Summertime

It was almost four o'clock in the morning when Xizao called.

She was sleepless, and she was in a state of extreme annoyance. Because she couldn't sleep, the figure of a person always appeared in her mind, distant and vague. She knew who it was, but why did she care more and more about that person? That kind of care shocked even herself. When did it start? Everything happened without warning, which made people caught off guard. It was doomed, and she hadn't realized it until now.

She thought that her heart, frozen for a long time, was still stored under the harsh winter, and spring was still far away, but she didn't know that the warm spring outside the cave had stopped and gone, and her heart, which was as frosty as snow, was in the past. During the migration, the spring breeze melted the snow little by little, but the speed of the snow melting was so slow that she never noticed the abnormality.

Spring is brought by jujube, another spring.

But spring's stay was intermittent and short, and she couldn't have it.The dead tree is in spring, she is just a branch that is blown green by the spring breeze, and spring will not stop for her, because the warm wind has other places to go, she is not the end, but the scenery.

It's like the phone call, Xizao's cry, her crying, her choking, her pain, her pain, what she was crazy about, all her agitated emotions belonged to one person, and that person not her.

She can only watch and listen, like a spectator submerged in the crowd, but she wants to blend into the high stage and use her sincerity to relieve the actor's pain of lovesickness.

The infatuated and resentful girl is always looking forward to a heartless person whose return date is far away, she can't see that someone is waiting for her.What she sees on the stage is the scenery far away and unreachable, but to the people off the stage, she is the scenery, the only scenery, which is close at hand but inaccessible.

It turns out that there are so many ties between them, it turns out that she hides so many things in her heart, she has so many stories, and it turns out that she has been single for many years only for one person, a person who is not worth it.It's not worth it, it's really not worth it, Su Xi, why don't you know how to cherish it, put your feelings on such a person, in the end, it will only hurt you all over.

It's not that Gu Xia feels the grapes are sour because she can't eat grapes, because she used to be as infatuated as jujube, but infatuation can't be exchanged for her sincerity, she can't see the future, no matter how much she likes it, she will let it go , can't achieve a complete retreat, but at least it can achieve a good start and a good end.

She could do it, but Xizao couldn't. The crying on the phone was heart-rending, and Gu Xia, who was full of thoughts in the middle of the night, was shocked. She forgot to react, and just listened in a daze. Crying, shouting, crazy, until the throbbing pain in her heart pulled her soul back to her body, she hurriedly called Xizao's name, emphasizing at a loss what to do, emphasizing again and again, telling Xizao to stay where she is, don't Move around, come and pick her up right now.

But before Gu Xia could finish speaking, there was a sudden beep and it was cut off.

When she anxiously called again, the phone was turned off.

Gu Xia wished she could fly to Xizao's side immediately, hug her, hold her, and use all her strength.Even though she knew she couldn't replace Su Xi, she was still willing to pay for Su Xi's ruthlessness.As soon as Gu Xia thought of Xizao waiting for that person on the side of the road all night, she was so impulsive that she wanted to rush to Su Xi's house, drag her out of Zhou Mi's arms, and threw two Slap in the face, how can she enjoy the gentle township with peace of mind, she is still carrying debts, Xizao's debts, she can only overdraw, and never think about repaying, but Xizao is not a credit card, she will not think about it Banks send bills to cardholders to remind them of repayments.She is a person with flesh and blood and emotions, and Su Xi just squeezed the jujube dry, she only asks for it, and the jujube is willing to become Su Xi's cash machine like a fool, how can she be so stupid!

Gu Xia knew that she had no position to criticize them, but she couldn't help but think so, from her rushing out of the door in a panic, to the hasty urging of the taxi driver in the middle of the night, to the moment when she arrived at the destination The anxious heart finally let go. In less than 10 minutes, she was thinking, and the more she thought about it, the more angry she became. scold her for being stupid, scold her for being stubborn, scold her for being useless, scold her why she is always thinking about others, and where is she, scold her why she has to pay this for someone who is not worth it, scold her why she uses wine like this Despise her own body, obviously her fragile stomach was just rescued from the operating table last month, but when she saw the deserted asphalt road from a distance, that person nestled alone under the dim street lamp and stretched long The lonely shadow, those scoldings and angry reprimands that she kept flying into her mind all the way disappeared completely, she had already forgotten what she was thinking and what she was angry about before, because now, in her eyes Only the woman curled up among the tangled vegetation like a tramp.

In the middle of the night, a taxi is parked by the side of the road with the engine still running. The headlights of the car cast white light on the cold road. The dust particles in the light are flying in all directions, falling on the dozen or so cars lying on the curb. On the empty beer can, Gu Xia rushed out the door, knelt on the ground and hugged the trembling woman who was crouching on the roadside with her knees hugged into her arms.

She smelled of alcohol, she couldn't lift her head, her voice was so weak that she was covering her knees, like a dying patient with a hoarse and low voice, dragging his exhausted organs, desperately trying to make a sound, intermittently, she said, Is it... Su Xi?

