that he would guard Shijin for the rest of his life. He was the one who never hugged Shijin once in two full years. Finally, on the fifth day when Shijin died of illness, Shan It was he who came late and could only see the cold corpse of his lover.

In the interstellar era that advocates technology and power, Fu Chiyan was just one of the followers of this era at first.

He is Alpha, and the Fu family has been in the army for generations. Fu Chiyan has the consciousness of being the first in everything since he was a child. He knows that he must be strong and pursue strength. This is a natural sense of mission, and it is also the trend of the times.

And nowadays.

The two grew up together as childhood sweethearts, and finally walked into the marriage hall together as a matter of course. When the test showed that the two were 99% compatible, Fu Chiyan was not even surprised. He thought it was all natural.

His life is supposed to be like this, sometimes he likes such an Omega with a cute personality as a partner, and then enters the army, becoming a soldier like the Fu family for generations, creating the strongest weapons and becoming a cutting-edge powerhouse of technological power. By.

He never thought of being with someone outside Shijin, and never thought that Shijin would leave him one day.

……

The days after marriage are peaceful and peaceful, and the current personality is timid and conservative. Although the sick body and occasional timid personality have brought some inconvenience to the two, overall they are still sweet.

Shijin has been like this since he was a child, and Fu Chiyan has never delved into why Shijin is like this, because he likes Shijin very much, so he thinks that he can do anything, it doesn't matter if he is timid, it doesn't matter if he is shy, and it doesn't matter if he is weak. It's his husband, and he has the obligation to protect him. If he can't do it now, he can do it. If he is not strong now, then he can be strong.

……

After being married for a while, Fu Chiyan would occasionally feel that Shi Jin's body is really weak, he can't run long distances, he can't drive a mecha, and occasionally he reacts more than ordinary people when he eats the wrong food. He always needs to go to the hospital to take care of Shi Jin every now and then.

But fortunately, their relationship is not bad.

Later, Fu Chiyan got a little busy with work, and his busy work prevented him from being with Shijin like before. Shijin occasionally felt unwell, and instead of taking care of him himself, he hired a nurse or AI to do it for him.

Perhaps Shi Jin was not used to it at first, but after all, he needs to understand that he is busy with work. At most, Shi Jin would ask, "When can you take a break?"

The real turning point came a year later, when Zergs frequently harassed the borders of the empire, the alarm bells sounded within the empire, Fu Chiyan became extremely busy, and the atmosphere of competition in the army was also quietly active - no one wanted to be a great man, no one wanted to be What does the empire do, and at this time, it is the best time.

Fu Chiyan was no exception.

His dream is like this, to win glory for the country and defend the glory of the empire, he can't wait to do something.

Fu Chiyan's technology was also quickly recognized by the empire. His professional ability was already very strong, and the research results of the next few times played a big role. He was promoted all the way, and he became busier.

"Chi Yan... when will you come back?" Shi Jin's voice was soft and waxy on the phone, "I miss you so much."

"Hurry up." Fu Chiyan hadn't heard his lover's voice for a long time, and Fu Chiyan was also moved by it.

Of course, the last one is coming soon, three months later.

Afterwards, the contact between the two became less and less. Today, Omega made several phone calls. Omega couldn't help but complained to him for the first time, but at that time, Fu Chiyan had already devoted himself to work, and it was very painful to hear Shijin's complaints. I don't understand.

He has been reused by the empire at this time.

Every piece of his research is related to the prosperity of the empire, and every detail of him is related to the success or failure of a battle. What he does is revered by everyone and is a supreme honor.

The time should understand him.

Instead of complaining.

"Lieutenant Colonel Fu, the results of research No. ю have come out! We have succeeded!" The assistant's voice of great surprise sounded, and the laboratory immediately burst into cheers.

Fu Chiyan was also in high spirits in this ecstatic atmosphere, and hung up the phone after only a few words in a hurry.

……

Everyone is fanatical about force, and everyone is shouting for victory. In such an era, Fu Chiyan naturally received countless flowers and applause, which is exactly what Fu Chiyan wanted.

