door to happiness

Author: Hai Wuya

I hate studying, but only that.

For fun, I will always pursue it tirelessly, such as painting.Speaking of this, I am quite proud.In the three years of high school, I didn't learn anything well, so I learned to draw.The reason why he was able to get into this university was that he was able to get in by playing "fine arts specialty" - even though it was just an inconspicuous third-rate university!

But this is also something that makes me quite proud. At least I didn’t force my father to revisit the classic traditional Chinese culture and draw strength from Mao Zedong like in high school, so that I was able to enter school.

In addition to painting, I can also play basketball-this is mainly due to the indulgence in the third year of junior high school.In order to impress Qi Fei, I learned a lot of theoretical knowledge about playing basketball and practiced it repeatedly. Within a year, I became a man of the school.Three years in high school, although Qi Fei has left, but my habit of playing basketball has not changed.As soon as I entered the university, I joined the school basketball club. Under the continuous training of the seniors, my basketball skills improved by leaps and bounds.This semester, the school team extended an olive branch to me!

In addition, I can play the guitar - although I can't play very well, but I have a naturally good voice, and I can sing love songs with affection, which is quite touching.

Do you know why I am so tireless about these things?Because these are all "girl teasing skills"!No, it should be "Picking Magic Skills"!

Think about it, sit in a corner of the campus, set up an easel, take a pencil, and silently sketch a sunny and handsome boy.When you hand this sketch to him, say: "Dude, you are born to be a model. Looking at your figure, it can be called the golden ratio. I can't help but draw it for girls. One. Take it, don’t forget me when you become a supermodel someday!" After going back and forth, will you still be unfamiliar?

Not to mention playing basketball, as soon as they come on the court, everyone gets excited.If you accidentally rub your body, then accidentally hug and wipe off the oil, it will be a piece of cake.As long as you don't overdo it, almost no one will notice.Even if you accidentally touch a sensitive part, it is purely accidental. In the public, who has the nerve to care about you?

As for playing the guitar, which school doesn't have some music-loving kids, wouldn't it be fun for everyone to get together and talk all over the world?Let me tell you, art-loving children basically look good!

Of course, I just have this lust, but I don't have this lust.I enjoy socializing with them, but I don't cross the line of friends.The matter of Qi Fei is enough to make my heart palpitate.

However, it is also because of these heretical ways, and because I am fairly handsome, since I was in college, I have been confessed to by girls quite often.As you know, I have always regarded them as buddies, and have no affection above friends.So, how to reject them has become a difficult problem in front of me.

Rejection is always cruel, but procrastination is not fair to other girls, so the sentence I say most is "Dude, it's really relaxing and comfortable to be with you, what's wrong with you?" As soon as the words are spoken, the girl who can let go will return to the original position, we are still good friends, and the girl who can't let go will leave angrily and fall into the arms of others.Of course, I have no grievances about this.

But what I can't forget so far is a girl named Zhang Lan. She is my school girl, who was in the class of 2006, and she is at the same level as Li Xiangyu.

I never thought that there would be such a girl who broke into my life suddenly and met me in such a way, let alone that she was the initiator of my next relationship, which made me experience an unforgettable experience. love affair.

I met her because of her confession!

It's late autumn, and all the trees are withered.At this time, I no longer fell in love with Guilin, but always lingered on the red maple in the botanical garden.I like to sit on a wooden chair covered with red maple leaves, look at the high sky and faint clouds, play the guitar, and hum a song "Late Autumn" by Mao Ning.

Qiu Xin, worry too!Although this age still doesn't understand sorrow, sorrow really occupies every corner of my heart, whether it is because of someone who left yesterday angrily, or because of the eye-catching red "×" on today's test paper, or because of a classmate A light growl.

In a daze, I couldn't help but think of the poem written by Xin Qiji on Boshan Road when he was impeached and lived in Daihu: young people don't know the feeling of sorrow, love the upper floors, fall in love with the upper floors, and express their sorrows for Fu Xinci.Now I am sentimental, isn't it suitable for this situation?It's just that I don't know when it will be before I sigh, "Now that I know all the sorrow, I want to say it, I want to say it, but I say it's a cool autumn".

I was so sentimental, but I was confessed by a girl with a baby face.

That day, after I finished playing the guitar, I leaned the guitar against the wooden chair and was reviewing Yu Qiuyu's "Notes on a Mountain Dwelling" in my hand, chatting to pass the time.Suddenly, I saw a girl in a pleated skirt walking towards me.She held a letter in her hand and covered it in front of her face, covering half of her face, so she couldn't see her face clearly.

