Great writers and philosophers

How strange.

Osamu Dazai stared at the clear dust in the air.

He always thought that there would be such clear dust only under strong sunlight.

But isn't he in Lupine's bar now, sitting at the bar, staring blankly?

Can strong sunlight participate in such a scene?

He kind of can't stand this.

The voice of Ango Sakaguchi or Sakunosuke Oda faintly sounded in the ear, what were they talking about just now?

oh.correct.It is Ango Sakaguchi's increasingly busy work and the hairline that even the latest technology cannot save.

"Yesterday I tried to kill myself by drinking a large glass of detergent in the same way as in the book."

Not wanting to look at the dust in the air anymore, Osamu Dazai lay on the bar counter like a child, staring at the ice ball in the whiskey slowly, slowly melting.

"What happened?" Oda Sakunosuke asked.

This is a question that only Sakunosuke Oda can ask, followed by Ango Sakaguchi's complaints.

"If there are other results, are we drinking with ghosts, Odasaku???"

really.

Although guessing other people's thoughts is almost regarded as Dazai Osamu's daily work, he still feels a little bit of joy at this moment, and it seems a bit frivolous in his voice.

It's also possible...he deliberately distorted it into a frivolity that he can not be responsible for.

"Then I vomited for a long time. Unfortunately, the vomit is not green and yellow... But do you know? The world is indeed a puddle of vomit from the perspective of patients with detergent poisoning. Therefore, after my practice! It can basically prove that goldfish Yan is also a lover of suicide~Mr. Polaris buried so deep eggs~”

"No... I think it's just a coincidence..." Ango Sakaguchi pushed his round-rimmed glasses speechlessly, and then remembered that they also mentioned Polaris at the last gathering, but what was mentioned last time seemed a bit ironic.

According to Osamu Dazai, I don’t know why the famous writer Polaris who knows that there is such a person as Oda Sakunosuke in the world finds the other’s residence in person, and has been working hard to “encounter” with the other party with the tenacity of waiting for a rabbit. In order to get closer, he even eats several times. Under the super spicy curry that can be called a biochemical weapon, under Oda Sakunosuke's communication style that can choke people to death, he still keeps talking with a smile on his face - any bystander will think that this is some kind of vulgar idiot plot.

Dazai Bystander Oji "exposed" this "fact" with special interest at the time.

So, the poor literati who was targeted by the worst man in the port mafia, Osamu Dazai, blushed immediately, and stammered and said: "It's not a pursuit, can reading and being a scholar be considered a pursuit? I'm trying to contribute to the growth of the literary world... ..."

balabala...

Misunderstanding cleared up - then again, was it really a misunderstanding?Is it just Osamu Dazai's bad taste? ——Polaris did not continue to beat around the bush, and directly opened his mouth to poach corners. He didn't mind at all that Oda Sakunosuke was a member of the port mafia, and sincerely begged him to quit the mafia as soon as possible and pick up a pen and paper to start creating, saying that time does not wait for humanity Si Quanyong depends on his life, and the rest depends on his life and so on...

It can be said that the whole thing has a kind of oolong and nonsensical sense of humor from beginning to end.

The only downside is that the person involved is Sakunosuke Oda, otherwise they would probably be able to laugh more vigorously.

It's a pity that the person involved is Oda Sakunosuke, and it would be boring to laugh at such a thing without the cooperation of the person involved.It's like a popular saying these days - as long as I'm not embarrassed, everyone else is embarrassed.Good words of gold and jade.

"Speaking of which, during this time, Mr. Polaris has continued to look for you... Uh, did you advise you to abandon the dark and turn to the bright?" Ango Sakaguchi found a very correct word to describe it in the universal sense.

Osamu Dazai was staring at the slowly melting water on the outer layer of the ice hockey puck. He didn't pay attention to such tiny details, but actively helped Oda Sakunosuke answer this question.

"Yes, I searched for it twice again, once a week, very regularly, and once a note from her husband, saying that Mr. Polaris and his former friend reunited after a long absence, so he went abroad, and he would not come back for a while, called Odasaku, don't misunderstand that she gave up."