He is obsessed with the position admired by thousands of people, the great invention and the applause he received, and now... now is also happy for her husband, but more often, what Omega says is "Whenever you have a vacation, you can stay with me. alright."

The battle ahead has not been won, so where is the time?

"Be patient." He comforted him like this.

……

Fu Chiyan was obsessed with research enthusiasm, and at the same time, he was under a lot of pressure. He was concerned about the life and death of the front line, and he dared not make a mistake.

He only took a rest for several months, and once when he returned home, he saw that Shijin was driving the mecha alone, and Shijin could not touch dangerous objects such as the mecha. This was the doctor's advice for many years, Fu Chiyan watched The moment he arrived, he was terrified and hurriedly stopped him.

"...I thought you would like it." Shi Jin said, "Didn't you exaggerate Chaoran last time, saying that their Omega can do everything, and mechas are the most basic..."

"What if something happens to you?!" Fu Chiyan said, "I have to go back..."

In fact, Fu Chiyan's first thought when he stopped Shijin was that he was afraid of an accident, but what he cared about the most at that time was the war ahead, so when he said it, it became that something happened to you and I need to come back.

Shi Jin was stunned for a few seconds, and finally lowered his head: "I see."

Fu Chiyan wanted to apologize at that time, but...he didn't say it.

He felt that the present should really understand him better. He shouldered the safety of countless people in front of him, and he was under a lot of pressure.

……

When we met again, the war in the north was victorious, and the Zerg army retreated. Fu Chiyan was also relieved. When he returned home, Shijin gave him a hug and said to him, "Thank you."

A year has passed, and Fu Chiyan hasn't hugged his lover for a long time. I don't know if it's an illusion, but he always feels that he has lost a lot of weight and talks less.

"Are you okay?" He belatedly cared about him.

"It's okay." Shi Jin smiled as if nothing had happened, "I'm at home, what can I do."

Well, that's a good point.

Afterwards, Fu Chiyan rested for a while. He always felt that the present had become very boring, but the present was an introverted personality in the past, and Fu Chiyan didn't know what was wrong for a while. They spent a sweet time together. Today, he talked more and more, and brought him good news—they were going to have a child.

When Shi Jin said this, he was very excited, with a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time, and Fu Chiyan was also very happy, but only happy: "Very good."

"Yeah!" Shi Jin's eyes were bent into crescent moons, "I have a child who can accompany me in the future."

...Well, it is said that women have the instinct to love children, perhaps, male Omega is no exception?

The Zerg is at it again.

After receiving the order from his superior, Fu Chiyan had no choice but to return to work again.

"Are you leaving again?" Shi Jin's voice was small and soft.

"En." Fu Chiyan saw Omega's reluctance, but still nodded firmly, "It's urgent."

"Okay." Shi Jin nodded, looking very straightforward, "Be careful on the road and come back early."

This is a few months past.

In fact, the Zerg attack was not large this time, and they were repelled in just over a month. Fu Chiyan could have gone home earlier, but he was worried and applied to stay just in case.

Fu Chiyan didn't know that the child was gone until several months later.

"Now that the child is gone, why are you still on the job?" Chaoran came to Fu Chiyan's army because of business, and he was surprised to see Fu Chiyan, "Don't you need to take care of him?"

Fu Chiyan made a belated call.

"Well, it's dropped." Shi Jin's tone on the other end of the phone was very calm.

"Then..." Fu Chiyan didn't know what to say for a while, "Are you okay?"

"nothing."

"..."

Today's voice sounded all right, Fu Chiyan asked Omega twice and answered it was okay, so Fu Chiyan didn't think about it any more.

He stayed in the army for a while, and just happened to start another project, and his superiors transferred him to do other things.

In the past few months, Fu Chiyan would call home at the time stipulated by the army, and Shijin would chat with him.

"When will you come back?"

"It will take a while."

"……All right."

Later, for some reason, Fu Chiyan couldn't make a call to Shijin. In the last month, sometimes the call was answered by an AI, and sometimes it was a nurse.

"Are you sick now?"

"Well, in the hospital."

"is it serious?"

