Be Dazai's mother

"Is it cold?" I asked worriedly.

Master Xiuzhi——No, it should be called Azhi now. Azhi shook his head and said, "It's not cold."

"Really?" It's early spring, the weather is still a bit cold, and Azhi's health is relatively poor. I'm afraid he'll catch a cold.

Aji, who put on a thick layer of clothing because of my worry, sighed and said, "It's really not cold."

At this time, we are preparing to go to the train station. As for why we are at the train station now, we have to start when we left the illusion.

After escaping from the illusion, we turned around and saw only the abandoned Tsushima house.After a while, the drug seller came out with a medicine box on his back.

When I saw him, I immediately understood that most of the illusion inside had been cut to pieces, and the ghosts who remained in the illusion had naturally disappeared.

Thinking of everything that happened in the past few days, I can't help but feel a little melancholy, especially when I think of Mei, Sayuri, and Mami-san, the melancholy in my heart is piled up in my heart like a stone.

Master Xiuzhi raised his head to look at me. Although there was no expression on his face, I knew he was a little worried about me.I shook my head at him and said, "I'm fine."

I looked at the drug seller, and said politely: "Mr. Yaolang, I'm really sorry for your inconvenience." He could have just pulled out the magic sword and killed him when he learned about the "form", "truth" and "reason". However, under my begging, I had to delay for a while to let me escape with Master Xiuzhi.At this time, the handsome man who was originally like the noble son also became a little embarrassed, his face with bright makeup was stained with dust and blood.

"It's nothing." The drug seller lowered his eyes, and said lightly, still with the usual half-smile, "Speaking of which, have you thought about what to do next?"

"Well, we're going to Fuyuki City." I brushed my hair back from my ears.

Next, I will definitely go to Fuyuki City first.Because I made an appointment to go to Fuyuki City to see the cherry blossoms together, and I have to go back to her hometown for Mei.

Another shameful thing to say is that if possible, I hope to seek help from Mei's parents.Of course, it's only natural to be rejected, after all, I'm just a thief who has occupied someone else's body.Mei also stayed in that illusion completely to help me, and was eliminated by the medicine seller in the end.

If it was just me, I would definitely not be able to put down this face to ask for help, but now that Master Xiuzhi is by my side, no matter what, I have to put down this face to ask for help.At least the child must be able to go to school and live a peaceful life.

I can do anything for this.

"Where's Mr. Medicine Seller?" I asked.

"I will look for the next monster." The medicine seller said, "But you are going to Fuyuki City?"

"What's wrong? Is there something wrong there?" I asked suspiciously.

The drug seller pondered for a while, and said, "I don't know the details. It's just that there seems to be something mysterious in that place. You'd better not stay there for a long time."

I glanced at him blankly, not sure what the "more mysterious thing" the drug seller was talking about, could it be another ghost?No matter what, I still kept the reminder of the drug seller in my heart, and thanked him: "I see, thank you, Mr. Drug seller."

The drug seller shook his head, glanced at Master Xiuzhi whom I was leading, and said, "Leaving aside the situation in Fuyuki City for now, do you have any plans on how to get to Fuyuki City?"

I sighed in my heart that although Mr. Yaolang looked extremely cold, he was unexpectedly very enthusiastic.In other words, from the two questions he threw at me, asking me whether I should run away directly or take Master Xiuzhi with me, and I chose Master Xiuzhi and said, "If he really doesn't want to leave here, then I will accompany him." He has always been here." After saying this, Mr. Yaolang's attitude towards me became gentle.

This strange and indifferent man who looks like a monster unexpectedly has such a soft side as a "human".

However, how to get to Fuyuki City really troubled me.Sure enough, should I find a job near here first?Otherwise, not to mention the travel expenses, even the food expenses on the road have become a problem.

Master Xiuzhi tugged at my sleeve, and when I looked over, he said, "If you're worrying about this, why don't we search the house for anything else that can be used?"

I looked at the dilapidated Tsushima house, and suddenly realized that I hammered my palm and said, "That's right!"

Although the gang of thieves robbed the Tsushima family's things at the beginning, they couldn't take everything away after all.And after the thieves killed the servants and fled, the Tsushima family was dragged into the illusion by the resentment of the servants after their death, so no one else came to "find the leak", maybe there would be something left for us use it.

I couldn't help but praise Master Xiuzhi, and happily said to him: "You're so smart!"

Master Xiuzhi blinked and smiled slightly, looking a little shy.

Seeing that we have already decided what to do next, the drug seller smiled and said: "It seems that you have already made a decision. Then I will leave first."

I responded and said, "Thank you very much for your help! Mr. Yaolang."

The medicine seller waved his hand and left here with the medicine box on his back.

