Cannon fodder refuses to recycle!

When Cheng Zichen walked over, the others were surprised.Cheng Zichen, there is no stranger in the second grade of the third middle school, so even though they are not familiar with each other, they still greeted him.

"Cheng Shen? Are you coming to eat too?"

Bai Huo was at a loss.

Cheng Zichen shook his head, looked at him politely, and then moved back to Jian Ze'an, with a smile in his eyes: "No. I happened to have something to do nearby, and I knew that Ze'an was having dinner here, so I stopped by to pick him up .”

Hong Chuanglei asked stupidly: "Brother An doesn't deny the truth. Why pick him up? Besides, Cheng Shen, you're going to drop by his house?"

Cheng Zichen smiled: "It's not on the way, he's staying at my house tonight."

Lin Xiao's hand holding the wine glass tightened suddenly, and he looked up at Cheng Zichen.

"Ah?" Bai Huo and the others all showed astonished expressions.

Hong Chuanglei also asked Jian Ze'an: "Brother An, why do you live in Cheng Shen's house?"

"You should know, Zichen is my childhood friend. Recently he has been helping me with tutoring. Sometimes he will stay overnight." Jian Ze'an can't say loudly, "He is my boyfriend", although everyone present Were friends, but not sure about their stance on homosexuality, when and how they open up their relationship.

Several people showed clear expressions, and Du Feichi sighed with a red face: "It's a good treatment to have the famous living sign of our third middle school, Cheng Shendangfa Xiao."

Lin Xiao remained silent.

Jian Ze'an's explanation was light and reasonable.But it may be because he has been paying attention to the other party and instinctively feels that something is not right.

The feeling that something was wrong made him feel more and more heavy.

Others didn't notice Lin Xiao's strangeness.Cheng Zichen was still saying that he could go out and stay somewhere else for a while, and he would come and walk with Jian Zhe'an after this place was gone.

Wang Zhanteng on the other end waved his hand: "It's not necessary, we've almost finished eating, and we just said we'd pay the bill and leave."

Hong Chuanglei drank the last bit of beer in one gulp, and put the glass heavily on the table: "Yes, it's time to go, if you don't go, your bus will be gone later."

"It's getting late, let's take a taxi." Jian Ze'an told Bai Huo.

But no matter how you go, it means that the meal is over.

Hong Chuanglei got up first, and returned the medal that he was looking at just now to Lin Xiao across the table: "Brother Xiao, take care of your big baby, I will go to settle the bill - you guys will transfer the money to me, Brother Xiao will waive it. Dun is the five of us to invite you."

This was agreed a long time ago, and everyone had no objections, so Hong Chuanglei went to the front desk.

His movement marked the complete end of the party.Several other people also started to get up, put on their coats, carry their mobile phones, and prepare to leave.

Jian Ze'an stood up, picked up the denim jacket from the back of the chair, and put it on.

After putting it on, he went to fasten the front button, but heard a chuckle, and then the side of his neck felt hot:

"collar."

Jian Ze'an realized that Cheng Zichen had turned out the collar that he had accidentally tucked in.

He gave a natural "um" and didn't even say thank you - the relationship between the two of them is too unfamiliar to thank you for such a trivial matter.

Lin Xiao next to him saw this scene, and his heart sank completely.

——Just now, he saw clearly that Cheng Zichen's fingers brushed Jian Ze'an's neck.

However, Jian Ze'an didn't feel strange at all.

Helping to tidy up the collar is a bit too intimate. Girls may help each other, but boys, it is okay to give a buddy a knife, but tidying the collar... almost no one will do it.

But Jian Ze'an seemed to be used to it, and accepted it calmly.

Moreover, Jian Ze'an has always been polite, even to his friends, he would definitely say thank you to Lin Xiao for pouring him a glass of water.But just now, Jian Ze'an only responded with a nasal voice, without saying a word.

Lin Xiao's mouth was bitter.

He watched the two people in front of him make those intimate gestures naturally, and a certain premonition that he didn't want to confirm became stronger and stronger.

Hong Chuanglei paid the bill and came back. Except for Lin Xiao, the other dinner parties all transferred the money to him, and then the boys went out.

Lin Xiao was at the back, and ahead were Jian Ze'an and Cheng Zichen.

He watched the boy raised his head and didn't know what to say to the people around him. The taller boy showed a gentle smile that could be called pampering, and rubbed the back of the boy's head with his hands.

A group of people lifted the plastic curtain of the restaurant and walked out.

The night in early spring was a bit chilly, and the evening wind was blowing, which made a group of boys who had drunk a little sober.

"I called the express train, is there anyone going in the same direction as my house?" Wang Zhanteng asked at the front.

Hong Chuanglei asked his address and said he would go with him.

Du Feichi's house is the closest, and he plans to ride a shared bicycle back.

