Fuzhou gossip gl

Rain, non-stop.

Just after lunch, Fang Zhiyuan walked up and down the room when he was feeling drowsy, and then went to the window to look around, feeling sad, pointing to the sky and saying to Guan Yukuo: "I think it's been raining for a while. I can't stop now, do you still want to go?" Guan Yuxuan also went to the window to take a look, the rain was a little lighter, but the clouds seemed to keep going, I'm afraid it won't take a day or two. But he couldn't stop talking, so he replied: "I think the rain is getting lighter. Since the adults said yesterday that they want to take me to see it, then let's go, otherwise it will be uncomfortable to keep hanging in my heart."

After the gentleman said, Fang Zhiyuan nodded and sent someone to bring two umbrellas and take Guan Yuzhen to the warehouse where the firearms were kept.

The warehouse and the station are not far away, the place is not big, just one floor.It was originally used by Mr. Dong as his own warehouse to store some rare but reluctant treasures, but after hearing Fang Zhiyuan said that he would come, he hurriedly evacuated all the things.There were four guards in front of the library, and when they saw that it was Fang Zhiyuan, they opened the door for him without saying a word, and then stood obediently outside the door to guard.It's funny to say, Mr. Dong is a chatterbox, but the little soldiers he brought out were all silent, as if they had stitches on their mouths. Fang Zhiyuan thought it was funny thinking about it, even if he laughed alone. I didn't tell Guan Yukuo the reason.

There is no window in the warehouse, and the door is closed and airtight all year round, isn't it?As soon as he opened the door, he could smell the earth air that had not seen the sun for a long time, which was very offensive.Fang Zhiyuan watched Guan Yuzheng frowning and covered his mouth with his hands without saying a word, so he walked in front of her and slapped her with his sleeve.The two then pushed the door wide open, firstly because the smell was really unpleasant and wanted to breathe, and secondly because there was no fire in the warehouse, so they had to open the door to borrow light.

The eyes are clear, and it can be seen that the five wooden carts are no different from yesterday, and they have never moved.Fang Zhiyuan looked left and right, thinking that it would take some effort to change a few cars, but this car is not good.It's God's will, when I came here, I was only on my way, but I missed the trip due to the rain, and had to wait for a batch of new cars. If I knew that the road would not be rushed, it would be hard for the people around me.No one can tell what God is thinking.

The wooden cart is original and looks a little old.After all, we are in Fuzhou, so we can't force anything good, just for temporary turnover, as long as it doesn't fall apart, anything is fine, Fang Zhiyuan thought so, and felt that he didn't want much.

The mouth is wide open, and what is inside can be seen clearly at a glance, which is quite optional.Mr. Dong, at the beginning, he was very relieved when he thought of using this kind of car to transport things. Fang Zhiyuan felt that it was not unreasonable for Fuzhou to be like a day for several years.After thinking about it, he walked around to the first car, led Guan Yukuo, and began to talk to her one by one in the car, some in detail, some in brief, so it was easy to see his preferences.There is also something that I like, but I can't talk about it if I want to talk about it. I just looked at him with a smile and said that his academics are still inexperienced, and he didn't dare to play tricks on others, lest his preconceived ideas might mislead others.If you meet someone who really understands, it will be exhaustive.The two walked back and forth, Fang Zhiyuan was talking, Guan Yukuang was listening, asking questions and nodding from time to time, and I won't repeat them in detail.

"This one is called Ming. Although it has the same name as our Ming, it is obviously not the same thing. In the past, there would be a lever with a matchlock clip on it, and a small bowl in front of it. □□ powder, now it is changed to granular. I learned from the crossbow, added a trigger, easy to aim, and the accuracy is also good. Later they were still making bullets, and they said they wanted to change it into a cone. I didn’t ask for it if I didn’t do it well.” After saying that, he patted the other car and said, “This one is called a shrapnel. You see, there is a fuze here, and it will explode before it hits the ground. It will cause great damage.” Then it went smoothly He grabbed a small boat and said, "I also asked for a model of a warship. They told me they had it before, but they hadn't seen it before. Now I hold it in my hand and think it's well done. The plywood mast is so detailed." After finishing speaking Pass it to Guan Yukuo to have a look.Guan Yufu played with it in his hand, said yes, and returned it to him.

