Bandit Shi Xianyu

Pei Cangyu didn't realize it until the third day after it happened.

The incident happened in the middle of the night on Thursday, and from a certain moment, Pei Cangyu has been stuck in an erratic state, as if stepping on cotton, his face seemed to be engraved with surprise, his eyes were wider than usual, with a kind of Trance feeling.

To be specific, Pei Cangyu couldn't describe exactly what happened on Thursday. He opened his eyes until his face was pressed against the pillow. He could smell the sun on the pillow at noon, and he could hear the bed creaking slightly. Hey, he was surrounded by people, his arms were bent and supported by his head, he didn't close his eyes, his ears were ringing for a long time, he even thought it was a dream, because he was too conscious of what was going on .

He clearly heard the heavy breathing, which subtly coincided with the frequency of the bed shaking, and he guessed that it also coincided with the frequency of his head hitting the bed board, but he couldn't remember.

It seems that the overly simple mind closed his senses almost instantly, until everything was over, he lay on the bed with his eyes open, looking up at the ceiling, where there were the golden stars that Pei Yueshan had drawn for him when he was a child , After so many years, the paint has fallen off.

Then he kept his eyes open until dawn.

Pei Yueshan got up at six o'clock, he didn't look at Pei Cangyu, put on his clothes, and went out, Pei Cangyu heard him chatting with his grandma, eating, going to work, grandma told him to be careful on the road, and then closed the door, grandma finally regained The son of life was in a good mood and hummed a tune.

Pei Cangyu sat up stiffly, yes, if nothing happened, today would be a day that everyone would be happy, as if it was the beginning of a happy life.

hurts a little.

Pei Cangyu thought for a moment, he moved his legs over, stepped on the ground, stood up, turned his head and glanced at the sheets, there were blood and messy things on them.

So he was a little dazed, what is this?

Pei Cangyu stood still, staring at the sheets, feeling that his mind was not in his own body, he calmly seemed to be watching other people's affairs, and his mind was saying: "Ah, what is this?" It seemed that he was discussing a paragraph The plot on TV, Pei Cangyu knew that he still felt like he was dreaming until now.

Grandma knocked on the door to come in, at this moment Pei Cangyu grabbed the quilt to cover the blood and mess with a speed that she didn't even realize.

Grandma urged him to go to dinner as usual, and asked if the grades came out today, why are your eye circles so dark, did you stay up late again, I said on TV, staying up late is good for children...

Pei Cangyu stared at her blankly, speechless.

Grandma's words stopped abruptly. She walked up worriedly and patted Pei Cangyu's head: "What's wrong? Have a fever?"

Pei Cangyu pushed her hand away: "I'll change my clothes."

How miraculous, his voice was normal, for a moment, Pei Cangyu even thought that if grandma discovered his abnormality, he could jump off the cotton, jump to the ground, and hand over the demon in the dark.

But grandma didn't find out.

She obediently left.

Pei Cangyu continued to stand on the cotton, took a shower, and changed his clothes. His forehead was only a little red, but his back was in pain, and the pain was getting worse and worse, as if he was gradually being felt.

He tossed the sheets into the spinning washing machine, folded the quilt, ate like nothing happened, and went to school.

He came to the school in a daze, got the papers distributed, and finally all the grades came out. He was the tenth in the class. This kind of grade made his friends more excited than him. They walked around Pei Cangyu, holding He pointed at the paper, and was obviously very happy for Pei Cangyu, but he insisted that the teacher deducted less points, and then talked nonsense all over the place.

Baishi was also very strange today, he was extremely restless, he kept shaking his legs, holding and releasing his hands, releasing and holding them again, I don't know what he was anxious about, didn't he have a good Thursday night?

Pei Cangyu still talked to them normally, and even made jokes. After a certain joke about Leather Dog was told, everyone laughed together, and Pei Cangyu laughed too.But this feeling is like standing on cotton and watching yourself laughing with others, like your soul is out of your body.He passed this thought to Pei Cangyu below.

So suddenly Pei Cangyu heard his own laughter, he stopped suddenly, and then thought, what's wrong, what are you doing?