"……Nothing serious."

Now that he is weak and often hospitalized, Fu Chiyan didn't think much about it.

After finishing another project, Fu Chiyan's work finally came to an end, and he finally felt tired from the long hours of work. He was about to pack up his things and go home, but what he got was the news that he had passed away for five days now.

Fu Chiyan was dumbfounded when he heard the news, he felt that it came out inexplicably.

The last time he saw Shijin was when Shijin smiled and told him to come back soon. How could he disappear after only a few months?

Fu Chiyan couldn't believe it, he hoped it was a joke.

He hurried back to the earth, but all he could see was the body covered in ice lying in the freezer.

The present is really dead.

Shijin died on the medical spacecraft headed to planet A136.

At that time, he was already seriously ill. He originally planned to travel from the earth to planet A136 for recuperation, but the medical spacecraft was hijacked by the star thief on the way. Died on board.

"How could the medical spaceship be hijacked?!" Fu Chiyan found it inconceivable, "The people on board are all old, weak, sick and disabled! What are they planning?!"

"The stars are thieves in a panic..." They have been dead for five days now, and the investigation results of the incident have come out long ago. The police officer on the side explained with Fu Chiyan, "There are very few cargo spacecraft going to planet A136, and in recent years The weapons of the incoming freight ships are getting more and more advanced, and the star bandits have not succeeded for a long time. According to the leader of the star bandits, they plan to hijack the human ticket this time, and leave this route after getting the gas money..."

There are such coincidences in the world, but if it's just like this, Fu Chiyan might just hate those gang of star thieves, but the court told him later.

"Well, actually, even if there is no such thing, Mr. Shi will only have a week to live at most..."

a week?

Fu Chiyan never knew that his lover was terminally ill.

Most of the people are kind, and most of the nurses couldn't stand it for a long time. The nurse in charge of the present gave Fu Chiyan a cold look, and said, "Mr. Shi was alone from the time he was hospitalized to the time he died. It's already too long for him to live so long." Very lucky."

Alone all the time?

"I was in the army a few months ago, and I couldn't communicate with the outside world for confidential missions...but..." Fu Chiyan turned to vent his anger on his father, Admiral Shi, and younger brother Shi Le, who were sitting aside, " What about you?! What are you doing?! Don’t you know that you are sick now?!”

Yes.

No one knows Shijin is sick.

The child died when he was six months old. After the child died, the hospital found a genetic defect that had not yet been detected from the body. After a blood test on Shi Jin, it was found that Shi Jin had entered the advanced stage of the disease. They urgently notified Nowadays, he is also required to notify his family members and be hospitalized for treatment as soon as possible.

But today they say they can't get in touch, or they say they don't want to get in touch.

"Mr. Shi, we dare not let you be hospitalized like this..."

"My husband is in the army, so there is nothing I can do. I'm sorry, but besides... I don't have any family members." Shi Jin said, "I'm a senior Omega. According to regulations, the hospital is obliged to treat me."

……

The hospital knew Shi Jin was lying, but there was nothing they could do.

They saw that Shi Jin didn't want to tell his family at all, and that Fu Chiyan was doing a confidential task. In Shi Jin's words: "Are you disturbing him now, are you going to be a sinner of the empire?"

And Shijin's father, Admiral Shi... is in a high position, and without the personal contact information given by Shijin, it is even more difficult for the hospital to contact him.

The matter was thus delayed.

At that time, too much nutrition was given to the child, and his body was extremely weak. The hospital did not dare to use medicines, and he had only a few months to live in the terminal stage of his illness.

Nowadays, I soon lost the fighting spirit to survive, so I weakened faster than I imagined. After only half a month in the hospital, I almost had only one week to live. The hospital urgently arranged for treatment on planet A136, but the final result was also That's it.

……

"When Mr. Shi raised his children, he went in and out of the hospital alone, and he was still like this when he got sick... It's been more than half a year. I answered the last call from Mr. Fu, and I told him that Mr. Shi was sick, but He didn't even ask... It's too much!"

After talking about it, even the nurse in charge of the present was anxious: "Is this a marriage with a dead man!"

