Bandit Shi Xianyu

not understand.

I don't understand.

Why did it happen?

Pei Cangyu was always thinking, always thinking, but couldn't explain it.You see, why did this thing happen?Is it because Pei Yueshan is a bad person?There was never a sign, why did it happen?There must be a reason, for example, the werewolf was transformed because of the moon, so what is the opportunity for this to happen?Is it the wine you drank that day?Is it the smell of the shampoo you washed your hair that day?Is it Pei Cangyu who wears fluffy clothes?Did Pei Cangyu bump into him while he was sleeping?

There must be a reason.

It can't be like this all of a sudden.

He thought about it day after day, but he couldn't think of the reason, like an antelope hitting a maze wall, and almost broke the horn on its head.

Nothing really happened on Monday night, they were too loud and grandma woke up and she knocked on the door and asked what was wrong, what was missing?

Pei Yueshan pressed on him, turned his head to look at the door, and then looked straight into Pei Cangyu's eyes.

Pei Cangyu trembled all of a sudden, Pei Yueshan's expression was exactly the same as usual, unhurried, he didn't even care too much, his breath sprayed on Pei Cangyu's face, it was hot, at this time Pei Cangyu suddenly felt that Pei Yueshan was not human, He was a reptilian, a lizard, with a lizard face, cold eyes, and a slimy torso.

Pei Yueshan looked at him for a while, making sure that he would not jump up and beat him like before, then let him go, stood up to open the door, and told grandma to get out of bed.

Pei Cangyu sat up abruptly, and looking over from here, under Pei Yueshan's outstretched arms, he saw the dwarfed figure of the dwarf old man, who looked very old in the night, but as long as he looked at her son, he was always full of hope.

Pei Cangyu looked at her, grandma spoke in a low voice, she didn't know if Pei Cangyu was awake, and told her that Pei Cangyu was about to take the exam, so let's drink more milk in the evening, Pei Yueshan nodded in response, and sent the old lady away.

Pei Cangyu sat on the bed, watched Pei Yueshan close the door and came in, lifted the quilt to lie down, and continued to sleep.

Pei Cangyu sat on the bed with her head in her arms, unable to figure it out.

This week, he wondered if he should tell someone.

His first thought was the teacher—an adult, after all.

It was only when he walked into the office that he realized something was wrong. My sister was no longer his head teacher. The current head teacher was acting as an agent, teaching English, wearing thick glasses, showing impatience to take over the graduation class.

There was no one else in the office, so the English teacher asked him to come in and sit down, and continued to correct his homework, and looked at him: "What's wrong?"

Pei Cangyu looked at him without moving.

The English teacher corrected an 80-point paper. The score was not high, and the handwriting was scribbled. He secretly added pinyin to the composition, thinking that the teacher couldn't see it. It was really annoying.

He turned his head to look at Pei Cangyu, the child had a dull expression on his face, so he put down his pen, raised his legs, and picked up the hot tea on the table: "Because of grades?"

Pei Cangyu looked up at him, but said nothing.

"Your grades are like a roller coaster, going up and down for a while." He dug out Pei Cangyu's paper from the pile of papers, "You did a good job last time. Look at how you are empty this time. Let's read this paper." How many times have you done it? I didn't say, you have to memorize your answers. Look at the option hasdone..."

Pei Cangyu started to wander off.

"...Right, why didn't you write?" The teacher pushed his glasses, stretched out his hand and snapped his fingers in front of Pei Cangyu, "Look, you're still distracted."

Pei Cangyu came back to his senses and glanced at him.

The English teacher is very young, maybe 26 or [-], and all the money is spent on earphones. He is a young new teacher who can even raise the end of his speech. He always wears a bright red T-shirt. He is too responsible, but insensitive. At sea, I was still riding the waves on the pedals, so it was hard to tell if I had touched the water.

He supported Pei Cangyu's shoulder, and said earnestly: "It's normal to have ups and downs in grades. The key is to adjust your mentality. You think, you are still young, and nothing is really troublesome. When you grow up to my age, you will know that this is the time. How nice it is to be carefree and just study."

Pei Cangyu listened in a daze, stood up in a daze, said goodbye in a daze, and left.

He didn't know what to say, what to think, what to do, what he wanted, or anything.

Someone bumped into him in the corridor, that person apologized and ran away, Pei Cangyu didn't bother to turn his head to take a look, but a few people were making trouble in the corridor, running around the pillars, and one of them went around to Pei Cangyu's side. The younger schoolboy ran around Pei Cangyu, and for some reason, Pei Cangyu suddenly felt very irritable.He wanted them to stay away from him.

