door to happiness

"I'm going to the bathroom", I really couldn't stand it any longer, so I had to leave the meeting apologetically.

I washed my face, what happened to me.I clearly know that he is going to fall in love, get married and have children, why do I feel so uncomfortable when I see a woman clinging to him?Is it because the other party is An Xiaoyun, my self-esteem is causing trouble, and I want to compete with her to see who Li Xiangyu likes more?

In the mirror, I was a little haggard and my complexion was not very good.

Coming out of the bathroom, he almost bumped into An Xiaoyun.She actually blocked the toilet door, smiling sweetly.

"You are Zhang Hong, right? My cousin often mentions you in front of me?"

Gao Yong?Why is he mentioning me to his cousin?

"What did he say?"

"Let's go over there for a chat." An Xiaoyun pouted towards the safety stairs next to the bathroom, and left without waiting for my consent.She might have something to say, so I had no choice but to follow her.She went down seven or eight steps in a row, and stopped when she reached the window.

"My cousin said that my boyfriend was picked up by a man, so I was puzzled and very curious. Tongtong just called me and asked me to meet Xiangyu, so I came here. When I came to Guangzhou to see, It seems that this is really the case. I heard that you gays regard breaking up straight men as a very honorable thing, and you should show it off to your gang of dead gays." She is slim and elegant, and she can be said The words he uttered were so vulgar, and the little favor he had for her before was gone now.

I want to endure it, after all, he is Li Xiangyu's first love, but hearing her say "gay", I couldn't help but get angry, and immediately responded to her: "Why, it's wronged to be robbed of a boyfriend by a man? Isn't this era If you can seduce people with just a little bit of beauty, you have to give some real affection."

She took out a pack of cigarettes from her pocket, took out one, lit one up skillfully, and smoked "clack-clack", puffing on the clouds, feeling very happy.

I was taken aback. I thought she must be pure and innocent, but I didn't expect her to be a bit vulgar.

"Li Xiangyu was just fascinated for a while, I will confirm it. He likes women, he is just bewitched by you. To be honest, you do look a bit handsome, and you are not as handsome as other gays. Girlfriend. You must have been pursued by girls in school, right? Everyone has a love of beauty, and even a straight person like my cousin will praise you and say that it’s a pity that I couldn’t have sex with you. , then it’s not surprising that Li Xiangyu is addicted to you.” She took a deep puff, stubbed out the cigarette butt, threw it on the ground, and stepped on it with her high heels.

Gao Yong?Have a shot?

I looked helpless and squeezed out an awkward smile: "Can I take this as a compliment?"

"It depends on what you think. Li Xiangyu's mother is sick now. I think if you really love him, you should stay away from him. Although the aunt is not angry on the surface, is she not angry in her heart? She didn't treat you The scolding is bloody, that is because she is gracious and self-cultivated. Don't take other people's demeanor as warmth, that is shameful! What to do is for Xiangyu's good, think about it. I heard you gay She kept saying 'love between a man and a man is true love, not for reproduction'," she sneered, "then let me see how much love is. Platonic love, have you heard of it?"

Yes, platonic love, I have heard of it, is an extremely romantic view of love that seems almost impossible to achieve.Stand beside your lover, give quietly, wait silently, never expect to be close, never expect to have, even if you know there is no result at all, you still love without resentment.This is a sad and mournful love that is doomed to be unrequited.

"If you can do that, I believe gay love is real! Otherwise, it's all bullshit. In my opinion, love between men and women is dirty and selfish. You just want to enjoy the moment, but never want to Take responsibility, because you don't need to take responsibility at all, and you are not willing to take responsibility. I heard that your circle is too chaotic, so you are not afraid of AIDS?" She was filled with righteous indignation, saliva splashed, and sparks burst out of her eyes.She was righteous and strict, as if singing a song of justice.

She shook her hands and walked away, the sound of the high heels rubbing the floor became farther and farther away, but her heart-piercing yells kept ringing in my ears.My hand holding the railing gradually lost strength, and I sat down on the railing decadently.

I want to refute, I should refute - but I don't know how to refute. The "expensive" circle is "chaotic", isn't that the truth?Love from sex, fear of losing, and then use sex to maintain, and finally come to an end.In this circle, are there not many stories like this that go round and round?

Or just have a lonely time, and then pass by in the early morning of the morning light, isn't there a lot of strangers from now on?

I want to refute, but I can't seem to refute - didn't I even fool around with Cheng Hui once?

What people have always resisted is not love, but filth, Luo Qi is like this, and An Xiaoyun is also like this.One of them is a rotten woman, and the other is homophobic.I think I should be right about their positioning.

There was a long silence, and when they returned to their seats, they had already eaten a lot.

