door to happiness

I went to the library to find Duncan's psychological works, but found that there was no such thing at all.After asking, I found out that this "Duncan" turned out to be the player I like, Tim Duncan.I never thought that someone as rough as him would say such delicate words, let alone that he majored in psychology in college.Well, things are unpredictable!

As he wished, I decided to refocus my life.Yes, my life is my own, and I shouldn't revolve around him all the time.So, I started playing ball, drawing, and playing the guitar again.Occasionally, there will be a nympho like Zhang Lan who listens to my strings like gurgling water, saying words of admiration, and I just smile.

Of course, the part-time job is still going on, and that is the only time Li Xiangyu and I are alone in a day.Although there is less time to meet each other every day, it seems that there are more topics to talk about.I babbled to him about my life every day, and he mostly listened, occasionally with a refined smile.

The autumn wind is blowing, and the fallen leaves are fluttering.Holding Li Xiangyu's hand, strolling along the forest trails in the park, seeing the moonlight pouring down on all things like water, my heart seemed to calm down.After getting along for a long time, even walking has gradually become a tacit understanding-lifting their feet in unison, and then landing in unison, the rhythmic sound is like a song of autumn rhyme.

"Jiangnanxi has opened a new western restaurant. I heard it's pretty good. Let's try it together this Saturday?"

"Jiangnanxi?" His eyebrows twitched, but he quickly regained his composure, "I don't have time this Saturday, why not another day!"

"This Saturday... you..." I originally wanted to ask him what his schedule was for Saturday, but when I thought of what he said "the safe distance of love", my tone immediately dropped a few decibels, and I started to murmur uneasy, and finally disappeared sound.However, there was a special offer that day, and you can enjoy [-]% off by swiping your credit card. I don't want to miss this once-in-a-lifetime discount opportunity.

The next day, when I was playing the guitar under the red maple leaves, Zhang Lan came over on fallen leaves.She is so cute and catches the fallen leaves dancing in the wind from time to time, just like a girl who shuttles through the woods to catch colorful butterflies.

She sat down beside me, and took out a molded red maple leaf specimen from her pocket.This is a very delicate specimen, with white paper as the base, and a piece of red maple sandwiched in the middle.There are a few withered and yellow leaves around the maple leaves, which complement each other with the red maple leaves, which is very beautiful.At the far right corner, there is a line of eye-catching and elegant running script: blue sky, red leaves, westerly wind is tight, how deep is the lovesickness after sweeping down an autumn?

"You played really well, you sang really well! My idol, I really adore you! I have no respect for you, little girl, I would like to offer this modest gift, don't refuse!" "Don't hurt my fan's heart!" Her performance was so vivid that it made people laugh.

What a quirky girl!

I took the red maple leaf specimen and patted her on the head lovingly: "You must be poor! However, since I am your idol, shouldn't I give some benefits to my fans? If you have If it's empty, I plan to treat my fans to western food, what do you think?"

"It's free, it must be free!" Sparks of excitement radiated from her eyes.

"Why are you so excited? Restrain! Restrain!"

"Idol treats me to dinner, how can I not be excited?"

On Saturday evening, I led Zhang Lan to the newly opened western restaurant in Jiangnanxi, only to find that Li Xiangyu was also there—Gao Yong was sitting opposite him.With mixed feelings in my heart, I deliberately pretended not to see him, and sat down in a remote corner.

The sharp-eyed Zhang Lan found Li Xiangyu, and flashed in front of him like a rabbit: "Li Xiangyu, you are here, what a coincidence! Zhang Hong and I heard that this western restaurant has a discount, so we came here, just arrived!"

Li Xiangyu glanced at me and waved to me: "Ah Hong, we just arrived, do you want to sit together?"

I walked over reluctantly, sat down side by side with Gao Yong, and glanced at Li Xiangyu: "It's really busy!"

Gao Yong poured me a glass of water: "Why do you think this is so sour!"

"Maybe it's expired and spoiled!" I took the menu, read it back and forth, glanced at Li Xiangyu, and said to the waiter, "Here is a 'Couple Set for Two'. The steak should be medium-ripe and the pork chop should be nine-year-old. A bottle of red wine, take four glasses! For dessert, I want 'Durian Mille Crepe' and 'Tiramisu' each! Have you two ordered anything?"

"It's ordered, and it's waiting to be served! Gao Yong, sit down first, and I'll get you a drink." Li Xiangyu's eyes flickered, and he left his seat quickly.

"Did you quarrel? Why do you think you two are weird?" A woman's sixth sense is strong!

Yes, I'm having trouble with him!I deliberately ordered the couple's meal, designed to irritate him.I deliberately ordered the "Durian Millefeuille", but he never eats this kind of thing because the smell is too strong.I am silently protesting!

