I thrived on straight balls [entertainment]

After Ling Feng explained the situation to both parties, he left, leaving Ruan Youtian and the seven strangers staring at each other.

Ruan Youtian is not very good at communicating in this kind of multi-person situation, and in an unfamiliar environment where he was unprepared, the more nervous he becomes, the calmer he becomes. He has an aura of keeping strangers away, and even the simplest greeting will appear extremely stiff .

Many times, in order to avoid embarrassment and other people's prying eyes on him, he tried his best to avoid such occasions. Over time, the vicious circle made him get farther and farther away from the crowd, and he entered a vicious circle that closed himself, and he was not prepared to change.

Leng Xiaoyang, as Ruan Youtian's key focus in trying to figure out the script, knew the company's intentions in advance. He didn't resist it in his heart, and he didn't feel sad because he missed the role, so he accepted Ruan Youtian very well.He will be a little shy when meeting strangers for the first time, but after getting to know him, he is completely a little sunny personality, very easy to get along with.At this time, Leng Xiaoyang watched Ruan Youtian standing motionless at the door, so he walked over to say hello.

"Hi, my name is Leng Xiao Yang. The Xiao of a good night, Yang of the rising sun."

Leng Xiaoyang, the main dancer of MIRACLE, the sweetheart of the team at 1.7 meters seven.There is a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes, and when you smile, it will be like a crescent moon, which can instantly shorten the distance between strangers and break the defensive psychology of the other party.

Ruan Youtian shook Leng Xiaoyang's hand, trying to make his tone sound as springlike as possible, "Hello, my name is Ruan Youtian."

Leng Xiaoyang's eyes lit up when he heard his name, and he blurted out the compliment, "Wow, your name sounds so good! It's as good-looking as you are!"

After he finished speaking, he realized that some boys don’t like to be praised for their good looks, and belatedly worry about being abrupt, so he hurriedly made up for it: "I really think you are handsome, not to say that you look like a mother...if your mother is too When I look like me, they all say I'm not masculine hahaha."

Ruan Youtian didn't expect Leng Xiaoyang's real personality to be so approachable, even a little confused in rough lines. Seeing him embarrassed and afraid of being misunderstood, he gradually relaxed, and simply admitted: "No one stipulates that boys must It’s not wrong to be masculine, fair-looking, or delicate and cute, and being different doesn’t mean you’re different, and no one has the right to slander an existence that doesn’t match your predictions, whether it’s appearance or body shape.”

"You are very cute, very handsome, very good-looking, and very beautiful." Ruan Youtian said sincerely.

He seldom talks with others about things involving three views and life choices. He doesn't want others to interfere in his life, so he doesn't want to care about others' opinions.Traveling alone so far, he has never cared about anything, and even speaking of it, he is indifferent.But now I don't know why, maybe it's the similar age, or the other party's inexplicable eye for him, Ruan Youtian doesn't want to hide his point of view.

What he said was not to ease the embarrassing scene, nor was it tacit and false flattery of an adult. He spoke the truth and his expression was serious. Others really could not doubt his sincerity, and could not lie about his sincerity.

As for the party involved, Leng Xiaoyang, he was also very surprised by Ruan Youtian's answer, and immediately smiled happier, and asked softly: "Really? Thank you."

After he finished speaking, the others also came forward to say hello one by one. Ruan Youtian has a good memory, and MIRACLE is not a CtrlC+CtrlV little fresh meat coming out of the assembly line.

At noon, Ruan Youtian went to the company canteen for dinner with MIRACLE and the others. Leng Xiaoyang and the others had been preparing for the concert. Not only did they train intensively, but they also had to control their diet. Haruka's description makes it suddenly seem that body management is a deep-seated habit for idol artists.

Leng Xiao rested his chin and watched the others eat, chatting with Ruan Youtian in between.Although most of it was his unilateral output, Ruan Youtian didn't feel disgusted. Instead, he seemed to have regained the feeling of eating in the cafeteria in middle school.

"Eat more."

Ruan Youtian looked up, and the person who was talking was Lu Ningan who was sitting next to Leng Xiaoyang, who was in charge of rapping in the MIRACLE team, the youngest at 1.8 meters [-], the tallest in the team, quite big.

Leng Xiao shook his head, "I can't eat, I have no appetite."

Lu Ningan didn't listen, and simply put all the untouched meat on his dinner plate into Leng Xiaoyang's plate, "After eating these, you will eat more if you don't have an appetite. How can you practice if you don't have the energy? Be obedient."

Leng Xiaoyang turned his head to look at Lu Ning'an, protesting with his eyes.

Lu Ning'an didn't speak, just raised his eyebrows, glanced at the plate again, and signaled him to eat quickly.

Leng Xiao has nothing to do, so he can only eat aggrievedly.

Ruan Youtian watched from the side, and felt that their way of getting along was very special, as if Lu Ning'an was the older brother.The other members should be used to it and didn't respond.Ruan Youtian began to wonder what the daily life of an idol group was like.

