When the mirror ends

toddler 7

"Send me back. Although no one has been killed in the past two months, life is much more comfortable than before." Xu Yuan said to Peng Zefeng standing at the door with his schoolbag on his back.

"Fine, I finally sent the master away. To be honest, I have never had a successful cooperation with you, and I have bothered you for a long time." Peng Zefeng pulled a small suitcase, which was almost full of things he gave in the past two months. What Xu Yuan bought.

Why does Xu Yuan want to kick Peng Zefeng? Isn't it because you are directing and acting yourself?

"If anyone wants to kill, come to me." Seeing Peng Zefeng's joking expression, Xu Yuan said again: "Hmph, it's just to help us with our friendship during this period, so don't come to me if you have nothing to do. I recently I think it’s fun to play a good kid.”

"Okay, okay, don't disturb your life, do what you like." Peng Zefeng helped the child fasten the seat belt, and then started the car.

Back at the residence, Peng Zefeng still couldn't believe that he had been so deserted for nearly three months, pushing all the appointments of so many patients to Yu Feng.Moreover, the point is that he is not willing to do anything to the child at all. He always feels that the side effects of taking medicine will make the child very painful. Hypnosis feels like he is shaping a personality, and induction and the like are useless...

Peng Zefeng smiled and shook his head, what kind of psychiatrist is this?But forget it, open it.

And Xu Yuan's behavior at home began to approach that of ordinary children.

On this day, Xu Yuan went home as usual, put on slippers, washed his hands with disinfectant, went back to his room to put down his schoolbag, greeted his parents, and then had dinner.

It seems that he has been cured, although Peng Zefeng repeatedly said no, he apologized very seriously, and asked to pay more attention to the child's movements.

But the two didn't take it seriously, because Xu Yuan no longer showed disgust or contempt towards them as before, but was obedient and obedient like ordinary children, even better than ordinary children.Xu Yuan is more like a smart and precocious genius, who will also share their troubles and give them some advice on investment.

The young couple is very grateful to Peng Zefeng, and plans to bring Xu Yuan to visit in a few days on the weekend.

"Xiao Yuan, eat more to grow taller."

"Good mom, you should eat more too." As he said that, Xu Yuan picked up a chopstick dish for Ni Yiyuan.

Ni Yiyuan squinted her eyes and said with a smile: "Xiao Yuan is so good, it's great to take you to Mr. Peng."

Xu Ling is also very satisfied with Xu Yuan's current appearance, "Yes, I must thank Mr. Peng well then."

"Well, it's really great to meet him." Xu Yuan smiled and rolled his eyes, but if you look carefully, you will find that besides the joy and tenderness of meeting, Xu Yuan's eyes are more calm.

Soon, Xu Yuan finished the rice in the bowl.He put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said obediently: "Mom and Dad, I'm done eating, I'm going back to my room to do my homework first."

"Go." Ni Yiyuan and Xu Ling were very relieved. After returning from Peng Zefeng's place, their son neither hated school nor his teachers and classmates.

Xu Yuan finished his pinyin homework and started copying arithmetic problems.

He actually knows it, he can even understand any book at home, but he wants to be a normal child, so he has to finish his homework and hand it over to the teacher for praise like his peers.

However, he had had enough of these days.

Want to kill, very much.

This emotion seemed to rush out of his chest, making his whole body in agony like a convulsion.

But if you don't be a good boy, you can't stay in this society, you can't be by his side.

Xu Yuan gradually calmed down his manic mood of wanting to kill, calmly picked up a pen and began to write a suicide note.

There is no way not to kill, but to kill yourself, right?Be a good boy in the next life and go play with him again.

Sorry, Ze Feng, I really can't control my desire to kill.It's not that your treatment is useless, it's that I'm too useless.So, I choose to escape, I'm leaving.

Xu Yuan's thoughts were not disturbed at all due to emotional fluctuations, he wrote down all the things to be explained in an orderly manner, and the reason for his suicide was particularly clear, because he didn't want his parents to think that his suicide was treated by Peng Zefeng mistake.

After explaining, Xu Yuan took the inkstone and pressed it on the paper.

After thinking about it, Xu Yuan finished the remaining few arithmetic problems, then put the night light Peng Zefeng gave him next to the suicide note, looked at the things on the table with his hands in his arms, turned and left the room.

"Mom, haven't the flowers on the balcony been watered yet?" Xu Yuan asked.

"Well, can Xiaoyuan help mother water it?" said Ni Yiyuan who was sitting on the sofa watching TV.

"Okay." Xu Yuan nodded, carried the shower head to the bathroom to fill up water, then went to the balcony to carefully water different plants with different amounts of water.

This is not the top floor, and if I jump from here, they will think that I fell by accident, right?Or there is a shadow here... That would be troublesome, these flowers and plants may be thirsty to death.

So, let's change places.

What do those who commit suicide think about when they commit suicide?Xu Yuan was suddenly a little curious, because people all have the desire to survive, right?There are too many people who don't want to die even if they live in pain, so what do those people who commit suicide simply and neatly think?What were you thinking about while committing suicide?

What was the person who cut his wrist thinking when he was bleeding little by little?What kind of feeling?Did those who died on sleeping pills have a good dream?Will people who commit suicide by burning coal feel very painful, and want to live well again before dying?Would those people who jumped into the river and the sea think that it would be nice if they could swim?

How many people will have regrets on the way to suicide?How many people regret it and can continue to live?

Xu Yuan intends to choose a quick and irreversible way to commit suicide, because to him, although it seems that everything can be let go, there is no guarantee that he suddenly wants to live.

He still remembered that there was an anime in which it was said that human beings are the only creatures that can commit suicide, so he is considered human after all, right?