During this meal, I took care of Zhang Lan as much as I could, just like a gentleman takes care of a princess.I cut steak for her, poured black pepper sauce on her, passed tissues to her... I toasted with her and drank, talking ambiguously.At this moment, we seem to be a couple in love.

Gao Yong looked me and Li Xiangyu back and forth, hesitant to speak.Li Xiangyu still has an iceberg face, expressionless, only the movement of his chewing muscles shows that he is not a wooden man.After eating western food with me a few times, he already looks good.He carefully cut the steak without making any noise, and then slowly handed it to Gao Yong's dinner plate.

This ambiguous action made my head heat up, and the stuffy air in my heart was like clouds on a cloudy day getting thicker and thicker, and the aura was extremely cold.I poured a full glass of red wine and suffocated in one breath.When the tannin enters the mouth, the mouth feels dry, and the cavity is numb and a little itchy, spreading inch by inch from the taste buds.

I was about to pour it again, but Li Xiangyu had already snatched the red wine and put it aside: "Red wine has a lot of stamina, you didn't drink it like this! Don't be angry!"

"You don't care!" I got up to grab the wine, but Gao Yong had already grabbed the red wine, put it on the next table, and stopped me.

He stared at my face with a solemn expression: "Zhang Hong, you are very strange! Could it be that you..." He glanced at Zhang Lan and swallowed back the half of the sentence, "A man should act casually, why bother to be like a mother-in-law, What a coward!"

"Coward? Come on, why don't we go to the bar and see who is the coward!"

"Don't judge a hero by drinking! Your body is your own, why bother yourself!"

"You son of a bitch!" I got up to get the wine, poured another full glass, and drank alone!

"Li Xiangyu, we'll talk about it another day, I'm leaving first!" Gao Yong looked panic-stricken and fled away!

Li Xiangyu got up, stood there for 2 minutes, and finally took his coat and chased Gao Yong away.These two bastards haven't even settled the bill. Are you asking me to treat you?The two of them are talking about love here, am I the one who pays the bill?Unreasonable, unreasonable! "Hey, Li Xiangyu, buy the bill before leaving!" But Li Xiangyu had disappeared around the corner.

I got up to chase, but Zhang Lan stopped me: "I beg you, don't chase!"

I don't want to ask him to pay the bill, I just want to catch up with him, just catch up with him!

Zhang Lan pursed her mouth several times, but stopped talking.After a lot of noise, the desire to taste delicious food dropped sharply, and the atmosphere no longer existed.So, I had no choice but to settle the bill and push the door out.I really came here in high spirits, and returned in disappointment!

The evening wind in late autumn was cool and swishing, messing up Zhang Lan's flowing hair and disturbing the calm autumn water in my heart.Holding Zhang Lan's hand is like holding the right hand with the left hand, without any tension or excitement, as if what I hold is just a puppet.However, her palms were gradually sweating.

She broke free from my hand and bowed her head in silence.Her bangs covered her face, making it impossible to see her expression clearly.After a while, she managed to say something: "I always thought you said that to make me give up. I didn't know until today that what you said was always true! So you really don't like women, you like……"

She stopped suddenly and stood in front of me.She stood on tiptoe, held my face in her hands, and kissed me hard.The lips with light makeup enlarged and enlarged in my pupils until they disappeared.She kissed frantically, but I didn't respond.Why don't I feel an electric shock when a woman's lips touch mine?I just feel sticky and a little nauseous.But I didn't push her away!

She took a few steps back and looked at me with tears in her eyes: "Don't you feel it? Kissing me, do you really feel nothing?" She put her palm on my chest and murmured to herself: "There is no heartbeat. Accelerate, so you really don't feel it! Really don't..."

"There is a food stall ahead, let's have another drink!"

It's night of lust - for us two heartbreakers!I hurt him, and Li Xiangyu hurt me!The two came to the food stall, drinking and cursing each other.She scolded me and complained about me.She said she hated me, hated me for being a fag!However, this is a "gift" given to me by God, is it something I can choose?

I sent the drunk Zhang Lan back to school, staggered to the downstairs of Li Xiangyu's house, and shouted his name loudly.Neighbors in the neighborhood were unbearably disturbed, and some aunties even poked their heads out and cursed, threatening to call the police if there was any more noise.However, Li Xiangyu still did not appear.

I sat blankly at the gate, leaning against the gate, breathing out alcohol, not sneering at myself, and yelling at Li Xiangyu from time to time.Why is this damn guy always torturing me?

Not long after, the alcohol kicked in and I just felt heavy on my eyelids.I struggled to open my eyes, got up and wanted to go!I can't pass out drunk at the gate of Li Xiangyu's building, in this late autumn night!I almost fell, but fortunately a person held me up!I tried my best to open my eyes, and saw Li Xiangyu's face in a haze!Damn, I actually had hallucinations!

"Li Xiangyu, do you know how much I love you?"

"Know!" The phantom smiled at me.

"Then why...for..." I started to feel drowsy and fell to the ground.