door to happiness

Years later, he asked me why I love him?I was a little numb and didn't know how to answer.

In fact, before he asked this sentence, I never thought about this question at all.I think the reason why I fell in love with him at first sight was because of his handsomeness.I'm a bit of an outsider, I have to admit.As comrades, many people belong to the appearance association. Although many people say that they don't care about other people's appearance, they all have a reputation in their hearts.

After falling in love with him, it seems that no matter how you look at him, he seems to be pleasing to the eye, and even the shortcomings are radiant.He likes to walk, but I am happy to accompany.But if I change someone, I will always complain.This may be the so-called "beauty is in the eye of the beholder". When love comes, people become blind.

I remember that after dinner that night, Li Xiangyu received a call from Liu Lei.Liu Lei has finally sent his mother to heaven and is about to return to Guangzhou.Li Xiangyu and I hurried from Taigucang to the train station.

I insisted on taking a taxi—I don't want him to work too hard, and we are not short of money, but he insisted on taking the taxi, and he spoke confidently: "The water flows long, and life has to be carefully calculated. This Liu Lei still It took two hours to get to Guangzhou. We went early and had to wait, so we might as well take the bus! The public transport in Yangcheng is very developed. No matter where you go, you can get there by backing up twice at most! You must not be used to taking the bus—— I have to fix your problem!"

I may have liked taking the bus since that day.

Once in the car, I took a window seat so I could enjoy the scenery along the way.

He has been working every day recently and seems to be lacking in sleep.Within a few minutes of getting in the car, he began to feel drowsy, his head like a chicken pecking at rice.I gently leaned his head on my shoulder, he woke up vigilantly, and sat upright again, a little embarrassed.

But within a few minutes, he started pecking at the rice again.This time, I didn't help him anymore, he was a little groggy, and within 10 minutes, he leaned on my shoulder and fell asleep.His breathing began to become even, and his sleep was okay, at least he didn't snore.

My heart is warm - the reason why I fell in love with taking the bus is probably because of this feeling.

Seeing that he was sleeping so soundly, I didn't call him when the bus passed the stop. He stood up in a rage when he was woken up by the driver at the end of the bus: "Are you a pig, you don't call me when you pass the stop! Really, Another two dollars wasted!"

"I'll pay you!" I still smiled.

I thought he would be angry all the time, but after scolding him, he became as cold as ice, without pain or itching.Only this time, he didn't dare to sleep anymore, even though I repeatedly hinted that he could take a nap.

At a quarter past nine in the evening, we arrived at Guangzhou Railway Station.Liu Lei has not arrived at the station yet.

"You wait here, I'll buy some bottles of water nearby!"

"It's in front, I'll buy it!"

"Gui here, wait for me! I'll take a few more steps over there!"

"Hey—" Before I could finish speaking, he had already left.If it were changed to today, I would definitely say that he is picky.But at that time, I thought he was very simple.Yes, he is a farm boy, and he was instilled with the concept of thrift and thrift since he was a child.I think it would be good for him to be in charge of the family's economic power.He should be able to keep the house in order!

The two of them were bored, so they found a corner and sat on the floor.The two of us back to back, looking at the pedestrians coming and going, suddenly felt a little lonely.

He asked: "If one day I decided to leave you, what would you do?"

On the same day, he accepted my confession; but on the same day, he talked about breaking up with me.In fact, I haven't thought about this problem at all, and I don't want to think about it.

"Why are you saying this all of a sudden? We're just getting started, why don't we think on the bright side? For example, we might still be together until the moment we die!"

"We live in the secular world, which is a problem left to us by the world! For example, when I graduate, I will face the problem of where to work; another example, how should we treat marriage. To be honest, I never thought Get past this question!"

Yes, we live in the mundane world. This is a difficult problem that time has left for me, us, and even comrades of our generation.The country does not recognize same-sex marriage, and not everyone has the ability to go abroad.Ever since, our love can only float in the wind.

He was right, his thinking was right!I like him even more!

He is thrifty and knows how to live; he is calm and good at thinking; he values ​​friendship and has flesh and blood... I really like him like this!This is the reason why I like him after I left him.But that day, my heart was heavy.He touches on a topic that I don't want to touch.

I just want to live in the fairy tale of love, but he crushed the bubble of hope.

"You shared your first love with me, let me share my first love with you too! Actually, I started thinking about the topic of marriage at that time, even though I was only in my third year of high school..."

