I'm in Delingha tonight

"Nian Nian, Happy New Year."

After finishing speaking, Xi Shan seemed embarrassed. He pinched Chi Nian's shoulder to make people face the stage, hugged Chi Nian from behind, and leaned his chin on Chi Nian's shoulder intimately.

Chi Nian didn't fully recover until the band finished singing the New Year's Eve song.

The coats were taken off when they entered the door and stored in the bag storage of the livehouse. Both of them were wearing simple loose woolen sweaters, which they also bought together.Xi Shan didn't tie his hair up that day, and cut it short. When he hugged him, his broken hair brushed Chi Nian's ears, and his heart felt itchy with his small movements.

What lyrics were sung later, Chi Nian didn't hear at all, only the phrase "Take me away" echoed in his ears.

He grabbed Xi Shan's hand clasped around his waist, felt the temperature of Xi Shan's raised fingers touching him, and thought sourly and sweetly in his heart: Are we counted together?

In the past, Chi Nian paid great attention to the sense of ritual in everything.Confessions must look like confessions, breakups must be done step by step, delete contact information if you don't love, and the person you are talking to must say "like" to him every day.

But after the actual kissing and hugging happened between him and Xi Shan, Chi Nian suddenly felt that it didn't matter whether he had that sentence or not.For Xi Shan, it may be rare to start expressing all his feelings. Compared with the promise, Chi Nian thinks that Xi Shan likes him, and this fact makes him very satisfied.

Although I was still a little disappointed when I didn't hear Xi Shan say "I like it", Xi Shan kissed him very well.

Xi Shan's kiss was not at all as cold as when he was taciturn, his lips were soft, his breath was hot, and when the tip of his tongue touched his lips slightly, there was desire but not too offensive, which made him understand to the greatest extent The meaning of Xi Shan.

Thinking of this, Chi Nian turned his head and pressed the tip of his nose to Xi Shan's profile.

Xi Shan made a soft nasal sound: "Huh?"

"hungry."

Both of Xi Shan's hands were held by Chi Nian and he couldn't break free, so he rubbed his lips against the other's earlobe again: "When it's over, ask Teacher Tao if the two of them are going to eat barbecue."

"Where to eat?"

"Don't you want to eat Jiucun, can you eat today?"

"If they don't go, you can take me."

"it is good--"

The band's song didn't end, but Chi Nian and Xi Shan stood in a small corner on the edge of the crowd, the lights almost couldn't see them, and half of their bodies were hidden in the darkness.They ignored the music, ignored others, talked in secret whispers, and knew each other well.

They are a pair of lovers who like each other, this New Year gift is precious enough.

The last song ended, all the ceiling lights of the livehouse were turned on, and the radio politely wished everyone a happy new year.The crowd gradually dispersed, Xi Shan stopped hugging him, but still held hands.

Livehouse seemed to become a surging river, the tide receded, and they revealed their love for each other hidden under the waves, and they didn't intend to hide it anymore.

Chi Nian squeezed Xi Shan, and the other party looked forward, but lightly touched the lines on his fingertips.

They went out late and did not see Zhuo Pei'an and Tao Zi at the door.

"I'll send Xiaopei a message." Chi Nian said, clapping his phone - because there were so many people, there was no signal for a long time, so he took two steps forward.

At the end of the show, there were too many people who were not satisfied. If you meet someone who is right for you, you may be more courageous and strike up a conversation directly.Just as Chi Nian found the signal, he pulled out Zhuo Pei'an's chat box and planned to call her directly, when a hearty female voice approached not far away: "Handsome guy, I saw you just now when you entered the venue!"

Chi Nian turned his head, and there were two fashionable girls in front of Xi Shan, and he said to him without any shyness: "We are very destined, can we get to know each other?"

His "what the hell" reached his throat, but Zhuo Pei'an's phone suddenly connected: "Hello, Niannian?"

"Oh, where are you? . . . "

He tried his best to communicate with Zhuo Pei'an, but his mind was already on Xi Shan and those two strange girls, his ears were pricked up——

"This is my WeChat, handsome guy, just scan it if you want?"

