Be Dazai's mother

I lowered my eyes and looked at the paintbrush that was almost used up. After a moment of silence, I solemnly put the paintbrush back to its original place.

Maybe I caught a glimpse of something by accident.It is like the soft and immature love that a lonely person hides at the end, like the dew in the morning, like a sweet dream at noon, like the epiphyllum blooming under the moon, fragile and beautiful, but it will dissipate at any time.

I am distressed and disturbed that I have unwittingly peeped into the deepest things of other people's hearts.

If you accidentally shattered that glass-like heart, you would die a million times and it would not be enough to make amends.

In Mei's memory, this rebellious girl actually wanted to be a writer at one point.But when she wrote a novel full of her loneliness and deep thoughts with dreams and joy in her heart, her mother used it as a tool to show off and told all her relatives and friends, and let them read Mei's first draft.

Suffered a major blow at the stage before it started, and Mei's heart was indelibly hurt.

People always have another side that they don't want to show to their acquaintances, not to mention that Mei recorded all the darkness and pain about herself in that fledgling novel.

What the mother did was tantamount to tearing her scars open in front of everyone.

I began to worry about whether the little secret I had glimpsed would hurt Master Xiuzhi.But I have seen it all, and I will not turn back time, so I can only put the brush back, as if nothing happened.

After I cleaned Master Xiuzhi's room, I walked out with a broom and a rag, but I don't know what happened to me today. The moment I opened the door, I met someone who was looking here from a distance. Meihui.

Mei Hui is the girl who was teased by Master Xiu Zhi when we were in the room last time.She is the youngest maid among us. She is young and immature and cute. Most people are willing to treat her kindly.

I was originally one of them, but since the incident with Master Xiuzhi last time, Meihui seems to hate me because of this, and she and the other maids ignored me.I don't have a good temper either. Being treated like this, I can't smile at Mei Hui like I used to. Every time I see her, I just stay away.

Originally, I thought that this time, as always, the two hated each other, keeping far away from each other.But I didn't expect Meihui to stride towards me like an enraged swan when she saw me appearing here.

"Why did you appear here?!" Mei Hui pointed at me angrily and said.

No matter how good my personality is, I can't like Meihui who is always so hostile in the face of hostility.What's more, my personality is not good.

Generally speaking, I have a higher tolerance for younger girls. If the girl looks as cute as a cat, I can basically think about most things from the other party's perspective.

There is always a limit to patience, so my tone became bad, and I said coldly: "Isn't this obvious? I'm here to help Master Xiuzhi clean up the room."

Mei Hui opened her eyes wide, took a few steps back in disbelief, and said, "How is it possible? You have only been here for a few days, and Master Xiu Zhi likes you so much?"

She hid her face as if she couldn't bear the fact, and murmured: "Although you can go to his room to seek comfort, but Master Xiuzhi has always been unable to bear others touching his things, so he never cleans his room for others of."

Knowing this for the first time, I blinked blankly.After all, I just came here not long ago, and I don't know many things about Tsushima's family.And it was Miss Mami who asked me to come. As a hired maid, I didn't think too much about it, and went straight to Master Xiuzhi's room to clean.

Meihui probably thought that it was his own intention to ask me to clean Master Xiuzhi's room, maybe everyone in the Tsushima family knew that Master Xiuzhi didn't like someone to clean his room for him, right?But why did Mami-san let me come?

I was suddenly embarrassed and at a loss, and I didn't want to show my emotions, so I could only smile stiffly at Meihui.

Seeing my smile, Meihui didn't know what was going on in her heart, she gave me a vicious look, with tears in her eyes, and ran away angrily.

Watching Meihui's leaving back, I suddenly remembered what Hiroki-kun said in school.

——"That guy will definitely be popular with women when he grows up."

No need to grow up, the current young master Xiuzhi can make the maids at home shed tears for him.I rubbed my temples with a headache, and felt a subtle sense of relief in my heart.

But it's not a good thing to be too popular with women, I hope Master Xiuzhi won't be affected by it.

I thought with a headache.

What kind of evil did I encounter today——no, I did encounter an evil, but the time was last night, and it was Flying Man.

I thought about it expressionlessly, and then covered my mouth and laughed out loud with a "puchi", chilled by my own cold joke.

When I went outside and was about to ask Ms. Mami what happened just now, I found that Master Xiuzhi had returned, and the housekeeper was standing beside him, helping him tidy up his clothes.

Seeing me coming down the stairs, Master Xiuzhi smiled at me: "Xingzi."

