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In "You La's Martyrdom in Love", the protagonist "I", that is, "Luke", communicates with the veteran soldier "Goldfish Eye" in a particularly humorous way, which can remind people of "No. The black humor of "War Without War".

"...

I still couldn't help asking Jinyuyan what happened to his eyes.

"That's what happened." Under the blue and white street lamp, Jinyuyan lowered his head and lit a cigarette, shrugging his shoulders, "That woman looked down on those with no stars on their epaulets, and mixed up with others. Yes. It's just like me bed."

Jinyuyan said in the tone that grandma would tell you when you were a child: "After that day, my eyes started to ooze pus, green and yellow, and snot-like pus. You have to drop it every 5 minutes That clear eyedrops, or that thing turns everything you see into green and yellow vomit."

"I don't use it when I'm done with a small bottle, and a small bottle the size of a finger is worth a cigarette. Besides, it's okay to look at it, as long as you don't look up, the world is the same as I see it. Hey, Luke, look How about this? The world is God's vomit."

I'm not a devout believer, but facing this sentence, I can only pretend that I didn't hear it, and try my best to turn the topic around to You La.

... "

Luke was concerned about why Goldfish Eye came out in the middle of the night, but Goldfish Eye laughed at him, saying that there is no such thing as midnight for blind people.

Jinyuyan is a person who makes Luke feel that there is a sense of distance. His two eye sockets are also very scary in this situation, but it is Jinyuyan who first mentioned You La and gave You Lalu An evaluation I've never heard of.

""That kid is not reconciled to the fact that the world is against lonely people. He can't wait. Really, I knew it from the first time I saw him. Tian put on a dead face, resenting that the world is against him.But for me, Luke, seriously," Goldfish eyed a standard eye circle, curled his lips, "the world has the right to do this, even if it's puke. ""

"Goldeye grimaced, which made his face look even scarier.

To my dismay, I felt nauseous.

Why can people seamlessly switch between kindness and viciousness?

"On the battlefield, human laws, morality, interests, emotions, and other things you know do not exist. Even human beings are not human beings, but animals. We are happy when our kind dies. Not only are we happy, we Even commendation, singing and dancing, as if this is the most beautiful and honorable thing in the world."

"You La was killed by this incident. Do you understand boy? That child can't stand this, just like lily of the valley can't stand too much fertilizer... There are lily of the valley flowers everywhere in Luhai Town, with dewdrops falling on them ...He made a picture of me, I mean, after I was blind. It was a good picture, Eura was gifted, and I promise, that picture still hangs in my living room , my brother came last year, stood in front of the painting for a long time without moving his feet, and finally said to me: "Hey, this is really a good painting." I asked him: "Do you know what a good painting is?" He said: "I Don’t understand, but a painting isn’t a good painting if everyone who sees it doesn’t agree that it’s a good painting. And vice versa.’—I think he’s right.””

"Don't ask Luke, go back, go back to your big city, You La is dead, there is no such thing as death and resurrection, even if there is, You La is not born in a stable, the story ends here up. "

I was silent for a long time, and finally confessed: "I can't stand the story ending like this, without any results."

Jinyuyan sighed, patted my shoulder with his ham-like hands, and stood up on his knees.

The sky over the horizon has already brightened, the blue color of duck egg shells. When I was young, You La and I often watched wild ducks swimming around in groups.

"Look, Luke, you just pretend he got the plague, or the black plague, or whatever capitalized the latest epidemic, and then dies? Yeah, I know it's different, but it's not that different. Big Most people don't know the difference between the two, and when they see someone suffering, they just ask what's wrong with you."

"What if I tell you about my illness?"

"Then they will say that there is no such disease in the world, you are a slicker, moaning about nothing."

"Maybe I'm really moaning for nothing, you're moaning for nothing, and You La is also moaning for nothing, but You La is too involved in the drama, so that his body and soul are extremely split In the end, half go to heaven and half go to hell."

"Hey! You wouldn't say that if you'd been to a damn battlefield, Luke, moaning is a disease too, there are many soldiers who didn't die gloriously on the battlefield, but kept moaning and wailing, Finally he died of exhaustion."

"Are you saying that You La is also a soldier like that?"

