Bandit Shi Xianyu

"I heard the news yesterday, in a taxi." Baishi stared at Teacher Shang.

Teacher Shang yawned, and stretched out his long fingers to cover it. Because the morning sun was too thin, and it shone into the office sporadically, that hand looked extremely pale, with a ghostly feeling.Teacher Shang also noticed it herself. She took down her hands and rubbed them together, showing a rosy look: "You didn't sleep last night?" She pointed to her eye circles, indicating that Baishi had serious dark circles.

"No." Baishi responded casually, and then talked about his own topic, "but what I want to talk about is the news."

Teacher Shang nodded: "Yes."

"There was a taxi radio broadcast, and a woman called in and said her five-year-old daughter came home one day and said, 'I don't like the teacher's lollipop, it's too thick', and the lady said she suddenly I understood what happened. Her husband is a policeman. She said that if she told him, he would not let the teacher go with his temper. The problem came. Their family is just an ordinary family. Ordinary jobs, what if the male teacher has nowhere to go, is fired, and entangles them in their house? Even if they are locked up for a period of time, what if they don’t let them go after they come out. The man’s job is the police, so it’s not so easy to change jobs Is it necessary to move? If you don’t move, things will get serious, and everyone will know the girl’s name. If you pass it on, how will she go to school in the future... She talked a lot In the end, she said that she silently transferred her daughter to another school without telling anyone, and she felt very guilty about it, so she wanted to confide in it.”

Teacher Shang finished listening: "And then?"

Bai Shi frowned: "She asked if she was wrong, do you think she was wrong?"

"I find it difficult to judge."

"Look, for one party, it is necessary to bear the insult and worry about the risk. It is wrong to go any way. What is the reason for this?"

Teacher Shang looked at him: "So this party is the victim."

Baishi shook his head: "It's too simple. The victim has suffered too much. What punishment can match such violence? After all, there is no reason for violence, and there is a reason for punishment. From this point alone, there is no punishment that can match it." Outrage."

Teacher Shang narrowed his eyes: "What do you want to say?"

"Look, murder and rape/violence both ruin a person's life. Why is murder punishable by death but not rape/violence?"

Teacher Shang poured himself a cup of tea: "Actually, not all murders will be punished by death. There are various clauses, so we cannot generalize..."

"That's not what I meant." Baishi interrupted her, "I'm talking about these concepts, not a specific case."

Teacher Shang sighed: "It is cruel for the law not to discuss individual cases. In this sense, you are even more cruel." She immediately put down her teacup, "I advise you not to go into a dead end, objectively speaking, don't be too..."

"It's okay to be objective, I can't do it." Baishi put his schoolbag on his back, "I should go to school, sorry to disturb you so early."

Teacher Shang smiled: "You're welcome."

Baishi put on her schoolbag and left her office.

Teacher Shang was right, he didn't sleep well.It's not so much that I didn't sleep well, it's better to say I didn't sleep.

When Pei Cangyu ran away last night, Baishi picked up the forgotten book. Every plot in the book, every passionate dialogue, every time the protagonist pretended to be emotional about life, made people vomit. Recommending it to classmates with a high profile is simply campus bullying.

But that's secondary, and important, to that man.

Baishi knew that he had to do something, and a driving force that he didn't even know told him to do something, otherwise Pei Cangyu would be in too much pain.

He was standing in the bedroom last night, listening to the ticking of the clock, when there was a scream in the music he was playing. Although it was just for the sake of composing, he thought of Pei Cangyu at that moment.

He walked around the room, biting his fingernails, and he promised Pei Cangyu that if he wanted to do something, he had to do something, otherwise he would suffer to death.

He reluctantly took a shower, lay on the bed, turned off the light, tried to sleep first in the dark night, and discussed with Pei Cangyu what they could do tomorrow morning.As soon as he closed his eyes, he saw Pei Cangyu's broken expression, and he opened them suddenly in pain, unable to close them again.

That does not work.

too weird.

why?

Would Pei Cangyu also ask why?Like all the people with such events?Baishi sat up and kept searching for relevant news. The public opinion was still on the side of the majority, but this was only exposed.In those anonymous submissions, the victims were often victims of acquaintances.Because we know each other, so forget it?

Baishi's body was always hot, he lifted the quilt and sat up, carefully flipping through the manuscripts.In many cases, the victims end up with low self-esteem and depression. They will go through a long period of self-reflection, waste time, spend more time with themselves, and try to restore themselves to be the same as before.

Baishi thought, Pei Cangyu's grades have plummeted, obviously he has worked hard, but it's no good, if Baishi is just upset and his grades fluctuate, Pei Cangyu will be heartbroken.

Shiraishi flipped through, hoping to see the wishes of the victims, such as what to do to help them.Victims often choose to forgive-it can't be called forgiveness, but they really can't do anything. ——For them, maybe not seeing each other again is the best ending, and only then can they comfort themselves and earn themselves out of the mud.

And that's often hard, takes a lot of time, and they don't seem to get better until many years later.But it doesn't.