The signal was too bad, Zhuo Pei'an spoke intermittently, and Chi Nian frowned, trying to piece together the location information from Dunka's words, when someone pulled his arm suddenly.

Xi Shan put his arms around Chi Nian's shoulders with one hand—not a good buddy's shoulder-to-shoulder, five-finger protection, cautious posture—and said apologetically to the two girls, "I'm sorry."

The girls probably understood, apologized repeatedly, then pushed and shoved each other, and walked away laughing without frustration.

"...We are at the intersection." Zhuo Pei'an's voice finally returned to normal on the phone, "Here you can see that... the double curtain wall of the World Financial Center. Waiting for you to come over."

Chi Nian said yes, but he didn't let go of the hand around his shoulder from the beginning to the end.

After finishing the call, he briefly explained the situation to Xi Shan.Xi Shan nodded understandingly: "Then let's go find them and have supper together?"

Having only had close contact just now, Chi Nian's possessiveness reached an unprecedented peak, and he even began to resist eating supper with Zhuo Pei'an and Tao Zi.

He wants to stay in a place where only Xi Shan and himself are alone. The two of them hug each other and occasionally kiss. ", spend the most special New Year's Day quietly.

But reason let Chi Nian know that this is not good, he said: "Okay."

Xi Shan hesitated to speak, pulled Chi Nian's hand, and finally couldn't hold back: "If you don't want to..."

The sharp ringtone of the mobile phone interrupted him.

Xi Shan frowned. The call came at an inappropriate time. He made up his mind to take a look at it and hang up. He continued to comfort Chi Nian and if he didn't want to go, the two of them could take a taxi directly.

But the word "Bai Xiaowan" was displayed on the screen brightly, and he couldn't ignore it.

Bai Xiaowan seldom called him, let alone contact him late at night, unless it was an emergency.This abnormal phone call made Xi Shan's right eyelid twitch violently, and an ominous premonition filled his heart.

What if Xi Dongyang died?

Xi Dongyang would respond to him when he was in the right mood, and it was not impossible for this kind of thing to happen.Cancer is at an advanced stage. To put it bluntly, it depends on luck. Maybe one day there will be a sudden convulsion and the person will be gone.

Xi Shan thought that his complexion might be very bad, otherwise how could Chi Nian ask him worriedly what happened.He said sorry in a low voice, turned around, and answered Bai Xiaowan's call.

After her opening remarks, Xi Shan's heartbeat paused for half a second, then returned to its normal frequency.

Not Xi Dongyang, the damned person is not dead.

Xi Shan couldn't say whether he was happy or unhappy.

"... I know, I will buy the tickets as soon as possible." Xi Shan said solemnly.

He took a step with great difficulty, and before he could speak clearly with Chi Nian, he was forced to interrupt the charming relationship between the two.Xi Shan took a deep breath, turned to Chi Nian, and tried to keep calm.

"Uncle is critically ill, and my mother is going back to Delingha."

After Xi Shan finished speaking, he felt that Chi Nian's hand, which he was holding, flinched hard.

Chi Nian's ability to empathize is too strong, as if it is his own relatives who are critically ill.Those beautiful eyes that were filled with anticipation before blinked, and almost cried: "Then...then you..."

"I have to go back with me. If something really happens..." Xi Shan choked up, he was reluctant to be separated from Chi Nian now, but these things happened too suddenly, "My mother didn't say anything on the phone. Clear, just buy a plane ticket quickly. Send a message to my cousin later, and hope things won't be too bad."

Something happened, what could happen?

The worst thing is life and death.

But it turns out that only life and death can make years of grudges disappear for a short time.

"Okay." Chi Nian held Xi Shan's hand and squeezed it, "You'd better get busy first, earlier...we'll talk about anything when we come back, anyway, I won't leave, okay?"

He was so magnanimous that Xi Shan's heart felt empty for a while, and his throat felt dry and throbbing.

In fact, he wanted to stay with Chi Nian, but he couldn't.

I got in touch with my cousin later, and they couldn't sleep all night.

Xi Shan heard his aunt's suppressed crying from the other end of the phone, and realized that the matter was really serious—after his uncle's fall, although there were no serious sequelae in his bones, he suffered from high blood pressure and had frequent complications. Shortly after entering the hospital with palpitations, he was put on the sign of "critically ill", and his life could be in danger at any time.