"How do I know? Maybe his soul is fighting, maybe he's single-handedly fighting someone he hates, or maybe the moon is tempting him... maybe he just couldn't afford too much talent and ended up draining his life That's all. There's such a thing in art, isn't it?"

"...Yes, there is such a thing."

"That's right! Who can know the truth?"

"I would like to know."

"Just asking around like this, you can't know another person's life, how can you read his soul?"

"I don't know, but I know that if there is one person in this world who can do this, then that person is me."

I stood up and looked straight into the eyes of the goldfish, looking through his body to his soul.

"I don't accept that things end like this. I have to find an outcome. Whether it's good or bad, to be honest, the whole world owes me an outcome."

... "

Luke continued to search for all the people who had intersected with You La in the small town, and bit by bit pieced together the image of You La in the world.But, to his disappointment, no one understood better than he did.

Is it that Right La has changed insignificantly since their separation?

If this is the case, then why did he not expect You La to commit suicide?

In the process of searching for clues, Luke also met some people who were acquainted with the maid who died in love with You La. Among them, an elderly butler of a certain family commented on Luke in this way.

""I think you are not looking for the reason why she and You La died in love, you are looking for something else, maybe it is a believer looking for his holy place... Or maybe, you just want to use this method to kill your heart grief over the death of a friend. ""

Luke didn't think so.

"When a man dies, of course he needs a reason. Not even the craziest man dies without a reason. Sir, do you think there is any point in living alone?"

"Of course there is. If there is no meaning, God will not give life to people."

"But all life ends."

"This is God's gift. If there is no end to life, it means there is no end to suffering."

"If there is an end to life, then all meaning will disappear unless we find a meaning in life that not even death can take away."

"...Is this the meaning you want to find, what you want to find from You La's death? He died for love, and the last meaning of his life is love."

"No, it's impossible."

Luke thought of Luana at this time, and Eura had loved her madly, and even still loved her.

"If you really love, you won't die. Love doesn't make you die, you don't get love, you die, you don't love, you die. It's because you don't love that you die for love. You La doesn't love her, that's why she let her die with him."

"Perhaps in that young genius's mind, death is a kind of relief?" the housekeeper guessed.

Luke confirmed that he couldn't get more from the butler, and turned away without hesitation.

"No, that's not the case. You La doesn't have such arrogance. He will never be so arrogant."

In the process of walking away step by step, the butler's raised voice came from behind, as if a bolt of lightning had struck Luke.

"You know what Luke? You look exactly like Yula! You and he are denying something we take for granted, but it doesn't make you any wiser, you know? Luke, listen to me Well, I will beg your boss to get your job back, after all, you will still live in this world that You La has denied! — People have to live!"

Fortunately, the electric shock is only a momentary matter.

Luke continued his investigation, pouring all his life into it, as if this was his chosen meaning that could not be taken away by death.

The textual research on You La's death seems to be able to quell the hunger in his soul that can only be quelled by memories.

He seems to be constantly going back in time, walking into reincarnation step by step, and creating reincarnation.

If you don't experience reincarnation, how can you go beyond reincarnation?

Heaven can only be reached through hell, for which human beings have built countless hells on earth.

However, they get the distinction between sufficient and necessary conditions wrong.

Heaven can only be reached through hell.However, no god has made a covenant with humans: as long as you go through hell, you will definitely reach heaven.

Therefore, all those who appear in hell end up staying in hell.

At the end of the story, the penultimate scene, Luke is once again standing in Zola's bedroom, gazing out at the full hell.

He wondered if Zola had created so many hells because he was trying to describe heaven.

But he knew that it was impossible for him to know about it, even if he asked everyone about it, he couldn't know about it.

The only one who knew about it has been left in hell.

And from ancient times to the present, there has never been a person who stayed in hell to return to the world.

The distance between hell and the world is much longer than the distance between hell and heaven.

However, other than this question, Luke thinks that his research has been fully completed, and he can put a full stop without hesitation.

The sense of satisfaction and accomplishment after completing one thing contains complex feelings of loss and indescribable emotion. Driven by these feelings, Luke wanders to the valley where he and the young boy Youla often go.

He wanted to paint a picture there, and that picture was the full stop.