The bandaged boy who was resting his arm on his pillow laughed, and tapped the wall of the cup with his fingers, making a crisp but weak sound.

The young man’s voice seemed to have swam through a wine pool, “Seriously, Odasaku, why did Mr. Polaris know about your dream? She said that a senior in the literary world told her... so you still have such a great personality Background?! I think you should be the cadre!"

"Eh? Dazai, are you actually going to be a cadre?" Ango Sakaguchi caught the key word in surprise.

Osamu Dazai shook his head uninterestedly, without elaborating.

Oda Sakunosuke was actually a little troubled, but due to historical reasons, he rarely showed his expression. At this moment, he just looked at the liquid in the glass flatly, and his tone was the same as before, "It's just a chance meeting. It can only be said that there is a chance. If Speaking of my background in the literary world, maybe in the future I will still be promoted by Teacher Polaris."

(Hey?)

(what?)

The two friends looked at the brown-haired young man sitting in the middle at the same time.

Osamu Dazai's unbandaged eye was flickered by the light that could illuminate the dust in the air, and a lot of things that looked like clear dust flickered.

He watched his friend.

"Are you going to take Mr. Polaris's advice?"

This sentence, this question... This questioning method and its content, everything, everything, how much emotion does the teenager contain behind it?

Because he is too smart a boy, maybe no one can fully understand it.

No one knows if the boy's friend can interpret it.

"I can't do it now, but I will do it one day. Teacher Polaris should be able to understand."

Oda Sakunosuke said so.

Dazai then fell silent.

Ango Sakaguchi, who was sitting in the innermost place, did not speak.

Ango Sakaguchi never saw Polaris with his own eyes, and he only pieced together a vague portrait from two friends who took the truth and discarded the false.From his impression and one-sided understanding of Polaris, he doesn't feel that Polaris is a person who can "understand".

Because he is a popular star writer, and his latest work has won numerous awards and sold well, not to mention that he is a foreigner in Japan. As the saying goes, foreign monks are good at chanting scriptures. Whether it is from the perspective of public opinion or international relations, the official will not ignore Polaris. ask.

As the real identity of Ango Sakaguchi, who is an official undercover agent, and a staff member in Yokohama who is close to the water, of course, he also has a rough understanding of the other party's life in case of emergencies-the life of a social animal is so miserable.Coupled with the narration by Dazai Osamu and Oda Sakunosuke, the other party made a farce of "chasing and begging you to enter the literary world"...

Ango Sakaguchi didn't think Polaris could understand.

Words that can be understood don't appear in the first place.

It appears because of ignorance.

As Polaris wrote in his own book, it is precisely because You La doesn't love the maid that she can drag her to death.

If you love, you will not die for love.

Ango Sakaguchi especially, very much agrees with this. (1)

Oda Sakunosuke was a killer before he joined the port mafia. He was a killer when he was very young, even when he was classified as a child. Stop killing people, turn into a low-level member of the port mafia, earning wages to support the orphans he adopted.

Probably this is such a man who can be called "reformed" and "returned".

But the so-called "shore" is relative to the killer career full of darkness and blood.

For such a life, being a low-level member of a mafia organization, dealing with dead bodies, solving duds, etc. is very ordinary and daily. You can still eat your favorite curry three times a week, and you can communicate with your adopted children after work. Feelings, chatting with friends in a bar.

This kind of life is already very peaceful and precious to the previous life.

However, this kind of life, this kind of "shore", in the eyes of people in the daytime, is just a moldy and rotten reef in the waves, exuding a fishy and rotten smell.

Polaris is truly an admirable human being who dares to look over and over again at the battlefield, at the war - something she doesn't have to do, and shouldn't even do, for the sake of her mental health.

But she did it, so it is respectable, no one will deny that.

But can a medicine that cures plague cure a minor cold?

If Oda Sakunosuke expressed his various concerns and explained why his "shore" at that time could only be the port mafia instead of simply washing his hands and becoming an ordinary person, then Polaris, who had personally experienced the war, would understand ?

will she?

If it does, it won't appear rashly.

If it will, it will not appear persistently.

