I'm in Delingha tonight

It was still the terrace, and Lian Shiyu took over his class.

The wind in early autumn has become bitter, and winter is coming, and the imperceptible chill in the air diffuses into the cuffs.The leaves of the camphor tree are withered, although they are still green, they are not as vibrant as in the other three seasons.

Chi Nian sat on the wicker chair, rubbing his cold palms to try to warm himself up.

"Why are you here?" He said, his tone a little rushed.

Xi Shan changed his attitude towards Chi Nian yesterday, and quietly put the packing box on the small table.It was still warm to the touch, and a tangy aroma came out when he opened the lid.

Chi Nian had something on his mind, he only ate a few casual bites of the meal that everyone ordered together at noon and said he was full.Seeing the culprit who made him lose his appetite now, even though the other party hadn't started to explain, Chi Nian's anger had already subsided by half, and when he smelled the fragrance again, he was immediately hungry, and desperately covered his stomach to prevent him from screaming.

"What is this?" Chi Nian said, sneaking a glance at the packing box from the corner of his eye.

"Roast chicken." Xi Shan broke off the disposable chopsticks and handed them to him.

A very small take-out box, although the roast chicken is freshly made, but the golden color of the freshly baked chicken is no longer the time it is taken from the restaurant to the studio.Looking at it still looks very appetizing, cut into small pieces, there is no seasoning on the surface, the gravy oozes from the gap, and the outer puff pastry is slightly soft, you can imagine the taste of crispy outside and tender inside.

There is also a mysterious burnt aroma unique to roast chicken.

Chi Nian unconsciously moved his throat, making the swallowing movement less obvious.He glared at Xi Shan, who held up his chopsticks to send him forward, and Chi Nian snatched him away.

"I don't know how much you ate for lunch..."

Before he finished speaking, Chi Nian had already lowered his head and picked up a piece of chicken leg, proving with practical actions that his stomach could hold it.

The grilled chicken is just right, the bones and flesh are separated, and it falls off when you tear it lightly. The skin is still a little crispy, warm, and tastes better than expected packaged food.The tenderness of the meat, the crispness of the skin and the slight taste of salt are mixed together, satisfying the appetite, Chi Nian almost completely forgave Xi Shan.

"Is it delicious?" Xi Shan asked, standing in front of him like a primary school student who has made a mistake.

When Chi Nian raised his eyes, he deliberately pretended to be reserved: "It's not bad, it's relatively average."

Xi Shan hesitated to speak, and waited for him to eat another piece before saying, "I wanted to take you to eat here at noon yesterday. The cold tofu is also very special, but..."

"Who is to blame?!" Chi Nian almost couldn't hold back himself.

Xi Shan pinched the tip of his nose: "Well... blame me."

The other party may not know that Chi Nian is a bit of a pushy character. If Xi Shan treats him indifferently, he will spontaneously please him.Now that Xi Shan was so vocal and apologetic, Chi Nian couldn't bear it immediately, and wanted to pour out all the bitterness of being alone yesterday, and let Xi Shan know how uncomfortable he was.

As a result, Xi Shan admitted his mistake so simply.

Chi Nian turned off the fire directly.

Unable to vent his anger, Chi Nian had no choice but to bury his head in eating the roast chicken, leaving Xi Shan feeling depressed.He ate two mouthfuls of meat, drank a mouthful of water, and finished half a box by himself before the stage ended.

Xi Shan sat next to him.

"Next time..." He considered his words and invited Chi Nian, "Let's go to the restaurant to eat."

With a gentle and patient tone, Ke Nian's mouth deflated, and he was so wronged that he almost cried.

Xi Shan didn't know what to do.

Yesterday in Nanshan, when he left in a fit of anger, he was indeed dazzled, and when he recovered, he was already on his way down the mountain.He seemed to have returned to the late spring of four years ago. After discovering the secret, he rushed out, sitting in the back seat of a taxi, his mind was full of entanglement between "teacher and student".

There are many sharp turns on the road in Nanshan, and the taxi driver drives wildly. Xi Shan grabs the door handle as if he wants to escape at any time.

After calming down, his first thought was: Fortunately, he didn't drive by himself today.Otherwise, in this state, it is difficult to guarantee that he will hit another electric pole.

There is nowhere to go, there is Zhu Yiming in the hot pot restaurant, and Lanshan can't help because his legs are not good now.Xi Shan suddenly realized that he was too used to waiting for Chi Nian at two o'clock and one line, and now he lost his original freedom, and he enjoyed it.

