Summertime

When I returned to Shanghai, everything returned to calm, and my life returned to the familiar track, day after day.

Without Su Xi, Xi Zao resumed her daily overtime routine, as if the time had been set back to the beginning of May, when she and Su Xi were not together, Xi Zao went to work, ate, got off work, and slept as usual, just Now, the rhythm of life has more misses, faint and not clear.

Su Xi would make a phone call every day to greet her, or have a shallow chat with Xizao on WeChat. She chatted about her travels in foreign countries, sent her photos taken by Zhou Mi, and asked about Xizao's recent situation. Both of them avoided mentioning it. Regarding the topic of Zhou Mi, Su Xi thought that as long as she avoided mentioning sensitive points, she could calm down Xizao's ups and downs, but this landmine can be seen everywhere, and Xizao can see daily updates in Moments when she opens WeChat. Status, most of them are group photos of Zhou Mi’s family, as well as travel mood texts. Among them, there are Zhou Mi’s and Su Xi’s. Xizao can’t ignore it, because she can’t help opening it. Checked the update on WeChat, and after reading it, it was an inevitable process of heart abuse. Xizao knew that she was looking for guilt, but she just couldn't control her disobedient hands.

However, in the ordinary days after returning from Hong Kong, something happened that surprised Xizao.

One day, Gu Xia told herself nonchalantly that she was going on a blind date.

This sentence made Xizao almost spit out the coffee in his mouth, Gu Xia was actually going on a blind date!

Gu Xia said that after that heart-piercing relationship, love becomes dispensable. She said that a person's life is vivid and glamorous, and there is no need for another person to embellish it. She even said that I would rather wait than settle down.The reason why Xizao remembered it so clearly was because Gu Xia's words pierced her heart at that time, she was so similar to Gu Xia.Even Gu Xia jokingly said that after 45 years old, if neither of them finds the right person, then the two of them should be together. Xi Zao remembered that he agreed seriously at the beginning.

But, after so many years, I still stick to my principles, why is Gu Xia giving up, why?

"why!"

Xizao asked in surprise.

"I'm 32 this year, and my family has been urging me for many years. In the past, I could use CouCi as an excuse, but now that the development of CouCi is on track, there is no more perfunctory reason."

Gu Xia had a calm face, she smiled, and gently wiped off a faint red lip mark on the rim of the white cup with her thumb, explaining that on Gu Xia's face, Xizao showed no reluctance or unwillingness, She seems to have chosen to accept those so-called "for your own good" arrangements.

"Can……"

Xizao still wanted to say something, but she stopped in the end. Indeed, even though she could understand Gu Xia's thoughts, she still wanted to dissuade her. After all, she had waited for so long, for so many years, but after all, she couldn't interfere. Gu Xia's private life, not to mention Gu Xia has already made a decision.

"How about that blind date?"

Xizao couldn't intervene, so she had to talk about another topic she cared about.

"A doctor of medicine who studied in the United States, just returned to China, introduced by my aunt, and saw the photos."

"How do you like it?"

Xizao asked cautiously.

"I don't know yet."

Gu Xia lowered her head and twirled the mixing spoon in the cup, and smiled, she said, there is no conclusion yet.But I don't know why Xizao feels a little lost.

"Do not you know……"

The person on the opposite side suddenly murmured in a low voice, as if talking to herself, Gu Xia seemed to have heard something, her heart skipped a beat, and there was a wave of undulation in her plain eyes.

On Sunday, Su Xi came back. As usual, she brought souvenirs of all sizes to Xi Zao. Xi Zao looked at the colorful shopping bags on the table and listened to Su Xi sitting on the bed talking about exotic customs with great interest. , Anecdotes, I don't know why, she suddenly didn't have the mood she used to, and she was no longer interested in those things.

The following life is still the same, calm like a straight line towards tomorrow, the next tomorrow, and the next tomorrow will continue, Xizao will still agree to all Su Xi's requests, and almost never miss appointments, eat together, go shopping, maybe force Brazenly went to Zhou Mi's house for an appointment, and occasionally Su Xi would come to Xizao's house to spend the night for a short stay.It's just that now Xizao is no longer as resentful as before, those facts that she could not bear but had to face before, now she can accept it calmly, accept Su Xi running back and forth between Zhou Mi and herself, accept Su Xi talked about all the family matters that did not belong to her, accepted that Su Xi became more and more concerned about Zhou Mi, and accepted that Su Xi never mentioned the future between them.Xizao is no longer submissive, as if she has learned to truly accept the position Su Xi arranged for her, being docile, well-behaved, not complaining, not forcing, making everything that is far-fetched natural and reasonable.As for Su Xi, Xizao felt that she was happy and at ease, as if she didn't need to find out, Xizao already understood what kind of life she wanted, and did as she wanted.

Perhaps in this world, there is no lover who is more competent than Xi Zao.

It seems that everything is the same, but Xizao still feels that something is different in the warm and cold days. Now, every time she gets along with Su Xi, she can't find the feeling she used to have. , full of anticipation, cautious, and disappointed, most of the perceptual perception seems to have been evaporated into white gas rushing out of the kettle.