Go to the end.Fang Zhiyuan touched a short-barreled gun on the last cart, picked it up, and said, "Let me teach you how to use it?" Guan Yufeng agreed, and loaded the pistol just like him, After loading it, she returned it to him. Fang Zhiyuan took it, and said to her: "Well, then aim first, then press this place, and just pull it out. The front-facing firearms will flourish, but from preparation to shooting place It takes too long, and if we talk about real combat, cavalry and light soldiers are still the main ones. It’s different now, and it’s very convenient to give them such a change.” After speaking, he threw the gun in his hand vertically upwards, and the gun It circled in the air and returned to his hand.Guan Yukuo smiled and told him not to play around, what would happen if something went wrong.Fang Zhiyuan shook his head, pointed at the gun and said, "No, this thing is well made, it's not so easy to go off."

He looked very laid back, like a child showing off his treasures to others, happy and content.He looked down at the gun, rubbed his sleeves with his hands, wiped the body of the gun and put it back in the car, saying, "Actually, it was ours before. The firearms were there in the previous dynasty, but they are now abolished." Guan Yufu was puzzled and asked him why.Fang Zhiyuan smiled and said that he didn't know too well. He patted the cart again, turned to look at her, his dark pupils reflected the light from the gate, deep but lonely, Finally, he said, "Probably because I don't like it."

When he said this, he lowered his head and looked at the ground. He was shaking and fluttering, and he didn’t know what he was thinking. It’s enough to understand the reasoning in front of you, and it’s still too late to chase. Just wait for the rain to stop, wait for the rain to stop, and wait for the transportation to Beijing, and all the big plans will be just around the corner. Don’t you think?”

These words are more like saying to the batch of firearms than to Guan Yukuo.

If it is really a blue sky avenue, straight and straight without branching, then it is indeed so.When the rain stops, the firearms will be transported as soon as the rain stops. When the firearms arrive, they will be presented to the saint. The saint will make a decree when he sees it. Once the decree is carried out, it will take effect.But there is not only one way.Guan Yuxuan replied "May everything be as the adults wish", keeping the understanding in his heart because he understands that the other party also understands, but he is just pretending to be confused.But pretending, after all, pretending, he will be uneasy, he will ask, he will knock on the window like drizzle, and reveal to you bit by bit the worries that fell into his dream, as if begging for something.

Fang Zhiyuan smiled slightly, felt the texture and texture of the gun with his hands, and said lightly: "I don't want to. I will."

When he said this, his eyes were too gentle, as if he was stroking a newborn baby, and he placed thousands of ardent hopes on him, hoping that he would grow up quickly, but at the same time he was very decisive, as if it contained thousands of unwavering determinations, Determined to go to the Northland battlefield with him.This made Guan Yukuo think of the well-trained dead soldiers in the history books.

"When the drums fail, the strength is exhausted; when the arrows are exhausted, the strings are cut; 』

The atmosphere in the warehouse suddenly became solemn.No one was talking, as if no one had ever spoken.The rain fell, the wind hit the door, and the city was full of rustling. The half-closed door was closed and the rain was light, listening to the patter of rain. When it came, the shoes and socks were wet, adding a bit of chill in this dim and warm place.How is this not like the current situation?She took a breath, made up her mind, and sighed again, unable to explain.

"Do you still remember what you said to me yesterday?"

Fang Zhiyuan still turned his back to her, facing the wall at the end of the warehouse.It was afternoon, the sky was dark with rain, the sun was covered by clouds and dizzy, there were no candles, no fire, no lights, the wind blew the fully open door half closed, but no guard came to help it.

It's like the gate of Nanliang.

No one came to help.

Fang Zhiyuan paused for a moment, but did not reply quickly. After a long time, he replied, "Why don't you remember?" His voice was as low as thunder in the rain.

There was a few feet between Guan Yuxuan and him, and even the voice he heard carried the sound of the wind, the sound of the wind breaking through the door, and the sound of the rain, and the sound of the rain, the rustling of the trees, rustling, rustling, rustling, rustling. Xiao Sa Xiao Sa, listening with her eyes closed, she felt a little dizzy and couldn't stand up.

And Fang Zhiyuan supported the truck with one hand, and listened to her, and listened to her.She said, "I understand in my heart."Oh, understand?understand what?It's not that Fang Zhiyuan doesn't know which riddle she's playing, he just wants to be more sure.

"What do you understand?" Fang Zhiyuan asked.

"Since your lord already knows, since you have already told me what happened yesterday and today, why do you need to keep it from yourself?"

In fact, Guan Yufu had wanted to say these words a long time ago.I have drawn it up thousands of times in my heart, but it still changes when I say it.Who is to blame?She was too impatient, and didn't want to take it step by step, just now, at this moment, she wanted to speak clearly with him once.She can't stand it anymore, every imagining, every imitation, is a kind of internal torture, as if she wants to empty out her grief and indignation for the old things, and empty out her love for him. In the end, a heart was left, empty, without even flesh and blood.