"Are you sure? You drank a lot just now." Jian Ze'an frowned.

"Not much, it's all right."

"Or don't. Even if you walk back, it's safer than riding a bicycle—or else I'll see you off. Zichen and I want to take a taxi, and let the driver make a detour to take you home first."

"No—really no, I'll go back and forget it. It's just a matter of blowing the air."

Jian Ze'an confirmed again and again to ensure that Du Feichi was fine, and that's fine.Du Feichi waved goodbye to the others and left first.

Baihuo's house is the farthest away, and they are not in the same direction, so they can only call a car by themselves.

"Lin Xiao, what about you?"

Jian Ze'an turned around and asked.

A car sped past on the main road ahead, its scarlet taillights flashed, and the light flashed across the boy's clean eyebrows.

Lin Xiao looked at the smile on his face, his mouth was dry: "...I'll talk about it later."

"Wait a while?" Jian Ze'an looked at him incredulously, just at the moment the car called by Wang Zhanteng arrived, and Wang Zhanteng and Hong Chuanglei walked into the car while saying goodbye to their friends.

Jian Ze'an waved goodbye to those two people, then turned to Lin Xiao and said, "The car we called will arrive soon, why don't you call a car?"

Lin Xiao closed his eyes.

He doesn't want to talk.There is a smoldering fire in my heart, it doesn't explode, it doesn't start a prairie fire, it just burns secretly.

He endured it for a long time, hesitating, hesitating, struggling, tossing and turning...he didn't want to bear it anymore.Even if it's the answer you don't want to hear the most, it's an answer anyway.

The boy twitched the corner of his mouth, but there was no smile in his eyes: "Ze'an, I have something to ask you, come here."

Jian Ze'an stood not far from Lin Xiao, with a distance of more than one meter between them.At this distance, speaking is not difficult.

But he was standing with Cheng Zichen, their arms were almost touching each other.

Lin Xiao asked him to come over to talk about the matter, obviously wanting him to talk alone without Cheng Zichen hearing.

Jian Ze'an was a little surprised, and subconsciously looked back at Cheng Zichen.

The latter met his eyes and nodded naturally: "I'll go over there to buy a bottle of water."

He pointed to the news stand not far away.

Jian Ze'an let out a "hmm".

Cheng Zichen raised his eyes, looked past Jian Ze'an, and met Lin Xiao's gaze.

He showed a smile, very calm, nothing special, very polite.

Lin Xiao's fist on his side clenched.

He knew that Cheng Zichen liked Jian Ze'an.

On the day Xia Heran's confession was rejected, Lin Xiao and Cheng Zichen were outside the ward.Afterwards, Cheng Zichen left with Jian's family, and Xia Heran didn't know if he couldn't help but want to stimulate others after being rejected, so he pointed out to Lin Xiao that Cheng Zichen also liked Jian Ze'an.

But at this moment, Lin Xiao asked Jian Ze'an to speak alone.Cheng Zichen's appearance was too calm and determined.No curiosity, no fidgeting, no minding, and no showing off.

Even if Lin Xiao doesn't like Cheng Zichen very much, he still has to admit that he is a person who is smart enough to deserve a "Cheng Shen".With such a person, can he really not understand Lin Xiao's emotions towards Jian Ze'an at all?

But he cooperatively gave up the space and let Jian Ze'an chat with Lin Xiao.

If you were someone else, you might feel that maybe your previous judgment was wrong.Cheng Zichen and Jian Ze'an were probably just ordinary friends, just because they grew up together closer, but nothing else, otherwise, why was it so indifferent to Lin Xiao talking to Jian Ze'an alone?

But Lin Xiao didn't think so.

Jian Ze'an's attitude towards each other is too different.

While the two have always been close, it's still not the same.Specifically, Lin Xiao couldn't tell, but his intuition made him feel that there was a big difference between Jian Ze'an and Cheng Zichen.

It's hard for Lin Xiao not to think, maybe Cheng Zichen's determination is because he is very sure - he is very sure about his feelings for Jian Ze'an.

The other party didn't seem to worry about what he and Jian Ze'an would say at all.

That bad premonition intensified.Lin Xiao watched Cheng Zichen walking towards the newsstand, and Jian Ze'an approached him suspiciously, but felt that the person in front of him was still far away from him.

He tried to pull a smile, but failed.

"Zean."

Lin Xiao looked into the eyes of the person in front of him,

"You and Cheng Zichen - is it, is there a change in the relationship?"

He asked vaguely, taking a chance.If it was a misunderstanding, it would be a little strange to ask the other party if he was with Cheng Zichen when he came up.