Although, she will still be happy and sad, but why does she still feel so tired, so tired, that kind of fatigue and powerlessness that is constantly precipitated physically and mentally sometimes even makes her have a feeling that she herself feels Surprised thought.

She was thinking, otherwise, really don't go on, just let go.

It seemed that the short one-week trip to Hong Kong changed something. Xizao didn't know what went wrong between her and Su Xi. She felt extremely tired and anxious, even though the relationship between her and Su Xi Getting along with each other is even more beautiful than before, and the imprint of happiness seems to be everywhere, and it becomes easy to get, but why does she always feel that there is an invisible hand pushing Su Xi beside her farther and farther, but she does not Know how to bring back people who are drifting away.Xizao attributed all the problems to himself.

Perhaps, this is because my mentality is not yet adapted to the ideal situation, get used to it, get used to it slowly, and it will be fine once you get used to it.

Here, Xizao has fallen into a vicious cycle of self-doubt. She has reached a crossroads in a relationship. Xia's new romance seems to be going well.

On a certain day, Dang Xizao finished a day of sample modification and sample testing, and drove back to CouCi from the direction of the factory.

She saw a man wearing glasses, elegant and clean, wearing a pure gray T-shirt, with his hands casually inserted in the loose casual pants, standing in front of the gate of CouCi, looking down at the clock on his wrist.Xizao closed the car door, stood beside the curb and couldn't help raising the corners of her mouth.She thought that man was a new high-quality boyfriend of a certain female employee of CouCi, but unfortunately she was wrong, because in the next second, she saw the man greet the woman who came out of the gate, and took the bag from the woman's hand in a gentlemanly manner. Briefcase, then took the woman's hand and walked towards the parking space on the side of the road.

Xizao stood at the same spot, staring blankly at the two talking and laughing as they got into the car and drove away before finally regaining consciousness.

It wasn't until then that she realized that it had been more than two weeks since Gu Xia told her that she had started a relationship.

And until now, she didn't realize it. It was only at that moment that she began to face up to this new relationship between Gu Xia. Xizao suddenly realized clearly that, in fact, this relationship that Gu Xia had been mentioning to her, she been ignoring.

Just why?

On the evening of July 25th, it was another rare night with clear skies. It was past six o'clock in the evening. Xi Zao was sitting at the mahogany dining table at Zhou Mi's house, listening to Zhou Mi telling her and Su Xi vivid stories about the strange people in the company. Su Xi next to her was already covering her stomach with laughter, she clung to Xi Zao's shoulder and refused to get up, Xi Zao continued to raise her already stiff smile, just to echo Su Xi's joyful laughter and set off the warm atmosphere, How could Xizao, who had been absent-minded, pay attention to what Zhou Mi said just now.

It doesn't matter what to talk about, she's not interested, as long as Su Xi feels happy, she'll just laugh along with her.

Ziz——

At the dinner table, Xizao's cell phone rang suddenly.

Xi Zao looked at the phone screen and frowned. The caller ID was Sister Lanlan. Didn't she accompany Gu Xia to a social event? Why did she call at this time.

"Hey?"

"Xizao, can you hurry over here for dinner?"

On the day of the phone call, the voice was really urgent. Xizao looked at Su Xi beside him, stood up, and left the dining table.

"what happened?"

"The child at home is sick, and my husband is not at home, so Gu Xia asked me to go back early, but this time, all the guests at the dinner party are from the Northeast, and they drink too much. I am afraid that Gu Xia will not be able to hold on alone, you know She just had a stomach problem yesterday..."

"Where's the sky star?!"

Sister Lanlan's explanation really made Xizao anxious, Xizao was so impatient that she interrupted her and asked.

"I went to Beijing for a business trip today. Gu Xia said that she can handle it alone, but she can't let her go back by taxi alone after drinking. I will try my best to help her drink here now. Xizao, can you hurry up? Come here, I don't worry about Gu Xia being here alone, you have to drive her back tonight."

"Okay, you send me the address, and I'll go there now."

Xizao hung up the phone in a hurry, turned around to look for the bag on the sofa in the living room.

"what happened?"

Zhou Mi stood up and asked with concern.

"Gu Xia seems to have had an accident at the dinner, I have to go there!"

Xizao found the small bag hidden under the sofa pillow, and after a brief explanation, hurried into the hallway, took shoes from the shoe cabinet and put them on.

"Let Mi come with you!"

Su Xi followed Zhou Mi to the entrance, she said worriedly.

"Yeah, I'll go with you!"

Zhou Xiaomi also hurriedly agreed.

"No, I'll just drive over by myself."

"Be careful on the road!"

Before Zhou Shu finished speaking, Xizao left in a hurry, like a gust of wind blowing when the gate is closed, the traces of sweeping and passing are so chaotic and flustered.

Looking at the tightly closed door in front of her, Su Xi couldn't help but fell into deep thought.