In the third year of high school, he fell madly in love with a girl.The girl was very handsome, with black hair draped over her shoulders, and she always bumped when she walked, very cute.He always loves to lean on the railing and watch her walk past the teaching building.Once, she actually raised her head and smiled at him, that smile seemed to be enchanted, melting his heart.

During that time, his mind was full of her phantom, and he would call her by her name even in class.The third year of high school was the hardest year of high school, but he was completely out of shape, and his grades plummeted.The teacher asked him to talk to him many times, but it still didn't work.

It was a dusk, he found her and confessed to her.

"You know, I thought she would refuse, and I was very nervous, but she actually agreed to me! Since then, I have slowly returned to normal. Although I still go to her often, my spirit is no longer slack. We Encourage each other, and agree to take the entrance examination of Nankai University together!"

His grades have improved, but her grades have started to fluctuate, going up and down.She had always been an excellent student, and there had never been such an anomaly.Soon, her dad noticed it.Finally, her father came to school to find him.

"That day, it was pouring rain. Her father came to my classroom and called me out. It was a coincidence that she happened to ask me for something, so the three of us met unexpectedly. Her father came behind her back. So she was very angry, and she rushed into the rain without waiting for her father to speak. The rain was pouring, and it was thundering. Do you know how scary it is? I didn’t even take an umbrella and rushed into the rain. How can I persuade her? She also refused to go back to the classroom..."

He fell into a long silence and said for a long time: "That night, she asked someone to bring me a letter. There was only one sentence in the letter: Not all love will be blessed. After that, I never saw you again. It's her. I heard from my classmates that she transferred! Some people said that she asked to be transferred, and some said that her father forced her to transfer. Anyway, since that day, I have never seen her again. In the third year of high school I spent a year in that shadow, and my grades plummeted. I didn’t do well in the college entrance examination, and I didn’t want to repeat it, so I had to go to this kind of school to study in college!”

The dim streetlights stretched the figure so long, making him look so lonely.I think, in another city, there should be a girl who is as obsessed with this relationship as he is.Is she also fondly recalling that seemingly beautiful first love with the person she loves?

I want to say to this girl, thank you for loving him, thank you for giving him warmth, and thank you for hurting him.If it wasn't for her, I think, I would never have the chance to meet him in this life——I would definitely not have the strength to be admitted to Nankai, and I know myself.

"Not all love is blessed..." he murmured.

"Yes, not all love will be blessed, but escaping cannot solve the problem. Xiangyu, I will not run away like that girl, I will face it bravely. As long as you are by my side, I will Have the courage to face..."

"It's not that I don't have confidence in you, it's that I have no confidence in me!" He interrupted me. "You are brave enough to come out, but I don't even dare to think about it."

Yes, coming out is a difficult thing, and many people would not have the courage to come out if they were not selfish.It's not because I'm afraid of facing social pressure, but because I'm afraid that my loved ones will be hurt.Xiangyu is such a kind person, how can he not worry about his family?

I think, the reason why he held up an umbrella for Liang Yan that day was just because he touched the scene to make him fall in love, right?Such a kind man would never have the courage to come out!

"It's okay!" I turned around and hugged him from behind, "Isn't there such a slogan: don't ask for eternity, just ask for once. Xiangyu, be happy, let us live in the present!"

He gently struggled out of my arms: "Liu Lei is almost there, let's go, let's pick him up!"

When Liu Lei stood in front of us, I found that he had lost a lot of weight and was haggard.Li Xiangyu hugged him distressedly, patted him on the shoulder, and cried a little: "Good job, you made it through! There is no hurdle in life that you can't get over!"

Liu Lei seemed to be a child who had been wronged, and suddenly hugged Li Xiangyu and started crying. After crying, he suddenly scolded: "Xiangyu, what do you mean by money? Money, he is a bastard! You can get rich by attracting capital. Now it’s better. The terrazzo factory has moved in, the stainless steel factory has moved in, and the waste incineration plant has been built... But the environment is poor! The Environmental Protection Bureau came to our site a few years ago to conduct geological inspections. The harmful heavy metals in the water seriously exceed the standard and cannot be drunk! It has been several years since rectification and treatment, but the water quality has not improved. I think my mother’s illness must be related to this water. So, I called my dad to come Work in Guangzhou! We can’t afford to provoke this disaster, and we can’t hide from it? Xiangyu, take your uncle and aunt over, stay at home, I always feel that something will happen!”

yes!People are always short-sighted and only see what is in front of them, but the evil rewards come very late!It's late, but it will come!