It's late autumn, and it's obviously out of date to wear a pleated skirt, but I don't care.For one thing, there is a cosplay club in the school, and there are many people in Tang suits and Hanfu on the campus on weekdays. In comparison, this pleated skirt is obviously nothing; moreover, I have always had a good impression of girls wearing pleated skirts, especially It is white, and it has a sense of ice and jade.This one in front of him is like that.

I thought she was passing by here, and I didn't forget to glance at it from the corner of my eye while reading, but I never thought that she walked up to me.She lowered her head and handed the letter in front of my eyes: "Senior, here it is!"

Her face suddenly turned red, extremely shy.Only then did I realize that her face was a little baby fat, but what bothered me the most was the brightly painted lips, which reminded me of "Flaming Lips".It was so wild and enthusiastic, and it didn't match the pleated skirt she was wearing.

Seeing that I didn't answer, she threw the letter on me and ran away as if flying.Just after running a few steps, he tripped over a small raised stone on the road and fell into the mud.I think, she is so embarrassed, she can't wait to find a crack to get in, right?

I got up and wanted to help her, but she got up and ran away without looking back.

Picking up the letter and opening it casually, I saw a cupid drawn at the beginning. Although it is not lifelike, it makes people look very comfortable-obviously, this is another love letter: Zhang Hongjun:

Do you believe in love at first sight?I didn't believe it until I met you.But when I ran into you under Gu Feng that day, listening to you playing the guitar and singing "Late Autumn", I suddenly fell in love with the somewhat sentimental you, and it was out of control ever since.Sometimes I would go to the basketball court to watch you play basketball. At that time, you were full of vigor and vitality, which reminded me of Rukawa Kaede.Also, the way you draw is also very charming, and your expression when you are concentrating is very cute.Do you know, in order to get one of your paintings, I treated Senior Sister Xiaoyan to dinner for a whole week.However, I think it's worth it.Sometimes you are cheerful and clear, sometimes you are as calm as water, and sometimes you are as melancholy as autumn. Which one is the real you?I am very curious and would like to walk into your life!

Zhang Hongjun, I am just an ordinary girl.I know that if I am not as active as Yuan Xiangqin, you will never pay attention to me.I fell in love with you suddenly without your permission, I am really sorry!But I think, I am in your love, I should at least let you see.I'm struggling in the river, now that you've seen it, would you give me a hand?Or do you just want to regard me as a red glow that adorns the scenery in your heart?But, Hongjun, do you know, I don’t want to be a rosy glow, I want to be an elf with fanatical obsession—an elf that comes from happiness and returns to happiness with you.You are an angel lost in the world, I can only look into your eyes if I become an elf...

love at first sight?She asked me if I believed in love at first sight, and I think I do!Love is a pious thing!

painting?Xiaoyan, who never came to the studio, asked me for a painting of flowers and birds. I really thought she was decorating the dormitory, but it turned out that she was entrusted by this girl.

The pleated skirt you wore just now, isn't it a cosplay, but just to please me?What a silly girl!

In an instant, I was shaken a little - facing a girl who loves me so much!But where is the true love, how can it not move the soul?I expect such a beautiful love, but I just hope that the protagonist is a boy.Although I have a good impression of her, I can't promise her a happy future.

She said that she came from happiness, and she was willing to lead me back to happiness, but I knew that I came from pain, which would only crush her wings of happiness.

When I saw it for the first time, it already made me a little suffocated.Her innocence, her sincerity, made it impossible for me to deal with it at will - I didn't want to hurt her.But how should I reply to her?

Sincerity can only be returned with sincerity, that is the respect for her, I think.

Although I came out in high school, I never mentioned my sexuality to anyone at this university.Since the high school I attended was a key middle school, most of my classmates were admitted to prestigious schools, and I was the only one living in this unknown third-rate school, so no one knew me well.But at this moment, I decided to be frank with this girl.

Three days later, she came here again, still wearing a pleated skirt, but without lipstick.Looking at it today, it looks a bit delicate and elegant.

"Senior..." She still lowered her head, a little shy.

"I accept your letter! This is the most poetic love letter I have ever read, thank you for allowing me to read such beautiful prose poems, but..."

She frowned, opened her mouth slightly, and stopped talking.

"You are a lovely elf, but I am not an angel. Girl, you love me, I am very moved, but we can't be together—because I don't like women. This "Notes on a Mountain Dwelling" is my return gift—" —I will cherish your letter well, thank you for giving me such a good memory!"

I am afraid to see a woman cry - before she tears, I pick up the guitar and leave quickly.

Zhang Lan, I am a cloud in the sky, occasionally projected on your wave heart, you don't need to be surprised, let alone rejoice, as it disappears in an instant.You and I meet on the sea of ​​night, you have yours, I have mine, the direction; you may remember, but it is best that you forget the light that shines on each other when we meet.

The poem in the book, Zhang Lan, hopes to accompany you out of this secret love.