And the most painful thing is to chew all these sorrows and grievances in your mouth, and then express them in the best way.It's like building a dangerous building in my heart, walking alone on the deserted stage outside the suburbs of Beijing every night, performing it thousands of times, just for that one person to see.Guan Yuzhen really felt that he was a little bit dead.She's not that strong.She cried a lot when the house was ransacked, she cried a lot when her father passed away, she cried a lot at night in the bridal chamber, and she cried a lot in the closed courtyard.What's more, it coincides with the most unbearable rain in Fuzhou. The sky is overcast and makes people sad, and the wind makes people cry.

Full of sorrow and bitterness, but in exchange for lovesickness to fall asleep——

"What am I hiding from myself? I don't understand, so please tell me."

If I had known the bitterness and tears during the period, Xia Lei would be speechless——

"My lord, do you still remember that the emperor exempted you from the morning court for a month after we got married?"

"Remember."

One question and one answer.

"My lord, do you think it's enough to just find an official messenger to transport firearms?"

"I beg to differ."

One question and one answer.

"Does your lord know where all the things you presented at sea last time went?"

"So what are you trying to say? Are you trying to say this isn't going to go my way?"

Don't answer any questions.

Guan Yufu was very afraid, afraid that what he did was wrong, that what he said was bad, and that he would be hurt.But she was even more afraid, she was even more afraid that he would hurt himself.

The ups and downs of success or failure, but within this library, within a thought, within a question.Guan Yuxuan didn't dare to imagine how good it would be after it was done, and he didn't dare to imagine how bad it would be after it failed.But it will be one of them in the end, and all of this is man-made and can't be blamed on God's will.It is because all of this is man-made that we are afraid.Every time Guan Yuzheng thought of this, his heart would palpitate, and he felt that a huge burden was on his body, and the heaviest burden was his own happiness.

She has thought about it too many times.If it's really hard, just let it go.If it is really difficult, just be a fake couple with peace of mind.Why do I have to suffer like this?It's nothing more than caring about that person and thinking about it.And why do I care about that person?Maybe it's because he's young and talented, maybe it's because he's brilliant, maybe it's because he can recite poems with himself, maybe it's because he saved his life two years ago, maybe it's because he kept the Guan family's yard, maybe It's because his situation is too similar to Father's.There were so many perhaps that it was hard for her to tell which one it was.

"I don't know where it started, but it goes deeper and deeper." 』

As you go deeper and deeper, the more you read, the deeper you read.

Everything is possible, unknown, uncertain.Except love.It is true, it is beyond doubt, it goes mad in the middle of the night, weeps in the summer rain, and floods the embankment in worry.Guan Yuxuan hoped that he would just keep looking at the wall like this, so that he would not turn around and see himself holding back his tears, it was too immodest.

"Sir, since the words came out of your mouth, why do you need to ask me?"

However, this love is so deep that those who don't know don't notice it.

Fang Zhiyuan laughed loudly and said, "And then? Let me ask you, what should I do?"

There are hidden ravines between his brows, one deep and one shallow.The warehouse was too dark, and he was facing the wall again, no one could see the expression on his face at this moment, even Fang Zhiyuan himself didn't know what his expression was.This is the first person who questioned himself in this way, without being bureaucratic, and driving straight.This is probably the only person in this life who will question himself like this.

Walking alone so far, can there be any complaints?

There is a complaint, but with whom?He has always been a person, and has identified himself as a person.

Having said that, it was no longer possible for him to talk to her properly.It's just this place that can't be touched no matter what, but it's at this moment that the flames of war are on the top.I just heard him sneer and said: "You want me to learn from the Guan family, go and be free, why should I live in the garden, and go to retreat to keep a lifetime of peace and happiness? You want me to abandon the people of the world for a moment of happiness and a worry-free speech Don't care about it, abandon Daliang's foundation? Let me tell you Guan Yuxuan, what I hate the most is people like your Guan family! You clearly know that the sky is covered, but you throw hairpins out of the world and live your own peace. Are you at ease?"

Guan Yuzhen held the cart tightly, stepped forward and said, "My father was only one person back then, but he was against the entire court."

The car is old and the wood is old, and the wooden thorn sticks in the hand, the more painful the better.When the hand hurts, the heart doesn't hurt anymore.My heart no longer hurts, and I am not afraid to speak.