At this time, Master Xiuzhi took off the hospital gown and wore a slightly loose blue kimono, revealing his bandaged body.

"Welcome back! Master Xiuzhi." I said with a smile.

Master Xiuzhi was taken aback for a moment, blinked in a daze, and said, "I'm back."

The butler glanced at me expressionlessly. I couldn't see the emotion in his eyes, but I belatedly thought that my actions just now were a little rude. I lowered my head nervously, not to meet the butler's eyes.

Master Xiuzhi suddenly ran over in small steps, came to me, and said, "Come on, Sachiko, didn't you say that you met Hiroki-kun at school? Tell me about him."

Having said that, Master Xiuzhi walked forward without looking back.I froze for a moment, didn't think much, and followed directly behind Master Xiu Zhi.

In fact, I was still in a state of bewilderment, and Master Xiuzhi didn't stop until he was separated from the housekeeper by a long distance, and he couldn't see him when he looked back.

He smiled and said, "Mr. Tsuruta is a very serious person, he will be angry when he sees you like this."

Master Xiuzhi's tone was very calm, which made me realize that he said those words just to help me.The delicacy and thoughtfulness in his temperament must have touched many people.

I thanked him: "Thank you, Master Xiuzhi." If he hadn't taken me away just now, I must have faced severe accusations from the housekeeper next.

Master Xiuzhi shook his head, saying it was nothing.

Seeing no one around, I was silent for a while, and wanted to ask what happened in the hospital that night, but I suddenly realized that the butler was too serious, but why not Master Xiuzhi?

No matter what the truth is, if Master Xiuzhi really wanted to hide me, no matter what he said, he wouldn't tell me.On the contrary, it is very likely that he will want to avoid me.

So I looked at him.Decided not to ask anything.

I don't know if it's my illusion, but I seem to see that Master Xiuzhi relaxes a little, and even the faint smile on his face becomes more real.

I thought for a while and said, "We can return to the topic you just said. Last time I met Hiroki-kun, I thought he was a nice boy. Are you friends?"

This time, Master Xiuzhi was silent. After a while, perhaps because the hope he had been emphasizing with him some time ago that he could express his likes and dislikes had an effect, Master Xiuzhi said in a dry voice: "I'm not very good at Get along with him."

His voice was hoarse like an animal trapped in a cage, with a kind of fear that he might not even be aware of.

Ah, because Hiroki-kun is an overly sensitive and straightforward child, for Master Shuji, getting along with this kind of person may be particularly difficult.

But speaking of it, according to Hiroki-kun, Master Shuji doesn't seem to have any friends at school.

I held my face in distress and thought, will this child be able to make friends if this continues?

Master Xiuzhi looked out of the window on one side, then looked at me with a smile, and said something that didn't fit his age in a childish and soft voice: "As long as you pay, you can play well with me I still have "friends"."

...how do I get the feeling that he's just thankful he doesn't hang out with the bad boys?

It seems that making friends is a long way to go.

I thought with a heavy heart.

In fact, I'm not the type who thinks that people can't live without friends.It's just that I think that if there are friends who can talk to each other without any scruples, Master Shuzhi might not be so lonely.

I sighed secretly.Take your time, don't rush, maybe this kid's friends are waiting for him in the future.

Master Xiuzhi looked at me thoughtfully, and asked, "That's why Xingzi wants me to have friends."

I said, "Wouldn't it be great if there was a friend who could really have a good time with you and even understand you to the deepest point?"

Master Xiuzhi smiled and said, "There won't be such a person."

"Every year on my birthday and New Year's Day, I would write down the phrase 'I hope Master Xiuzhi has a true friend who can make friends with me' as a wish." I said awkwardly.

"Then I hope that your wish can be heard by the heavens." Master Xiuzhi smiled nonchalantly.

The author has something to say: God: fulfill your wishes, and not one but two.

(At this time, two people who were in a certain place sneezed)

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This article is a little slow to heat up, and it will take Zai away in about 22 chapters, so don't worry.

The moment he took Zai away, it meant that Sachiko had to take on the responsibility of another young life.She can't even manage herself well, it's normal to hesitate.I want Sachiko to struggle for a while longer. After all, this is taking the child away instead of taking the toys away. She must think clearly about what she may face in the future. Awareness that I have taken on another life.

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Thanks for the time:

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: Gan Le Le Le Le Le Sauce oh one;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：柊39瓶；宗三夫人30瓶；末墨、喵了个咪、他是我心尖尖上的玫瑰20瓶；Kage10瓶；大风归来、隐梦约1瓶；

Thank you very much for the support of little angels (づ￣3￣)づ