But I exchanged glances with Master Xiuzhi, smiled and said to him: "Okay, let's see what else is in the house."

That's what I said, but when I saw the horror in the room, I almost threw up.

The bodies of the servants who were here before have disappeared, maybe they were beheaded by the drug dealer along with the ghosts, I don't know about this aspect.But no matter what, the house was still covered with dried blood everywhere.

There was a pungent smell of rust and decay in the air. Although the corpse was gone, there were still some fragmentary pieces of meat that seemed to have rotted or something else scattered on the ground.

Subconsciously, I wanted to cover Master Xiuzhi's eyes first, but he pulled my hand away almost stubbornly, and said with a pale face: "I'm fine, Xingzi."

No matter how precocious Young Master Xiuzhi was, it was his first time facing this kind of scene. His face and lips turned pale at this time, and he seemed frightened.

I was anxious and distressed, and wanted to push him out and find something useful by myself, but Master Xiuzhi just stood there stubbornly and refused to leave.

I sighed, and thought with a headache: Maybe it's because the relationship with Master Xiuzhi has become different. In the past, he would deliberately hide his likes and dislikes, and he would no longer deliberately do this to cater to others in silence.But being too stubborn is really worrying.

I knelt down, looked at him at the same level, and said, "Master Xiuzhi, why don't you leave here and stand outside for a while? I'll come out soon."

Master Xiuzhi stared at me expressionlessly, without speaking.

It seems to be a little dissatisfied?But I really didn't want him to face this kind of thing, I sighed helplessly and tried to coax him, but I saw Master Xiuzhi lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: "... Azhi."

"Huh?" I looked at him blankly.

Master Xiuzhi raised his head and looked at me. Although there was no expression on his face, he still showed a stubbornness. He said, "Don't call me 'Master Xiuzhi' anymore, call me 'Azhi'?"

As he said that, as if he wanted to explain something, Master Xiuzhi continued: "When you leave Tsushima's house and go outside, you keep calling me Master Xiuzhi, and if someone hears it, other people will think it's strange, right? ?”

This is indeed the truth.I looked at Master Xiuzhi—A Zhi, and called out tentatively: "Then... A Zhi?"

Azhi nodded, and responded calmly: "I'm here."

So he was dissatisfied with my title just now?I couldn't laugh or cry for a while, I wanted to say something but I couldn't say it, finally I could only sigh helplessly, and said seriously: "If you feel uncomfortable, you must say it, okay?"

Aji nodded and said, "I see."

I smiled, stretched out my little finger to him jokingly, and said, "Have you made an appointment?"

Azhi laughed out loud, nodded, stretched out his little finger to hook me, and said, "Well, we have made an appointment."

This kind of joke that only the two of us understood eased the stiff atmosphere we had just now, and I, who was almost thrown up by the scene in the room, also stabilized.After the hook was agreed upon, we split into two ways to find something that could be used.

Aji went to the side of his bedroom, and I went to the side where the servants gathered.

As I walked, I was shocked by the bloodstains everywhere I went. Even people who don’t know what happened here can definitely guess what tragic things happened here after seeing this scene.

In particular, Mei once showed me the memories of the servants before they were killed in the illusion.Obviously everyone was just living the same life as before, standing together and chatting relaxedly, but they were killed in the next second and became a member of the pile of corpses.

All the pain and happiness seem to be covered up here, and no one remembers them except a few close relatives.

I feel bad about it.Even for strangers, it is sad to hear that such a tragedy happened.Not to mention that I also spent some time with these people in the illusion.

No matter which one of them is a person who has struggled hard in this world but was ruthlessly thrown into the abyss of hell.

I was very lucky to get a second life and met an important existence that made me no longer confused. Not everyone is as lucky as me.They struggled, howled, wept, and then fell into the abyss completely.

I lowered my head and mourned for the people who had been together in the illusion for a while, then shook my head, shook off the sadness in my heart, and went to see if there was anything that we could use.

First of all, one of us is a weak woman with no strength to restrain a chicken, and the other is a child who is only eight years old, so we can't carry too many things, we must try to choose the most useful ones.

To be honest, even if you can afford it, you can't take too many things.After all, a woman and a child are walking on the road together, holding something that looks quite valuable in her hand, and she is simply saying loudly to the people around: "Look! We are two big fat sheep that are easy to kill! Quickly! Come and kill us!"

Hmm, if this is the case, I have to disguise myself with Aji later, and try to go to places where there are many people and women and children. Otherwise, not long after I walked out with Aji, the two of them will be trafficked to Kabukicho or Go to a place like Yoshihara, and the other one is trafficked to buy and sell organs or something else, then I really have no place to cry.