Fang Zhiyuan sneered and said, "Just because the roads are narrow and dangerous? Just because you don't see people? Just because the world is against me? It's ridiculous. But it's just to comfort you. There are never people who change the world with one person's plan. Few. Do you know Shang Yang? Qin Xiaogong got it and used it, and the reason why Qin won the world. Do you know Liuhou? The decisive victory is far away from thousands of miles, and the reason why Han won the world..."

At this moment, how can Guan Yufu allow him to continue telling self-deceiving lies?Add inconsistent monarchs and ministers to them.

Guan Yukuo spoke in a hurry, with a history in his haste: "You know Qu Zi? King Huai of Chu abandoned him, and he was forgotten in Xiangyuan. You know the Marquis of Huaiyin? He threw himself into the tent of the overlord, humiliated him and refused to use it. My lord once told me that his plan was the same from the beginning. How many years have you been speaking? How many times have you written in the middle of the night? How many times have you changed words and changed sentences? Is your lord so picky about words?"

Fang Zhiyuan returned quickly, with anger in his way: "Your Majesty will listen, and the courtiers will believe it. As long as I continue on this road, it is possible to reach the place I want to go. Days and evenings are waiting, how can I You don’t understand the principle of changing the middle way! You don’t understand, Guan Yuxuan, you don’t understand! You were born in the scholarly capital of the capital, and you haven’t experienced three years of severe drought. You have lived in the boudoir for a long time, and you don’t know the suffering of the people. You haven’t seen a war! It’s full of scars, and the words are still ringing in your ears! You don’t know what will happen if you let go. I said it! I’m not your Guan family! I can’t go back to the field, and I hate returning to the field the most in my life! I know that the emperor just betrothed you to you I just want to keep my ears clean. I know that this firearm can be transported by anyone. I know that the emperor will only pick the fun things I send, but so what? Is this the reason why I gave up my life ambitions? Is it because the emperor is stupid? Is it because the courtiers are ignorant? I am not such a free and easy person. It’s over! Guan Yukuo, I knew you were going to say these things, and since I asked you to say it, I just wanted to tell you , if you want to persuade me, please shut up."

After Fang Zhiyuan finished speaking, he let out a long sigh, as if he had never said so many words before.The grief and indignation in my heart, the resentment in my heart are clear, even if it is unreasonable, even if it is rude, I don't want to deny it.Fang Zhiyuan felt that he was not like a literati, he didn't have the air of a literati, he didn't have the gracefulness of a literati, he was sometimes anxious, angry at the crown, momentarily proud, brave but had nowhere to go.She is a woman, but she has an ambition that women in Nanliang cannot afford.At this moment, she is more like a warrior, going to kill the enemy, using the most primitive weapons, fighting between blood and blood, no longer needing to care about the infighting under the surface and the saint's reasoning that is useless even if she knows it.It starts with fighting and ends with fighting, how straightforward and joyful it is.

Those who are red-eyed will definitely not listen to persuasion, not to mention what Guan Yuzhen said has been denied ten thousand times in her heart.Don't want to stop, and don't be afraid to see the south wall!Even if you are alone, even if you are surrounded by hundreds of horsemen, you must swear to the death to break through.To die on the battlefield is to die well.It is unbearable for this soldier to betray the lord and turn to the enemy.

Guan Yufu was just an outsider, and to Fang Zhiyuan, he was just an outsider.passerby.A passerby who has been given rice for two years and is about to leave.During the time I had with this passer-by, it was good to have laughed, and it was fine if I didn't want to laugh.Because she is ruthless, because she has never been emotional, because she only treats her as a passer-by, so she can say anything, so she can't feel any kind of emotion.I can't feel it, so I don't know its depth.I don't know its depth, so I speak freely.

emotion.It means that those who are not emotional are invincible——

"Our husband and wife are fake. Two years later, you will follow your Yangguan Road, and I will take my single-plank bridge! Please don't wishful thinking here to change my mind! I am not Guan Qingyuan, and Fang Zhiyuan can't do it!"

Guan Yuzhen's heart was empty, and he couldn't say anything, not a single word.She wants to laugh because she feels stupid, she wants to laugh because she feels too ridiculous.She was suddenly at a loss, and she didn't understand why she was standing in this place, why she had to think so much about this person, and why she had to painstakingly say these things to him.Hurt yourself and annoy others.

She used to deal with merchants in Fuzhou.She knows what's a good deal and what's not.

This is the worst deal in the world.

This heart stops!This is the last time, Guan Yukuo feels that this is the last time he will do these things that hurt him, and he just wants to have no regrets.

"My lord, have you ever heard of the scorpion shaking the tree?"

Mayfly shaking the tree?