When Gu Xia heard that name, tears suddenly came down disobediently, and she came here recklessly, even wearing her sleeping clothes, before she could change in the future, the flip flops under her feet also died from running desperately. With a worn toe, she came here just for a person who was lying in her arms and calling someone else's name.

In fact, they are all equally stupid, just because of one person, but they are all willing.

Gu Xia smiled wryly, lifted the person in her arms, and helped the limping Xizao to the taxi.

Let's go home.

Gu Xia said softly.

Blame, she has no power, because she is the same as jujube.

From the beginning to the end, the mobile phone in Xizao's hand was tightly squeezed, she did not put it down, even though she was on the verge of coma, even if the mobile phone was dead, she still held it tightly, and she refused to let go .Because, because it seemed that someone picked her up, but that person didn't seem to be Su Xi.

The taxi was speeding again in the night, the cool wind rushed into the dark car crazily, messing up the two people's flying hair, Xi Zao turned his drowsy head on the man's shoulder, almost throwing his own weight Leaning on that person, because she knows that person she can rely on, the faint scent of perfume stained on the soft cotton fabric, the familiar smell of the bed from the body, the smell of shampoo, shower gel The smell was so warm that she couldn't help crying, and even with her eyes closed, she could clearly feel the existence of the person sitting next to her, which was a more indescribable feeling than smell or touch.The two were so close together, Xi Zao didn't know why her tense heart would relax because of the existence of that person, it was just a feeling, an inexplicable intuition, but she still closed her eyes and never opened them, because Xi Zao She was afraid that the moment she opened her eyes, she would realize that the person next to her who was holding her cold hand tightly was not Su Xi, but she already knew the reality, why would she still fantasize!

In the car, Gu Xia didn't speak, just bowed her head sideways, stroking the flying hair of the person leaning on her shoulder, listening to her heavy breathing, intermittent sobbing and choking, watching the scenery under the street lights outside the window on her face. Dark or bright shadows that fly by.The driver was also concentrating on driving, and did not look at the two strange women sitting in the back seat in the front mirror with curious eyes.Gu Xia seemed to make time stand still, because in the narrow space that was moving fast in the early hours of the morning, she truly felt that she had that person, that she could be her reliance, that she could hold her hand tightly, and that she could act unscrupulously. Looking at her, touching her, feeling her breath, they are so close, so close that they can hear each other's heartbeat, so close that Gu Xia can't help but start to miss her when everything is not over yet, Gu Xia knew what she shouldn't do, she shouldn't do this, because her greed was based on Xizao's frustration, when Xizao was the most vulnerable and painful, she was getting along with the greedy two people that she had never had before, But she couldn't bear it, when will the next time the two of them get close like this, maybe this is the first and last time.

In fact, Xizao's home is not far from Jiexin Garden, and the time of infatuation was so short. Five minutes later, the taxi stopped in the underground parking lot of a residential area.

Dreamland, it's time to wake up.

Xi Zao seemed to have fallen into a deep sleep, and the people in the car were limp as if they had lost their bones. Gu Xia dragged off the shoes on his feet, bare feet, carried Xi Zao on his back, and walked towards the elevator.Gu Xia didn't know if she was looking for abuse for herself. She went to take care of people who didn't have her in her heart in the middle of the night. Beside the bed, I heard the person on the bed murmuring another person's name over and over again in his sleep, but Gu Xia was reluctant to leave, so she knelt on the bedside, wiping away the tears that flowed from the corners of that person's eyes over and over again. Watching that person sobbing a name that did not belong to her, carefully bandaging the hideous wound on the wrist for that person.

How could she go!

At least, she can't leave now, Xizao is already in great pain, she needs someone to accompany her, even if she is not the person Xizao is looking forward to, but she still wants to stay, someone is always with her Different.Gu Xia didn't want Xizao to wake up in the dark and find no one around her. People in the dark are fragile, especially for a person who has just been hurt by love. The heartache is bearable, and after enduring it until dawn, all the suffering can end, and a new day begins, and the Illuminati will take away the helplessness and hurt of the night, so she doesn't need to stay here anymore, she can go.

At five o'clock in the morning, the window was already slightly bright, and the sky was a mixture of dark blue and pale white. The sunrise was approaching. Gu Xia raised her head and looked at the curtains blown by the morning breeze. Outside the window sill, she saw the red sun rising. Gu Xia sighed, she lowered her head, and caressed the haggard face of the sleeping woman on the bed over and over again, the tears at the corners of the woman's eyes, the pale skin of the woman, and the small nose of the woman, until she finally couldn't help approaching Those soft but bloodless lips were touched slowly, and the woman's delicate cheeks were wetted by the inadvertently shed tears. Carefully stained with her tears, stood up, and finally left.

The sound of opening and closing of the door of the porch is too small to be noticed. The empty room is still quiet, but the previously dark space is no longer dark. The light of the world outside the window has come. The house, the night has long since left, and the day has come.

The woman on the bed woke up at some point. The moment the door was carefully closed, her eyes slowly opened. They should have been chaotic eyes, but they were clear. She stretched out her hand to touch the corner of her warm mouth. There is still a slight dampness left.