It is true that we are now in a time of confusion, so we must be a little more cautious.I think so.

I went to my "room" in the illusion.

The whole house of Tsushima's house was pulled into the illusion.And I, who was unconscious at the time, just stumbled into the illusion by mistake.What I want to mention here is that when I entered the illusion, I did stay at Tsushima's house.

If you look at it from the perspective of a third person who has not entered the illusion, it is probably me who is walking around in this room for no reason and talking to the air.During this period, I thought I went to school and the hospital, but in fact I was just wandering around the Tsushima family's house.

It's kind of scary to think about it that way.

The clothes on me were given to me by Mami-san, and they belonged to Tsushima’s house.Maybe it was still clean when it was handed over to me, and I change the clothes every day, but after staying in this bloody and smelly house for a long time, the clothes will inevitably be stained with the smell.

Wait a minute or boil some water and take a shower before leaving?Some things in Tsushima's house should still be usable.Although after washing, I have to take something to make myself dusty to avoid the attention of others, but I must wash my body first to avoid health problems.

I said sorry to Sayuri a few times in my heart, and then dug out some unremarkable clothes from her closet.Fortunately, the clothes in the closet were still clean and not stained by the blood outside.

I couldn't help sighing as I looked at the other clothes in the closet that didn't seem to have been worn much and were so beautiful that you couldn't take your eyes off them.

...Sayuri.

I shook my head and continued to look for something I could use.

In the end, I only found a few fragmented banknotes. Most of the more valuable things in Jin Dao's house were snatched by the thieves back then, and the ones that weren't snatched were also smashed by them.

What's more, neither Azhi nor I want to attract attention, and it is absolutely impossible to write ostentatious things.

After searching the things on my side, I went to Azhi.Aji has been waiting for me.Seeing me approaching, he said with certainty, "Sachiko didn't find anything, did he?"

I touched my nose, feeling a little embarrassed because I was directly pointed out, but before I could say anything, Azhi over there said a little complacently: "Because I want to secretly buy brushes and paper, so I I have always saved some private money."

I blinked and said in surprise, "Is that good? Isn't that the money you saved to buy brushes and paper?" I would feel a little sorry to use it like this.Because it is clear that Azhi likes painting very much, the money must have been carefully saved by him in the past.

As I said before, no matter how rich Master Tsushima is, he is not the kind of person who would let children spend money at will.Although the children's daily necessities and needs are excellent, the cost of painting is obviously not a necessities that the master will pay for.If he wants to paint, Azhi must carefully save money behind his father's back. I can understand the hard work during this period without thinking about it.

"Anyway, Sachiko, you will buy it for me in the future." Aji said indifferently.

I froze for a moment, not knowing whether I should be happy for his trust first or distressed by his subconsciously revealing the extravagance of money, and finally I smiled and said to him: "After all, Azhi is going to be a big brother." Painter's."

Azhi looked a little embarrassed and touched his nose—speaking of which, children will unconsciously imitate their parents' behavior, right?I remember that Aji didn't have the habit of touching his nose when he was embarrassed, so he was unconsciously imitating me just now?

I felt incredible for this discovery of mine, and at the same time couldn't help covering my mouth and laughing "poof".

...Always feel that even such a small thing makes people so happy.

I put together the money that Ajiro had saved one after another and the odds and ends I found out by myself, thinking that we should be able to survive to Fuyuki City if we save money together.When I get to Fuyuki City, I will go there to find a job.

Originally, I thought that it would be good to settle down directly in Fuyuki City.According to Mei's memory, Fuyuki City is a small seaside town located in the far east.The weather is always warm and the cherry blossoms near home are beautiful.But Mr. Yaolang’s reminder always made me feel a little uneasy. I thought about it and chose to believe Mr. Yaolang.

After all, Mr. Yaolang should be more professional in some mysterious matters, and it is better to listen to professionals more.

Try to persuade Mei's parents to leave there if necessary.It may be difficult, after all, from Mei's memory, her parents are very stubborn people, but you have to try.

I went to Azhi's room to get some clothes that he should need, and folded them neatly into a small package.

I boiled some water for Aji to take a shower while I tidied up my things.

Speaking of which, ghosts naturally don’t need to eat anything, but what are Azhi and I, who was also dragged into the illusion, eating?Glancing at the fields behind Tsushima's house, I fell into deep thought.

Eating things grown by ghosts in the illusion... always feels a little weird.

It's just that I'm a little sad.After the servants died, resentment shrouded the entire Tsushima family in an illusion, and they forgot about their own deaths during the day. They lived their daily lives as before and still took good care of a large field behind the Tsushima family.But this time the illusion disappeared, and Azhi and I were about to leave here. I'm afraid this field will be abandoned soon.