……

Fu Chiyan thought about it later, he was indeed a dead person at that time, but he didn't think so at the time.

People are often reluctant to admit their mistakes.

Fu Chiyan was no exception.

His first reaction after knowing the ins and outs was anger—angry that Shijin's father and Shijin's younger brother failed to take good care of Shijin.

He is busy defending his family and country, fighting against foreign enemies, and defending the glory of the empire...but what about his younger brother and father today? !One is retired, the other is studying, why don't they know the current situation? !

For the first time, he had a big fight with an admiral whose rank was so much higher than his own, and he almost got into a fight with Shi Le again.

And after that, he couldn't help but blame Shijin—why is his personality so boring?Why are you so timid?Why don't you even want to contact your family when you are sick?Why... why don't you tell him.

The day Fu Chiyan saw Shijin's corpse, his emotions collapsed, but he was too busy with anger at that time, and he hadn't had time to experience the uncomfortable emotions. Then, one day, two days, three days... Fu Chiyan's anger dissipated, and those unspeakable pains And especially uncomfortable welling up in my heart.

Even though he had very little contact with Shijin in the past, he always knew that Shijin was there, waiting for him at home. Even if he was busy back then, he knew that Shijin was here and had a home to return to. Now that it's gone, it's gone, and it's the first time Fu Chiyan has experienced what it's like to collapse.

Every time he thinks of the corpses in the freezer, he feels nausea, nausea, trembling, and fear.

Like a soldier with post-war stress trauma.

……

"Today's burial is not allowed." The day before the funeral, Fu Chiyan ran to the cemetery like a lunatic to stop Shijin's burial, "Shijin's death is still strange, and he cannot be buried."

Although what he said was something strange, everyone knew that it was clear and clear... at most, he just couldn't bear it.

"No burial is allowed! I am the husband of today! I was rated as a second-class military exploit in the previous battles against the Zerg!"

……

It's really sad and ridiculous.

Now it is temporarily stored in the freezer, but Fu Chiyan only went home once, and has been living in a hotel not far from the freezer since then. It's not that he doesn't want to go back, but he doesn't dare to go back.

He found boxes of empty inhibitors at home, and he found densely packed needles on today's corpses... He dared not go back, he was terrified of the place where inhibitors were administered for two years.

Fu Chiyan basically opened his eyes and sat in the freezing plant where the corpses were kept.

He doesn't do anything else, just sits, doesn't look at the present, and doesn't do anything else.

"Could it be crazy?" the worker said.

But Fu Chiyan found nothing.

His condition was so bad that the army canceled the mission originally assigned to him, and even asked him if he needed psychological counseling.

At that time, Fu Chiyan blamed Shi Le, General Shi, and the doctor... He finally remembered his work after sitting in the refrigeration plant for half a month.

"The suppressive drugs the Empire gave during our study suppressed my emotions! It's illegal! It's a violation of human rights!"

"I saved the soldiers on the front line! Why didn't you protect my present?!"

"All glory is fake! It's a scam of the empire!"

Go crazy.

Must be crazy.

"Fu Chiyan!" The superior who has always admired Fu Chiyan couldn't help yelling at him, "You know, there are tens of thousands of soldiers participating in the project, including those with the same positions and tasks as you, but No one is in your situation!"

"Our army has regular visiting time. The Alphas or Omega's married under your command have all gone back to visit their spouses on a regular basis! Only you don't!"

"I asked you personally, and you said no." The superior said, "You applied for the last mission!"

……

The cruelest thing in the world is probably when even the last fig leaf is torn apart.

Fu Chiyan was imprisoned for half a day because of his rude words - in fact, it should have been three days, but he quickly collapsed and was sent to a mental hospital.

Tranquilizers, colorful medicines...Fu Chiyan finally calmed down under these medicines,

Yes.

Perhaps the current family members are at fault, and perhaps Fu Chiyan's work is a necessity, but in fact, the biggest mistake and the one who is most sorry for the present is Fu Chiyan himself.