Baishi raised his head, was it hopeless?

What should I do?

Baishi didn't know why he cared so much, but he knew very well that if Pei Cangyu was in pain, then Baishi would also feel pain.He couldn't sleep at all, when he thought of Pei Cangyu opening his eyes in panic.

He stood up and walked up and down again, leaning against the wall and chewing his fingernails.He hadn't felt this way for a long time, this sense of being out of control that he couldn't do anything, he thought he had grown up, but he didn't realize that all his tricks were petty tricks until he met a real bastard, and a real bastard had no logic.

Baishi sat on the ground and continued to read those submissions.

Maybe because Shiraishi himself is too pessimistic, he can only read the pain. What they said "I got better later" is not good at all in Shiraishi's view. They just heal themselves as if they were injured at the beginning. They have no way, no reason It can help them understand what happened to them, and it destroys the foundation of being a human being.

Shiraishi continued to turn the pages, but stopped at a certain sentence.

"I saw him again during the festival haha, I didn't expect to see him again. He was going downstairs at that time, and I was thinking in my heart, fall and die, really, fall to death, and then it will be fine, I really I'm not a bad person, I just think there's no way to do this, I can't believe that the world is like this. Later, as expected, it relapsed, alas, I'd better avoid it during the holidays."

Looking at this passage, Baishi fell into deep thought.

***

Pei Cangyu slowly picked up his schoolbag, he didn't want to go to school today.

No reason, just want to go for a walk.

Before he took a few steps, Pei Yueshan came out from behind.Because of working overtime yesterday, Pei Yueshan can go later today.He grabbed Pei Cangyu's schoolbag: "Which way are you going?"

Pei Cangyu turned around with her head down, and followed Pei Yueshan.

"Are you going to skip school?" Pei Yueshan took a cigarette and put it in his mouth.

Pei Cangyu didn't speak.

Pei Yueshan stopped talking and followed him silently.

There was a hangover office worker on the road, who had just sobered up and was walking staggeringly. When he passed by them, he turned his head to Pei Cangyu for some reason and yelled "Hey".

Pei Cangyu was startled—he's been too sensitive recently—and moved back a bit. The man got excited and reached out to grab Pei Cangyu's hair.

Pei Yueshan stopped the man's hand and threw the cigarette on his face: "Fucking stupid/pussy!"

Then he rolled up his sleeves and gave him a beating, and the men who were drinking with the man rushed over and joined the melee. Pei Yueshan taught them one by one, and then spit on each of them. , then pulled Pei Cangyu away.

Pei Cangyu watched from the side, feeling very dazed.

Then he found that Pei Yueshan's arm had been scratched with a key by them, and blood was bleeding out.Pei Cangyu saw it, but he didn't say anything.

After bleeding for a long time, Pei Yueshan finally found out.He took off his clothes, wiped them carelessly, then tied them to the next door, and asked Pei Cangyu with a cigarette in his mouth, "Which way are you going?"

Pei Cangyu said, "I'll go by myself."

Pei Yueshan waved his hands: "No, what if you don't go to school?"

Pei Cangyu didn't want to talk, Pei Yueshan followed him in silence.

When he was approaching the school gate, Pei Yueshan suddenly grabbed Pei Cangyu's schoolbag belt, Pei Cangyu didn't turn his head, he didn't want to move.

Pei Yueshan's voice was very low, he said: "Pei Cangyu, I will definitely go to hell anyway, but you won't." He let go of Pei Cangyu's schoolbag, patted it, "Go to school."

Having said that, he turned and left.

Pei Cangyu stood there in a daze.There are always times like this, people can't even hate freely, I really don't understand why, how can I do whatever I want, and switch roles freely, so what is it when everyone else is?

Pei Cangyu felt even more disgusted, Pei Yueshan might as well be a bastard all the time, don't try to return to normal, it would make Pei Cangyu feel more relaxed.

He doesn't want to go to school.

When he turned around, he saw Bai Shi, who was still haunted, standing at the school gate looking at him: "Where are you going?"

Pei Cangyu glared at him impatiently: "Why are you everywhere?"

"I can find you wherever you are."

Pei Cangyu bypassed him and wanted to leave.

Baishi stretched out his hand to pull his schoolbag, Pei Cangyu took a few steps back, and swayed softly a few times, Baishi got too close, almost hugging Pei Cangyu.

But Pei Cangyu didn't move, because he was very tired, had no strength, and didn't want to move.

Baishi's arms almost wrapped around him, and he could smell Pei Cangyu's neck when he lowered his head, and his broken hair brushed against Baishi's face.

Pei Cangyu buried her head in Baishi's arm as soon as she lowered her head. Baishi had the distant and lofty fragrance of their Bai family on her body, but now it only smelled familiar.Pei Cangyu took a deep breath and felt that Baishi seemed to tremble.

Pei Cangyu patted Baishi's arm: "Let go."

Baishi paused for a while, let go of his hand, and watched Pei Cangyu walk away from him.