Sorrow and hatred intermingled, and the two emotions burned into the sky, how could such words be tolerated?Out of control, endless out of control, the longer you suppress it, the more you will lose control.Fang Zhiyuan picked up the gun and turned around, it was the one that Guan Yukuang had loaded with his own hands.He stared at her eyes without any emotion, without even blinking, pointed his gun at her head, and said, "Try to say it again."

No roaring.But it was more terrifying than roaring.

Some things are untouchable.It has already become a tight string, and at the most critical moment, someone will pull it, stimulate it, it will break, it will break, and it will make people crazy.

But what other way is there to do this?For such a person, ordinary methods are useless.

Guan Yuzhen was not surprised when she pointed the gun, she was also shocked that she stopped crying and trembling at that moment, as if everything didn't matter anymore.

yes.If you put it plainly and throw it away cleanly, what worries do you have?At this moment, she is also a dead man, a dead man who has already written a family letter, even if she dies at this moment, she will have no regrets, anyway, she is already bone-chilled.

This is the battlefield of two dead men.

Guan Yuxuan trembled and said, "If you want to change the fate of a country with one person's power, isn't it like a gnat may shake a tree?"

Fang Zhiyuan trembled and said, "Do you dare to say it again?"

Fang Zhiyuan understood that what he said was nonsense.But what else could she say besides nonsense?Because she didn't even know what the reason was in her heart.The things used to deceive oneself have always been untenable.It takes many, many nights to lie to myself.Now that he has suffered such direct doubts, there is no such thing as reason, what is left is only emotions, the importance of the country, the resentment of incompetence, and the resentment of the person in front of him who has made everything clear.Why tell me now!I do not want to know.

"Are you highly valued? Do you have colleagues? Can you restrain the civil and military forces of the Manchu Dynasty? Are you still saying that you are not a gnat and a tree?"

"Believe it or not, I'm here to kill you."

funny.Everything that happened in the warehouse today made Guan Yufu feel funny.The person in front of him is weak, even weaker than Fang Zhiyuan in his imagination.If he killed himself with a single shot, he might still respect his determination, but now that he asked twice, it seemed that he was begging himself, begging himself to persuade him.

That's the way people are.When you see someone you like, you will chase after it, regardless of the reason, whatever means, or the consequences, just out of liking.And what is like?No one can tell.As long as you know you like it, that's enough.Even if you know the unfortunate ending through rational judgment at the beginning, you will still want to try it. Moths fly to the fire, love is like a magic barrier, and all enlightenment and etiquette are empty.And those who have been washed, in other words, intellectuality, will remind you unconsciously, telling you that this thing is not available, what you want to do is impossible, they enter your dream in the middle of the night Come, come into your mind when you have nothing to do, and try every means to shake your so-called meaningless persistence.

The more intelligent a person is, the harder it is to deceive himself.

But what if he really deceived himself?It can be seen that the pain is severe and the thoughts are deep.

What scruples does Guan Yufu have at this moment?She didn't have any scruples anymore, she just wanted to speak out and speak more clearly.

And who did I give my heart to, and who crushed it.

"So what if you kill me here? If you kill me, your dream can come true, and the anxiety in your heart can be eliminated, so just kill me!" She smiled, laughing at how rampant she was as a woman.She is not a lady of the heart, a person who climbed the wall and was discharged from the hospital when she was young, who can suppress it longer than whom?

She continued to laugh, and then asked: "Do you really think I don't understand anything? Do you feel sad at night, my lord? Are you worried, my lord? Are you sad, my lord? Do you feel at ease? Do you know that you can force yourself to go?" How far? I grew up in the Guanfu, saw my father frustrated, and read his articles. Do you know what I saw later? I saw him go to jail! I saw him die of illness in prison!"

She called him my lord, and she didn't know whether she was crying or laughing.

"Your Excellency, why do I say this here? Am I trying to ridicule you? Do you want you to shoot me? I, Guan Yufeng, are not related to you. Why do I say this? I'm bored Do I want to die? I have seen it once, and I can't bear to see it a second time!"

"I care too much about your life or death!"

Tears finally could not hold back.

It's time to end.The gun in Fang Zhiyuan's hand fell to the ground, and the sound of the landing was frighteningly clear.

Guan Yuxuan turned around and ran out with tears in his eyes and rain outside.

***

The rain in Fuzhou is the worst, it's like soaking the bones, it's cold to the heart.

If the heart is hot, why fear the rain?

But... what if the heart is cold?

The author has something to say:

Generally, I give sugar to indicate that we want to quarrel.

20190805: I edited it. After many years, this article still gave me a lot of shock.