door to happiness

The spring thunder rolled, awakening the winter insects that had been dormant all winter, but they couldn't wake up my dormant love.In addition to painting, I still paint every day.Draw Li Xiangyu jumping on the basketball court in memory, draw Li Xiangyu ordering steaming food, draw Li Xiangyu kneeling in the mud, draw Li Xiangyu crying in the crowd...

Just after the Lantern Festival, Li Xiangyu returned to Yangcheng and brought spring bamboo shoots to my parents for New Year greetings.He smiled sweetly at them, but turned a blind eye to me, as cold as ice...

He first moved from my bedroom, where we had been tender with each other, to the study, and then from the study to the school.

On the night of moving away, he hugged me and only said two perfunctory and heavy words: Treasure!When Zhaojun drove with geese to Hubei, did he ever look south at the Han Palace, and said the phrase "treasure" heartbrokenly, was it perfunctory or heavy?When Liang Shanbo was lying on the sick bed, looking through the autumn waters and finding Yingtai hard, did he also say this "treasure"?

Sitting in the Dangui forest on the campus, looking up at the classmates upstairs, they are like crucian carp crossing the river, shuttle back and forth, but I am looking for one person among thousands of figures.His face is like a full moon but not bloated; eyebrows are like ink painting, neat and elegant; a pair of peach blossom eyes, like flowing water; a row of long and narrow eyelashes, like bead curtains, and like the thin wings of cicadas flying in summer .

In Guilin, I am looking up; on the upper floor, is he also looking down at me?

That night, a text message rang on the cell phone—"Passbook of Love" came into the account.

He went to save money.In the past, after we finished saving money, we would always lie down together, open the "passbook of love", and write down the happy time in the notebook.Now, Laoyan is flying, why did he engrave the imprint of the years in the "passbook of love"?We agreed to use this method to record the most beautiful time of love. Could it be that the most beautiful time is the pain of parting?

Occasionally, I would go to the literary club and watch him buried in his work through the bright window.Liang Yan shuttled around the room, busy like a machine spinning continuously.The computer is on, and the webpage displayed there is the prototype sketched by Li Xiangyu, and it is the flesh and blood that I have polished and filled.It was the most proud cooperation in our life, the crystallization of love - can I call it our child?

Li Xiangyu raised his head, smiled faintly at me, curled the corners of his mouth, and smiled.

He changed, and turned back to the frosty "Arctic Ice Wolf" before, unsmiling, not good at speaking—no, he was unwilling to speak.Rumors about him spread again. Some said that he was dumped by a class of beauties. It is said that the beauties were high-ranking girls; Stupid; someone said that he was exhausted and could no longer write eloquent works, so he suddenly fell silent and went back...

There are different opinions and no consensus.

In the evening, the mobile phone text message rang again. "Passbook of Love" earned another [-].The madman!

Sitting under the ancient maple tree, looking at the new leaves, I feel so magical: withered and then flourished, flourished and withered, endless life?I really hope that love is such a vital thing, thank you and open it again, it is best to open it in the same place, just like yesterday...

Zhang Lan was still wearing my favorite white clothes, walking towards me gracefully.Li Xiangyu's mother loves to wear white clothes, and so does Li Xiangyu!

Zhang Lan sat down next to me, pointed to my more than 1 guitar: "Idol, can you play my exclusive song?"

In the spring breeze in early spring, I played "Late Autumn".The wind in early spring should not be as cold as the wind in late autumn; how can spring feel the sadness of autumn, just like how can she know the sadness in my heart?Spring leaves are picked, conceived for a spring, prospered for a summer, and finally withered in autumn.My love has just been conceived, and it hasn't waited for prosperity, but why did it wither early?

"What happened to the three of you recently, did you quarrel? It's rare to see you get together now?" She was very curious.

"It's all very busy."

"What are you busy with?"

"Be busy!"

"I think you just quarreled with him. Tell me, what's the matter? I'll analyze it."

"broke up."

"Break up?" Zhang Lan jumped up in surprise.

"Well, we broke up."

"There is no one who is good-looking. I know he has a heart!" Zhang Lan fiddled with the strings, listening to Lingling strings in a daze.

"I mentioned it."

"You mentioned it?" She jumped up, walked in front of me, and held my chin, "Are you stupid? You actually took the initiative to break up! No matter what happens, you have to spend time with him. What is Li Xiangyu Man, he is definitely not a person who will be humble before getting back together, even people around me can see it, can't you see it?"

Yes, even Zhang Lan knows what kind of person Li Xiangyu is, but why don't I know?

I have always been so disappointed and brooding, maybe it's because he didn't call me, send me a text message, or come to me, even if it was to explain a word, even if it was to persuade me to stay once!I seem to have exhausted all my strength to love him, but he still stands still.I've taken the 99 difficult steps, why doesn't he turn around and take the remaining one to hug me?

