Be Dazai's mother

The monitor in the room was flashing red, faithfully recording everything.Under the watchful eyes of Ms. Hongye and Mr. Mori, I walked up to Aji and squatted down, and said in a cold manner: "I am Sato Kyoko, Dr. Mori's nurse, and I will help Dazai-kun take your temperature next time, I hope you can Get up."

This overly businesslike look of mine is enough to intimidate an ordinary, sick child.

"Well, I see, Miss Sato Kyoko." And Aji just looked at me with strange eyes, and slowly showed a shallow smile.

I restrained my almost uncontrollable trembling with a blank face, and took out the thermometer to measure Azhi's temperature.

The room was terribly silent, whether it was Mr. Mori, Miss Hongye, or Aji in front of me, all watched my movements with similar calm eyes.

After the temperature was measured, I found that Azhi had a low-grade fever, which was not serious. He would be fine after taking some medicine and sleeping for a while.I felt relieved and couldn't help but take another look at Azhi—although he has grown taller and his body has become stronger a few days ago, Azhi is still a little thin, especially when he is sick. Pale.

I stabilized myself, and quietly returned to Mr. Mori's side as if nothing had happened, lowering my head and waiting for the other party's instructions.

Mr. Mori, who is a doctor, asked me about the measured body temperature and looked at Aji over there: "Dazai-kun, I will ask someone to bring you some medicine. You should sleep for a while after eating."

Having said that, Mr. Mori sent someone to bring medicine to Azhi. After he chatted a few words, he looked outside at the gradually darkening sky, sighed with some melancholy, and said, "Time It always goes by so fast, it will be dark soon, and it always feels a little lonely."

"But when it gets dark, it's time for the Mafia, right? Mr. Hongye." Mr. Mori looked at Hongye with a smile.

Miss Hongye just looked at him and didn't speak.

Before Ms. Hongye could respond, Mr. Mori stopped looking at her, turned to me and said, "Okay, the next thing we can't participate in, it's time to leave, Ms. Kyoko, let's go. "

I nodded, not daring to look at Azhi again because of the monitor.

Even if I wish so much to just grab Azhi's hand and take him away, I also know that this is not a good time, and taking Azhi away rashly will only lead to a tragic end.

I lowered my eyes, wishing that a meteorite would fall or the leader of Hong Kong gangsters would suddenly die suddenly, so that I could grab Azhi's hand and run away with him without any scruples.

But delusion is just delusion after all, no matter how I imagine it, it will not become reality.I lowered my eyes and followed Mr. Mori out of the room with him.

With a "click", the door closed.

Mr. Sen and I were silent all the way, until we walked out of the building of the port mafia headquarters together, Mr. Sen lowered his voice and asked, "Do you remember?"

I nodded silently.

What Mr. Mori said was the internal route of the Port Mafia. According to the plan, when Mr. Mori and Fukuzawa are doing their own things now, I will grab Aji's hand and run out of the Port Mafia.

Before taking me to the building of the port mafia headquarters this time, Mr. Mori and I emphasized several times that we must write down the safe route, otherwise Azhi and I will be in danger.

Although Azhi is very smart, he has a good memory.But when he was caught, he was in a semi-comatose state, and since then he has been locked in the room by the gang leader and cannot get out. Naturally, he has no way to know the route.True, he could reason it out, but it would take some time.

And every second in the process of fleeing is extremely precious. Naturally, it is best for me to take Azhi and run directly after writing it down.

Next, I am going to rest at the place Mr. Mori prepared for me in advance, and until the moment the plan is officially implemented, I must live as "Kyoko Sato".

At the moment before parting, Mr. Mori looked at me thoughtfully and said, "You are working harder than I imagined."

I blankly recalled what I did just now, and felt that everything I did should be within the normal range?But maybe I just did something wrong to annoy Mr. Sen, otherwise why would he suddenly say such inexplicable words.

"Thanks?" I said uncertainly.

Mr. Sen smiled and left without saying anything.

But I couldn't figure it out, so I could only walk silently to the temporary residence.At this time, I didn't expect that I would see a somewhat unexpected person when I returned to the temporary residence.

"Akiko?" As soon as I opened the door, I saw a black-haired girl sitting on the sofa in the living room, and I shouted in surprise.

Shouldn't Akiko stay at home at this time?

According to Edogawa Ranpo's calculations, the armed detective agency involved in this matter is likely to be exposed to everyone's sight.In order to protect Akiko and keep her from being harmed as much as possible, Mr. Fukuzawa asked her to go home and hide.