Thinking of this, I sighed, picked some things in the field to wash, and planned to eat them as dry food on the road.

After Azhi took a shower, I also went to boil hot water to take a shower. The room was still filled with the pungent smell of rust and decay. It’s just that after staying for a long time, I felt that my sense of smell had failed, so it wasn’t as bad as before. Kind of like vomiting.Habits are a terrible thing.

After Azhi finished taking a bath, I also went to boil hot water to take a bath.Because it is very clear that I may not be able to wash it for a period of time, I wash it extra vigorously and carefully.

When I came out after washing, I saw that Azhi was holding that old paintbrush that he cherished very much in his hand, and I told him: "Put it away carefully. There are many people outside after a while. If you lose it Not good."

Aji nodded seriously.

When I saw his paintbrush, I suddenly realized that the paintbrush I bought in the "shop" in the illusion was indeed fake, and I had to buy a new paintbrush later.

I secretly put this matter on important plans.

Aji said: "I just went out to have a look. As expected, there is no one living here." It was a chaotic time after the war. After the Tsushima family was massacred by thieves, it became a famous haunted house nearby. It is said that Ordinary people who approach here will go mad and die.The people who used to live in this neighborhood naturally all moved out.

"But let's be careful just in case." Azhi said calmly.

He began to show some calmness and sharpness in front of me that was not like ordinary children. Naturally, I would not despise him because of Azhi's age. I said, "Well, okay. Let's wipe our face with some dirt later." .”

It's too clean and eye-catching, but it's best to make it as dusty as possible.

"...Mud." Azhi showed a somewhat disgusted expression.Although it doesn't look obvious on the surface, Azhi is actually a person who cares about his image and appearance.

I coaxed him helplessly: "Be patient? I will take you to eat delicious food then."

"Sachiko, what's the matter with your tone of coaxing three or four-year-olds?" Aji, now eight years old, said helplessly.

Oops, I accidentally committed the most common mistake of being a parent: I accidentally told the child in a coaxing tone.Children at this age are in a situation where they want to grow up quickly and don't want to be treated as a child who doesn't understand anything.

I crossed my arms and said distressedly: "Maybe it's because you are too thin now, Azhi?" His current figure really doesn't look like an eight-year-old child.

In my heart, I couldn't help but put the "Azhi Weight Loss Plan" on the agenda.

After finishing things, Aji and I put on big coats, making the exposed skin and hair dusty.The two each had a small package, and they didn't pack anything else, only two changes of clothes each.My package contained some extra banknotes and dry food.The two then each hold a bottle of water.

We can't take the rest with us, that's all we can do.

When I was about to leave the house with Azhi, I took one last look at it, closed my eyes, and clasped my hands together.

Even though I know that there is no hell or heaven in this world, and that people are dead when they die, and there is nothing left, I still hold a glimmer of hope that they can gain peace and tranquility when they die.

At the same time, I also hope that I will never forget the respect and sorrow for innocent people who died in vain because of reasons such as "getting used to it", "seeing it too much", and "it has nothing to do with me".

When I opened my eyes, I found that Aji next to me also made the same movement as me. I was a little puzzled, but before I could say anything, Aji said to me first: "Sachiko is praying for everyone." Bar?"

I nodded, looking at the abandoned Tsushima house in a trance, thinking of the bustling scene in the illusion, I sighed and said: "No matter what, death is a sad thing. matter."

Obviously they are still struggling to survive.

Aji paused and tugged on my sleeve.

"Huh? What's the matter?" I suppressed the heavy heart in my heart, and faced Azhi with a smile.

Aji looked at me seriously and said, "If I die, will Sachiko feel sad for me?"

"Isn't this a matter of course?" I sighed, squatted down and held the child in my arms again, and said, "If Azhi dies, I will definitely not be able to stop crying."

Azhi laughed "Puff" and said jokingly, "After all, Sachiko is a crybaby."

I laughed helplessly and said, "That's right, I'm a crybaby after all."

"In order to prevent the crybaby Sachiko from crying, I will try my best to survive." Aji lowered his eyes and said as if he was a little sad but also a little happy.

"Then please." I said with a smile.

"If Sachiko dies, I will be very sad too." Aji suddenly whispered again.

I froze for a moment and thought: Many people who want to die feel sad and painful for the death of the people around them.

"That's it." I said, "Then I will try my best to survive." I held out my little finger to him, raised my head, and said, "Pull hook?"

"Pull the hook." Azhi happily stretched out his little finger to pull the hook with me.

"Let's go, then." With that said, I held out my hand to him.

Aji grabbed my hand, and the two of us left Tsushima's house together and walked into the distance.

Two people hold hands and walk together on the long, long road of life.