Man himself is a timid and cowardly animal.

He wanted to commit suicide just to live a better life.

Xu Yuan took the elevator to the top floor. Actually, he didn't like jumping off the building very much, because it would make his death ugly and bring a lot of trouble to the person who collected the body.However, this method is at your fingertips, and a thought can usher in death.

Standing on the guardrail, he didn't have any extra thoughts, and he didn't have the revolving lanterns written in novels and TV dramas. He just felt that the wind was a bit strong.

What are the various ways of death, what do you think at the moment of death?Xu Yuan is very curious.

It's just a pity that my own thoughts can't be used as a reference at all, because he... was born with a sin.

Xu Yuan leaned forward and began to fall.

The moment before touching the ground, Xu Yuan smiled, it turns out that the few seconds before falling to the ground will not be longer than the usual few seconds.

His body was broken, blood spattered far away.There was constant screaming and chaos in the crowd.

Soon, the police arrived at the scene, isolated the crowd, took pictures, surveyed the scene, confirmed the identity of the deceased, and contacted the family of the deceased.

Ni Yiyuan and Xu Ling were completely stunned when they saw the body. Their son was still watering the flowers just a moment ago, so why is there a sudden separation between yin and yang?

Wasn't everything normal just now?

Eating, doing homework, watering the flowers... isn't it all good?

Why did he commit suicide all of a sudden?

No!impossible!It must be an accident!Might be murder!

But why is there a suicide note?

Why can't you think about it so much?

What did they do wrong that caused their son to commit suicide?Will their son be cold in the funeral home now?Did he think of them before he died?

Ni Yiyuan's face was ashen, and she kept crying as she watched Xu Yuan's suicide note.

After a while, she said hoarsely: "Honey, Xiao Yuan said that he wants to contact Mr. Peng, and he has a letter for him."

Xu Ling also almost collapsed, his mind was in a mess, he just followed his wife's instructions and called Peng Zefeng, "Mr. of."

Peng Zefeng calmly said, "I'll be there right away." Then he hung up the phone.

The pain spread from the heart to the whole body, the water glass he was holding slipped from his hand and fell to pieces, a burst of dizziness hit, Peng Zefeng barely supported the table.

He pinched his fingers hard to keep himself awake.Then close your eyes and take a deep breath, letting your composure return.

Walking to the bathroom, Peng Zefeng washed his face, took the coat hanging in the entrance, and drove to Xu Yuan's house.

He put away the tightly sealed letter, comforted the heartbroken couple, and then rushed to the police station and funeral parlor to deal with Xu Yuan's funeral.

Xu Yuan's death was so tragic that the funeral home did not arrange for an embalmer to make up for him.

Peng Zefeng rolled up his sleeves and personally arranged Xu Yuan's makeup.

It took him seven hours to go down to every strand of hair, and the corpse's appearance after putting on make-up turned out to be the same as Xu Yuan's before he was alive.

He clearly agreed to be his son, didn't he?Dad didn't call out a few times, why did he leave...Peng Zefeng felt very wronged, and it was the first time he felt so wronged, because it was the first time he was so looking forward to the fulfillment of a promise.

He handled Xu Yuan's funeral with his own hands, because compared to Xu Yuan's parents, he could handle everything calmly.

He stood quietly in front of Xu Yuan's coffin, no one knew that the sadness in his heart was flooding.

He knew that the reason why Xu Yuan was doing all kinds of trivial things so naturally before committing suicide was because in Xu Yuan's eyes, suicide was just one of many things, and it was nothing to commit suicide after doing all the things that he would do every day. not good.

Peng Zefeng felt it was difficult to breathe, and the coffin was like a boulder pressing on his heart, causing him terrific pain.

Things that Xu Yuan took so lightly were very unwilling and painful to him. This was the first patient he had been in contact with for such a long time, and it was also the patient with whom he had an affair. More often than not, he regarded Xu Yuan as a Look at it from the person you meet in your life.

The huge difference in feelings makes Peng Zefeng extremely depressed,

If they didn't have such a big difference in feelings, would he be able to cure Xu Yuan's illness?If he can detect the contradiction between Xu Yuan's need for "evil" and reality, he will not commit suicide...

Heart hurts.

Peng Zefeng looked at the coffin for a while, then turned and walked out.

He planned to go to the uninhabited mountains.

His brain automatically calculated the things that Xu Yuan left with him, many of which can be used to survive in the wild, some processed and extracted things can prevent mosquitoes and repel wild animals, and there are also potions for improving the soil...

He didn't know why he was so calm and sober without eating for three days, but he knew that if he continued like this, he would collapse directly.So, have to go eat.

Unknowingly, he walked to the store the two went to for the first time. He went in and ordered the exact same dish.

But just after taking the second bite, he started to vomit and ran to the toilet to spit it out.

Then went back to that position and continued to eat, then spit it out again.Like masochistic, he ate all the food, but vomited it all in the toilet.

Neuropathy.Peng Zefeng laughed at himself.

He went to pay back the money and walked out lonely.

The proprietress who collected the money felt sorry for Peng Zefeng. She watched him go back and forth so many times, but didn't eat much. She wanted to comfort him but couldn't speak.The dazzling black ribbon on her suit made her dare not speak casually.

Because, sometimes consolation is actually more like making up for a knife.

She sighed and continued to greet other guests.

Peng Zefeng walked down the street and didn't know where he should go. After eating, should he take a shower and sleep next?

At this time, a drunk man walked past Peng Zefeng, stumbling, with a scruffy beard, like a pervert.

Peng Zefeng suddenly wanted to drink.He hasn't tried getting drunk yet, so he wonders if he really can't feel anything when he's drunk, and if so, he can sleep.