Seeing that I haven't returned for so long, Li Xiangyu jokingly said: "It's been so long, I thought you fell into the latrine, and I was thinking about whether to report..." He found that my face was not good, and the joke stopped abruptly, " Why is your face so ugly, are you sick?"

He stood up slightly and touched my forehead with concern. , I blocked my hand, pushed him away, lowered my head, and ate cold noodles.

"The food is almost finished, we should go too. Xiangyu, you can catch up with your high school classmates. Ah Hong and I will go to the movies in a while. We haven't enjoyed private time for a long time, so please." Seeing my displeasure, Luo Qi, who was as careful as dust, knew what was going on inside, so she hurriedly found an excuse and took me away.

Now, An Xiaoyun should be happy.She can finally talk to Li Xiangyu alone.

Luo Qi took my hand and sighed deeply: "That woman is very powerful at first glance, and it's not surprising that she can't fight. As long as Xiangyu is on your side! Let's go, my dear Ah Hong, what movie do you want to watch? I treat you."

The two of them were bored, so they went to Qinggong Cinema and watched "Crazy Stone".It was a smash hit movie in 2006, and it was precisely because of this movie that Huang Bo quickly rose to the top, became popular all over the country, and became a household star.At first, I watched this movie alone. I sat in the corner stupidly, holding a cup of popcorn and laughing. It was clear at a glance how ridiculous the situation was and how lonely I was.

The me that day, I actually felt lonely and felt sorry for myself, vowed to end the years of being single, find a male partner and go to the theater to watch it again.

Later, I did it.I found Li Xiangyu, held his hand, and watched it for the second time with a smile on my face.We ate popcorn together, commented on the movie, sometimes nodded and lowered our eyebrows, smiled shallowly, and sometimes held our bellies and held back. If others cast a reproachful look, we would smile at each other and sit upright again, like a gentleman.

This is indeed a good movie, and Luo Qi laughed so hard that she didn't look like a lady at all.Who would have thought that such a girl with a wild smile would be Nightingale's swearer and heir?However, I couldn't laugh at all.

My mind is full of images of Li Xiangyu and An Xiaoyun.

I quietly took out my phone and glanced at it.Li Xiangyu didn't call me, nor did he have any text messages.Heart, feel lost.I put away the phone, looked at the silly "black skin" on the screen again, and forced a wry smile.

Less than 10 minutes later, I took out my phone again, and was disappointed as always.

After going back and forth about ten times, Luo Qi finally couldn't help it, pressed my hand, and said in a low voice: "You are sick, you need to be cured!"

sick?Yes, I am sick—lovesick!

The "black skin" actually turned into a scholar, wearing a Confucian crown and a Confucian shirt, holding a scroll in his hand, and recited affectionately: "Red beans are born in the southern country, and a few branches will come out in spring. May you pick more, this thing is the most precious." Acacia".Suddenly, the scholar faded away, and suddenly appeared in the corner of the thatched house, the candle light was dim, and the candle tears were dripping, and a voice came from outside the house: the spring silkworms will die when the silkworms die, and the torch will turn into ashes and tears will dry...

I shook my head to wake myself up, only to see "Hei Pi" yelling at me: "Your question is purely moral!"

Is this a moral issue?

"Lovesickness is very similar to mental illness. It can lead to symptoms such as mania, depression, confusion, mania, and delusions. I see you, and now you have begun to show signs of it. Real love is not like this. You are too involved, and even start to imagine Ah Hong, I have a senior in the psychiatric department who is very good. How about taking you there to see it some other day?" She said so coldly, making people panic.

"Rocky, you passed. I'm fine."

After coming out of the theater, the two walked around the street for a while, and we didn't part ways until the sun went down.

Back home, Li Xiangyu had already come back early, and was setting up a plate with his little mother, preparing for dinner.

Seeing me at home, he hurriedly pulled me to the bedroom, and asked, "Why did you come back so late after playing and having dinner with Luo Qi?"

"Just watched a movie." I turned on the computer and suddenly wanted to play a game.

"what movie?"

"'Crazy Stone'."

"It's this again? Haven't you read it twice, why can't you see enough?"

"Boring, let's pass the time. Where's An Xiaoyun?"

"Back to the hotel."

"She seems to be...", I wanted to say that she was "homophobic", but I hesitated at the corner of my mouth.

"What's up with her?"

"It's nothing." I ignored him and started playing "Swordsman Love".

He lingered behind me for a while, then suddenly hugged me from behind, leaning against my face, and said, "Xiaoyun doesn't quite understand our kind of love, so she may be a little extreme. Before, she was very important to me, but now , she is not important to me anymore. So, just pretend you haven’t seen or heard anything. Maybe she just doesn’t want her boyfriend to be gay. She once loved a gay guy. In her opinion, this It's intolerable."