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It was not only me who was puzzled, but also Li Huanyu: "What is just right? Brother, can this be called just right? Have you ever taken off Brother Ahong's watch and looked at the scar on his knife? He told me that it was because he quarreled with his stepfather and couldn't get angry. But I know that he was hurt because of the matter between you and sister Liang Yan. He was too depressed and had no place to vent, so he would vent on himself Yes. Brother, this is not the right time!"

"Because of this, we can't get back together."

"Why?" Li Huanyu and his wife almost spoke in unison.

"If it gets back together, the scar on his wrist won't be just one!"

"What do you mean?" Li Huanyu was puzzled, "You mean that if you get back together, Brother Ahong will still harm himself? Impossible, he likes you so much, loves you so much, he definitely won't! His parents don't object You, now Dad has almost acquiesced, and there is no resistance. Why did he self-mutilate?"

Li Xiangyu sighed faintly: "You guys don't know your Brother Ahong too well. He is suspicious by nature and loves to fantasize. Whenever there is a sign of trouble, he will be paranoid; even a little thing, he can deconstruct and analyze it into a flesh and blood movie. Such a person, even if there is no problem, he will create problems. I saw his weakness from the beginning, so I made a promise with him: If you can’t do it, never ask, then you will never ask. Don't forget each other. Never ask each other. It doesn't mean not asking, but not doubting. He can't do this. As long as he sees me and Liang Yan together, he will feel that I have something to do with her What kind of shady business. Today is Liang Yan, next time it may be Zhang Yan, Li Yan, Wang Yan... He will be suspicious of women, and he will also be suspicious of men. As long as they get back together, his suspicion will also disappear Will never stop. If things go on like this, it is hard to guarantee that he will not cut his wrist again to vent. Therefore, it is just right for us to be able to "never forget each other". At least, we love each other and give each other Best memories left."

So it is!Oh I see!

Everything is due to my suspicion, everything is destroyed by my suspicion!

I collapsed to the ground, tears streaming down my face!

A group of people suddenly surrounded me and pointed at me.They opened their mouths wide, as if they were saying "suspicious"!

Li Huanyu came out with a panicked expression, yelling something loudly.He squatted down and hugged me by the waist, trying to pick me up, but he couldn't stand up.

Li Xiangyu came out, and this time the two brothers supported me together.Their faces were impatient, like ants on a hot pan.They were talking anxiously, strange, but I couldn't hear clearly, could it be that they were also shouting "suspicious"?

Li Huanyu carried me onto the empty bed, and desperately stroked my chest, helping me to breathe.Li Xiangyu closed the door to block the curious eyes from outside.

I lay quietly on the hospital bed, recalling the scenes of the past.Am I really suspicious?

However, when I think about everything, I have to admit that I am indeed suspicious!That person understood me, but I didn't understand myself.

When I was in junior high school, Qi Fei just fed me a bite of pastry at the door of the classroom, but I thought he had secret feelings for me.From that day on, I started my moths to flame love.I once suspected that all the things he accompanied me were love, and that's why he confessed his love so desperately at such an evening.

I had doubts about that girl Lu Zimei!I stubbornly think she is a big treacherous person.She plotted against Liang Yan for no reason, and wanted to step on Liang Yan to climb up; I even suspected that she planned Mr. Li's rape of Liang Yan in order to avenge Liang Yan.It turned out that it was just a guess on my part.

Gao Yong, my best golfer, I doubted it.Li Xiangyu brought him water, allowed him to blackmail, and invited him to dinner. I once thought that the two of them were hiding adultery.Facts have proved that it was just Li Xiangyu's wishful thinking in order to obtain An Xiaoyun's contact information.Because of An Xiaoyun's angry words, I was worried that he wanted to moles me, so I ran away in a panic.

Cheng Hui, this man who once cheated on me, I doubted.After he suddenly appeared in front of me and Li Xiangyu, I always felt that he would use this story to threaten or provoke us, so I acted guilty and let the incident come to light.

Little Mom, I doubted this woman who gave me infinite tolerance.I once felt that she provoked the relationship between my parents and destroyed the family, so I hated her, resisted her, and refused to accept her.

Dad, the man who loves me the most, I doubted.I judged the heart of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, stubbornly thinking that he would throw money at Li Xiangyu's face, but in the end my father retorted.

Li Xiangyu, the man I love the most in my life, I have doubts - although I don't want to admit it, I have to admit it!I suspect that he has an ulterior secret with Gao Yong, I suspect that he and An Xiaoyun will resurface, I suspect that he abandoned me and chose a family...