"Let's go, let's figure out a solution together. Didn't you say that there is no chance, even if you create one!" She pushed me.

I sat a little lazily, unwilling to move, and didn't want to move.

I started to play crazily, fighting wildly with Gao Yong on the court, with vague hostility, vague support, vague confrontation, vague separation and reunion.

It's the last semester of college and he's about to leave here.

When taking a shower in the school bathroom, Gao Yong smiled at me and said, "Let me rub your back." I seemed to see Li Xiangyu take off his clothes, move lightly, and turn on the shower.The water splashed out like a spring, sprinkled on his thick black hair, flowed down his face and neck, flowed through his heart, and flowed into a beautiful song...

He rubbed my body lightly, as if teasing.He smiled at me and said softly, "Come on, wife, rub my back for me."

A pair of hands wandered over my body, but they were not familiar with it.I woke up instantly and turned around, only to see Gao Yong looking at me and giggling.

"I'll just rub it myself, really! Brother, you'd better go to that secret compartment, it's too crowded."

"They're all men, what are you afraid of? How about rubbing my back for me?" He turned around and turned his back to me.

I remembered what An Xiaoyun said at the entrance of the safety stairs that day: Everyone has the love of beauty, and even a straight person like my cousin will praise you, saying that he failed to have sex with you, It's a pity.Now, is Gao Yong trying to make up for this regret?I couldn't help trembling and tightening my body.

"Brother, I suddenly remembered that Senior Sister Lu Zimei asked me out. It's almost time, I have to go first." Halfway through washing, I hurriedly wiped off the water on my body, put on a dress I brought in advance, and I was in a hurry. And fled, leaving only Gao Yong's bewildered and surprised look.

Fortunately, he escaped quickly, otherwise he might be eaten to the bone.

Escaping from the bathroom, I wiped the water and walked aimlessly, but I saw Li Xiangyu and Liang Yan walking side by side on the runway ahead, talking and laughing.The agreed threesome, now only my corner has collapsed, but they are still lingering and affectionate.

When friendship is torn apart by love, what will be left?Did Liang Yan back then look at the backs of me and Li Xiangyu so lonely?

The feeling of following them at a distance and dodging in a panic when they turned their heads was so familiar.Yes, just last year, Zhang Lan and I followed Liu Lei and went to Li Xiangyu's house for the first time.As Liu Lei said, Li Xiangyu moved out because he couldn't stand the dirty boys' dormitory. Now that he returns to the dirty school building, will he adapt?

I thought of the boy who was poor and could only earn a living by part-time jobs, but still gave away three red-haired grandpas to his friends. I thought of the boy who knelt down in front of his classmates, but only got 500 yuan of discrimination and insult. Boy... that boy, I once loved deeply; at this moment, it seems that I still love him, but I can only hide silently in the corner.

If I were his shadow, it would be great, I could follow him all the time.

After leaving the school gate, they went to a food stall and ordered a bowl of rice noodles for [-] yuan.He desperately sprinkled chili sauce on the rice noodles until there was no more rice noodles in sight.

The boss smiled: "You can really eat spicy food, you are from Hunan, right?"

He looked at the boss with a slight smile, and glanced at me outside the shop.I hurriedly hid to the side, praying that he would not find me, praying that he would not come out, praying that he would not tell me: "Hi, long time no see!"

He didn't come out!After a long time, I poked my head out again, only to see him with his head down, eating happily.Liang Yan put the beef in her bowl into his bowl piece by piece. She once asked me about his preferences. Although I never gave him the correct information, now she finally figured it out.He likes to eat meat.

Boring back to the company, I started to retouch the pictures again.Suddenly, the phone text message rang.For a moment, I thought of Li Xiangyu. Could it be that he sent me a text message?

It is still just the dynamic information of the bank, and the "Passbook of Love" has changed again.This guy, put money in it again?Is it really so happy to eat a bowl of rice noodles for [-] yuan with Liang Yan?

Pchy said that love is not everything, although he sang so sadly, but I should not be sad.I want to turn grief and anger into strength and work hard.Just like what Li Xiangyu said, Cheng Hui can't cover me for the rest of my life!

If you are frustrated in love, how can you be more frustrated in career?

I worked desperately, studied desperately, and met all kinds of people desperately.

Dad smiled, and he said, you are finally like my son.

The little mother smiled, and she said, you can finally eat well, and my mother is relieved.

If it was Li Xiangyu, what would he say when he saw me like this?

I started to run at night. Every time I got off work, I ran home from the company and insisted on this 8.31-kilometer long-distance run every day.Li Xiangyu said that people like us who are destined to have no children must be healthy, otherwise no one will take care of them when they are sick.

Yes, we lack the attribution of "XX's" when the parents are gone!