On the night of the 31st, another rescue was performed. The family members almost fell into despair due to the unsteady heart rate within several hours. The elderly parents asked their cousin to contact Bai Xiaowan to inform them of the incident.

Bai Xiaowan immediately decided to go back to Delingha.

The New Year's Eve performance was still hot, but other planned activities were forced to be cancelled. Xi Shan went back to his home on Xinhua Road overnight. He took two clothes with him and bought the fastest flight to Xining.

Because there are not many flights between the two cities, we can only buy the earliest flight at 08:30.After everything was done, Xi Shan didn't have the idea to continue the previous topic. He pressed the phone anxiously, and was unable to calm down as if he was swallowed by the heavy anxiety from before. He obviously didn't take it very seriously, but he still felt scared.

Coke fell asleep, and Sprite lay on his lap. The body temperature of the little animal and the occasional movement of Chi Nian passing by the living room finally gave Xi Shan some comfort.

Death, Xi Shan thought of these two words, remembered the last time they met in the hospital, and was wrapped in a sense of powerlessness.

If they don't go back in time this time...

The polite words to my uncle that time, "You take good care of your illness and come to Chongqing next time" became their last communication.He remembered the poplar trees growing against the wind outside the hospital, and his cousin patted him on the shoulder to make him feel relieved.

His thoughts became more and more chaotic, Xi Shan felt the sofa on the right collapse slightly, and Chi Nian sat beside him, with a worried expression on his face, as if he didn't know how to comfort him, he just looked at him.

"Go to sleep." Xi Shan tried not to panic, "I'm just... I'm afraid of missing the plane."

"It's January 1st now." Chi Nian said, "Have you made your New Year's resolution yet?"

Xi Shan remained silent.

"I originally," Chi Nian said briskly, "when I walked out of that door, I was still thinking about saying the first sentence 'Happy New Year' to you, but I didn't expect to be interrupted, and I haven't said it yet. "

Xi Shan was teased by him and smiled, "It's fine."

"But surely you can't sleep?"

"Hmm..." Xi Shan straightened his words and said, "Actually, I know that my mother cherishes this trip back to Delingha. Because grandpa and grandma have never let go in so many years, maybe I have to forgive her for leaving without saying goodbye."

"now?"

"Actually, they obviously missed her very much in their hearts, and they kept saying that you are no longer part of our family. In fact, I was thrown to Delingha by my parents at the time, and they didn't ignore me-I didn't until this year... Oh, it's been last year, and we all feel that we are not relatives, but indeed, they will still think of me."

"Uncle may not be good at expressing, but he has a good heart, right?"

"Ah."

"Listen to me, the life of a person with a good heart will be very good, and the danger will be saved 100%."

Xi Shan couldn't help laughing: "Okay."

The two fell silent at the same time.

He didn't know what Chi Nian was thinking in such a short period of time, but Xi Shan had a strong desire to confide.He swallowed his hatred for Xi Dongyang and the complaint of "Why are you still alive", and only remembered the golden city.

When they graduated from high school, Bai Xiaowan and Xi Dongyang had a frightening quarrel over trivial matters, and no one cared about Xi Shan who had just entered college.It happened that my uncle contacted Bai Xiaowan at that time and suggested that Xi Shan should go back to Delingha to live for a while, the reason being "I have to come and see".

On the first day of the new year, Xi Shan will go back again, the future is uncertain, and he does not know that the future will be a happy family that has been lost and found again, the forgiveness that has not been seen for many years, the relatives who let go of their grudges...

Still the mountains are high and the waters are far away, a farewell.

No matter what, he is ready to face it, and he is no longer the cowardly self he was back then.

Xi Shan patted Chi Nian's arm and said again, "Go to sleep."

"I'll be with you." Chi Nian arched into his arms, hugged him like a real lover, put his ear to his chest to listen to his heartbeat, "Brother Xi, Happy New Year."

"Ah."

"I made a New Year's resolution." Chi Nian closed his eyes and hugged him, murmured, "I hope everything goes well for me and the person I like this year...so you will be fine."