Summertime

Zhou Mi knew that Xi would be happy, and would definitely agree to his request to have Xizao come to Tongtong's birthday party at home.

After all, they are nostalgic people.

After all, Xi and Xizao were so close at that time.

After all these years, Xi Zao's name has never been broken in Xi Zao's mouth.

It was a surprise for him, Yu Xi, and Xi Zao to reunite.

In the early hours of that night, Xi agreed, but Xi was not as happy and surprised as Zhou Mi imagined, Zhou Mi couldn't tell that she was happy, Xi just asked a few innocuous words, then turned around and fell asleep, so calm Zhou Mi was a little baffled, after all, the name Xizao was always on her lips, but now that she was about to see that person, she seemed to have nothing to do with her, as if Xizao was just a An old classmate who is not familiar with, the relationship between them has long since disappeared.Zhou Mi thought that she was coming home late, and that she was drunk and made Xi unhappy, so Xi deliberately showed such inconsistency. Zhou Mi knew that Xi didn't like her coming home late, and she didn't like being drunk too much. Going home drunk, she must be vomiting with herself, Zhou Mi smiled and stopped talking.

It doesn't matter, as long as Xi agrees.

It was almost one o'clock in the night, Zhou Mi got up quietly, and the people beside him had already fallen asleep. He picked up the mobile phone beside the bed and walked to the living room.He couldn't wait anymore, he wanted to tell Xizao, tell her the specific time, tell her that he would pick her up in person at that time, and then bring her home, so that everyone can get together as before.

"Su Xi wants to see you. I haven't seen you for so many years. Let's get together. It just so happens that this Saturday is our daughter's fifth birthday. Come to our house for dinner, and I will pick you up then."

Zhou Xiaomi conceived this short sentence for a long time, deleted, deleted, modified, and thought for a long time before he sent it out.

A simple sentence that neither oversteps nor makes people feel uncomfortable is reasonable.

And Xi didn't say anything, she was just a cover.Yes, Zhou Mi imagined that she could often see Xizao as before, watching her daily life, her appearance, and her smile. The missing part may be able to fill in slowly.

Some things are destined not to be obtained by accident, so seeing her appear in your life, and even interacting, communicating, and touching her is another kind of acquisition, isn’t it? It's better than nothing, at least you can still see her and get news about her, which is also a gift.

He wanted to continue to stand by that person's side as a friend, but he didn't know that it was no longer what it used to be. He thought that person was still the same as she was back then, but even he had changed. How can you be sure that that person is still the same, with the same emotions, and with the same feelings?

People's hearts will change, just like him and Xi, but Zhou Mi will never classify Xizao into that category.

Perhaps, he never really understood that person from the beginning to the end. Since he didn't understand enough, then what he saw was always superficial and covered with a thin layer of clothes, which was the gorgeous clothes he imagined. From the very beginning, he regarded illusions as reality and fictions as facts, so it doesn't matter what changes, even if changes do exist, he will choose to turn a blind eye and listen to them.It was like those eight blank years, why that person suddenly disappeared, why she changed her temperament, and now why she chose to enter the old circle as before, he didn't want to ask about these, let alone know.

Zhou Mi believes that she is still the same as before, and he doesn't want to touch anything that has nothing to do with it.

The innocence and beauty of the past have been lost, and he wants to get it back from that person, he wants to relive the old situation, this is his selfishness.

But Zhou Mi didn't know that everyone has selfishness, and everyone will hide it in a place where the sun cannot be seen, not just him.

After the birthday dinner, there seemed to be no quarrel between Xi Zao and Xi Zao. They were still as good as they were eight years ago. During the process, Zhou Mi didn't know how they crossed the eight-year gap. The high-level visits and celebrations made him unable to take time off to take care of Xizao who was appearing and disappearing among the guests. He thought that Xi would naturally take care of her. Get together here and catch up on the old days.But he didn't expect that Xi Zao would leave after he finally got out of his private affairs.Trying to persuade her to stay failed, Zhou Mi had no choice but to give up, just looking for a chance to get together next time.Fortunately, Zizao did not refuse.

But Xizao still had the neither cold nor indifferent attitude back then. Zhou Shu didn't know how to get together again next time. After all, according to Xizao's temperament, she would not come out easily, let alone he was married. , You must take your own identity into account when you make an appointment in the future.

Since we can meet again, and we are living in the same city, why are there still fewer and fewer opportunities to meet each other in the future? Zhou Mi is not reconciled!

Fortunately, before going to bed that night, Xi asked herself all the contact information of Xizao.

"Xizao is back, we can meet more in the future."

"Well, if you have nothing to do, you can call Xizao and let her come to your house to accompany you, so that you won't feel bored."

"Well, it's the same as before."

Zhou Mi didn't know about Su Xi's little abacus, and Su Xi didn't know about Zhou Mi's thoughts. The two seemed to have their own ghosts, but their goals were mostly similar. Now that their goals had been achieved, the two of them didn't continue to discuss the topic. It is necessary to go deeper, because they are afraid that they will lose their opening in front of each other.