After Fu Chiyan stayed in the mental hospital for a week, his mood finally stabilized - it seemed stable.

After all, he was an Alpha who had been in the army for several years. The hospital sent him home after checking all the items to be all right.

When Fu Chiyan returned home, the first thing he did was to write a letter of resignation, and then used the weapons that were originally hidden in the wall of his home - these weapons were originally used to protect the present, but now they are useless.

He burned the doors of all the rooms in the house with a welding torch, and none of them could be opened. He only wore a marriage certificate with him, and then went to the freezer where the dead bodies were kept.

……

Fu Chiyan stole the present.

With the advancement of science and technology in today's era, there are naturally some very 'anti-human' technologies, such as reading the memory of the dead.

This kind of technology can only be used in the military, and it can only be used in extremely rare cases, but now... Fu Chiyan learned from other channels that the underground dark layer also has this kind of technology, but it needs enough money.

This technology was explicitly banned by the imperial government a few years ago, not only because it was 'anti-humanity', but also because people who were willing to pay a high price to see the memory of the dead were either seeking to make money, or they were too reluctant to bear the dead for emotional reasons.

And people who look at memories for emotional reasons will often end up falling into memories. As a result, they either spend all their savings and live in illusory memories for the rest of their lives, or they cry bitterly after reading the memories, and then turn around and find a tall building Jump down and die.

Fu Chiyan was in the army, he knew the possible consequences of this device better than anyone else, but he wanted to see it too much, too much.

He can't stand the absence of the present, and he is eager to be connected with the present.

Such a connection is only a memory.

……

From today's point of view, everything is very different.

"How come your mother can be a woman, but you can't?"

"How come you are also an Omega, but you are full of diseases? Why don't you live up to it?"

"Everyone in our family is going to be a soldier! It can't go on like this now! Let's have another one."

"Brother, you are so weak, the Omega in our class is not as good as you..."

Growing up in an environment full of oppression and 'soft violence', without any respect for brotherhood.

There is a reason for today's inferiority complex and weakness.

……

Fu Chiyan lay in ambush that night and beat Shi Le severely. As for Admiral Shi, he didn't have a chance to approach him yet, so he could only talk about it later.

Shi Jin's body disappeared, and Fu Chiyan was wanted all over the city by Shi's family. Fortunately, Fu Chiyan lived underground. He searched for food in the dark street during the day, and went to see Shi Jin's memories at night.

But it seems... Fu Chiyan has no other thoughts other than feeling aggrieved.

The memory of the hippocampus is limited, Fu Chiyan can only see what he can remember today, and he quickly saw the memories about himself.

Why is his back so indifferent in today's memories?Why did he go forward to pull him now, but he walked forward without looking back?

...Why, in such a long acquaintance, he didn't even say "I love you".

As expected, Fu Chiyan ended up deeply immersed in the memory just like those thousands of people who peeked at the memory.

"Hi." The boss reminded him, "Brother Fu, the money in your account has been used up, and it's time to recharge."

Fu Chiyan could no longer remember how long he had been underground. During this time, he only had a simple wash, and his hair and beard were not trimmed. He heard the words and wanted to check the balance of his account, but found that he had no money.

Looking at the price of the memory, it is 20 a day, and there is only [-] in his account, and he can only read it for four days.

"I'm going out to get money," Fu Chiyan said, "You contact me through the communicator, and I will call you if I have money, and then you play the memories for me."

"So persistent?" The boss raised his eyebrows, looking a little surprised, "Most people just jump off the building if they don't have money."

"I haven't finished reading the memories of today, I won't die."

……

The boss agreed to Fu Chiyan's request.

And Fu Chiyan... installed a long-range bomb in an inconspicuous place in the store. If the boss threatens him with Shijin's body in the future, he will detonate the bomb.

"It's unnecessary." The boss smiled, "I'm very honest."

……

In this way, Fu Chiyan embarked on a wandering journey.

He was wanted on Earth, so naturally he could only go to a more distant planet. After wandering in this world for a hundred years, he finally saw all the memories of the past 20 years.

But the more I look at it, the more miserable I feel.

Not for him, but for the present.