Wanting to be suddenly dragged into the dark clouds, he was wet all over, and an inexplicable, huge shadow suddenly hit him, and he was sluggish in an instant, everything was nothingness, laughing and talking, he broke out in cold sweat , felt very painful, and in such a sunny weather, his whole body was about to shatter.

But at home it's business as usual.

Of course Pei Cangyu didn't sleep on Friday night. He lay straight on the bed, staring at the ceiling. He heard the sound of Pei Yueshan falling asleep. He didn't know how long he had kept his eyes open. Finally, he felt a little sleepy. He closed his eyes. And because Pei Yueshan turned over, Pei Cangyu rolled over from the bed as if struck by lightning, and hurriedly crawled towards the distance, bumping his head against the foot of the table, bleeding out. He turned around to see that Pei Yueshan hadn't woken up yet. , just turned over in his sleep.

Pei Cangyu sat for a while, then slowly stood up, and lay back down.

It was Monday morning when he was thrown off the cotton.

This day Pei Yueshan said that he would change him to a desk lamp, the one that protects his eyes, but Pei Cangyu just nodded.

It has to be said that Pei Yueshan has not changed, what he was before is what he is now, without any ambiguous eyes or superfluous words, he seems to have completely forgotten it, and continues to demand himself as a "good father".It was also because he was too calm that Pei Cangyu's understanding of this matter was delayed for a few days.

But the one who should come will still come.

It was this Monday morning, the speakers in the community played a morning exercise song, the old men and women walked in twos and threes to exercise, the students huddled together to read the newly bought cards while walking, the birds chirped on the telephone poles, and the cats were on the edge of the wall Walking on the road, the dog rolled over the ground, the morning breeze brought the fragrance of grass, and the smell of camellia in the distance, and the people passing by on bicycles beeped and rang the bell to let Pei Cangyu get out of the way.

Vibrant morning.

Standing at the intersection, Pei Cangyu suddenly thought.

"Isn't that just being raped?"

His world turned upside down in an instant.

He is not a fool, he learned it in school, he read it on the computer, he even read it in the legal news, he knows it now—no, actually he knew it then.

He started sweating again, and it occurred to him that if you had resisted then, things would have been different.He almost threw up at the thought, because he didn't resist, his own cowardice brought this kind of thing, didn't it.

The traffic light turns red and then green.

Pei Cangyu discovered another thing, you see, if you hadn't washed the sheets and kept the evidence, you can sue him, that you're working for a tiger.

He could barely stand, leaned against the pole, couldn't believe what he had done, he seemed to only do wrong things, superfluous things, stupid things...

more importantly……

why?

Before this incident, even after this incident, there was never any sign that Pei Yueshan wanted to do this.

why?

why?

There must be a reason for doing something like this.

Otherwise, how can humans understand it?

Pei Cangyu was literally trudging to school that day, he had no strength, he was eaten by regret, he felt that if he refused and made a big fuss, things would not be like this now, he was no longer standing on cotton, he Falling into the water now.He thought inappropriately, even if it happens again, even if he can't beat him, even if he repeats it again, at least it proves that resistance is useless, then it's not Pei Cangyu's fault that night, and he won't hate himself so much.

Compared to Pei Yueshan, Pei Cangyu hated herself even more at this time.

He couldn't move, he had no energy, and the realization of what happened broke him more than the fact that it happened.

What was even more frightening was that he began to gradually recall the details of that night. Apart from the smell on the pillow and the slight creaking sound, there were more terrifying things, and now he remembered.

There were a lot of people who came to see Baishi, and they came together to speak loudly. Pei Cangyu lay on the table restlessly, covering her ears with her arms, listening to the noisy voices coming and going.

His friends also came, talking about topics that Pei Cangyu was not interested in at all, laughing endlessly.

In the morning as well as in the afternoon.

It almost drove Pei Cangyu crazy.

It's annoying, it's annoying, it's disgusting.

I want to move.

They were too noisy, and the leather dog had to move his hands and feet. By the time Pei Cangyu realized it, he had already cursed.The silly leather dog looked like he thought he had done something wrong, and said nothing. The group of people fell silent, unable to speak even the plane, and dispersed after the class bell rang.