By the way, it's not that Mr. Fukuzawa has never thought of asking someone to protect Akiko, but the power of "Please don't die" is so attractive that even Mr. Fukuzawa can't guarantee that the person who will come over will be guaranteed. Will it threaten Akiko in turn?

The most important thing is that after Edogawa Ranpo read it, he said for some reason that Akiko just stayed at home.

Maybe he saw something with the same extremely powerful ability "Super Reasoning"?

If Edogawa Ranpo doesn't say anything, I'm too embarrassed to ask.Both Mr. Fukuzawa and Akiko had extraordinary absolute trust in Edogawa Ranpo, and after hearing what he said, they did what he said.

But I didn't expect to see her at home.

"Xingzi." Akiko called me, then rolled her eyes suddenly, and said, "No, you are Kyoko now."

I took off my coat, walked over in some surprise and asked, "Why is Akiko here?"

Akiko pursed her lips and said, "I asked Mr. Sen last night."

She was silent for a while, looked at me and said, "I don't know why, but I always feel that you may need someone to talk to when you come back from the Port Mafia."

"Don't worry, I came here secretly. Anyway, I have been in the army for a while, and I have been taught by the president in my spare time. I am clear about whether I have been followed. Of course, just in case I She also wore makeup when she came here."

Akiko said with a grin, with a childish innocence in the smile on her face.

I sat beside Akiko, poked her forehead helplessly, and subconsciously said in an elder tone: "You."

Akiko blushed, laughed a few times, then looked at me with worried eyes and said, "But are you okay? You didn't look well when you came back."

"Really?" I touched my face, but couldn't find anything, I could only stare at Akiko stupidly.

Akiko nodded and said, "If you don't mind, can you tell me what happened in the port mafia?"

She muttered awkwardly: "Because Xingzi, you seem to be a listener who often listens to other people's affairs but rarely talks about yourself, and you are usually a repressed and forbearing character, so I wonder if you will hold back?" It's hard."

"Hmm..." I scratched my cheeks hesitantly, and said, "It's a bit strange to talk to Akiko? After all, you are much younger than me, so it's impossible for me to act like a baby to a girl younger than me. "

"Don't worry about this at a time like this." Akiko turned around, pressed my cheeks with both hands, and said, "Tell me quickly, what happened, did you say that you didn't see Azhi? Otherwise, when you come back Why do you look so out of your mind?"

"Ha..." Seeing Akiko's insistence, I hesitated for a second, and opened my mouth after sorting out my words.

"How should I say it? Contrary to what you imagined, I saw Azhi." I said in a somewhat erratic tone.

"Then why do you look sad?" Akiko asked.

"Probably because Azhi is ill." I took a deep breath, calmed my throbbing heart, and said, "That child has been in poor health since before. You know it, Akiko. The first time I met you, Azhi also fell ill when I was temporarily staying at your house."

"I have had a headache for a long time because of Azhi's poor health, and I was so anxious that I thought about what should I do if Azhi died of illness one day?"

"Of course, during this period of time, his body has indeed improved a lot. As long as he recuperates for a while, he will definitely be able to run around and dance around like a normal child."

"It's just that he suddenly encountered such a thing, and was forced to go to an unfamiliar place, and he started to get sick again. Fortunately, it was only a low-grade fever, and he would be fine after a short sleep."

Akiko, who was worried and thought that Azhi was seriously ill, was relieved, looked at me helplessly and said, "You don't have to worry too much."

She recalled the memories from a long time ago, and said in a raving tone: "Since the past, Sachiko has been easy to put too much pressure on herself."

"Is that so?" I said suspiciously.

"Yes." Akiko poured out a cup of hot water and handed it to me, saying, "Sometimes I think you are good at everything, Sachiko, but you don't love yourself too much. It's like using all the love to love Just like everyone else."

"This kind of statement is too exaggerated, it always makes people feel a little shy." I scratched my cheek and took a sip of hot water.

Swallowing the warm water from the throat brought a warm feeling, which made me relax a little.

Akiko raised her eyebrows and didn't continue talking on this topic. She put her hands on her hips and continued to ask: "Okay, let's talk about something else. It shouldn't be just about Azhi's illness, right? There are other things under pressure In your heart, otherwise you wouldn't be in such a worried look."

"Well, yes..." I put my finger on my chin and said, "You know, I am Yi Rong who entered the port mafia."