Suddenly very angry.

do not know why.

When I walked to Teacher Shang, Pei Cangyu couldn't go in either. The woman who opened the door was extremely aggressive. She was a weapon, and she was very different from the image that a psychologist should have. Pei Cangyu is no exception to lose trust in her and leave such a clinic.

She looked at Pei Cangyu, smiled and asked him how he could help.There was a hint of "solving the problem" in his eyes, but what Pei Cangyu brought was not necessarily a problem, he didn't even know what it was.Doctors in this field, if they specialize in "problem solving", will probably not be good doctors.

So Pei Cangyu continued to wander in the street, the school was too boring for him.

He saw a small church on Flute Street, low in front of the park, with a bench at the door and creepers on the walls.

He walked in in a strange way, and as soon as he entered the door, he saw the cross on the altar, the twisted and painful Son, and the glass paintings on the wall had weird light and shadow.He sat on a row of chairs in the back. The chairs were very cool. When he moved forward, he put his hands on the back of the front row, and he could make a prayer posture.

The blond-haired and blue-eyed priest is rolling up his sleeves, introducing to a couple of couples a special discount for holding a wedding here, and if there is any discount, grab it and earn it.The businessman priest pointed at the wedding package book with a cross, and wiped his sweat with his arm from time to time.There are other tourists in the church, most of whom are couples, who are choosing a place to get married. Only when they are really tempted will they go to the priest to negotiate the price.

Pei Cangyu was bored and stood up to leave.

He saw a familiar figure at the door, sweeping the floor.

Lu Mingban also noticed Pei Cangyu, raised his hand slowly, greeted him, then turned his head, thinking that if Pei Cangyu was here, the others should be there too.

Pei Cangyu walked towards him, pointed to his clothes: "Are you working here?"

Lu Ming nodded: "Twenty a day."

Pei Cangyu looked at the cross on Lu Mingban's neck: "Does this work?"

"Ah? What's the use of gods?" Lu Mingban stood up a little bit, and found that he was much taller than Pei Cangyu, so he arched his back again, "Business here is good recently."

Pei Cangyu turned her head and glanced at the priest running wildly on the road to commercialization: "Is he a priest?"

"You can pull it down." Lu Ming smiled, "It's built like this, as long as the Vatican doesn't find out, we can have a good time."

Pei Cangyu found that there was a big difference between Lu Mingban outside and at school. He turned his head and glanced at Lu Mingban, but Lu Mingban was obviously not used to being looked at seriously, so he shrank back and lowered his voice, as if just now The one who talks freely is not him at all.

Pei Cangyu kicked a stone on the ground, thinking about where to go next, Lu Ming spoke to him cautiously: "Anyway, it's all about practicality, praying for wealth and trusting the God of Wealth, praying for your son to believe in Guanyin, do you want to believe in Christ?"

Pei Cangyu shook his head: "Do you believe this?"

Lu Mingban also shook his head.

"Then this." He pointed to the cross on Lu Ming's neck.

Lu Ming picked it up and looked at it. The two letters BS were engraved on the back of the cross, because he believed in Jesus here on a whim some time ago, and then he wanted to laugh when he read the Bible, knowing that he couldn’t believe it anymore. a job. BS is Baishi. He turned around and found that Baishi was the only one who could be trusted. Baishi was unbelievably firm. Lu Ming felt that he lived up to his name and was as stable as a rock. Nothing could shake him.At least until Lu Mingban finds the next credible thing, he still intends to listen to Baishi.

Lu Ming took off the cross: "Do you want it? Three for ten yuan."

Pei Cangyu shook his head and left.

Pei Cangyu dangled around until he returned home at night without even taking his schoolbag.

It's amazing, sometimes he suddenly forgets what happened, communicates with people normally, there is no problem, but always at a special moment, such as when he feels a little relieved, or when he hears some good news or when someone praises him, or when he has expectations for something, or when it is very dark, or when the surroundings are very quiet, at these times, he will think of it, as if he is being followed, followed Until I give you a stick.

Pei Yueshan was flipping through the newspaper for dinner. He worked overtime recently and came back very late.Seeing Pei Cangyu come in, he moved the stool over, called him over for dinner, and said he bought milk for him.

The milk is fresh, grandma happily added, Pei Yueshan traveled far to buy it, and ordered it for a year.