Maybe when she knows, she will still feel that all kinds of worries and last resorts are too trivial to be compared with the great literature that can improve human civilization and human spirit.

And because of this, I am disappointed in Oda Sakunosuke who did not give everything to literature.

won't it?

Ango Sakaguchi didn't feel that his guess was too harsh and worldly. It was more likely because it was worldly.

This is what Polaris himself has been emphasizing.

Writing a book is writing about people. No matter what she writes, she is finally writing about people.

How could it have been written if she wasn't one of the most common people rooted in human society?

"I'm just an ordinary person. Sometimes I don't want to be an ordinary person, but I'm still an ordinary person who is closely related to the world. If it weren't for this, I wouldn't write. Even if for a moment I feel that I have nothing to do with the world, I won’t even write anymore. Literature is paramount to me, but writing is all about me.”

Ango Sakaguchi has also read many books by Polaris. Perhaps the contents and themes and even the core are different, but those books are all works that are good at human feelings, and even the thoughts are just a kind of icing on the cake.

It is impossible for a person who can write works that are sensitive to human feelings not to be a "layman".

If the Polaris is tolerant and merciful to all things, like a god-like kindness, then Ango Sakaguchi will be surprised.

... Although he guessed like this, he is not without mental preparation that his guess may not match the actual situation.After all, he didn't know Polaris himself.

As a senior spy, Ango Sakaguchi knew very well that he should be cautious about any guesses by those who don't know.

The half-melted ice ball dangled in the honey-colored wine, making a clanging sound.

"Mr. Polaris gave me a special inscription."

In the lingering sound of jingle jingle, Osamu Dazai finally straightened up reluctantly, as if showing off, but he didn't speak like showing off.

Ango Sakaguchi came back to his senses, pushed his glasses subconsciously, and held the cup in both hands childishly, "What did she ask?"

"If you don't be Dazai, don't be anything." "

"Sounds familiar... Ah, is it a rephrasing of the phrase 'If you're not Caesar, don't be anything'?" The names of Julius Caesar and Borgia Caesar flashed through Ango Sakaguchi's mind.

"That's right, it was indeed like that at the time, but Mr. Polaris seemed to regret it afterwards. He looked like he wanted to turn back time when we met again. I'm so curious, what was she thinking? Why? The author is creating a work Did you always think about these things before? Don’t you feel bored? Surely you will? Otherwise, she wouldn’t have had so many serials.”

"The human heart..." Ango Sakaguchi sighed and shook his head, because of his own supernatural powers, he has a different experience in this matter than others, and those experiences that he would not express, "... ...what a mess."

"Hahahaha like it! A mess of people's hearts! Anwu, what you said is really good, why don't you just write an article, I'll be the first to buy it!"

"Forget it, I'm already so busy at work that even energy drinks can't save me, so I don't have time to spare."

"Men who often stay up late will not only go bald early, Ango."

"Dazai...although he is a mafia, but don't forget, you are not yet of age."

"Yeah, Dazai, children should stop saying these words."

Oda Sakunosuke, who was told by Ango Sakaguchi that he would not complain, gave a knowing blow.

Osamu Dazai was taken aback at first, and then they laughed together and rolled their eyes.

"Why raise a glass?"

"Um, vomit?"

"Come on, don't mean to belittle Mr. Polaris, but come on."

"I think so too, let's choose something else."

"That's right. Then... a mess of people's hearts!"

"Okay, come on—a mess of hearts."

"A mess of people's hearts."

A crisp clinking sound.

The two adults drank the cold wine in one gulp, and did not say "minors cannot drink" at this time.

Maybe it's a tacit understanding as a friend?

Although each has a different reason, neither of them would say that.

Or maybe...

They just don't want to hear the frivolous, playful answers from their friends.

"But I have committed murder and arson. Don't talk about alcohol, it's okay to drink detergent, right?"

The weak one, who hid their friend in the dark, pretended to be sick because they were in so much pain｜the answer...

Just mix it in ice cold whiskey and shut it down your throat.

As Mr. Polaris said: People have to live.

No matter what kind of person you are, you still have to live.