Crystal nodded.

I continued: "The name is also 'Kyoko Sato', and the identity is the nurse next to Mr. Mori."

"Because the child was sick, the leader of Hong Kong gangsters asked Mr. Sen to visit him. Naturally, I went with Mr. Sen."

"Oh, although I thought about whether Azhi would get sick after going to the port mafia before coming here, I couldn't help but raise my mind when I found out. Fortunately, it was only a low-grade fever, and I was relieved."

"And then? Then Mr. Mori asked me to take Aji's temperature, so I took it. It was 37 degrees, low-grade fever, nothing serious. As "Kyoko Sato" and "Osamu Dazai" are just strangers, Naturally, there was no way to do extra things, I returned to Mr. Mori's side after taking my body temperature in a businesslike manner."

"I don't know if that child recognized me. After all, I can't even recognize the face of 'Sato Kyoko', and the voice has been disguised. Even if I can't recognize it, it's normal."

"Of course, no matter what, we couldn't recognize each other in that situation. It's a matter of course. Mr. Mori took me there just so that I could remember the way. There was a girl named Hongye beside me, There are also monitors in the room, no matter what, it is not a good time to recognize each other."

Although I was said to have a depressed personality, I was actually a nagging one. After holding back for a long time, I couldn't help but say those words when I met Akiko.Nothing big, trivial and boring.

After reading a lot, I realized how long-winded I was. I covered my mouth in embarrassment, and said with red ears, "I'm so sorry for being so long-winded."

"It's nothing." Akiko looked at me with her face propped up, and said, "It's better to say that you can tell me about yourself, I'm quite happy."

"It's kind of embarrassing to be comforted by a kid so much younger than me," I said wryly.

Akiko laughed at me jokingly: "You were saved by a much younger child."

"That's it." I clasped my hands together and said with some exaggeration: "I really appreciate Master Jingzi's help!"

"You're welcome, just offer dim sum as a tribute in the future." Akiko covered her mouth and smiled.

After that, Akiko listened to my other nagging.Thinking about it carefully, after being reborn on Mei's body, besides Sayuri, I don't seem to have any other friends.Although Mrs. Nana is a nice person, the relationship between me and her is not so much a friend, but a rescuer and a rescued.

After Sawada Iemitsu agreed to help me, the degree of this kind of help went to another level.

What's more, Mrs. Nana is very enthusiastic, but I actually went to her house two or three times before, and these times I went to the other party for help. Aji and Mrs. Nana's child, Gang, only met once. Azhi almost made him cry.

The topic is brought back.In any case, at this moment, I do feel a unique, warm and soft profound friendship between women in Akiko.

This also made me, who has always had a little boundary with others, unable to say more.

"So, how should I put it..." After talking a lot about Aji with Akiko, I smiled wryly and said, "I always feel that there is something I haven't done well enough."

"Why do you think so?" Akiko asked with a strange face.

I didn't know where to say it, and said distressedly: "In fact, I always feel that I am not doing well enough."

I lowered my head and lowered my eyes, and crossed my fingers on my lap. As my mood fluctuated, the clasped hands became more and more vigorous. I said, "I can't give Azhi a rich life, and I can't give him a carefree life." I can’t give him a more correct answer even when he is suffering from some life problems.”

"Although parents have to set an example for their children, I have always been like this ineffective and useless person."

"I was just thinking, should I have done better? Did I not do well enough? If I could have done a little better, a little better, maybe Azhi would not have been arrested now. "

Having said that, I smiled wryly, turned my head to look at Akiko, and said with a somewhat apologetic expression, "I'm sorry, I'm always so useless."

Akiko lost the smile just now, she frowned and pursed her lips, looking very unhappy.

I felt a little flustered because of her expression, thinking that she would look down on me because of this, so I couldn't help calling in a low voice: "Jingzi?"

Akiko looked straight at me, then reached out and slapped me on the head!

"It hurts!" I subconsciously covered my head in pain, stared at Akiko in confusion, and shouted in an unsteady voice, "Jing, Akiko?"

"Let me tell you." Akiko crossed her hands in dissatisfaction and said, "Xingzi, did you make a mistake?"

"What's wrong?" I repeated her words blankly.

Akiko sighed deeply, and said wearily, "You are so keen on other people's affairs, why did you walk into a dead end when it was you?"

"Sorry?" I said suspiciously.