Pei Cangyu sat down to drink expressionlessly, without looking at anyone.

Grandma blamed him for being ungrateful, but just like she couldn't say a word here, she couldn't control Pei Cangyu or Pei Yueshan anymore.

Pei Yueshan hurt his hand doing heavy work today, so he can only drink porridge with his left hand. While drinking porridge, he chatted with his grandma, and said to Pei Cangyu in a flat way in the middle, he planned to buy him a bigger desk. Lying on your stomach is not good for your spine.

Pei Cangyu slapped his hand, and couldn't even drink the milk.

what is this?

If it wasn't for Pei Cangyu's understanding of lizards, he would have thought that Pei Yueshan was a little bit sorry and reflected on such unreasonable things.Pei Cangyu felt that lizards would not reflect, and Pei Yueshan just lived according to his own ideas, because Pei Yueshan was a desperado and he didn't care about anything.He can be a thug at one moment and willing to be a good father at another.Pei Cangyu has no doubt that if a truck hits him now, no matter how dangerous it is, Pei Yueshan will jump over to save him.

It's disgusting.

Pei Cangyu poured out the milk, slammed the door and went back to the room.

He was startled when he saw another bed, two beds, two quilts.

—that means...

Pei Cangyu tossed and turned in disbelief, determined that they would sleep separately tonight, since most of the lingering pain had been dissipated because of this incident, Pei Cangyu even suddenly thought, it’s okay to just forget it, everyone can forget it , so be it, let me go.

He trembled a little, he didn't even feel that Pei Yueshan was a lizard anymore, he was almost grateful to Dade.It was terrible, he shuddered when he realized it.

After all, Pei Cangyu is a man, some things may be destined to rot in his stomach, as long as he doesn't mention it, no one will ever know about it, and if no one knows about it, then just pretend it never happened.

That's it, what else?

Are you going to sue Pei Yueshan?How can it be?If he goes to court, everyone will know what happened to Pei Cangyu, and he will be defined as a "victim" from now on, let alone this kind of relationship, how can he live?Can't live like this?Pei Cangyu has never seen such a person, but he has heard the discussion, those people who live in the discussion forever.No, no, how can it be.Can't say it, it really happened.

Pei Cangyu sat on the chair, biting his fingernails, he thought, it's almost over, there will never be any more, so don't talk about it.

People have to be wronged in this world, it doesn't matter, just pretend it never happened.

Yes, Pei Cangyu can do it.

He lay down on the bed with this idea in mind, and Pei Yueshan fell asleep on another bed.

In the dark room, Pei Cangyu still couldn't sleep peacefully. He told himself over and over again that it was over, and advised himself not to think about it, just treat it as a bite, and people still have to grow up.

He kept his eyes open for a few seconds, unable to sleep, and honestly, angry.

Just angry.

The idea of ​​"he and Pei Yueshan will die together" is always particularly obvious in the middle of the night, let's be honest, Pei Cangyu can't forgive him at all.

He gritted his teeth with red eye circles, to be honest, he just hated it.

Want to die, or he will die.

Felt disgusting.

Can't stand it.

The bed over there moved.

Pei Cangyu was startled, he didn't dare to move, he felt something heavy came to his bed and suddenly sank beside him.

Pei Cangyu collapsed at this moment.

He started crying uncontrollably, kept crying, couldn't stop, he couldn't fight, so what about anger?He wanted to vomit, but there was nothing he could do. He felt that he was pitiful, useless, and should die.

He backed away from the wall while crying, he stretched out his arms and pushed the tall man, he cried and said, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I was wrong... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

I don't know why I said that, I don't know what's the use of saying it, I'm too scared, I'm too desperate, please beg him.

Pei Yueshan stopped in front of him and said, "Keep your voice down."

Pei Cangyu lowered his voice, and continued to apologize one after another. He huddled in the corner, his hands and feet were huddled together, trembling, he didn't dare to look up, and grabbed his clothes fiercely, apologizing mechanically, his face full of tears. tears.

Pei Yueshan looked at him for a while, then turned and went back to his bed.

Pei Cangyu watched the shadow cast by the man on him disappear quickly, like an amnesty, he hurriedly put the quilt on himself, opened his tearful eyes, and said to the man, "Thank you...thank you..."

Pei Yueshan looked up at him on that bed, looked at him with complicated eyes, lit up, smoked a cigarette, and said to him: "Go to sleep."

Pei Cangyu hurriedly got into the quilt and forced herself to close her eyes.