In the script of "Starlight", there is a part of the description of the life of the male protagonist Lu Qiyao's trainees. When Ruan Youtian experienced it, he still couldn't fully feel the desire, pursuit or even anxiety.

Reminiscent of the changes in the world in the later period of "Starlight", he will also think about the way of getting along and the choice of paths for multi-person groups. Is the mutual support for several years a light for each other in the dark stages of life, or is it a cheap thing that can be replaced everywhere?

If it is each other's light, then why in the new stage of life, teammates who should be very close become strangers?Is it just because we can share adversity but not share happiness?Ruan Youtian didn't understand, because he had never had this kind of experience, let alone feel it.

He also used this group life of trainees into his own family environment, but he and his parents never got along like friends, let alone encourage each other.Later he thought, even if they stay together day and night for a few years, can each other's hearts really be drawn closer?Can teammates really become like family?If this major premise is all doubtful words waiting to be proved, then everything after that will not need to be a sharp weapon that can hurt people.

——What can hurt people's hearts is always people's hearts.

Ruan Youtian has always had a question mark in his heart, so he still has unprecedented expectations for the observation and getting along with MIRACLE. He tried to find the answer within half a month, but he was also worried that the answer he found would not be universal.But he has contradictions. Every group has its own development track. As a bystander, even if he wants to become one in ten million of the interpretation of these ten million cases, and become a witness in the play, then what he has experienced Can specificity and imaginary universality be well unified?And does the universality I want really exist?

Ruan Youtian looked at MIRACLE who practiced repeatedly for a formation and even details in the practice room, and wondered why he must seek the universal existence of idol groups?Compared with everything in common, if an idol group wants to get rid of the factory flow, isn't the charm of personality more important?

Throughout the afternoon, Ruan Youtian sat in a corner of the practice room, looking in the mirror at MIRACLE who was rehearsing closely, and could clearly capture the moment and form of sweat falling from the corner of his forehead.

Every gasp they took, every high-five caused the air to vibrate, every sound of friction between shoe soles and the floor, all brought a 7-fold shock to Ruan Youtian's cognition.

These people never seem to be tired, even if they are very tired, they seem to be smiling, happy, and not complaining.Now there is no camera around, no chasing light, they are completely real in private, and they will not pretend just because there is one more person in the room.The tight rehearsal schedule does not allow laziness and sloppy, and this group of people only have the burden of idols when they meet for the first time.

Ruan Youtian was observing and taking notes, and the notebook in his hand was filled with words and sentences that only he could understand——

"Sweat, slippery floors, rubbing soles

move, jump, stretch, clap

flushed face, sweaty hair, wheezing

time shake, mirror, practice, repeat

Tired, light in the eyes, love"

Connected in series, it is probably called behind the stage.

"Huh, I'm really tired."

A few people finished their dinner in a hurry. At eight o'clock, everyone sat on the floor in a crooked manner to rest.Leng Xiaoyang came to look for Ruan Youtian, fearing that he would hate the smell of sweat on his body, so he sat down a meter away, "What are you writing?"

Ruan Youtian showed him the notebook, "Observation diary? Well, write it down and write whatever comes to mind."

"You look good at writing." Leng Xiaoyang returned the notebook, "I haven't picked up a pen for a long time, I almost forgot what it feels like to write."

Leng Xiaoyang is a person who is very good at discovering the strengths of others, like a walking group of boasters, sincere and simple, will not make people feel perfunctory, and will be happy from the bottom of his heart.

But Ruan Youtian was obviously still not used to this kind of praise, so he could only change the subject abruptly, "Do you guys have to practice late every day?"

Leng Xiaoyang leaned against the wall, straightened his legs and said while beating: "It's almost nine o'clock every day. It's much better now. I practiced until eleven o'clock a few days ago."

Leng Xiao stretched, "But it's also because of preparations for the concert, and I usually don't have a lot of time for this kind of intensive practice."

Lu Ningan handed over a bottle of water and asked Ruan Youtian, "Come and eat with us, order buns and meat porridge." Then he said to Leng Xiao: "I ordered corn stuffing for you."

Leng Xiaoyang pinched Lu Ning'an's earlobe subconsciously, "You are so good, thank you Ning'an."

Ruan Youtian doesn't like to take advantage of others, especially things like favors, one point owed must be paid back two points, being taken care of, cared about, not neglected, not being hostile, these seemingly ordinary interpersonal relationships that can be found everywhere For myself, it is really more difficult than ascending to the sky.Ruan Youtian didn't want to be dragged by favors, not only didn't want to be restrained, but also feared that after the favors broke up, only her own emptiness and coldness would be left.

"Had I not seen the Sun

I could have borne the shade"

But before he could utter his words of refusal, Leng Xiaoyang had already played his cards out of common sense, and said happily to himself: "The steamed stuffed buns here are delicious, and they ordered a lot, so don't be polite, just treat them as This is our welcome banquet for you!"

The author has something to say: HadInotseentheSun

I could have borne the shade

——Had Inotseen the Sun (Emily Dickinson)