"Don't always say sorry, Xingzi, you idiot." Akiko said angrily, "So, there must be a limit to narcissism!"

"We are not gods, but just one of the many human beings in the world. Even if we don't want to accept it, we have to admit that none of us are perfect. It's better to say that our flaws are as numerous as stars. We all have various pits and scars on our bodies."

"It's only natural to think about whether we are not doing well enough. After all, none of us can live in the most perfect posture. Rather, most people do their best just to survive."

"This posture of struggling to live is itself embarrassing and ugly, but even so, I think it is very beautiful. Because this posture represents the weight of life." Akiko looked at me seriously and said: "You are always blaming yourself, thinking that it is all your fault, that you are not doing well enough, but in my eyes, you have worked hard to do your best, don't be so narcissistic that you take all your mistakes to yourself."

I stared blankly at Akiko, lowered my head like a stiff wooden man, and couldn't help sobbing again.

Akiko sighed, leaned over and hugged me tightly.The warmth from her body reassured me.

"But Sachiko, you are the type who is prone to mental instability, and you have always pretended to be strong because of Aji. This time the port mafia has brought you a lot of shocks, right? I was similar to you back then, right? When I was taken to the army by Mr. Sen and smelled the blood on everyone, I was also a little bit shocked. After all, my father has always protected me very well before, and Mr. Sen is very good at hiding himself. When the other side of the world When it was completely peeled off in front of me, I was also frightened."

"The atmosphere in the port mafia will only be more terrifying? After all, those guys are people who step on darkness and death violence. People like you, Sachiko, who have never really experienced it before and have a high ability to empathize, go there. It’s normal to come back and get hit.”

Akiko remembered something again, looked at me helplessly and said, "Also, you secretly took medicine from Mr. Mori, right? Because the body is still remembering the pain. But after all, that pain is not physical but psychological. You still have to survive on your own. But back then, even your internal organs were dragged out of the hole in your stomach, and to your surprise, your perception ability was much stronger than others, and your body suffered from memory pain. And shaking to the point of convulsions and vomiting is also a normal thing."

Akiko accidentally said a lot of words, she is actually not the type of a lot of words, but this time she kept talking as if trying her best to comfort me, under her gentle voice, I couldn't help but feel a kind of inner the peace of mind.

Akiko hugged me, rubbed against me like a small animal, and said: "I can understand your mood. After all, you are also a first-time mother. Instead of worrying about it here, why not try to be with Azhi explore."

"If you feel tired but can't show it in front of Aji, you can come and chat with me at any time."

Akiko closed her eyes, with a peaceful and gentle smile on her lips, she said, "No matter what, you have really worked hard."

Why does everyone who meets me say I've worked so hard?Obviously I still have a lot of things that I haven't done well, I'm clumsy and useless, and I still cry a lot.

Don't be so gentle with me, scold me directly, deny me, accuse me of being so useless, just say that people like me shouldn't be born in this world.

If you are so gentle to me, I can't help but want to cry, right?

I thought so, stretched out my hand to cover my eyes, choked up and nodded.

"This time, Aji must be rescued, and then the two of them will live as 'family' as before." Akiko said softly.

I clenched my fist and answered seriously.

···

Meanwhile the port mafia.

It was already dark, and the boy named Osamu Dazai who was locked in the room woke up.At this time, he was lying on the bed. After taking the medicine given by Mori Ogai in the afternoon, Osamu Dazai fell asleep and felt that the fever had subsided now.

It's just that his body still feels tired, which makes him not intend to get up from the bed.

The cold moonlight spilled into the dark room through the window, illuminating the porridge on the table.Osamu Dazai glanced at the porridge, and understood that it was sent by the woman named Koyo Ozaki, but he had no desire to eat for the time being.

Osamu Dazai closed his eyes, and suddenly thought of the woman named Kyoko Sato who came over with Mr. Mori in the afternoon.

To be honest, even if he didn't know that Sachiko was the only one brought here by Mr. Mori at this time, Dazai Osamu had already recognized her.

After all, no one in this world except Sachiko would look at him with that kind of eyes, right?With the eyes that seem to be looking at the most precious thing in the world.

Moreover, it was just as Sachiko had made an appointment with him before.No matter where the two are, their hearts are also connected.

This deep connection also made Osamu Dazai recognize her when he first saw "Kyoko Sato".

The boy lying on the bed looked down at his little finger, closed his eyes, and called softly: "Sachiko..."

Mother...