But after the boy in front of him opened his eyes wide in shock for a short while, he immediately lowered his eyelids, with an embarrassed expression on his face.He coughed, but the corners of his mouth slowly raised:

"Is it obvious? Hey, I actually planned to tell you, but I haven't figured out how to say it. I don't know if you have any opinions on homosexuality. Besides, today is your celebration banquet, and I don't know Wang Zhanteng very well. , I didn’t mention it... Originally, I planned to call you and Leizi Huozi after school started, and explain what happened to me... Well, progress."

Lin Xiao felt that his entire internal organs were instantly frozen.

For a moment, he suddenly felt that the surrounding traffic, feasting and feasting suddenly went away, and his whole body suddenly calmed down.

Or, should not say serenity.

It was dead silence.

He didn't know how he continued to open his mouth, but hearing his own voice felt very, very strange:

"So, you and Cheng Zichen are really...in a relationship?"

The boy on the opposite side didn't hear how difficult his voice was, and replied briskly:

"Yes, it's about the holidays. I didn't expect you to be so sensitive, Lin Xiao....After school started, I told Huozi and Leizi slowly. If they don't find it offensive, I will ask Zichen You guys are eating. Is it a celebration of my leaving the order?"

Jian Ze'an smiled brightly, with joy in his eyes.

Lin Xiao looked at his smile, paused for a while, and suddenly burst into a hearty laugh, which was almost exaggerated, his muscles were deformed, and he almost burst into tears.

He had to deliberately shake his head, so that no one could see his expression, and reached out and patted the other person's shoulder:

"I saw that you two were sticky, and I really guessed it! I didn't expect that you were the first to leave the order among us. This must be treated to dinner-go to someone in Washington!"

The family in Washington is a private restaurant near their school that is very expensive and has a long queue.

Jian Ze'an immediately "tsk" when he heard the words: "Hey, hey, don't kill me like this."

But his eyes and the corners of his mouth were all smiling. Obviously, he was in a very happy mood because of the mention of love, and he didn't mind treating his buddies to a good meal because of it.

At this moment, Lin Xiao really hated himself for understanding Jian Ze'an so well, and for being able to easily understand the joy and happiness on his expression.

He endured the pain in his heart, tried his best to close his eyes, and then controlled his expression to show the same, the friendliest smile:

"Be the first to leave the regiment and betray the organization. If you don't kill me, who will you kill? It's settled."

"All right, all right." Jian Ze'an shook his head helplessly, "Brother Xiao has the final say. Then I'll talk to Huozi and Leizi when I go back."

He smiled again as he spoke, his brows and eyes bright.

"Lin Xiao, this is what you want to ask me?"

"...Well." Lin Xiao smiled at him, but his eyes did not fall on him, but passed through his shoulders, looking unfocused on the road, and suddenly said, "Look at the taxi parked over there. Car, is that what you called just now?"

"what?"

Jian Ze'an looked back.

At this second, Lin Xiao quickly wiped the corner of his eyes.

"It seems to be true." Jian Ze'an said.

"Don't keep Master waiting. You can call Cheng Zichen."

"Well, good. Lin Xiao, how are you going? I don't think you have called a taxi yet." Jian Ze'an asked with concern while dialing the phone.

Lin Xiao was holding the phone, looking down at the screen with his head down. Only he knew that he didn't dare to look into the other person's eyes at this moment:

"I'll call right away—the car you called is honking. Leave me alone and get in the car."

"Oh, good. Then you hurry up and call a car to go back early - it's not too early. Go home and say something in the group!"

"Okay." Lin Xiao raised his head and smiled.

He watched Jian Ze'an turn around and waved goodbye to him, watched Cheng Zichen striding towards him not far away, watched the two meet up, and then walked towards the taxi together - Jian Ze'an turned back to say goodbye to him again.

Lin Xiao watched them, watched them get into the car, and watched the car drive away, but he didn't move a step, as if he was nailed to the ground.

After a long time, he suddenly raised his hand, wiped his eyes with his sleeve heavily and rudely: "...Fuck."

He mocked himself in his heart: Lin Xiao, you are such a fucking coward.

I didn't dare to say it before, but in the end, I still dare not say it.

I used to be afraid that I would be rejected if I said it, and I would not be able to be friends.But now, I'm afraid that the other party's happy smile will be stained with guilt.

So, just be a buddy.

as always……

Happy for you.

The author has something to say: Well, basically Lin Xiao has finished explaining this paragraph.

Sometimes the more buddies, the less daring to take that step, the more they think about it, and finally stop at the buddy position.I don't know if I have written the feeling I want...

Xia Heran's liking is like chasing light, so he wants to express and try to hold his light.And Lin Xiao's liking is the liking that grows quietly around him, the hug after playing, and the smile when calling out friends, because it feels so comfortable and familiar, but he dare not take that step, and finally realizes It was too late to say something, and I couldn't bear to make him sad.So be the one to bless him.