REMIX

I saw Fei Na mouthing "I'm sorry" to me with guilt and innocence.

However, the words have already been uttered, and it is hard to take back the water. I don't blame her for saying it so smoothly, because it is the truth. The two of us have already cooked and cooked rice.

I sighed.

In another two years—maybe it won't be two years, and sooner or later he will have to face Xia Du.Paper can't contain fire.

At that time, could I tell her so easily, calmly and without pressure?

"Why."

I turned to face He Gu who was bewildered, and raised my hands in surrender. "It's my boyfriend."

"……Who?"

"Gong Junye."

This meal is bound to be tough.

When I went downstairs, I received a call from him. It was not long after dark, and through the window in the corridor, I could see the lively night market next to the street, brightly lit.

He said, are you done?

I said um, I was going to have dinner together.

Fei Na and He Gu both stopped and waited for me. As soon as no one spoke, the voice-activated lights in the stairwell went out. Fei Na leaned against the window glass and lit a cigarette. Reflecting He Gu's face, I saw him smile.

It may be because of the stingy light, I feel that the smile is a bit astringent and disappointed.

"Let him come over."

I glanced at him and said into the microphone, you come too, just the four of us.

The three of us were waiting for Gong Junye at the intersection downstairs, and Fei Na deliberately stood between me and He Gu with a cigarette in her mouth. She felt sorry for me and didn't want to cause conflicts, as if she was afraid that we would fight.In fact, women worry more than men, and there is no such thing as getting angry between us. When I learned to sing with He Gu, no matter how stupid, stubborn or hopeless, I never saw him lose his temper.

Gong Junye walked up from the gentle slope at the exit of the underground parking lot, came to me through the night, and greeted the two of them quite naturally while holding my shoulder.

He Gu didn't look uncomfortable at all, it was the same as usual, it was time to joke about it, Gong Junye even patted his stomach and said that Boss He had lost weight, and he couldn't be called fat in the future.The two of them chattered across the food stall's greasy table covered with plastic sheets. From time to time, they leaned over with their arms around my armchair, pointed at the menu in my hand and asked me what I ordered.In huge contrast to his emphasis on appearance, he is not picky at all. I learned from the days I lived with him that he can eat very frankly no matter whether he is in a Michelin three-star restaurant or in a smoky black-hearted restaurant. It is also a big heart.

This big-hearted master remained calm when He Gu raised his glass.

"The two of them didn't tell us that they were together. It's not interesting."

One of the chopsticks in my hand was not clenched and almost fell to the ground. Gong Junye wrapped my hand gently. I didn't dare to look up. From the corner of my eye, I saw him take a bottle of Heineken and touch the mouth of the bottle with Fatty He. , with a smile on the corner of his mouth, "It's for everyone's good not to show affection."

"I'll give you what you can," He Gu finished the paper cup and changed it to a bottle, stretched out his hand to fill up my cup, and drank the remaining half bottle in one gulp, "Take a good breath for us, ah, a circle It hurts for everyone to watch them grow up."

"Didn't I also watch him grow up?"

I drank the glass of wine and loosened my clenched palm a little bit so that his fingers could be embedded in it, as if a drowning person suddenly surfaced and his breathing calmed down.

After three rounds of drinking, I felt a burden on my bladder, so I stood up and went to the restroom upstairs in the restaurant. Why did you come with me? The two of them stood for a while at the handwashing place on the second floor, facing a window where the wind was blowing .Opposite is a department store that has been around for some years. It opened here when I was a teenager, and the surrounding business district has developed too fast. Now it is not as prosperous as it used to be, and a few counters are deserted to make a living. , Two lonely lanterns hung at the door.

I didn't take the initiative to stir up the topic, and for some reason I didn't make a sound. After a while, I handed me a cigarette, the brand he smoked most.I hesitated for a second, lowered my head and picked up the filter, and he switched hands to light it for me, and I said thank you.

"I remember the first time I gave you a cigarette, you didn't answer it, you said you didn't smoke."

He lit a cigarette for himself, and paused for a moment while speaking, "It's been five or six years in a blink of an eye, and we've all changed."

It took me a long time to take a sip, and I could vaguely hear the voices of Fei Na and Gong Junye chatting downstairs, as if punching.

I said, yes.

"I don't object to you liking men. Blessings should be given." He blew out a smoke ring, "Who am I? I'm a master, a friend, and I'm not obstructing your position."

"Does your mother know about this?"

I dusted the cigarette ash into the sink and ran the water to flush it. "No, I didn't dare to tell her."

"It's not to the point of alarming her yet," I smiled and shook my head. "So far, it's only my business. But don't worry, I won't fight her for this. I have to be filial. I will try my best." Find a gentle way to convince her."

"Who you fall in love with is indeed your business alone. You are right. Who has the right to interfere in the world of two people?"

"But have you ever wondered what your mother is thinking?"

"My son likes men, so he can't marry a woman and can't have children. That's all. We can't wrong our children to spend their lives with someone they don't love. It's too cruel. But what kind of man does my son find? After all, with a woman It's different, what should I do if that person bullies him, what should I do if I talk badly? If someone dumps us, can we still find a girl to marry? Or find another man? Is this the way it is in this life? "

I didn't speak.

"Yes, I dare say she is willing to suffer any hardship for you. She is your mother, and she has suffered so much for pulling you up so much." He continued, "Then you can just watch her suffer for you in order to fulfill you." We can't control other people's mouths, and we can't stop the public opinion of the whole society. The neighbors ask everyone, hey, is your son gay?"

"I don't blame you for being selfish."

"It's just that compared with her, you will always be an ignorant child."

Unfortunately, this time, he can no longer teach me.

When we returned to the dinner table, we had almost eaten everything. There were a dozen or so wine bottles piled up in a mess under the table. Jun Ye's chest said, "Do you mind if I borrow your baby to sing? There are two or three more this year! Don't you mind? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Gong Junye: "..."

I pursed my lips and said, Sister Fei Na, I just remembered that I have to go back tonight, so I don't bother you to practice with me, I will contact you tomorrow morning.

Fei Na nodded understandingly, looked at Gong Junye and me, waved her hands, "Okay, it's fine."

After Gong Junye went to the parking lot to pick up the car, I said to the two of them, first of all, thank you Teacher He and Sister Fei Na, thanks to your tolerance all the time.

"This child...should be...all friends." They both panicked when they saw me bow suddenly, "Then, where are you going back later?"

I said go home.

I miss Xia Jie a little bit.