Pei Cangyu wanted to open his mouth to say something, but when the words came to his mouth, he felt boring. He still had a lot of bitterness to chew, and he didn't have time to meddle in other people's affairs.never mind.never mind.whatever.

He lay on the table again, his head was dizzy, and he didn't know what he wanted.

It's night again, and I have to go home again.

When he was at the door, Pei Cangyu seemed to suddenly know what he wanted, and he wanted to erase it.It's not talking clearly, it's not revealing, it's not apologizing, it's not the law, it's just erasing, so that this thing never happened, and Pei Cangyu never has to go through it, especially this battle of the mind.

Pei Cangyu pushed open the door, grandma stood up, said loudly that he came back too late, and then went to make him a hot meal, while his father was taking out the old lamp and replacing it with a new one.

He passed by Pei Cangyu, turned his head to look at him, and said in a normal tone, "I picked a blue one, the boss said it can prevent myopia." Then he went out and brushed Pei Cangyu's shoulder.

Pei Cangyu suddenly became angry, what is this?Oh shit.

He snatched the desk lamp from Pei Yueshan's hand, and threw it with a wave of his arm. The desk lamp slammed downstairs with a bang and shattered to the ground. The aunt who passed by was startled, raised her head and shouted: "Who is it? Who is it!"

Pei Yueshan glanced at him: "You almost hit someone." After saying that, he went downstairs to find someone, and talked to them before the aunt got into trouble.

Grandma ran out anxiously when she heard the voice: "What's the matter? What's the matter?"

Pei Cangyu went to serve the meal without saying a word, then sat down at the table in a lifeless manner, and fed it mechanically.

Grandma leaned against the door worriedly, worried that her son, who had been absent for many years, would not cause any trouble. She wiped her hands with her apron, looked down on her tiptoes, and pulled her body into a curved noodle.

Pei Cangyu looked at her. Recently, her spirits are getting better and better. When people have happy events, she is refreshed. She wholeheartedly hopes to come back. Although she is no longer the same as before, she accepts everything.

Accept everything?

Pei Cangyu stared at grandma, and he broke out in a cold sweat again. He suddenly had a thought, the sound of him hitting the head of the bed that night?Did she hear it?

Pei Cangyu looked at her anxious figure, her thin and lonely legs, and wondered if she knew, but she pretended not to know, she chose Pei Yueshan...

Cold sweat broke out all over his body, he looked down at the bowl of noodle soup and felt that the floating oil was greasy, disgusting as hell.

He got up and went to the kitchen and poured out the bowl of rice.

At night, he was lying on the bed dry, with his eyes open, and Pei Yueshan was sleeping peacefully next to him, as if nothing had happened.

Why?

why?

Pei Cangyu felt that there were ants crawling on him layer by layer, otherwise why would he always break out in cold sweat?It was so disgusting, Pei Yueshan's breathing sounded like thunder, making Pei Cangyu unable to sleep.

In keeping with the sound of the ticking second hand, it was like overwhelming mountains and seas, one wave after another, the sky was dark, the sea and sky changed color, he was seasick, and he felt nauseous.

During the long torture, Pei Cangyu jumped up suddenly, as if a string in his brain was broken, he couldn't control it, he stepped on Pei Yueshan's face, and strangled his neck like crazy.

He only had one thought, since that kind of thing happened, he and Pei Yueshan must die.

Pei Yueshan woke up soon, he had acquired extraordinary acuity in prison, he grabbed Pei Cangyu's hand, turned over and pushed Pei Cangyu down, stuffed the rag from the table into Pei Cangyu's mouth, Use the little wooden soldier he made for Pei Cangyu before to stop his mouth, and then break his leg.

Pei Cangyu understood now, at least he solved one thought that he always lingered.

Even if he resisted, it was really useless.

So at this level, he shouldn't blame himself.

But the idea is always not to let him go, insisting on jumping out to torture him.

This time he was thinking that if he hadn't started the dispute, maybe it wouldn't have happened.