Loving, and doubting, this is me!

……

If my life must be condensed into one word, it would be - Doubt!

If God gives me another chance, I want to love again seriously and unswervingly, but, will God give me such a chance again?

"Can we do it all over again?" Looking at Li Xiangyu's calm face, I asked in a low voice.

"There's no dress rehearsal in life, but—" He stroked my head, smiling.

"But what?" The sequence of the sentence changed, affecting every hair, every cell, and every nerve on my body.I pricked up my ears, quietly waiting for his answer.

"But love is not over yet! A scene may be gorgeous, or sad, or solemn, or humorous, or upright, or heavy makeup, or light, or earth-shattering... There are so many choices, just look at it. What do you want to act like?"

"Then... what do you want to do in this drama of life?"

"so easy!"

"Like now?"

He poked my head with his fingertips, and smiled: "My days are so peaceful; your days are just 'gloomy'."

"Then when will you let me see your 'light wind and light cloud'?"

"When you are no longer 'gloomy'!"

"When will it be called 'no longer gloomy'?"

"Don't be surprised by favor or disgrace, just watch the flowers bloom and fall in front of the court; go and stay without care, and follow the clouds and clouds in the sky!"

"You won't run away again?"

"Why run away? If you don't bother me every day!"

"Then can I ask you out?"

"It's ok, as long as you behave as 'light and calm' instead of 'gloomy', 'earth-shattering', 'magnificent and magnificent' and the like. Whether or not to make an appointment is your business, and whether you should or not is mine. It's all right."

"What are 'wind and clouds', 'shocking', 'magnificent and magnificent'," Li Huanyu was surrounded by us like a cloud, "Brother, what are you talking about? Are you playing charades? Wait," Li Huanyu suddenly Looking at each other seriously, he sized us up, "Are you reconciled?"

"And your head," Xu Shi was excited, I slapped Li Huanyu on the head, "We didn't quarrel, really!"

"Uh——" Li Xiangyu coughed, and solemnly reminded, "The wind is light and the clouds are calm."

"Oh——" I suddenly realized, so I "interpreted" it again, "Reconcile? With whom? Reconcile with whom?"

Li Xiangyu shook his head helplessly: "You are 'surprised', not 'light and calm'! It seems that you have to study hard. Brother, brother and sister, I will go first, Dad should wait Ah Hong, when you feel the "wind is light and cloud is calm", please call me again. You called me when my grandma passed away. You told me not to change the number, so I never got back. I'll go first !"

"Huanyu, 'The Clouds Are Calm and the Wind is Light' is gone, so I, the 'Surprised One' will also go first."

"Nervous!" Li Huanyu cursed softly.

I just smiled lightly, is this what Li Xiangyu called "light clouds and breezy wind"?

When I got home, my parents asked about the situation, I just smiled lightly: "Li Xiangyu is not married, Ding Dong is Huanyu's daughter. Now, Huanyu's wife is waiting to give birth to a second child in the hospital."

Parents wanted to ask again, but they were ruthlessly blocked by the door.

Still commuting to and from work as usual, occasionally ask Li Xiangyu for a cup of coffee, chat about anecdotes that happened around me, talk about the funniest videos I have ever seen, or go to the theater to catch up with new dramas, and then go back to the Internet to watch how other people complain and abuse, close the notebook With a smile, it seems that such a life is not impossible.There is no compassion, no laughing and cursing, no complaints and sorrows, just so flat, like a breeze blowing on the face, refreshing, like white clouds drifting by, happy and happy.

That night, when we finished our coffee and were walking on the road, he suddenly said, "Would you like to come and sit with me?"

"Okay!" I have begun to calm down a little bit.

He looked at the faint moon, and smiled faintly: "You have changed. If it was you before, you would be elated and happy, and immediately ran over to hug and kiss, and then began to fantasize about this and that, the whole person It's like being on steroids. Now I have become calm and calm, and I am not panicked."

"You don't feel like the stars are holding the moon, and you no longer have idol-like treatment. Are you lost?"

"No!" He quietly held my hand, "I have already endured enough of the ups and downs of joy and sorrow. I will leave those ups and downs to others, and we will be calm and calm. It doesn’t need to be dramatic, and it doesn’t have to be romantic; you don’t expect to be famous, and you don’t worry about life, old age, sickness and death, just as ordinary as walking hand in hand now. When wealth comes, I stretch out my hand, and when death comes, I will follow.”

"Other things you said are pretty good, only the last point I don't like. Death is coming, let's not go with him, okay? Let him go with us?"

"Occasionally, it's good to be humorous and distract life!"