REMIX

We stayed there that night until it was a little bit faster, and a car full of people listened to the midnight radio on the car stereo, jolting back like sleepwalking.

I was sitting in the co-pilot, and after the excitement of playing around, there were waves of drowsiness. I was blown by the warm wind in the car, and I couldn't keep my eyes open.Why did he really doze off halfway through the drive, Li Qianlan and Qiao Xinxin sat side by side in the back seat and almost fell asleep, so Xia Jie, who was relatively more energetic, drove instead.

Then He Gu just sat in the back, leaned on the back of the seat, and within a minute, he snored like thunder, directly blowing Li Qianlan out of the seat, "I'm relying on an earthquake!?"

Qiao Xin pulled his head over and smoothed his hair expressionlessly.

Now all of us are not sleepy.

There were still people on the street at this point, and most of them were nightclubs closing or the carnival was over. We parked the car at the bar, woke up for some reason, and then went home.

The holiday of doing nothing passed in the blink of an eye, and we went back to school on the sixth day of the Lunar New Year for self-study.The heavy snow fell for several days, almost crushing most of the severe winter.The classroom was well-heated, and we watched the falling snow outside through the glass. After class, we went to the playground to spoil the white snow, and it was covered with another layer within one class.

Taking advantage of the lack of class in the evening, I went back to the bar and started working in the bar. In fact, it was because I hadn’t sung for a long time. This is like a craft that cannot be neglected. It must be reviewed after a period of time to maintain the proficiency of singing skills. .Li Qianlan learned to compose during the vacation, and used it to write lyrics for me and Qiao Xinxin during the break at the bar. He Gu still hung out with us, and came over to mix in when business was not busy, and even brought out musical instruments to play and sing at the same time , Sometimes it is responsible for booing, or an order to drive us to work.

The night before the official start of school, I called Gong Junye, pretending to be careless about his recent situation.In fact, I miss him, and I don't know where to start.For me, "taking the initiative" is already the biggest breakthrough. I still want to try to do something more for a person, whether it is considerate or accommodating, even if it is just to listen to his voice and ask him what he thinks.

——Why did you kiss me that day?

After all, I didn't ask this question. On the premise of not being sure whether the other party will tolerate me, the degree of difficulty is too high, so I dare not challenge myself.

But I also feel that we actually have the answer in our hearts, but we just didn't come to the right time to confess.He is an adult with his own stories and experiences, and most of them I can't understand in a short time.I can't judge others by myself, so I can only wait quietly.

It's like waiting for myself to grow up enough to be worthy of him.

In March, life is on track.On the first Friday of school, the school organized a mobilization meeting. Parents, as observers, watched a group of sick senior high school students stand under the red flag and swear an oath that they would drain their blood for the college entrance examination. The last drop of youth.

This scene terrified my mother. Sensational lines such as "As long as you don't die, learn from the dead" deeply stimulated this young mother. She hugged me in front of all the parents of our class. Hold me, forcibly protect her son, who is a head taller than her, in her arms, crying weakly and desperately, "This is so fucking crazy! We won't take the college entrance examination, okay baby! Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!"

Parents and teachers around: "..."

I comforted her with a blank face, "Mom, this is an exam, not going to participate in a suicide bombing."

She still refused to let go, "I don't! This is the only son I have! And he picked it up!"

"..."

To be honest, I was also under a lot of pressure.

One night when I was working on the problem until twelve o'clock in the night, I suddenly ran out of the house like a ghost, ran around the street where our community is located to the main road and ran back, sweating, took off my coat and covered my head , wearing a vest and sitting under the street lamp until dawn, pretending nothing happened, bought breakfast and went home, took a shower, and went to school.

What makes people painful but difficult to vent is ignorance and powerlessness about the future.My grades are likely to be like this. It is almost enough to be on the edge of the cliff of the heavy-duty score line. If I accidentally relax, I will fall and fall to pieces.

Xia Jie used her own personal experience as a negative teaching material, telling me that she also struggled to get into the university, and she was still a book, which was very remarkable in her time. "However, after I went to college, I only discovered two things. First, my income was not proportional to my hard work, and I didn't get what I wanted; second, the teacher lied to me for three years. One day, Jinyi returned Township, don’t get fucked by me when you walk at night.”

I:"……"

"So," she sat on the floor in a white men's shirt and denim shorts, took a puff of cigarette between the two sentences, and shook the ash: "You need to correct your mentality and observe the essence. The idea instilled in you is only to motivate you to survive the past few months. It is equivalent to adrenaline. Before that, it is better to set a goal for yourself. The program of "going to college" should be included in your goal, which is "I want to go to college for this goal" instead of "my goal is to go to college. Pants go', I want you to figure out the difference."

"Never mind if I'm disappointed. I'll never be disappointed in you."

I looked at her and couldn't remember the content of my heart-to-heart conversation with her before. I just felt how lucky it was to be picked up by this woman 12 years ago.