On the other side, Zizao also tossed and turned in the middle of the night with ulterior motives, unable to fall asleep.

She seems to be able to predict the future situation, but she can't grasp what the final result will be. Just like before, maybe everything will repeat the same mistakes in the end, and the injured person will still be herself.But Xi Zao was not reconciled. This time, Su Xi asked to stay for the first time because of herself, and what should she do, should she stay indifferent and withdraw, or try to accept it, just give it a go.In fact, reason tells Xizao that the first choice is wise. After all, that person is married, has a family and children, and her husband is actually her former buddy. If Xizao really intervenes between the two, Then one day soon, everyone will be caught in a dilemma.But rationality is logical, but Xizao is really unwilling. She once wanted to get that unobtainable relationship, but she is still a loser after all. She is nothing after all. She is no match for those men after all. After choosing to leave, she can't remember how much time she spent slowly healing from the pain, but the pain of emotional injury will remain in the aftermath no matter whether it heals or not. The reunion with Su Xi made Xizao's old love and unwillingness intensify, not to mention that what made Xizao even more unwilling was that Su Xi's husband turned out to be Zhou Mi.

Xi Zao, who just met Su Xi and Zhou Mi, once asked them, and she said, your relationship is so good, why didn't you choose to be together?

At that time, Su Xi had a look of disbelief, as if she thought such a question was ridiculous, she laughed and said to Xizao that it was impossible between her and Zhou Mi, they had been good buddies for many years, if We should have been together long ago.

Xizao also asked Zhou Mi before, and Zhou Mi just told her with an embarrassed smile that she had tried, but Su Xi didn't accept it, because the two of them were in the wrong position from the beginning.

But Xi Zao secretly thought that Zhou Mi was not worthy of Su Xi at all, but now that he thought about it, maybe there is no such thing as unworthy, because in Su Xi's eyes there is no question of whether it is a match or not. She doesn't like loneliness. She wants to be alone. All she wants is happiness and excitement, as long as a man happens to appear at the right time and in the right place and can give her these things, that's enough. No matter what the man is, that's why Xizao chose to leave in the first place, because From the beginning to the end, what Su Xi wanted was a man.

But even so, Xizao's heart that had finally calmed down was still muddy by Su Xi's words, becoming restless and ready to move.

"We can meet again, can't we?"

Everyone is no longer the ignorant and ignorant teenager in his early twenties. Now that he is an adult, he can understand how many layers of meaning and ambiguity there are in "meeting".

Compared with Xinyue's expectations, Xizao's inner confusion is more dominant now. She doesn't know how to choose. What she is more afraid of is that if she chooses the wrong one, the hurt and pain from the past will come to her for the second time. Zao no longer wants to experience that terrible emotional plague, it is like a devil, it will unknowingly torture people to death, and when it leaves, it will fill people with hidden pain that cannot be erased in a lifetime.It's just that if she gives up, will Xizao miss something? If the future ending is different from the past, will Xizao regret her life for her inaction.

After thinking for a long time, it is already five o'clock in the morning, and Xizao is still in a dilemma, and can't find a way out. After a sleepless night, Xizao's eyes are bloodshot, melancholy eyes, deep dark circles and messy hair. She was even more haggard and helpless, and she failed to find an answer. Now, perhaps only in that person can Xizao find help.

The window was already white, and the gentle morning breeze blew the half-covered curtains, so that the raging white light could easily creep into the dim room.The sparrows and domestic dogs in the community began to sing intermittently, barking low, sometimes clearly and sometimes vaguely.On the asphalt road outside the community, two or three cars began to appear, passing by in a hurry, the sound of motor vehicles running flickering, a new day had already begun, Xi Zao sighed, picked up the mobile phone beside the bed, she wanted to contact a people.

——Moyou, after so many years, is it still possible for me and her?

After a short period of silence, the vibrating sound of the mobile phone came from the quiet room soon.

— But didn't you say she already had a family?

— but I still want to try it.

—Did she give you a chance?

--Um.

——After all these years, she still has you in her heart, and you still can't let her go.

— That's why I came to ask you, I don't know what to do.

—Actually, you already have a choice, don’t you?

— but I don't know if it's right to do so.

——There is nothing right or wrong, just go according to your heart, if you decide, don’t regret it.

--Um.

——Let it be, don't think too much, if one day you can see that the final outcome may not be what you imagined, you must get out in time, so that the harm to the people around you will be much less.

--Um.

——Xizao, I am really worried about your appearance. I have to fly to China to see you in the near future.

——It’s true that you miss me.

Xizao chuckled, Moyou wanted to see that she still needed so many reasons, beating around the bush with a serious face.

——… You guessed it again, it’s been almost half a year since you came to Japan to see me last time, and I miss you.

——I miss you too, waiting for you.

--Um.