That Xi Shan who said "I don't need anyone to accompany me" a few years ago, probably despises himself at this time, right?

In the end, he found Zhu Yiming, and he hadn't had lunch when he parted with Chi Nian, and he tried to forget his slip of the tongue with his busyness the next day.

Countless times I thought about whether to send a message to Chi Nian to apologize, but the image of the other party talking to the student couldn't get rid of it in my mind, making Xi Shan feel stuck in his throat all the time.

Zhu Yiming didn't know that he had a conflict with Chi Nian, so he jokingly asked at dinner, "Should I call Xiaochi and ask him to come with me?"

"He has something to do." Xi Shan was afraid that Zhu Yiming would really call, so he added, "Don't bother him."

"Oh—so you were abandoned." Zhu Yiming nodded understandingly, and patted him on the shoulder carelessly, "It's okay, buddy takes you in. Do you want to go drinking together tonight?"

How could Xi Shan be in the mood to drink: "Go by yourself."

Zhu Yiming was extremely nervous in this sensitive place, he didn't see that his friend was depressed at all, and went to have fun at night on his own.Xi Shan had no one to accompany him, so he went around Lanshan again, and finally got awkward, and didn't receive a message from Chi Nian, so he chose to go back to his mother's house in Shiziping.

Bai Xiaowan knew that the house he lived in had been sold, but their mother and son were not good at expressing concern. Seeing Xi Shan's sudden visit, she was devastated, and Bai Xiaowan finally didn't ask anything.

After graduating from university, Xi Shan seldom lived with Bai Xiaowan.

When I came back now, I found that his room had been kept the same as when he was studying.Because I moved and threw a lot of things at that time, the not-so-big room was extremely empty, with a bed in the middle, not to mention the table, even the wardrobe was empty.

He had gone so decisively at that time that he never thought he would spend the night again under these conditions.

When people see him now, they always subconsciously think that he is gentle and sunny from beginning to end, saying that he is good, saying that he deserves a lot of kindness, and praising him to the sky.No matter how much Xi Shan heard, he also knew that it was not the case.

He only met Zhu Yiming and Qi Xing in high school, and before that, he didn't have a single "old classmate" or "old friend" who remained until now.It's not because the classmates get along badly, but because his understanding of "love" is too superficial, and he can't devote himself to it-he is spoiled by the affection of his parents.

Xi Shan is extreme, withdrawn, loves to be stubborn, and can't rub the sand in his eyes.

That's why when I ran into that incident, my mentality completely collapsed.

Xi Shan had a nightmare all night in the previous bed.

Woke up at five o'clock in the morning, and Xi Shan left before his mother got up.Without a car, and it's not easy to take a taxi in the morning, Xi Shan walked to the bus station, preparing to travel all the way from Jiangbei back to Yuzhong...to avoid Chi Nian's working hours.

He was a little afraid of seeing Chi Nian at this time, so he was empty-handed, and he couldn't say "I'm sorry" abruptly.

The green light of the bus stop sign is shining, and the fog is thick.It was the first time that Xi Shan found out that there were already many people in Chongqing early in the morning. He was crowded into the car, so he randomly found a seat in the middle of the car, bumped all the way, changed trains, and wasted time in a leisurely manner.

Getting off at the station, the sun poured out from the depths of the fog.

Xi Shan knew exactly when Chi Nian went to work, but when he opened the door, he was still a little apprehensive.

Seeing that no one was at home, he lightly changed his shoes.On the sofa, Xuebi stood and yelled at him loudly. Xi Shan wanted to touch it, but Xuebi dodged it, only to find that the food bowl was empty.

Didn't Chi Nian go home?How else would you forget to feed the dog?

Where else could he go?

The words "move away overnight" appeared in his mind inappropriately. Xi Shan was frightened by his own thoughts. He didn't care about taking care of Sprite first, and didn't care whether his left toe would be injured again. He strode into the pool The second bedroom of mindfulness——

The bed was a mess, and the sweater I wore yesterday was thrown on the stool, as if I could see Chi Nian rushing out the door after getting up late in the morning.

Xi Shan breathed a sigh of relief.

It's fine if you don't move away.

He added dog food to Sprite, and went on a rollercoaster ride. He took out his phone, and when he clicked on Chi Nian's chat box, Xi Shan wanted to ask "How are you today?" .He could feel that Chi Nian was unhappy, and words of flattery were of little use.

