Same Bed Different Dreams

Zhou Jingci buried his head deeply in Wei Xiao's chest, he shook his head and said, "No, I don't want to go."

Wei Xiao pulled his head up, and said seriously, "Honey, what's wrong with you these days? Tell me."

No, not these days.

Suddenly, Wei Xiao realized in a trance that Zhou Jingci had been wrong for a long time.

His problems didn't start with that horrific paid-for murder.

As early as a few months ago, before he could remember everything, something was wrong with Zhou Jingci.

Sudden carelessness while driving, sudden loss of concentration when speaking, and sudden lethargy and anorexia...

The piles of piles have already shown the clues of everything.

It's just that Wei Xiao is too lazy to recall the past these days, or maybe he thinks that as long as he remembers, Zhou Jingci's heart disease will naturally heal.

Thinking about it now, I was really too careless.

Zhou Jingci lowered his eyes, and tears fell down "patta, pata". Wei Xiao gently wiped away his tears and insisted, "Baby, tell brother, tell brother what's wrong with you. Brother loves you , brother loves you..."

Zhou Jingci rested his head on Wei Xiao's shoulder, and he panted heavily. After a long time, Fang choked up and said, "Headache, stomach pain, and chest tightness."

He sniffed, and his emotions surged, "I'm so uncomfortable, Wei Xiao, I'm really uncomfortable."

Wei Xiao looked at Zhou Jingci carefully up and down. He felt a headache, a stomachache, and tightness in his chest... He really couldn't figure out what the illness was.

Wei Xiao hugged Zhou Jingci, "Jing Ci, can I rest with you? Get up tomorrow, and we'll go to the hospital."

Wei Xiao walked very steadily with every step. He put Zhou Jingci on the bed, and then wrapped Zhou Jingci into his arms, "Baby, don't be afraid, I will accompany you to the hospital tomorrow."

Zhou Jingci was very tired recently, and after crying for so long, he fell asleep and couldn't open his eyes, but he still forced himself to look at Wei Xiao.

Knowing that he was afraid, Wei Xiao hugged him a little tighter, closed his eyes gently with his hand, then kissed his forehead, and said, "Don't be afraid baby, I'll be right here for you, accompany you With you, I won't leave even a single step."

As he spoke, Wei Xiao patted Zhou Jingci's back lightly, and kissed his hair from time to time.

Only then did Zhou Jingci gradually feel relieved.

He likes that Wei Xiao pats him on the back, it makes him feel very solid and peaceful.

It wasn't until Zhou Jingci's breathing eased and he fell into a dream that Wei Xiao took out his phone.

He couldn't figure out what was going on with Zhou Jingci, so he searched Baidu repeatedly for most of the day. According to the symptoms, everything could be as small as a cold, fever and rhinitis, as serious as cancer.

Zhou Jingci's words were ambiguous, and Wei Xiao didn't understand medicine, so he was even more worried after seeing these diseases on the Internet.

He tossed and tossed until midnight, and at the end, he wanted to sleep, but he was so scared that he lay still for half an hour, and then couldn't help taking out his phone again.

The more Wei Xiao looked at it, the more frightened he became, and the more frightened he became, the more he couldn't help but search more, and this went on and on until Dongfang vomited.

Wei Xiao didn't fall asleep all night, and went out to buy some breakfast the next day with dark circles under his eyes.

He didn't have much appetite, and his stomach felt nauseated. After taking a few bites of the buns, he couldn't eat any more.

He couldn't eat, and was so irritable when he did anything, he simply sat on the bed and only looked at Zhou Jingci.

After finally staying up until seven o'clock, Wei Xiao hurriedly woke up Zhou Jingci, urging him to wash up and eat. Before eight o'clock, the two of them started rushing to the hospital.

Wei Xiao had a quick temper, and at this moment he was worried about Zhou Jingci's health. He was in a hurry all the way, and he was frizzy when driving. Regardless of the rules in the city, he honked the horn several times in a series of "beep beeps".

Zhou Jingci couldn't get up his spirits, and leaned on the seat disconcertedly. When he heard the sound, he turned his head and glanced at Wei Xiao, and said, "Stop pressing, it's noisy."

Wei Xiao's bullish temper was half vented in an instant, he nodded repeatedly, his lips were trembling, and it took a long time before he said, "Okay, baby, I won't press it anymore."

The high-end private hospital was exceptionally quiet. Wei Xiao put his arms around Zhou Jingci and led him to the medical guidance desk.

Zhou Jingci was unwilling to speak, and Wei Xiao could only vaguely describe Zhou Jingci's symptoms, "It's been more than two months, lethargy, forgetfulness, anorexia, memory loss, difficulty concentrating, poor mental state, you see , which department should I go to?"

The two doctors looked at each other, "Neurology, or go to the psychology department, it may be depression."

Psychology, depression.

Wei Xiao's heart skipped a beat.

How did Zhou Jingci get this disease?

How could Zhou Jingci have depression?

