Summertime

In the middle of May, the taste of summer is getting stronger and stronger. Xizao is standing on the busy street, looking down and flicking the screen of the mobile phone. The time is now 10:13 pm on Friday. Vehicles and pedestrians at home have begun to surge slowly. Due to the intense sunlight in the afternoon, the residual heat of the earth has not yet subsided.For the first time, Xizao got off work early. Instead of driving, she walked [-] minutes from CouCi to the square of Xintiandi Shopping Center. The afternoon sun was still hot, and there was almost nothing to cover the square. Xizao had to use a handbag Slightly covering the glaring light from the west, thin sweat oozes from her smooth forehead and wets the hair scattered between her forehead.The traffic lights at the opposite crossroads have been beeping five or six times. Xizao watched the waiting crowd stop and leave one after another, cross the white zebra crossing, and rush to the opposite [-] Line No. [-] subway entrance, and in the opposite subway station, waves of passers-by poured out of the ground, rushing towards this side.Finally, a black Audi was parked at the edge of the square. Xizao raised her head and smiled slightly. She put away the hot phone in her hand, stepped forward, opened the door, and the car that stayed for a short time quickly left. .

"There is a traffic jam on the road, so you have to wait for a long time."

"It's okay, I just finished my work, where is Tongtong?"

"I just sent Tongtong to her grandmother. Su Xi asked me to take her there, saying that Grandma Tongtong missed her. I will bring Tongtong back when I come back from a business trip."

"Then, what about Su Xi?"

"Waiting for us at the hotel, you should wait now."

"After dinner, is the plane still in time?"

"It's okay, the plane is after ten o'clock, we can eat slowly and talk, I will go to the airport after dinner, and then I will ask Su Xi to take you back."

"it is good."

In fact, Xizao hardly spoke at the party of three that day. She was just listening to Su Xi and Zhou Mi, talking about the happy days when the three of them were together, those nonsense, crazy, short-lived, and laughing moments , both of them cleverly avoided the days when Xizao was absent, and Xizao would not feel embarrassed when they said it, but this carefulness made Xizao quietly relieved, as if everyone knew it.Zhou Mi looked very happy. Although he didn't drink too much wine, Xizao felt that Zhou Mi was already drunk. While dancing and dancing, he recalled the days when the three of them had been drinking in the bar all night, while smirking and persuading Xizao to be with him. He had a drink. In the small private room, the air conditioner was fully turned on, but he still yelled that he was too hot. The flat suit and tie were wrinkled by him, and Su Xi, who was sitting next to him, had to take pictures of him talking nonsense. He scolded him in a low voice, but bent down helplessly to help him fasten it again.At this time, Zizao had to quietly turn his stinging eyes to other places, and lowered his head to sip the bitter orange juice in the glass.

At [-]:[-] in the evening, a white commercial vehicle stopped at the entrance of the hotel. Xi Zao stood on the low steps and watched Su Xi help the precarious Zhou Mi get into the car, and then turned to tell the driver.

"Xiao Zhao, Mr. Zhou drank a little too much. Wait until you go to the pharmacy to buy some hangover drink for Mr. Zhou to drink before sending him on the plane."

"Okay, I'll buy it later, don't worry."

"Let's go back."

Xizao was a little lost in interest, she took a deep breath, and said to the figure who was close at hand.

"I don't want to go back yet, go somewhere with me."

Su Xi watched the white car drift away until it disappeared at the corner of the street. She breathed a sigh of relief, turned her head and smiled.

"Where are you going?" Xizao was in a dilemma.

"I want to go for a drink."

"Didn't you drink enough just now?"

"I want to drink foreign wine, let's go."

Before Xizao could refuse, Su Xi took Xizao's hand and walked quickly to the parking lot.Xizao didn't object anymore, because that warm palm blocked all Xizao's desire to refuse.

Half an hour later, Su Xi parked Zhou Mi's Audi on the side of the road, and took Xi Zao's hand through the alleys with twists and turns. Xi Zao was not familiar with this area, and it was not clean and dirty. There are decadent graffiti on the dirty walls, and small advertisements passing by on the low lampposts. Xizao saw images of vulgar and pornographic words like gonorrhea, miss public relations, and tattoos. Scattered bags of domestic garbage lay dead on the wet ground, exuding the sour smell of vomiting, coupled with the oncoming young smokers with different eyes, Xizao still felt a little bit of fear, she couldn't help but hold Su Xi held her hand tightly.Not long after Su Xi came to the gate of an online garden, she looked back at Xizao and smiled, that smile made Xizao's heart beat inexplicably, violently and clearly, as if they had returned to the old time, that charming smile was the story of all Start.Xizao followed Su Xi down a small red door next to the net garden in a daze. Inside was a narrow staircase leading to the ground. The harsh noise of electric guitars and drum kits became louder and louder, bombarding Xizao Xizao finally knew why Su Xi insisted on going to that strange little bar, because it was so similar to the bar eight years ago, they were also located in the basement, they were also close to a net court, and they also had a The small dance floor and stage, and even the design of the bar here, including high chairs, sofas, and billiard tables, are all the same as the old bar, except that the one in front of us is wider and more professional.

"Is this similar to Planet?" Su Xi suddenly approached Xizao and said loudly close to her ear.

"Like, how did you find it?" The heat in the ear and the violent rock music made Xizao's heart stop for a beat.

"I found it by accident, don't tell Mi, come, let's drink!"

Su Xi raised the corners of her mouth proudly, pulled the jujube and walked towards the billiard table. At this time, Su Xi was like a child, proudly declaring her victory, just like she discovered a new continent like Columbus , and at this time she wants to share this secret with another person.