Chi Nian is not an unreasonable person, and there is no news until now, so he should be really angry.

Thinking about buying something for him in the afternoon, Xi Shan went into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator to take two vitamin B tablets—bitter lozenges could help him calm down as soon as possible, which was an unexpected effect.

The previously empty refrigerator was filled with all kinds of vegetables at some point, sorted into categories and packed in fresh-keeping bags. The top layer was filled with drinks and unfinished desserts, and his vitamins were squeezed in the corner.Against the backdrop of the warm yellow lights, even the air-conditioning on the face was not so cold.

Xi Shan raised his hand and touched the package of vegetables on the outermost layer, it was soft and moist.

it is true.

Vegetables and food in the refrigerator, messy beds and clothes in the second bedroom, more and more toys in the Sprite kennel, various snacks and candies next to the TV cabinet...

On the balcony, his clothes were hung with Chi Nian's.

Someone accompanied him, infiltrating into his lonely and desolate world, leaving a series of lovely footprints.

Xi Shan put the vitamin bottle back.

The memories came to an end, and the person in front of him was like a stray kitten, reaching out to him from the shell that he once lived on.Chi Nian suffered a lot of grievances because of his endless unreasonable anger yesterday, with disappointment written all over his face.

If it wasn't for the conflict, Xi Shan would really like to pat his head.

"Why, it's so delicious that you're going to cry?" Xi Shan said, twisting his body and resting his chin to look at Chi Nian.

The corners of his eyes were red, and the tip of his nose was also a little red. After hearing what he said, Chi Nian sniffed his nose unconvinced. He stopped eating the remaining half of the roast chicken, and put down his chopsticks: "...I can't finish it."

"Give it to your colleagues?" Xi Shan suggested, "Anyway, it's chopped."

"Then don't."

The possessiveness was quite strong, Xi Shan laughed, and felt that Chi Nian seemed to be less hostile to him.

He thought about it for a moment, and decided not to mention that matter. When he was about to say something, he looked at Chi Nian and found a dark color on the tip of his reddish nose, the size of a sesame seed.

Thinking that the condiments were stuck there, Xi Shan stretched out his hand, and brushed the tip of Chi Nian's nose within a short distance without thinking much.But the dark "sesame grains" were still there, he frowned, his heart was still stubborn, he couldn't see Chi Nian's face that was getting hotter and hotter, and he rubbed against the tip of the other's nose with more force.

"Hey!" Chi Nian called to stop in a low voice, "It's almost done!"

"Oh..." Xi Shan finally came to his senses, "You have a mole here, I thought it was something."

Chi Nian was so ashamed that he was about to smoke, pressed it there, and said dejectedly: "I want to light it up."

"Hey?"

"Looking like a dirty thing here, it doesn't look good."

I didn't think so before, but only now did I realize that Chi Nian was still a child who cared about his appearance, his words revealed a childishness, and even after graduating from university, he was still protected in the ivory tower with the purest innocence.

Xi Shan's eyes flicked past the mole, erratically: "It's...not bad, it's very characteristic."

He didn't say he liked Chi Nian's nose mole very much, even though he thought so in his heart.This sentence seems to have pressed the switch between them again. In the air, the humid winter in the south combined with the fragrance of plants and the slightly dull atmosphere in the studio, stirring up a thick ambiguity that cannot be dispelled.

Chi Nian blushed, said "Oh", and then didn't mention the mole again.

"Yesterday..." Seeing that he is better now, Xi Shan carefully apologized, "On Nanshan, I said something wrong, so I shouldn't be so angry at you, I'm sorry."

"What do you mean by 'expressing your anger'?"

Xi Shan knew exactly what kind of answer Chi Nian should get for his doubts, he opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.His scars are hidden in the deepest part, burying his absurd and terrible life, if you want to explain it, you will be affected by it, and the whole body is bloody, Xi Shan thinks it has not fully healed.

After he confessed everything, would Chi Nian still treat him well?

Will you still like him?

"I'll tell you later." After Xi Shan finished speaking, he added a deadline as if to promise, "Soon, next spring at the latest."

Chi Nian complained angrily, "Why does it have to be spring?"

"Everything grows in spring."

Looking at Chi Nian, Xi Shan quietly added the second half of the sentence in his heart: suitable for walking in the direction of love.