door to happiness

What separates me from Li Xiangyu is just a piece of paper, I always think so.Maybe Dad had good intentions when he gave him this IOU, but it seemed to have trampled on his dignity.No matter how close my father is to him, he can't become my father's real son.From Dad's point of view, giving his son a gift is nothing special, but from his point of view, it is a kind of charity.

I especially remember the look on his knees in front of Li Hang that year, and I will never forget it for the rest of my life.But he said that instead of asking my father for money, it would be better to borrow it from Li Hang.Dad will never understand the difference.

I still remember his perseverance and his sonorous words when he threw the red envelope to Li Hang.As he said, Feng Shui turns around, so Li Xiangyu may not be able to stand up.But, Li Xiangyu, where are you hiding and desperately trying to make money?

I have already started to go to the factory to help my father with work, but I am always absent-minded and always make mistakes every now and then. Fortunately, my father knows my mental state and does not severely criticize me.It's just that I know that if this continues, my life will be over.I must pull myself together!

I said to my father, give me two months, when I have walked all the places Li Xiangyu and I have traveled, then I may be able to let go.So, I started to trace the footprints of our past.

I went to the two small houses that Li Xiangyu rented before, and both of them have been replaced by other tenants.The moment they opened the door, I saw the messy furnishings in the room through the crack of the door.Although they are in the same space, they don't live as delicately as Li Xiangyu.

I went to the place where Li Xiangyu used to work part-time. The store has been renovated, the decoration is more magnificent, and the source of customers has increased, but the part-time job is still young college students.But compared to Li Xiangyu, they were a little less focused.

Guangzhou Railway Station has been refurbished, and its scale has also expanded. The changes are changing with each passing day, but the passengers passing by in a hurry remain unchanged.Standing in the square of the train station, watching the pedestrians, you will have a feeling of losing yourself.Here, we sent Liu Lei back to his hometown to bury his mother, and the regret of those years seems to be still there; it is also here that Li Xiangyu told me about his first love, and said the wise saying "not all love will be blessed".

"The House of Blue" is still the same as yesterday, except that the actresses who sighed with emotion and buried tears on the stage were not there, but there were all kinds of reverse actors showing off their charms on the stage.There are many tourists in the bar, but after all, many new faces have changed.There are many people who wear bracelets, anklets, and earrings. After all, they are less masculine.Compared with their femininity, I prefer Li Xiangyu's masculinity.

The food stalls near the school in the past have been demolished and changed into all-in-one snack bars, forming a food street. There are the famous Changsha stinky tofu, the unique duck neck in Wuhan, authentic Xinjiang skewers, and The Henan Braised Noodles are well-known all over the country... Li Xiangyu, who loves to eat, will definitely like it if he comes back here again.

Carrying my luggage, I went up to Moxing Ridge alone, set up a tent, looked at the starry sky, and used the method he taught me to distinguish the stars of Tianshu, Tianxuan, Tianji, Tianquan, Yuheng, Kaiyang, and Yaoguang.Wait for the sunrise in the early morning, listen to the birdsong in the forest, and enjoy the sunrise and the sea of ​​clouds.

I took the train alone to Hengshan Mountain, watched wild geese carvings, enjoyed the mist and rain, climbed ancient temples, climbed the gate of heaven, and worshiped Zhurong.

Ascending Lingfeng, the lush forest has become a beautiful garden, with a bit less wildness and a bit more beauty of artificial carvings. "Linggui Peak, maple trees grow on the peak, the wind blows the maple and the peak cannot move, and Baimao Island, Zhouzhou on the island, pushing the boat on the island" is still circulating, but the boy who told the story back then is nowhere to be seen...

"Worry Valley" is still there, "Nirvana Valley" is still there, Aunt Liang Yan's lonely grave is still there;The courage to jump into the river to find life is still there yesterday, and the righteousness to rescue people by throwing water is still there, but the protagonist back then doesn't know where he is...

The two lonely graves are still there; the two women are still lying quietly on the ground, and they are still there; where is the boy who is worried about the two women and has his liver broken?

The door is closed tightly, no one knows what happened to the Li family, no one knows where these people have gone, it seems that the world has evaporated.

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I thought that as long as I walked through the places we used to go one by one, as long as I paid homage to my lost youth, I would be able to let go, but I was wrong.I found that I missed him more and more, but only in my heart.

I still have my parents, I still have my younger brother, and I still have a career, so I can only be strong.I hide my unforgettable love for him deep in my heart, and no one will touch it anymore!

As he once said, a person's life is not only about love!

Everything returned to the bland, bland as if never happened.

I started to help my father to work hard and take care of the company's business seriously.

In April 2009, Li Huanyu called me and said he bought a new mobile phone.

In the summer vacation of 2009, Li Huanyu came to Yangcheng, stayed at my house, and pestered me to teach him the guitar.

Every late at night, we always lie in bed and tell Li Xiangyu's story.He told me anecdotes about Li Xiangyu's childhood, and I told him anecdotes about Li Xiangyu's university.He will complain about the nickname "Arctic Ice Wolf" given to his brother by others, he will be moved by his brother's deed of covering a stranger in the rain, and he will admire his brother's frankness... as long as he mentions it His brother, there was a spark in his eyes.

However, no one knew about Li Xiangyu.

In October 2009, there was a sudden big movement in the "Passbook of Love"—someone suddenly entered RMB [-].If I didn't save that money, it could only be Li Xiangyu.

I went to the bank and made a detailed statement, which showed that the deposit location was a business office in Hangzhou.

I discussed it with my dad and wanted to go to Hangzhou to find him, but my dad objected: "Hangzhou is so big, how can you find him in an ATM business outlet? It's like looking for a needle in a haystack. It's more likely than a blind cat to encounter a dead mouse." Still low!"

"Since he deposits at that outlet, it means that he either lives or works nearby. Go there first, and then ask the police for help to see if he can retrieve the ATM video recording of the day. This will make it easier. Found it."

Dad gave me a blank look: "You have watched too many detective dramas - you think the police station is run by your family! Besides, if he deliberately wants to hide from you, China's land is 960 million kilometers, where can't he hide from you? If you let go, let go, child! If you really can’t do it, Dad will give you a relationship, so go abroad for further study.”

Dad's analysis was right, if he wanted to hide from me, how could I find him?

From that day on, I gave up and never took the initiative to mention the name Li Xiangyu again.