Will not.

impossible.

The expression on Wei Xiao's face changed several times, and he turned his head to look at Zhou Jingci, bewildered and at a loss.

He took Zhou Jingci's hand and kissed his forehead lightly, his lips trembling twice, "Baby, it's okay, let's go to the doctor."

Wei Xiao dragged Zhou Jing to resign from the Department of Neurology, and did a series of tests. In the end, even the doctor in the Department of Neurology said that he suspected depression.

Wei Xiao's heart trembled violently, and even his back began to tense.

The two arrived outside the psychology department, and the nurse wanted to bring Zhou Jingci into the consulting room.

Zhou Jingci came here for the first time, feeling flustered, subconsciously grabbing Wei Xiao's hand, not wanting to separate from him.

Wei Xiao was uneasy, he frowned anxiously, but he did not forget to comfort Zhou Jingci with a gentle voice, gently stroked the back of Zhou Jingci's hand with his thumb, and asked, "Can I accompany him?"

The nurse nodded and led them into the consulting room together.

The doctor, surnamed Lin, was young, with a gentle and kind face, and patiently asked about Zhou Jingci's situation.

Wei Xiao frowned and said, "He has been in a bad mood for the past two months, forgetful, anorexic, and unable to concentrate...

Dr. Lin was typing on the computer, then suddenly raised his head and asked, "Do you have suicidal tendencies?"

In an instant, countless thoughts flooded Wei Xiao's mind.

Yes, Zhou Jingci has suicidal tendencies.

Not only is he suicidal, he's committed to it.

All of a sudden, all the clues were explained, and all the guesses were consolidated into certainties.

Wei Xiao didn't want to believe any more, and the unbelievable things finally fell into place.

His voice trembled violently, "Yes. I have suicidal tendencies."

Zhou Jingci looked at Wei Xiao indifferently, just sat on the chair, refusing to say anything.

Doctor Lin quickly gave Zhou Jingci an order and asked Wei Xiao to take him for a blood test.After excluding the influence of drugs and alcohol, Zhou Jingci made a brain fluctuation map.

Finally, the doctor asked Zhou Jingci to do the Hamilton Depression Scale and Anxiety Scale on the computer.

After a long wait, Dr. Lin took out the final diagnosis form.

On the diagnosis form, there are four big characters of moderate depression written in black and white.

Doctor Lin prescribed a lot of medicines to Zhou Jingci, and gave a lot of instructions, but Wei Xiao couldn't hear them clearly.

By the time he realized it, Dr. Lin had finished speaking.

He could only bite the bullet and ask again, recording all the doctor's words into his phone.

Wei Xiao didn't know how he thanked Dr. Lin, and how he walked out of the hospital holding Zhou Jingci's hand.

He only knew that the sunlight outside was very dazzling, making him dizzy for a while.

Wei Xiao was sitting in the car, holding a pile of medicines in his hands, he didn't dare to look at Zhou Jingci's face, and he didn't dare to think carefully about how painful Zhou Jingci has been these days.

He covered his face, his emotions fluctuating violently.He wished he could get sick for Zhou Jingci, wished he could bear all the pain for him.

Zhou Jingci didn't react too much, just looked at Wei Xiao quietly, not knowing what he was thinking.

Wei Xiao couldn't drive anymore, so he called the driver, and the two returned home without saying a word.

Wei Xiao put Zhou Jingci on the bed properly, listened carefully to the doctor's words several times, and then delivered the medicine.

Zhou Jingci took the medicine with Wei Xiao's hand, and then lay down on the bed, his eyes were a little blank and a little dazed.

Even Zhou Jingci himself never thought that he would get such a disease, let alone Wei Xiao.

Wei Xiao's heart ached so badly, every breath brought a sharp sting, he was in a daze, his soul seemed to be ruthlessly torn and ravaged by a pair of big hands.

He couldn't understand why the punishment fell on Zhou Jingci.

He would rather be himself.

Many years ago, Wei Xiao had said to Zhou Jingci that the most important task in his life was to please Zhou Jingci, please Zhou Jingci, if he was happy, Wei Xiao would be happy, if he was happy, Wei Xiao would be satisfied.

But in the end, Zhou Jingci's greatest misfortune came from himself.

He only wanted to give Zhou Jingci happiness, but he personally deprived Zhou Jingci of happiness by accident.

Wei Xiao hated himself very much.

He lived a rebellious life all his life, and he didn't regret anything, except for Zhou Jingci, he looked forward and backward, and was cautious.

He wanted Zhou Jingci to be happy too much.

He was too afraid of losing Zhou Jingci.

Wei Xiao kept kissing Zhou Jingci's eyes, nose, and mouth, and murmured, "Baby, baby, I beg you, don't try to kill yourself, okay?"

"I can give you anything..."

"I would do anything for you..."

"As long as you live well, as long as you can be happy."

It turns out that this is the punishment.

This was the cruelest punishment that Zhou Jingci bestowed on him.