But Xizao panicked, Su Xi didn't know that if time could be turned back, Xizao would never step into the Planet, because the Planet is the beginning of everything, and it is also the burial of all the graves. All the stories between her and Su Xi started from It started there, she tasted all the bitterness and pain there, and the scars at that time have not yet healed. Even in the eight years after she left, bars have become her taboo, and alcohol has become a taboo. How dare to revisit the old place, touching the scene and hurting the feelings.It is already reluctant to stay in a place similar to the previous sad place, not to mention breaking the taboo, recreating the scene of the past with that person, isn't this another cut in my heart, and self-harm!

"I want a Tequila, a bottle of Jager, and Red Bull."

“Tequila on its own or with lemon and salt”

"Add a few extra slices of lemon, and then serve whatever you want for a fruit plate snack."

Su Xi was raising her head and having a loud conversation with the bartender of the young man, while Xi Zao was sitting on the sofa awkwardly, as if she had returned to the environment she was in eight years ago, but the high-spirited and daring self back then has become trembling now , restless.

"What do you want to drink, jujube?" Su Xi shouted loudly.

"Give me a cup of Coke, I don't drink, just stay with you." Xizao forced a smile, waved his hands firmly and shook his head.

Su Xi opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something, but she swallowed it anyway, and waved her hand to signal the bartender to go down, Xi Zao secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

Xizao drank this cup of Coke for a full night. She was like a wooden figure, leaning against a corner of the sofa and watching with cold eyes, while her eyes always stayed on one person. After the man who wanted to strike up a conversation was touched by Xizao's indifference, no one was willing to approach here anymore. Of course, in such a noisy and chaotic environment, Xizao could still clearly hear the taunts from the surroundings. The bad words, those whispers between men and women were done on purpose for her to see.

"If you don't drink, what are you doing in the bar? Come here to be a Madonna show for whom!"

"Maybe the person who came here to catch Xiaosan looks like a resentful woman. Don't disappoint, go find fun elsewhere."

Xizao ignored the harsh sarcasm, she sipped the carbonated drink in the glass that had been diluted by ice cubes, her eyes still fell on the enchanting figure not far away near the bar.

This night Su Xi was hardly in the seat, she walked around the crowded crowd with a glass of wine, as if she was already a regular customer here, the men greeted her warmly, bought her wine, lit cigarettes for her, hugged her Flirting and joking with her by her waist by the billiard table, and she smiled so prettily, the crisp collision of the billiard balls was completely covered by her loud laughter, and the plump and fair body wrapped in a black V-neck knit dress Her breasts were heaving and undulating amidst the cheerful laughter, Xizao could catch a glimpse of the malicious eyes of the man who struck up a conversation with Su Xi under the dim light without looking closely, but Su Xi didn't care, She even joined some of the bars and played crazy games with a group of strange men and women. Since it is a game, there will be wins and losses, rewards, and punishments.But Su Xi is always the one who loses, Xi Zao watched her crumbling and drank the alcohol for punishment one cup after another, screaming, and getting close to others, in order to accept the punishment.Xizao frowned, Su Xi's actions today were too much, and it was the same every time she came here.Su Xi in the bar was full of depression, indulgence, and sickness.Xizao was sitting on pins and needles, she felt as if her heart was pierced by thousands of long needles, and every breath was a throbbing pain, she wanted to rush over, pull her back, and yell at her, don't drink!

But the reality is that she didn't do anything, and she didn't do it eight years ago.

Because Su Xi looked like this eight years ago, she can't change anything.

Xizao really wanted to go over and drink all the cloudy foreign wine soaked in the bullet cup in front of Su Xi, so that Su Xi would not have to accept the punishment of the game alone, but so what if she drank it, the next round of punishment will continue, Su Xi will continue to drink.

Xizao's clenched fist finally loosened, and her impulse turned into patience. She didn't want to break the precept. This was her last precept.

She can't drink.She swore so many poisonous oaths, but in less than a month, the rules and regulations she had kept for eight years were almost completely broken because of that person.Tobacco, alcohol, in the past, she said she would cut it off, but now besides alcohol, she is easily contaminated with other poisons. If she touches alcohol again, the departure eight years ago and the subsequent efforts to get rid of the past will become a struggle. Ridiculous farce, in the end, everything Xizao did was in vain, and she would only become a self-entertaining clown, messing around in her own world, self-righteous and self-satisfied. In the end, after the audience enjoyed the joy in the theater , she was reduced to that idiot who was abandoned by everyone.

If Su Xi is her demon, then not drinking is her final bottom line. She doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes. Before the final outcome is clear, she doesn't want to just fall into this foolishly. She is no longer a young woman.

At eleven o'clock in the evening, in the smoky and joyous venue, the DJ stood at the corner of the stage, playing discs and shouting mics, while swaying wildly to the explosive dance music. On the dance floor, a group of men and women danced wildly under the dizzy stage lights. The flexible body, screaming, roaring, peeping, rubbing, is full of alcohol, cigarettes, perfume, sweat, and the smell of flesh, which is the smell of lust.

At this time, a woman who appeared from nowhere squeezed into the crowded dance floor, reckless and impulsive. Soon she stumbled and pulled out a wobbly woman from a pile of crazily writhing bodies. Seductive, but as if drunk.When people were still feeling aggrieved by the woman's rude behavior, those two beautiful women had already disappeared in the blurred bar.

Small episodes can't stop the rhythm of people's carnival. After a brief commotion, the madness on the dance floor continued until the early morning of the next day.